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I looked at him suddenly, not quite understanding what he meant.He patted me on the shoulder comfortingly, and said, "Don't worry, I'll tell you slowly. My mother and Qing Pei's father were childhood sweethearts since childhood, and then they broke up completely for some reason, until they were separated from each other. After we both got married, we started to contact again. Qing Pei and I grew up together, and we have a deep relationship. Needless to say, but in fact, my mother was very disgusted that I had close contacts with him in private. Later, I slowly discovered the relationship between my mother and Qing Pei. The contact with my father is only because of the company's cooperation and the superficial etiquette of adults. I didn't find out that my mother was responsible for the car accident until after the investigation results came out. You must not believe it, my mother and Qing Pei's father Except for the marriage certificate, there is nothing else like a normal couple. Later, because of conflicting personalities, Qing Pei's father gave up this relationship, and soon entered into a business marriage with Qing Pei's mother."

I looked at him in surprise, even if I thought about it, I couldn't think of such a relationship.He looked at me a little unnaturally: "My mother has a strong nature. She felt that not only was she not loved because she didn't care about her status, but she was also abandoned. The person she used to sleep with married someone else. Ken bowed his head, so he turned around and married the business tycoon, my father, Gu Zhongshan. Not long before Qing Pei's birthday, my mother contacted someone to make an accident. What happened, it’s just that she didn’t even think that it was me who was hurt in the end. This is probably karma.”

It suddenly occurred to me that during the last year in prison, those who used to bully me seemed to be less rampant. I thought it was because of their conscience, but now it doesn’t look like that. It should be the reason why Gu Aiyu obstructed me behind the scenes.Sure enough, he said sorry to me softly.

"It was my negligence. I thought you were going to come out soon, so I let down my guard and let you get hurt when you were about to get out of prison. I know it's unfair to ask you to forgive me, but that's my mother , I really can't do anything to her, I can only ask you to forgive me. To be honest, what I want to ask you to forgive is that I didn't tell Qing Pei about these things. I can't imagine what I should do when he is against my mother. But don't worry, I guarantee with my life that my mother will never do this kind of thing again."

I looked at him ironically and smiled, I wanted to say something but was powerless, I guess if Gu Aiyu told Shen Qingpei about this, then Shen Qingpei would definitely believe it, but even if I said it a hundred thousand times, he would still be able to do it Turn a blind eye.After a long time, we just sat quietly, what happened in these years is such a twist.

Finally he opened his mouth and said, "Don't feel bad, and don't commit suicide. In fact, I knew you would come to see me, so I never let anyone stay here. Apart from the truth back then, I want to tell you two things , the first thing is that I will go abroad soon, and I will marry Yue Xun abroad. If there is no accident, I should live abroad all year round. Of course, I will definitely come back every year. The second thing I said yesterday I have already told Yue Xun about this, and we decided that before we go abroad, we will leave a letter to Qing Pei, telling him the facts, I cannot live in deception, no matter whether he chooses revenge or forgives me, I will bear it."

Marry Yue Xun?I'm a little confused. I found out very early on that Yue Xun was unrequitedly in love with Gu Aiyu. That's why, when nothing happened, Yue Xun and I still had a lot of common topics to talk about. Tianya feels like a fallen person, but why do the two of them want to get married?

"Look at your mouth, you can swallow an egg." He looked at me funny, and then said: "I used to like Shen Qingpei all the time, but I was too cowardly, and he didn't know you at that time. When I confessed, I simply ran away. Because of my personal character and family reasons, I dare not bear or face the consequences of accepting him. And you should also feel that he is too good and too dazzling Now, I think I can't keep up with him. Instead of losing the original beauty in the end, it's better to just be friends from the beginning, but that's not the case with Yue Xun. Yue Xun is also very good. But his personality is completely opposite to Shen Qing Pei's, so I don't have a trace of pressure. Pei is also there, but Qing Pei is making up for his guilt, while Yue Xun is determined."

It was only then that I thought about why Yue Xun had such a temper with me after I came back. It turns out that they have become so inseparable. Then Shen Qingpei...do you know?

