Xingchuan

The two walked near the cockpit, Li Xingchuan leaned against an empty seat, and Cheng Kaiji stood in the aisle with arms folded.The stewardess brought water to Chu Ran, and the two made a step sideways.

Smelling the smell of perfume in the air, Cheng Kaiji frowned: "What are you talking about?"

Li Xingchuan didn't speak immediately.

It is morning and the cabin is well lit and natural.He stretched out his right hand, lowered his head, and looked at the five protruding joints for a while before asking: "In your opinion, how sure is Ling Yi's hand that it can be cured?"

Cheng Kaiji watched him bend his knuckles, as if he was examining how important a person's right hand is.

"Are you back together?"

The expression between Li Xingchuan's brows did not change, but his right hand was slowly withdrawn, "Yes."

Cheng Kaiji's shoulders slumped.

In fact, he had guessed it a long time ago in the past two days, but he has been unwilling to face this fact, and he has to wait for the person concerned to admit it himself before giving up.It was as if a pair of scissors had cut the rope binding things, and he suddenly relaxed, and it took him a while before he began to answer Li Xingchuan's question.

"I was not there when he went to the doctor a few times ago, and it is not convenient for me to ask about the specific condition. Even if I asked, the doctor would definitely not tell me, this is personal privacy. The only thing I can tell you is that his It seems that the disease has not been cured yet. As for the reason and how long it will take to be cured, I can't answer this for you. "

Li Xingchuan's eyes fell on the floor in the aisle, "Is it possible for me to accompany him to see a doctor? I won't interfere, I just want to know what they are talking about. You are an expert in this area, I don't know much about it."

"Expert..." Cheng Kaiji smiled self-deprecatingly, then turned his head away, looking at the stratus clouds outside the cabin, "As long as he agrees, it's fine, and psychologists generally don't have any opinions."

Li Xingchuan thanked in a low voice.

The two stood in silence for a while, not talking about anything.This kind of silence is very meaningful. We know each other well and many things should stop after returning to the seat.After standing for a while, Li Xingchuan straightened his back, took out his right hand from his pocket and patted Cheng Kaiji's arm, but he still didn't say anything.

Some people's feelings come to an end along with this journey, but some people's feelings just enter the altar like wine at the end of the journey, ready to start a lifetime of testing.

When he got off the plane, Ling Yi's face turned pale, as if he had just woken up with a little anemia, but Li Xingchuan's gaze was always by his side, which made him feel very at ease.

Several people walked out from the VIP passage, and the two assistants had been waiting outside early in the morning, waving desperately when they saw them.Wearing sunglasses, Xie Siyun hugged Ling Yi reluctantly, then punched Li Xingchuan on the shoulder, "See you another day."

Then he walked away with a wave of his hand.

In the middle of the walk, he made another sharp turn, came back and took Cheng Kaiji's arm, and dragged him away with a smile on his face, "Doctor Cheng, I'll see you off, I'm Che Kuan, so don't squeeze with Xingchuan and the others. "

"Hey, hello!" Cheng Kaiji blushed immediately, his neck was thick, and the suitcase in his hand almost dropped, "Let go of me, don't make a fuss, I will take a taxi myself!"

"Let's go, let's go..."

Watching them leave, Ling Yi's face slowly returned to rosy, and a slight smile appeared on the corners of his mouth and eyebrows.Turning his head again, there was a thick coat in front of him, Li Xingchuan looked at him: "Put it on."

At such a moment, Ling Yi suddenly felt that this kind of gaze was very familiar.

When did you see it?

On the rooftop of the rented house, during the celebration of his birthday, he closed his eyes and made a wish, and when he opened his eyes, Xingchuan looked at him like this.Boiling water in the kitchen for supper, when he turned to ask Xingchuan how much noodles he could eat, Xingchuan looked at him the same way.After five years, this gaze seems to have not changed at all. Why was I still not sure before?

Chu Ran on the side said: "Let's go first."

Ling Yi's thoughts were interrupted, and she looked up at Chu and Lu in front of her, "Okay, see Chu Ran next time."

