Sine theorem

Chapter 39

Xie Ting seemed to be distracted by his words, and pushed him away unnaturally.

"You're drunk." There wasn't a hint of question in the tone, just a definite statement that couldn't be denied.

Yan Jin smiled silly. "Yeah, I'm drunk."

"Then you rest, I'll go first." Xie Ting looked down at him.The lights in the bedroom were not turned on, and the curtains were not drawn tightly, with a gap exposed.The blurred light in the distance passed through the window, laying a bright strip of light.Yan Jin's face was somewhat blurred in the darkness, only a little outline could be seen.But Xie Ting knew that he was smiling.

"Can you, accompany me..."

"Go to bed early and drink some warm water. I'll be leaving first." Xie Ting didn't dare to listen, he was really afraid that he would sink.Maybe what Yan Jin said is right——

He really liked Yan Jin, but why wouldn't he admit it?

But Shen Qiong...his brother Shen, what should I do?

He gently closed the bedroom door, and he saw a silhouette leaning on the head of the bed, motionless and silent.

Is he really disappointed?In fact, think about it differently, for a person who loves you without reservation, you push him away time and time again.He would be disappointed too.

Xie Ting sighed.Since he taught five classes, he sighed more frequently.

Yan Jin felt that she had a good dream.In the dream, he finally kissed Teacher Xie.Although the technology is very jerky, the touch of kissing is very good.Because of the dry weather, Xie Ting's lips were a little dry.But it doesn't prevent his lips from being soft.

In the dream, Teacher Xie was not as cold as in reality. When he kissed him, Teacher Xie didn't push him away immediately, but said something, which he didn't remember.

Yan Jin raised her head from the sink, and casually grabbed a towel hanging beside her.While walking outside, he wiped the drops of water that fell from his head from time to time.He had just wiped halfway, when there was a very light knock on the door.

Can knock on his door.Xie Ting was the only one.

Yan Jin opened the door a little, poked his head out, and saw Xie Ting standing at his door, holding a paper bag in his hand.

Yan Jin opened the door and turned sideways to let him in. "Thank you teacher, what's the matter?"

Seeing him now, Xie Ting thought of the kiss last night, and nodded unnaturally.He handed him the small paper bag, "You drank alcohol yesterday, you should have a headache later. Painkillers, here you are."

Yan Jin raised her eyebrows: "How do you know I was drunk yesterday?"

Xie Ting observed him for a while, and felt that he really didn't know what he did last night.Although the guilty conscience was a little less, the bitterness came up.

"I guess, you eat first. You'll get a headache later." Seeing that Yan Jin still didn't move, Xie Ting had no choice but to pour water for him by himself.He tore open the package of the medicine and poured the powdered medicine into it.The powder is dark brown, and when it is dissolved in water, the water also becomes dark brown.The taste of the medicine was really bad, even if Xie Ting didn't drink it, he could still smell the bitter taste in the air.

Yan Jin frowned. "Is this stuff for people to drink?" Xie Ting put the medicine in his hand with a straight face: "So much nonsense, you should thank it when you cry in pain."

Yan Jin shrank her neck, stroked her dry hair, and took a sip tentatively.Yan Jin felt that her tongue was about to fall off.

"Is it true that you can't stop drinking?"

Xie Ting didn't speak, picked up the towel that was casually thrown on the sofa beside him, stood behind him and wiped his hair.

Yan Jin froze.Even the bitter taste of the medicine became insensible, and he drank it gulp by gulp.He put down the cup, his words seemed to be tainted with the bitter taste of medicine. "You... why are you so nice to me?"

"I'm your teacher." Xie Ting replied calmly.

"Then you know we have no chance, right?" Yan Jin turned around and opened his hand on her head. "Then why are you so kind to me? Then why do you give me this hopeless hope? Why do you want to recruit me?"

Yan Jin yelled so much in one breath, curling her fingers so hard that her knuckles turned white.He lowered his voice and said: "If you don't like me, don't be nice to me. I will have some unrealistic fantasies about you. Teacher Xie, you are like a quagmire, and I am the one who fell into the quagmire. I am deliberately alienating you now, isn't this what you expected? I have tried very hard to let go of this emotion, stay away from me, stay away, okay?"

"I saw a photo when I went to wait for you in your office last time. You said you have someone you like, and it must be him. Then I wish you happiness, I can't afford it anymore, and I won't play with you anymore."

