How to relieve worries

The days after the college entrance examination were boring and fast, and soon the summer vacation came, Ren Gushi still hadn't reconciled with Ren Jing, and was still living at Chen Shizhou's house.

Chen Shizhou obviously felt that since living together for almost half a month last time, Ren Gu Shi was very comfortable living with him this time, and of course, he also enjoyed it very much.After all, when Ren Gu Zhi was in a bad mood occasionally, he would take the initiative to sleep on his bed together.

Simply wished for.

But he can't keep ignoring the cold war between mother and son. He often tells Ren Jing about Ren Guzhi's recent situation.

In the end Ren Jing couldn't bear it any longer and asked Chen Shizhou out.

The weather was not very good that day, it was gloomy, when Chen Shizhou took the bag, he found an umbrella stuffed inside, smiled, and went out happily.

When Chen Shizhou arrived, Ren Jing had already ordered a cup of milk tea, and when she saw him coming, she waved.

Chen Shizhou sat down, and Ren Jing said, "Order a hot drink."

Chen Shouzhou nodded, ordered a cup of coffee, and put the bag aside: "Teacher, please come out."

Ren Jing waved her hand: "I'm the one who troubled you to look at Gu Shi all the time. Are you still used to it? If it troubles you, just tell me. Don't be embarrassed to say so."

The waiter put down the coffee, and Chen Shizhou moved the cup slightly: "It's okay, he's getting used to living here, and it's fine. It's much more convenient for me to teach him. This vacation is very fulfilling."

Ren Jing nodded: "With you here, I feel relieved. In fact, this time, it just happens to be you as a bridge, otherwise he would have nowhere to go. He still has to go home and face the problem."

"Although I don't know what conflict between the teacher and Gu Shi," Chen Shuizhou looked at Ren Jing's expression, "But I always feel that Gu Shi's mood has not improved, and the teacher must feel uncomfortable. You are..." Why bother?

After hearing Chen Shizhou's unfinished words, Ren Jing smiled wryly, but her expression showed no sign of being angry at being involved in family affairs, and then she said a sentence without a preface: "I have always thought that I owe too much to Gu Zhi. gone."

Chen Shuizhou felt that she seemed to have something to say, so he didn't say anything.Ren Jing seemed to have a lot of things that she couldn't confide in, and she didn't say it for a long time, and she was bored in her heart for a long time, turning into a heavy stone.

"I remember I mentioned it to you before. When Gu Shi was six years old, I separated from his father. When you first entered college, he was still a little one. Do you remember?"

Seeing Chen Shizhou nodded, Ren Jing smiled and continued: "I went abroad for two years and Gu Shi was raised by his father. When I came back, Gu Shi was more than 11 years old. Did you bring him back? How long before I divorced his father."

Chen Shizhou probably knew what Ren Jing said. After all, he has been both a teacher and a friend for so many years. Chen Shizhou often communicated with Ren Jing about many life problems, and Ren Jing never regarded him as an outsider.He nodded, thinking that there was something wrong with Ren Gu Shi's father.

Sure enough, Ren Jing continued: "Actually, I rarely talk to others about this, but I have known Gu for several years, and I am afraid that you are the only one who is really willing to get close to others."

Seeing Chen Shizhou's disbelief, she said: "He can live in your house for so long, and he still doesn't want to leave, which is enough to show. He has been to classmates' homes or other elders' places before, and he often calls to come back to himself in less than a day. I'd rather 'stay alone with an empty house' than 'be in the mouth of a sheep'."

"Is this what he described?" Chen Shizhou laughed.

Ren Jing nodded: "He just uses words indiscriminately. You can also feel that he is a little cold-tempered at ordinary times, and he also rejects Chinese and literature... well, it's strange."

Chen Shizhou couldn't help nodding.

Ren Jing suddenly fell silent, she should have continued, but stared at the milk tea in front of her, for about half a minute, her hands on her knees suddenly lifted, covered her face, and bowed her waist.

Chen Shouzhou reacted, and quickly stood up and bent down to ask.

"I really didn't expect it." After a while, Ren Jing raised her head as if she had recovered, her eyes were red, and she spoke with a weeping sound, but her words made Chen Shuizhou's heart ache even more, "I really do I never thought that that bastard could do something to a child instead of a woman."

There was a long silence.

Chen Shuizhou felt like a fish skeleton was stuck in his heart, he was so choked up that he couldn't speak.

After taking a sip of coffee, he recovered his voice: "He... did his father cause some kind of conditioned reflex, so that Gu Shi now..." There are these unexplainable repulsion and indifference.

Ren Jing's voice was low: "Almost, this is what his grandma told me. Before his grandma left two years ago, I went there to give it to me. That's why I told me about it. She said that Gu Shi was reading a book obediently there. , endorsement, his father just... just threw an ashtray over it... Later, he did it. In the room, his grandma didn't know what happened, so I asked if there was no injury when I brought Gu Shi back. His grandma said that they are all well-raised, all of them were raised in those one or two months, before, especially when they just moved there... Sometimes I think of when I just brought Gu Shi back, I asked him how he was doing , Is it okay, no matter how he reacted, he wished he could kill his father and myself."