Chu Ran glanced at him, then looked at the people around him, with a calm face, "Don't forget what you promised me."

When they left, Ling Yi turned to Xingchuan and asked, "What did you promise him?"

Li Xingchuan took him with the hand that wasn't pulling the suitcase, and walked forward calmly: "I promise him, when you recover from illness, I will take you to Lu's house as a guest."

The holding hand slowly tightened.

It takes about 10 minutes to walk from the gate to the second basement of the parking lot.Side by side, the two of them quietly listened to the sound of the rollers sliding across the flat ground. Instead of feeling harsh, they felt healed by white noise.

After putting away his luggage and getting into the car, Ling Yi turned around to fasten his seat belt, and turned around to find Li Xingchuan staring at him from a close distance.

The car was also quiet, and the deep eyes were overwhelming, as if there were countless emotions hidden in them that could not be expressed in words.

He pursed his lips, and put two fingers against Li Xingchuan's forehead, "What are you doing?"

Li Xingchuan paused, tilted his head to kiss him, and slowly stroked his earlobe with the ball of his thumb.

Since the restart, they have received countless kisses, and every time Ling Yi will feel her heart twitching, because every kiss is different, and no matter how many times she practices, she won't get tired of it.Sometimes they kissed tightly, the intense throbbing spread from the heart to the lips, and the two of them trembled slightly when hugged together, and sometimes they were so gentle that people's eyes flooded, as if they wanted to melt each other into the body with the temperature of a kiss From then on, they are truly inseparable.

Li Xingchuan stopped, his voice hoarse: "What are your plans for tomorrow?"

Ling Yi propped herself up and sat up straight: "Go see a psychiatrist."

"I'll accompany you."

The body tensed up for a moment.

"Don't be nervous." Li Xingchuan lowered his voice, "I'm just sitting next to you. If you feel uncomfortable at that time, you can seal my mouth with tape."

After finishing speaking, the hand that caught Ling Yi was placed on his mouth.

It was rare for him to be like this, Ling Yi couldn't help but look away from smiling, and after a while murmured in a low voice: "Where do you need tape, the words are enough... The mouth growing on your body is just a decoration..."

As soon as he finished speaking, he was kissed again, and Li Xingchuan used his actions to prove that his mouth was not just for display: "It's fine if I can kiss you."

Later, I turned to the calendar and found out that this day is actually Lichun.

In the afternoon of the next day, Li Xingchuan took Ling Yi to the hospital on time, and the psychologist was already waiting in the consultation room.

The doctor's surname is Qi, a woman in her forties, gentle and mature with a bit of ability.Ever since Ling Yi came in, she found that he was not as preoccupied as before.The patient's condition improved, and she couldn't help but speak lightly: "How did you go this time? It's said that the water on the outer island is so blue that there are no impurities at all. Is it true?"

Ling Yi took off the scarf and felt warm all over: "Really, it's more sun-drenched, Doctor Qi, remember to wear sunscreen if you go."

Dr. Qi smiled: "It seems that you are indeed dark."

Li Xingchuan, who came here for the first time, watched silently from behind.The overall tone of the consultation room is very soft. There are only two fabric sofas, a round coffee table, and wooden wall-mounted bookshelves in the [-]-square-meter room. There are no rectangular objects other than that.

After sitting down, Dr. Qi poured Ling Yi a cup of warm water, and then smiled at Li Xingchuan: "What to drink? I only have water and tea to choose from here, and the tea is Jin Junmei."

Li Xingchuan said, "Same as Ling Yi."

Dr. Qi nodded slightly, his eyes slowly surveyed his surroundings, and then went to pour water.She picked up an upside-down glass from the tray, turned her back to them and said: "Actually, according to my usual work habits, I suggest that family members wait outside. But since Ling Yi made a request, this time you are here Come with me inside."

Turning around, she raised her chin towards the single sofa in the corner: "You can sit there, so that Ling Yi can't see you when we talk, and she can relax her mind."

Li Xingchuan took the water: "There is Dr. Lao Qi."