He wanted to stand up, but Xie Ting, who had been silent all this time, held his shoulder.He said softly, "Xiao Jin, don't do this."

"What else should I do? Don't get close to you anymore? I know this. Thank you for your medicine. Let's go."

Not only did Xie Ting not leave, he even sat down on the sofa at his house.He clasped his hands against his thin chin, as if he had made a great determination, and also seemed to be remembering someone.

"I think I need to tell you about him."

"I moved to Fuzhou Road when I was eight years old. There is a faculty dormitory on Fuzhou Road, and my family lives there. My parents are both teachers, so they were very strict with me since I was a child. I often feel that they treat me Not good enough, not caring enough. It's not that they don't care about me, it's just that they care only about learning things. They never let me go out to play, and I hardly have a friend-but a little brother from the neighbor's house is my friend.

His name is Shen Qiong, a very good name.He is three years older than me, but I have skipped many grades since I was a child, only one grade shorter than him.I don't know why, but my parents would never stop me if they knew I was going to hang out with him.Shen Qiong's study is very good, but not very good.But it is one of the best in our community.

Maybe my parents think that playing with people with good grades will improve their grades. "

Having said that, Xie Ting smiled briefly.

"The storyline after that was very old-fashioned. He and I were also considered childhood sweethearts...not right, they were bamboo horses and bamboo horses. When I was young, the relationship was always pure and clean, and I said nothing. I knew that I liked him, and I told him that I I like him. Every time he just replied 'I like Xiao Ting too'.

He doesn't like mine, at least...not as strongly as I like him.

By the time he was a sophomore in high school, I was a freshman in high school.I was admitted to the same school as him, and I know what homosexuality is, which is what you call gay.I know he's not gay, and neither am I, I just like him. "

Maybe he always thought I was joking, just like I thought you were joking at first. Xie Ting looked up at him. He was lowering his head and fiddled with the fringed tassels on the sofa cushion.

"But I'm not. I spoke to him and he said 'you're disgusting' to me."

Yan Jin raised her head and met his long-awaited eyes.

"Is it really disgusting? Unfortunately, I don't think so. After that day, he was no longer friendly to me, avoiding me all day. I haven't seen him for a month. Later, I found out that he was sent to the United States A university in California."

Xie Ting sniffed, and continued: "Yan Jin, you know from the first moment I saw you, I felt that you were very similar to him."

"I..." Yan Jin originally wanted to say "I'm different from him", but felt that she had said so many hurtful things just now, and it would be bad to join in now.He shut his mouth and asked Xie Ting to continue talking.

"Actually, you are not very similar. The only similarity is your... temperament." Xie Ting thought for a long time before finding a suitable description. "You all have that very good... indescribable temperament. But the feeling you give me is different. My feeling for Shen Qiong is very vain and false. Maybe he is not as good as I described to you, maybe I just admire him. But you are different, I know this feeling is not superficial, but radiates from the heart. "

A long time later, one day when Xie Ting and Yan Jin were walking down the street holding hands, Xie Ting knew that this feeling he couldn't describe was called envy.

Xie Ting stopped talking about Shen Qiong, and changed the subject: "I got my application for postgraduate insurance yesterday. The teacher won me a chance to go to the United States." He smiled softly, "If it was in the past, it was my request. If there is no chance, I will fill it in without any hesitation. But this time I hesitated.

In the past two days, I have been thinking, do I like him or admire him?Stay here, or America? "

Yan Jin just looked at him without saying a word.As if waiting for him to make a decision.

Xie Ting smiled wryly: "I don't know, I really don't know. This choice can never be harmonious. Maybe I will accompany you until you graduate from high school, maybe... this week, or next week, I will going to resign."

Two or three threads fell off the tassel that Yan Jin was holding.

"So Yan Jin, I want to tell you that I might really..."

Someone rings the doorbell.Xie Ting lowered his head and gave a wry smile, then stood up: "I'll go."

Lin Luozhe and Yan Jin made an appointment yesterday to go to school with him in the morning, but they didn't expect that Xie Ting was also at his house.

"Mr. Xie? Why are you at my brother's house?" Lin Luozhe glanced at Yan Jin who was pulling his head down and pulling on the sofa cushion, feeling that the air pressure was a bit low for no reason.

"I live next door to him. Are you here to look for him? Then I'll go back first. Be careful on the way." He glanced back at Yan Jin and went out.