old farewell

He Baorong never came to see me again, nor did I take the initiative to inquire about him.As the days passed, I gradually became obsessed with playing.Occasionally, I would win money, so my partner Zhang Wan and I started to share the money.We split like spoils, he gets two dollars and I get three dollars, I find him cute sometimes.Let's say we win five dollars.He would hold five yuan and look at me cheerfully, "I'll give you two."

"Why are you three dollars and I two dollars?"

He giggled, and handed me another piece: "Okay, then I'll give you three pieces."

I feel that life is not so difficult anymore.I found out that among the group of people, Zhang Wan had the loudest voice.Playing football in the alley in the afternoon is actually very hot.do not know why.I think that summer went by so quickly.

Not long after, I drank with him in the bar again.He looked very happy.Pour a full glass of wine and hand it to me, "Come on, thank you for taking care of me for so long."

"Have you saved enough money?"

"correct."

"Congratulations." The wine glasses collided, but they knew in their hearts that there is no permanent banquet in the world.He will leave too.Disappear.He once said that a person's voice cannot be disguised, I don't know if he can hear my current mood.Even I don't understand my own mood, as if I'm used to the existence of something, and it's about to be replaced by loss.

"Where are you ready to go?"

"Go south to a place called USHUALA." His voice was full of expectation.

It was the end of the world, and I told him there was a lighthouse, where lovelorn people like to go.Can leave unhappy.

He asked me, "Is anyone else doing this now?"

"I don't know, maybe there is."

He thought for a while, then took out a tape recorder: "Come, say a few words."

"No, I don't know what to say." I was a little embarrassed.I really don't know what to say.I never thought that anyone would keep something about me as a souvenir.

"It's okay, just talk about whatever you want, even if you are unhappy, I will help you stay at the end of the world."

"I'm not unhappy!" I immediately retorted with a smile.

Maybe it's my restraint.He said to go out to play and leave the tape recorder behind.I watched him get up and squeeze into the crowd before picking up the tape recorder.Putting it on my lips, I still can't think of what to say.Eyes suddenly sore.It's hard in my heart, it's uncomfortable for what has been lost, it's uncomfortable for what is being lost, and it's uncomfortable for what can't be kept.All emotions filled my mind at once, and I could only hold back my sobs.

Naturally, I was drunk.I think this may be the last time I get drunk.He carried my luggage and sent me back to the rental house.Finally he held my hand and said, "I hope to see you sometime in the future."

"You close your eyes."

"what?"

"Close your eyes first."

Zhang Wan closed her eyes obediently.Gradually, he overlapped with the image of the person I remember deeply.

"Do you know that you look like a human being?"

"Who?"

"Blindman."

He laughed.Then he hugged me urgently, and I hugged him back.It's not like that.Because the hug between me and He Baorong is very intimate.The only thing between me and him is a hug.

he's gone.

I don't know if I had too much contact with him, but I couldn't hear anything when I hugged him that night.Just hear your own heartbeat.I don't know if he heard it?

Now it's just me.I'm still going round and round in this country.I now know why I was the last one left, because whether it is He Baorong or Zhang Wan, they all yearn for freedom and further places.