The real conversation area is by the window, with a lot of sunlight coming in, the sofa is very low, and the budding poplar treetops can still be seen outside the window.After sitting down, Ling Yi looked back at Li Xingchuan, their eyes met, Li Xingchuan looked very calm, Ling Yi slowly let go of his tightly pursed lips.

The lights in the room were dimmed, the curtains were loosely drawn, and the brightness of the light was just right.

The previous conversations were also carried out in this way, and Ling Yi was already familiar with it.At the beginning, because Li Xingchuan was still a little cautious around him, and put his hands together in front of him, Dr. Qi motioned him to lie half on the sofa and chat with him with his eyes closed.

Ling Yi complied.

Hearing is sharpened after vision is turned off.He heard Dr. Qi refill the cup with some water, and heard the soft sound of Dr. Qi drinking water.After the cup was gently put down, Dr. Qi asked in a very soft tone, with a hint of jokes, "Where did we talk before you left? I forgot, did you learn how to make buttons in prison?"

Ling Yi hummed.

"Then let's continue talking here today. To be honest, I haven't really nailed buttons myself, not once. Even if my son's clothes are broken, I just take them to the mall to get them. It's really cool to think about it." I'm a little ashamed. Is it difficult to make buttons?"

If his eyes were open, Ling Yi's gaze should be looking at the ceiling at this time, but he closed his eyes.The eyes under his eyelids moved slightly, as if he was remembering, and he paused for a moment before saying: "It's not difficult to learn, the main thing is to do it quickly, or you won't be able to complete the task."

"What mission?"

"It's the workload assigned to each group."

"How many people in a group?"

"Eight, actually the eight in our room."

Dr. Qi looked at his face and felt that he had gradually relaxed, so he asked, "Who is the slowest?"

"I."

"you?"

"real."

"You don't look like someone with poor hands-on ability."

Ling Yi's Adam's apple moved, and his intertwined fingers retracted, "I hurt my hand at that time."

Li Xingchuan in the corner slowly frowned.

Doctor Qi stopped, took a sip of water, and then asked: "Then you can't complete the task."

Ling Yi's right thumb slid gently on her left hand, and her cheek turned to the side of the curtain, "No, someone will help me. If I can't finish it, he will come and help me."

"The people in your room?"

"Ah."

"It seems that you are popular no matter where you go."

A slight smile appeared on his pale face, "No."

Doctor Qi also smiled softly: "You're still modest."

"Really not." Ling Yi lowered his voice and spoke more slowly, "He helped me because I helped him. We... We haven't talked much from the beginning to the end, and we are not even friends. superior."

"It turns out that we should help each other. What did that person do?"

Ling Yi seemed to think quietly for a while: "I forgot, it seems to hurt someone on purpose."

Dr. Qi snorted, "It's not a small crime."

The answer was slightly bitter: "Small crimes will not be assigned to our room."

The bluish-white lamp above his head erased the edges and corners of his face, leaving only a vague expression that was deeply involved in the past.

"Well, I remember you said it." Dr. Qi's eyes were very serious, but his tone was calm, "The people in your room are not easy to mess with." After finishing speaking, he paused intentionally, and laughed a little, "Except other than you."

Ling Yi was silent.

Deciding to further tighten the conversation, Dr. Qi changed his sitting posture, put his left leg on his right leg, and leaned against the back of the sofa, "If you get tired from sitting, get up and take a walk." After she finished speaking, she looked into the corner With a glance, he made a T-sign to Li Xingchuan with both hands, signaling him not to get up and let alone move around.

In fact, she didn't have to say it at all.From the beginning to the end, Li Xingchuan remained motionless, like a sculpture forgotten in a corner.

"I'm fine." Ling Yi shook her head.

"Then let's continue." She changed into a more casual tone, "Let's talk about the topic just now. Is the inmate you mentioned just now released from prison?"

"Maybe."

"should?"

"I'm not sure, I can't remember his sentence."

"He hasn't contacted you?"

"No……"

"That was my miscalculation. I thought you helped him. He will definitely contact you after he comes out, and at least have a meal and chat with you."