Chen Shizhou wasn't interested in pursuing the matter between the two of them back then, and Ren Jing presumably didn't want to mention it either. There are so many people with human faces and beast hearts in the world, and someone will always meet them.

Chen Shuizhou only felt that his heart ached so badly that he wished he could go back and hug Ren Gu Shi inappropriately to comfort him. He said slowly: "His grandma knew about this kind of thing and didn't stop it or say it in time. She only said it when she was about to leave at the end. There will be such a son... Fortunately, there is you."

Ren Jing couldn't help it, she burst into tears, and Chen Shizhou handed him a tissue: "Teacher, you... don't blame yourself too much, this kind of thing is the fault of the other party, you don't know that he can do these things, Fortunately, I brought Gu Shi back, didn't I?"

However, saying so, Chen Shizhou couldn't control his thoughts in his heart.

If he can get along well with Ren Gushi when he was a child, if he can pay attention to Gu Shi who was taken over by his father, if he can make friends with Ren Gushi, and know in time when he is hurt, he will not hesitate to protect him.

Chen Shizhou knew that since Ren Jing knew about this, her heart must have been full of ifs.

He was out of words, and he couldn't persuade him, because like Ren Jing, since he knew about this matter, his mind was full of ifs.

Ren Jing wiped her tears silently, the pain accumulated in her heart seemed to burst out, and she couldn't stop for a while.

Although Chen Shizhou couldn't persuade him, he couldn't just stay like this for a long time, suppressing his emotions, and said, "Teacher, what happened this time? Is it because of this matter that I quarreled with Gu Shi?"

Ren Jing shook her head, as if it was a bit difficult to say, but she still said: "No, this...he came out to me last time. You know what it means to come out, right?"

……

Teacher, I am the one asking you this sentence.

Chen Shuizhou didn't know whether he was happy or unhappy for a moment, but after thinking about it, the two had quarreled so much that Ren Guzhi didn't come home for so long, Ren Jing's attitude... His heart sank.

"Teacher, I don't think you are such a conservative person," Chen Shuizhou said dryly, "Gu Shi... No, homosexuals are not shady existences, no one is abnormal..."

Ren Jing was silent at first, and then said: "You are right. In fact, I just couldn't react for a while. Now that I have reacted, I don't know how to tell him. Besides, I only knew about this situation before. But there is no such person around me, and it is Gu Shi... I always feel that I owe him... He is a little different, and I feel that something is wrong. One."

Chen Shizhou breathed a sigh of relief, at least Ren Jing's attitude is fine: "Teacher, in fact, many people around you may be like this, but you don't have the courage to speak out, or you don't know, and your sexual orientation is not pathological or abnormal. , even a child who grows up happily, why must he become heterosexual?"

Strange to say, people who think homosexuality is normal never feel that there is anything wrong with it.In the eyes of those who disagree and homophobia, this side is unbearable, incomprehensible, and extremely deformed.

Ren Jing is not this kind of person, so she can understand Chen Shizhou's words.

Chen Shuizhou saw what she meant, and said: "If this is the case, then this is not a problem. The problem... I am afraid it is his psychological shadow in those two years. Did you try to take him to see a psychiatrist?"

Ren Jing shook her head: "His grandma passed away two years ago, and I only found out about it. I discussed it with that bastard... It was a chicken-and-duck talk! I was so angry that I slapped him, but he didn't fight back. Like this, who would have expected him to be so ruthless to children. Knowing about this, and looking at Gu Shi again, I always felt a little apprehensive, and he didn't mention it, so I never dared to take him to see him."

Chen Shouzhou nodded: "How do you plan to solve it? There is no problem with communication. Gu Shi's mood has been a little low, so it can be seen that he doesn't want to contradict you to the end. As for... As for those traumas, it doesn't matter whether it is a psychiatrist or self-healing , there must be a time."

After agreeing with Ren Jing, Chen Shizhou went home.

After getting out of the car and walking on the road in the community, there was a small stone on the side of the road. Chen Zhanzhou kicked it into the lawn, then went to the supermarket to buy yogurt and vegetables, and returned home.

Ren Gushi was reading with a book in his arms, when he heard the door knock, he stood up and walked to the door.

As soon as Chen Shizhou opened the door, he saw Ren Gushi standing there with the book in his arms. He was a little anxious, so he couldn't help but went up and patted his head: "Still reading it? Have you been reading it all afternoon?"

Ren Gushi shrugged: "What's the matter, I saw you and you are going to say me again?"

"I'm going to cook, you can relax yourself, and you can study as you like, but I thought you should be the type of madman who doesn't do homework or study during the holidays." Chen Shizhou put the yogurt in the refrigerator and put it on the table Put a box, "here, drink, supplement nutrition."

"What to eat to make up for." Ren Guzhi muttered in a low voice.

Chen Shizhou: "..." Did he think too much?Or did he hear wrong?Absolutely misheard, he still has a pure soul.

Ren Gushi picked up the yogurt and opened the lid, and heard Chen Shuizhou say, "Go out for lunch tomorrow."

He was curious and asked, "You don't cook anymore? Chef?"

"Can you be a little self-conscious about being a student?!" Chen Shuizhou paused, and said while chopping vegetables, "I told your mother that we will have dinner together at noon tomorrow."