Rebirth Bias

Lu Na walked out of "Midu", the night outside was misty and the wind was cold, he felt like there was a big hole in his body, and the cold wind always sucked in through this hole, taking away the warmth of his body.After a long time, he took out his mobile phone and called Zhang Chi——

"Well, let's go out for a drink together,"

Zhang Chi talked to him on the other end of the phone, "Hey, at this point, do you want to unspoken rules for me or what?"

There was a wry smile on Lu Ne's face, "Is it okay to treat me as a broken-hearted man?"

There was silence on the other end of the phone, "Okay, where is the appointment, I'll be right over." There was his rustling voice on the other end of the phone, and Lu Ne said, "Then the barbecue restaurant in front of the Film Academy , I haven't been there for a long time."

"Okay, you go first, and I'll be there later." A woman's displeased voice came from the other end of the phone, and Lu Ne suddenly remembered that Zhang Chi is a married man now. We moved to live together, and suddenly felt a little sorry, and just about to say forget it, the phone has already been hung up.

The entrance of the Film Academy is as lively as ever, and every time you are in it, you can feel a kind of youthful vitality blowing towards your face.Not long after Lu Ne sat down, Zhang Chi arrived, wrapped in a down jacket, his short stubble standing on end in the cold wind, and he could vaguely discern the appearance of a literary youth back then.

As soon as Zhang Chi sat down, Lu Ne poured wine into his glass and asked, "Does your family have any objections to calling you out so late?"

Zhang Chi took off his down jacket and said, "Don't bother with her." He casually picked up the grilled mutton skewers, "Come on, now that I'm an emotional expert, please analyze the case in detail—"

Lu Na rolled his eyes at him, and drank the wine in the glass without saying a word.Zhang Chi grinned and agreed.The two of them were having sex while drinking. Originally, Lu Ne asked Zhang Chi to accompany him, but after three glasses of wine, Zhang Chi started talking, and complained endlessly to Lu Ne about his family. Under the influence of alcohol, everyone Zhang Chi, a gentleman, was a little sentimental, staring at Deng Yinger, and said: "Lu Na, do you know? I feel more and more that everyone has a moment of passion, whether it is for feelings or dreams, it is difficult What’s more, a lifetime of adrenaline-like excitement.”

Lu Na didn't speak, picked up the wine bottle and filled Zhang Chi first, then himself.

"For people like us, all the wind, flowers, snow and moon are given to the movies, and the rest is to live, Lao Lu, don't you think so? I really don't have high requirements for the other half. Don't look too sorry for the audience. Have a basic aesthetic. I don’t need to support your work, but I can’t interfere. I know what’s hot and cold. I used to think that my requirements were too low, so I’m going to give in. Later, I found out that women not only ask to take your wallet, but also try to take your money unscrupulously. Head, do everything you can to get you to do what she wants, women are so fucking scary!"

Lu Ne was amused by Zhang Chi's statement, but they are both men. Lu Ne knows that men sometimes like to show how disdainful and indifferent they are to their significant other in front of others, but only those careless little details are the real heart .

Lu Ne filled up their wine glasses again.In the end, both of them were drunk, lying on the table and laughing at each other, Zhang Chi's phone rang, and he took a lot of effort to take out the phone, and even turned it down, yelling at the other end , "Daughter-in-law? Hey, daughter-in-law, let me say a word to you, just a word, from my heart... I am not drunk, I am not drunk, really, I am with Lao Lu, Lu Ne, the great director Where? Where? Old Lu, where are we—" Before Lu Ne could speak, he opened his heart and lungs on the phone again, "Daughter-in-law, I want to tell you something from my heart, something hidden in my heart... ..."

Lu Na listened to Zhang Chi's tongue out, calling his daughter-in-law again and again. For some reason, his nose was sour and his eyes turned red little by little. The wine was poured into the glass, splashing, the wine was overflowing, he didn't even look at it, he picked it up and drank it, and took a deep breath.

