[Xie Do Chanbaek obeys] Exchanging tenderness

We met once, but Bai Shou never looked for him again.

Autumn has also passed.

Xie Daocan always thinks of the phrase "You have to live your own life", as if a small bruise left by Bai Zun in his heart will never heal.

He always thinks that he still owes Bai Xun a sorry.He thought his father owed too much debt, and he didn't know when to pay it off, so he couldn't owe anyone more.

One night Xie Daocan had a dream of snow, and Bai Shou stood in the snow waiting for him.

The two of them were separated by the snow, and they didn't say anything to each other.

When I woke up and opened the window, it was really snowing outside.

Xie Daochan went to school that day.

It's winter vacation, and the small cafe next to the library is empty, only a few work-study students are left.

Xie Daocan pushed the door, the brim of the hat was lowered, the little girl who was cleaning the floor looked up, leaned the mop in the corner, and ran behind the counter.

Xie Daocan's hearing is better than others after being in the casino for many years.Through the earphones, still in the gap between the two songs, I heard the whisper behind the counter.

"Didn't Senior White go to study abroad?"

"It's nothing, Senior White didn't get selected."

Xie Daocan took a novel from the bookshelf, sat down by the window, turned off the music, and kept the headphones on.

Two girls, and then two boys also chimed in.

"How come? Isn't that investigation report published in Journal A?"

"Yes, yes, I've read it. It's about the unsolved disappearance case. There are a lot of field investigations, perfectionism and positivism. I, a science student, have read it."

"Our professor said that now that the prosecution receives the evidence handed over by the police, it directly prosecutes or does not prosecute, and rarely goes to the scene to confirm it. In order to write this report, Senior White really did it himself."

"I really want to be a good prosecutor, isn't his father a famous prosecutor from a local branch office?"

"I heard that there was an accident when I was on the job, and I was lying in the hospital for many years."

"Speaking of which, the report is so well written, why didn't you choose to study abroad as an exchange student?"

"You don't know about such a famous thing?"

"Didn't you faint on the day of the defense?"

"Later, he was sent to the school hospital, where the people said that he had a fever and had many injuries on his body."

"real or fake?"

"How could Senior White..."

"Keep down! You'll hear me."

Xie Daocan raised his eyes from the pages of the book and looked out of the window.

It is snowing.

When I passed by the square in the middle of the street, the big screen said that the snow would cover three-quarters of the country.

It's great, at this moment, Bai Zhou is just like him, trapped in the snow all over the country.

But he couldn't say anything more to him.

I'm so sorry.Can't say sorry.

Xie Daocan walked out of the small cafe, walked down the long steps step by step, and met Bai Zun when he absolutely didn't want to meet him.

Bai Shou stood in front of the steps with a stack of books in his arms, also stunned.

My father has been ill for many years, and my mother is taking care of him in the hospital. He visits him once a week, and his father's ward becomes his home, even during winter and summer vacations.

Bai Zun waited for Xie Daocan to come down.

On both sides of the snow, there is nothing to say.

After a long while, Bai Shou said, "In two days."

"What?" Xie Daocan didn't understand.

"In two days, can we still meet?"

Xie Daocan was a little speechless.

"I didn't come to see you."

In good conscience, he really didn't come to look for him, he really came here relying on the 80.00% possibility that he was not at school.

"I'm not ready to meet you either."

Xie Daocan didn't speak, he thought he would never be able to answer that you don't need to prepare to see me.

"That day you asked me why you came here by yourself and still followed my lead. I was also thinking about why, and what way to go."

Xie Daocan smiled, but he couldn't explain clearly in his heart.

"That's angry talk."

"But, I want to answer you."

Bai Zun said that he must answer.If you don't have an answer, or if you don't know how to answer, I won't be able to see you.

☆,—10—

Three days later after the snowfall, Xie Daocan rode a bicycle and took Baishun to a distant place.

It was his and his father's secret base. There was a railway track extending to some unknown place. It had been abandoned for a long time. There were woods on both sides, surrounded by bushes, and weeds grew in the middle.

I remember when I was very young, I used to take walks along the railroad tracks with my father, pulling out dogtails between the sleepers while walking, and bringing back a large handful of them, green and fluffy.

Xie Daocan has not been here for a long time since his father is not there.

The day was fine, the railway tracks were half buried in the snow, and the trees guarded both sides with empty branches. Xie Daocan stepped on a narrow railway track, with his hands open, walking like a king.