As if he had seen through my thoughts, he looked at me helplessly: "If you think Qing Pei still likes me, then you are very wrong. He regarded you as my substitute at the beginning, that's right, I There is no other meaning in saying this. In fact, he likes me just because I am his only good playmate. His parents are too busy to give him the slightest warmth but demand him with harsh standards, and I happen to be Participated in his growth during his childhood and teenage years, he mistook dependence and liking for liking, of course you can say that we can go on if we don’t tell the truth, I don’t deny it, but sooner or later he will I found that, apart from his habit, he didn't have the slightest throbbing towards me. He is such an arrogant and stubborn person, no one will point out that he may be confused for the rest of his life."

"And you think about it, did he really treat you as a substitute for the five years he spent with you? Many things he wouldn't do to me would subconsciously do for you. When the four of us got together, he also did it naturally I like to be close to you, you must know that casual intimacy cannot deceive people."

I shook my head, my heart full of bitterness.Probably because I lied to myself in those five years, so I got deeper and deeper.At that time, he would always be full of joy because of the little things Shen Qingpei did, maybe he was different in his heart.If it hadn't been for the accident, I might have been living in the beauty that I woven for myself, but I didn't know that I didn't have a trace of credibility in his heart until the accident happened.

I lowered my head: "If he really loves me, how could he not believe me, let alone send me to prison with his own hands."

"I know that he hurt your heart, and I didn't want to excuse him. The so-called love is deeply responsible. Besides, I have seen the fake evidence, which is enough to confuse the real. You know why I can find out Didn't Qing Pei's mother know the truth? Because the person who helped my mother make a fake was Qing Pei's father. I think his father didn't want him to know where he got the news at the time, so he put everything together as quickly as possible. Put it on your head, you said so many people and evidence, if it were you, wouldn’t you have misunderstood it under the circumstances at that time? He was wrong, but he didn’t have a good time in the ten years you went in. He has never Accepting other people besides you, even though I woke up nine years ago, he still compensates me like a debtor, not so much because I feel that I got hurt for him by mistake, but because Treating your fault as his own fault, he never overstepped the distance of being a good friend to me. I know that unless you figure it out yourself, no matter how much others persuade you, it will be useless."

I used to think that I must want a result. I think that even if I can't change anything, at least it is an explanation to myself.Until now, everything has become clear, but I am not as relaxed and relieved as I imagined.I appreciate and envy Gu Aiyu's straightforwardness and frankness. For the first time, I looked at him undisguisedly: "You are luckier than me. You must not know what I envy you. You have so many things that I don't have. I never cursed you in my heart, I hope you have a bad life, the only one who envies, or can be said to be jealous of you is probably this name."

I smiled weakly: "Although our names have the same pronunciation and one word is repeated, we are far apart by thousands of miles. My surname is Ai, and the reason is that the name of the orphanage before was Love Orphanage, so I named it The homonym Ai. We are like two extremes created by God. Even though we have similar names, our lives are vastly different. If it weren’t for this name, maybe there would be no such things in the future.”

He seemed to want to say something, but took it back, and only persuaded: "You look so gentle, but you are actually stubborn in your bones. It's just the same, no matter what happens to you in the future, I will always be your friend. Nothing will change, and I hope that I can help you when you are in trouble, and I will be very happy."

I smiled in relief: "Okay."

After I left his ward, I didn't go back to my own ward, but took a taxi to the bank. I haven't touched the card that Ye Hongyun gave me back then, and I don't know how much money is in it.It was only when I arrived at the bank that I realized that 50 was deposited in it.Thinking of Ye Hongyun's sly and smart face, a warm current surged into my heart. That silly girl is too pure, and I can't make her happy. I just hope that there is someone who can stand shoulder to shoulder with her and accompany her to grow old.

I withdrew [-] yuan of money and kept it for future backup and immediate expenses.It wasn't until I got back to the hospital that I saw Aunt Qing was in such a hurry, her eyes lit up when she saw me coming in, but she almost burst into tears: "You scared me, I was afraid that you would commit suicide, I was thinking of notifying Mr. Shen if you don't come back."

I smiled apologetically: "I just feel a little bored, I just went for a walk. I made you worry."

Sister Qing breathed a sigh of relief, then picked up an insulated lunch box and handed it to me like a treasure: "This is the dumpling I made for you in a hurry. It's cleaner than the ones sold outside. Try it."