After Zhang Chi finished the upside-down phone call, he found that Lu Ne had fallen on the table like a pig. He pushed him with his hand and called, "Old Lu...Old Lu!" Lu Ne didn't move at all. At this moment, The phone rang, and it was Lu Ne's.Zhang Chi picked it up, "Hey—oh, Shi Yu, me, Zhang Chi, I'm with Lao Lu, where? Oh, oh, at the entrance of the Film Academy, have a barbecue, are you coming? That's fine, We are waiting for you—"

Chen Shiyu came faster than Zhang Chi. At night, he was wearing an army green padded jacket, sunglasses and a mask. He lowered his head and walked into the barbecue shop. He saw two men fell down on the table at a glance. Empty beer bottles, bamboo sticks and chicken bones all over the ground, and a wild dog who came from nowhere was sniffing around their feet.

Chen Shiyu pushed Lu Ne carefully, and called him, "Lu Ne...Lu Ne?"

Lu Ne wrinkled his nose and hummed, Chen Shiyu pushed Zhang Chi instead, Zhang Chi woke up as soon as he pushed, looked around blankly, as if he didn't know where he was, and only remembered when he saw Chen Shiyu, "Oh, Shi Yu is here Come on, come, sit down, order something to eat."

"Don't drink, it's two o'clock, people are going to close, how can you drink like this?"

Zhang Chi waved his hand, "Don't mention it, lovelorn, I didn't expect this kid to fall in love silently. Our Director Lu, that's the body of a big man, and the heart of a 14-year-old girl."

Chen Shiyu was taken aback, the expression on his face was a little unpredictable for a moment, Zhang Chi was still muttering, "I'm so inferior, I actually forgot to ask what kind of girl she is."

Chen Shiyu interrupted him, "Okay, it's all over, let's go, how do you go back, I'll call you a taxi?"

"No... no, I, my wife is here to pick me up—" Zhang Chi suddenly became excited and waved at the door like a dog, "Daughter-in-law, here, here!"

Chen Shiyu looked up, and saw a tall woman walking into the barbecue restaurant wrapped in a bloated down jacket and wearing a mask on her face. She greeted Chen Shiyu lightly, and the two of them didn't communicate with each other, and each got the drunk into the car.

Chen Shiyu's apartment is on the seventeenth floor. He lived here for a limited time, and recently, he spent more time here.No need to rush the announcement, no need to open your eyes, there are always a few seconds when you don't know where you are. After coming to S City, this period of time is considered the most leisurely life for him, but he has insomnia all night and night, and he has to drink a lot of wine , taking advantage of the alcohol to barely sleep for a few hours, sometimes sitting on the bed in a daze, looking at the towering building outside the floor-to-ceiling windows, the coldness of the walls rushing towards him like a tide, he would be very scared, and would hope that someone could stay with him.

He half-helped and half-carried Lu Ne onto the bed, took off his coat, pulled the quilt over him, wrung out a hot towel from the bathroom, and wiped his face and hands carefully.Lu Ne slept soundly and didn't wake up, his chest heaved slightly, under the soft light of the bedside lamp, his facial features were classic and handsome.

Sitting by the bed, Chen Shiyu was fascinated by the sight, and involuntarily stretched out his hand to stroke his temples, once and for all, tender and tender, the little beast whose heart was firmly imprisoned by his own reason became more and more manic in such a night and in such a scene , trying to break out of the cage.

"Don't mention it, lovelorn, I didn't expect this kid to fall in love silently. Our Director Lu, that's the body of a big man, and the heart of a 14-year-old girl."

Zhang Chi's words rang in his ears, and there was a villain in his heart who kept waving flags and shouting.Chen Shiyu closed his eyes, and suddenly fell on the bed. He leaned against the edge of the bed. He curled up and tried to get close to Lu Ne. Lu Ne's alcohol-smelling breath was only three or four centimeters away from him, entangled with his breath.He opened his eyes and saw Lu Na sleeping beside him defenselessly, and suddenly wanted to cry.

Lu Ne seemed to be dreaming in a daze. He dreamed that he was driving to a place to play. He and Su Yang were in high spirits. It was like going on a spring outing with a child. Su Yang told a story about "a pair of happy slippers" in a serious manner. The story made Lu Na laugh so hard, the sun was shining outside and the spring flowers were blooming.Later, the car drove into a deserted road, and the scenery on both sides gradually became desolate. They drove the wrong way and lost their way. Lu Ne said, "It's all up to you. I told you that you should turn left just now. You still don't believe me, look. Look, there is no way."