It was too quiet, only the rustling of two people walking on the snow, Bai Zun and Xie Daocan shoulder to shoulder, stepped on the half-withered and half-green weeds beside the railway track, and did not speak for a long time.

"Xie Daocan, the casino is full of experts, the exam should be no problem for you."

Xie Daocan tilted his body and regained his balance, without stopping.

"It should be no problem to finish the four-year course in two years."

Xie Daocan wobbled a few times on the rails, and Bai Shou held him on the wrist, stabilizing him.

The two continued to move forward, walking very slowly.

"Is this your answer?" Xie Daocan asked.

Bai Shou raised his eyes and looked at him for a moment.

"What is this?" Xie Daocan turned his eyes away and looked straight up to the sky, "Study and take exams like you, and then become a prosecutor? You want to see me every day so much?"

Bai Zun walked with him in silence for a while, and said: "Xie Daocan's path can pay off his father's debts, but he can't pay off his crimes. Xie Daocan can save those victims from losses, but he can't save them. If you are in danger, if you encounter other tricks, everything you have done will be in vain."

Xie Daocan lowered his head, pushing away the snow on the railroad tracks as he walked.

"There are not only right and wrong ways in the world, but also the way that has to be taken, and the way that has been traveled a long way."

"Xie Daocan, after walking so far, it's time to take a break."

Bai Zun didn't leave, and looked up at him.

Xie Daocan stood up and stepped onto the sleeper, separated from him by the narrow railway track.

Bai Shou took out an envelope from his jacket pocket and handed it over. Xie Daocan opened it, and inside was the admission notice.

"The Judicial Exam Remedial Class of the Law School is free for students of their own school. Just take it for me."

"For the sake of long-term consideration, it is not enough to just deal with the exam. I have organized the notes for the past two years, and I will copy the notes for you one by one in the future."

Bai Zun said that one day, Xie Daocan will use his own name to find the case file and find his father.This name, one day, will protect those kind people.

Looking back a long time later, it seems that at that moment, Xie Daocan suddenly began to care about this person's thoughts.

So believing, so fearless, so childlike.

Obviously he could refute, but at that moment, he didn't want to say that the world is difficult, he didn't want to say that it was a fantasy, he just wanted the world to get better for him, so that everything he expected could come true.

However, Xie Daocan didn't want to be shaken at that time.

"Not all misfortunes come across, you are responsible for saving, not everyone needs your saving."

"It's not everyone, it's Xie Daocan. It's not that he is responsible, it's that he really can't stand it anymore."

It doesn't make sense, I just can't stand it.Bai Zun has always been different.

Xie Daocan didn't want to argue with him anymore.He took him in his arms.

Suddenly feeling tired and sleepy at that moment, Xie Daocan closed his eyes for a while.

"Don't get involved if you can't stand it. I'm afraid that as the days go by, I won't have the strength to drive you away."

The two embraced each other and stood quietly for a long time.

"Maybe I drove you away first." Bai Zun said.

"Don't be too happy, I didn't promise you anything." Xie Daocan said.

Xie Daocan sent Bai Zun back to school that day, saying goodbye very seriously, he said, he is not used to it yet, give me some time.

Bai Zun said don't be nervous, it's just reading and taking exams, it's much easier than winning others in the casino.

Xie Daocan stared at him for a while, and decided to explain clearly: "Suddenly there was a day when he was worried about me, and he thought for a long time to answer my angry words, and he was not used to it yet."

Bai Zun understood what he meant.Because I understood, I didn't answer, turned around and stepped into the school gate.

At the last glance, Xie Daocan clearly saw a slight curve on the corner of his lips.

I don't want to admit it, but it's really uncommon, and it's really beautiful, so I decided not to say the words that I couldn't bear to say when I hugged each other.

Bai Zun, if you still can't stand it in the future, please drive me away first.

☆,—11—

Xie Daocan lived in anxiety the day he left Prosecutor Bai's cell phone at home.

He thought, because of this negligence, he would lose points in Bai Shou's heart, and he didn't know how many points he had left.

Thinking about it again, Bai Zun is not a perfect score in his heart.At least five points will be deducted for the prosecutor, five points will be deducted for the injury of the father's disappearance case, and five points will be deducted for insisting on going back to the hospital.There are still a lot of angry people who are reluctant to reduce it. After all, they are model students, so it is good to reduce it to 85 points.