Ling Yi lowered her eyebrows: "There's nothing to see."

"How do you say that?"

"He certainly doesn't want to think about that time."

"You mean about the prison?"

"No..." He shook his head very slowly, "I mean to help him."

On the side of the coffee table, there are two hands that are getting tighter and tighter.Dr. Qi noticed and slowed down the pace of the conversation again.She smiled and said, "I started playing charades with me again. How could I understand it. Why don't you tell me what you have done to help him?"

He asked, "Do you have to say it?"

She replied: "Don't worry, I will definitely keep it secret for you and him."

This time Ling Yi was silent for a long time.

The sunlight outside the window shifted slowly, and it was still shining on the back of the sofa when it came in, but now it has silently spilled onto the oak floor.He turned his face sideways, his cheeks were as white as ice.

Dr. Qi stared at him, observing his every move. It took him a long time to see his lips move slightly, and he worked hard to make a sound: "He is not from the local area, he has changed prisons. He came the latest among the eight, so we can only Sleeps next to the toilet. It smells bad and wakes up at night... He doesn't want to sleep there all the time, he wants to change his location once a month, they don't agree... I can't hear it, but they are too loud When he was older, they bullied him every night. They beat him, put his head in the urinal, and they..."

Incoherent speech, this is the performance of telling the truth.Once the deliberately sealed memories are retrieved, the order will inevitably be a bit chaotic, and it will be even more illogical to speak out.But Li Xingchuan understood, and so did Dr. Qi.

She asked softly, "What else?"

His fingertips were trembling: "I also used socks to pack the leftover rice...they saved several meals, tied them with strings and hung them outside the window to dry, and then...then..."

"Then what?"

"Wait for it to dry...harden..."

The temperature in the room suddenly dropped, and the bodies of the remaining two people shivered at the same time.

Ling Yi slowly arched her back, and covered her face with her hands: "They think a man's rear is disgusting, and they don't want to use their own, so they use that thing to stab him... They don't let it go every night Him. There was blood all over his legs and the quilt, I saw it, I heard it, I was their accomplice."

His back was shaking violently.

Dr. Qi leaned forward and squeezed his wrist tightly: "But you helped him in the end."

"I should have helped him sooner, earlier. I should have spoken out when they hit him for the first time, why am I so cowardly, why am I so useless..." He hit his head with his hand, Each one was heavier than the other, and the dull sound hit the three people's hearts like a hammer.

Doctor Qi stopped him with both hands: "You are not cowardly, you are already very brave, not everyone has the courage to stand up in that situation, you have tried your best, right?"

He nodded desperately and did not cry out, but hot tears flowed out from between his fingers and onto his wrists, causing Dr. Qi's skin to burn.She has seen all kinds of patients and heard all kinds of stories in the practice for more than ten years, but at this moment, she still feels a dull pain in her heart.

She tried her best to suppress the turbulence in her heart, and continued to knock on the door: "You helped him, and you helped him in the end. Not only did you try your best, but you were hurt because of it, right? They beat you too, didn't you?" no?"

Rapid and suppressed breathing churned in the air.In the corner, Li Xingchuan's eyes were red, his hands were clenched into fists, and his forehead was covered with veins.

"Tell me, they stepped on your hand, didn't they?" Dr. Qi had read his medical records a long time ago, "They hit you, stepped on you, more than once, your hand hurts so much that you can't hold a pen, right?"

"Yes..." Ling Yi finally started to cry when her emotions were overwhelmed.

"But the prison guard sent you to the hospital for treatment. Your hand is already healed. Why don't you continue to draw?"

"I can not……"

"Why not?"

"I dare not..." He broke down in tears as he repeated.

"why?"

"They hit me once they saw them, they put my hands under the sewing machine, they stomped on my hands, they said they were going to sew my hands up...my hands were shaking...and shaking...I I won't draw anymore...I won't draw anymore...don't hit me...I won't draw anymore..."

"Don't be afraid..." Dr. Qi knelt beside him and hugged him tightly, "Don't be afraid, they're not here, don't be afraid."

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