Su Yang insisted on his own opinion and refused to bow his head. Both of them thought they were right, and tried to convince each other to follow him. Gradually, the small carriage turned into a small colosseum. The two started a cold war. He didn't speak, and they all competed in their hearts.Finally, Lu Ne opened the car door and strode away.

Lu Na walked for a while, turned back, and found that Su Yang and the car were gone along the way, leaving only a white fog.Lu Ne was shocked, and chased after him for a few steps, but he couldn't find him, and suddenly panicked in his heart, and he woke up.

When he woke up, there was still a lingering feeling of emptiness in his heart. He turned over, and Chen Shiyu's face came into view, and he curled up on the edge of the bed with his clothes on Lu Ne's quilt. Sit up on the bed.As soon as he moved, Chen Shiyu woke up, sat up calmly, put on his slippers, and asked naturally, "You're awake, do you want a drink?"

"Why are you here?" As soon as he asked, he realized, "This is your home? Why am I here?"

"Forgot? You and Zhang Chi got drunk at the barbecue restaurant."

Lu Ne remembered it in an instant, clutching his aching head, looking for his phone left and right, "What time is it? I'm going back."

Chen Shiyu's face froze, and he said, "Can you live here, or are you worried that being photographed by the media with me will affect your future?"

Lu Na stopped his movements, looked at Chen Shiyu seriously and said, "You know that's not what I meant."

Chen Shiyu's eyes were as bright as fire, and he said persistently, "Then stay."

"Shi Yu..."

"Stay with me." Chen Shiyu looked at Lu Ne with pleading eyes, and at that moment, he seemed a little humble.

Lu Na turned his head, pursed his lips, and said, "You know it's impossible." After he finished speaking, he lifted the quilt and looked for his shoes.The next second, Chen Shiyu suddenly rushed over like crazy, turned Lu Ne's head, and kissed him fiercely and frantically on the lips.

Lu Na was taken aback for a moment, then he reacted and pushed Chen Shiyu away forcefully.Chen Shiyu was overturned on the bed, Lu Ne quickly wiped his lips with the back of his hand, his lips were smashed by his teeth, there was a sharp pain, and the salty bloody smell rushed into his mouth, Lu Ne didn't know how to express his feelings , breathing heavily, staring at Chen Shiyu, and asked hoarsely, "Chen Shiyu, what are you doing?"

Chen Shiyu sat on the bed, raised his chin slightly, and raised the tails of his eyes slightly, both gorgeous and cruel, "Don't you know what I'm doing? Lu Na, do you know how unwilling I am? It's me who is always by your side, Obviously the person who understands you best is also me, obviously I fell in love with you first, why?"

Lu Ne couldn't speak, so he could only comfort him palely, "Shi Yu, don't be like this, isn't it good to be friends? We can be friends for a lifetime, as before, rushing to each other when you need or I need Around, is this kind of feeling not comparable to other things?"

Chen Shiyu suddenly laughed until tears came out. He looked at Lu Ne and shook his head, "Lu Ne, you are so naive. How could you be so naive? After today, do you think it is possible for us to continue to be friends?"

Lu Ne's throat seemed to be blocked. He didn't want to think about what Chen Shiyu said, so he lowered his head and put on his shoes without looking at him, and said, "I'm leaving."

Chen Shiyu rushed over suddenly, hugged Lu Ne tightly from behind, buried his face on his back, took a deep breath, and said as calmly as possible: "Don't go, Lu Ne, can you stay? After today, we will Pretend nothing happened, okay? I know you broke up with Su Er, Lu Na, just for one night, okay? "

Lu Ne's expression was as deep as an abyss, without a trace of expression, he just pushed Chen Shiyu's hand away bit by bit.

The sound of closing the door echoed in the empty room. For a long time, Chen Shiyu chuckled suddenly, full of self-deprecation and bitterness. Gradually, the laughter became louder and louder, and finally turned into silent crying. He curled up tightly, Biting his fingers vigorously, in the middle of the huge bed, like a helpless child with nothing.