Xie Daocan wondered if he could save some points by calling him.He can't talk about work, dare not talk about love, and if he is asked to stay, it is embarrassing to say, so he lists the things he wants to say one by one in his heart, and crosses them out one by one.

It was lunch time, thinking too seriously, pouring the soup in the bowl spoon by spoon, without taking a bite of the rice, Prosecutor Wu on the opposite side saw it inexplicably, and quietly snatched a piece of beef belly from his soup.

The day was busy until nine o'clock in the evening.

Xie Daocan stood outside the door for half a minute, trying to regain his confidence—it was too late, and it would be the same when he returned to the hospital tomorrow. He cleared his throat and pressed the combination lock.

As soon as he stepped into the living room, he was stunned. Bai Shou fell to the floor, as if he had fallen from the stairs.

He called Prosecutor Bai, rushed over to help him up, and called his name, but he shouldn't.

Xie Daocan dialed the number of the attending doctor and gave him the address.

His forehead was bruised, and blood was still oozing, his body temperature was lower than usual, and his pulse was very weak.Xie Daocan looked around again, the phone fell on the floor, slid a few steps away, picked it up, and looked for the call records. The last call was at 07:30, and my mother called.

The attending doctor showed Xie Daocan the patient's heart ultrasound image.

It was the angina that caused the shock.The doctor said that palpitations, shortness of breath, and dizziness all appeared one after another.

Xie Daocan couldn't answer.Bai Shou didn't say anything, and didn't let him see it.

The doctor said that the permanent damage to the heart valve caused by excessive blood loss can be resolved by surgery, but the vital signs are unstable, and it is difficult to withstand such surgery in the near future.

Xie Daocan walked out of the consulting room, not knowing where to go for a while, so he sat on a bench along the corridor.

Since Bai Xun was injured, all his anger and grievances finally turned into self-blame.

She thought that her life would be better if she separated from him, and she regretted it when she saw him not doing so well, but she didn't want to admit that it was regret.

I want to make up for the lost six years, but I don't know if he wants to, and I'm afraid that what I give is not good enough.

It was difficult for him all day long, but he didn't expect that the days with Xie Daocan finally left an irreversible mistake in Bai Zun's life.

After repaying so many debts over the years, there is finally one person who can't pay off.

It was very late at night, and the nurse withdrew the intravenous drip.

Bai Shou stepped out of the ward, and saw a man sitting on a bench in the corridor, bent over, with his forehead resting on his hands, as if it was too heavy.

Bai Zun didn't call him, closed the door again, leaned behind the door and sighed softly and long.

The test result is not good, he knows it by himself.I am afraid that he will become a burden to that person, nothing makes him suffer more than this thought.

As soon as Xie Daocan came in, Bai Shou put gauze on his forehead, changed his hospital clothes, and sat on the small sofa to wait for him.Does not look like a patient.

Xie Daochan smiled, as if he was relieved.He squatted down in front of Bai Shou's knees, looked up at him for a while and said, "You're going back to the hospital, and you're threatening me like that?"

Bai Shou looked at him, acquiescing.

"Dad is awake and wants to see me."

Did mom say it on the phone?Xie Daochan really breathed a sigh of relief this time.

"You have to do me a favor."

"Again?"

Xie Daocan felt that he had been fooled again.

Bai Shou continued: "When it's dawn, call mom and say there's an urgent case, and deal with it as soon as possible. Mom will understand."

Xie Daocan rested his elbows on Bai Shou's knees, propped his chin, and sized up the man.

"Can't you make the phone call yourself?"

Bai Zun looked down at him.

"If you have a commission, do you still want to come by yourself?"

Xie Daochan choked for a moment.

"Just call. Prosecutor Bai, why should I go to see your parents?"

"Dad has never been conscious, and he hasn't seen me for many years. You can regard him as your father."

Bai Zun said very sincerely, his eyes were a little sad, Xie Daocan deliberately ignored it.

"If I look like you, I will have a father with you? Can I have your last name?"

Bai Xun thought about it seriously for a second.

"No objection."

"This is a special commission. Three times the commission."

Xie Daochan held out his hand.Bai Zun was unmoved.

Like a reluctant concession, Xie Daocan said: "Then, it can be mortgaged."

The corners of her lips curled up, and her eyes were deep and bright.

This look is too familiar and too unforgettable.

Bai Zun understood the meaning.This person who keeps saying that he doesn't like him is now openly asking him for a kiss.

He ignored it, stood up and walked out of the ward.