Embroidered Pillows and Paper Tigers

The earlobe was wet, and after confirming that he was not bleeding, Li Shi'an's mountain of distress disappeared in an instant, and he could no longer fall asleep peacefully.

Shen Yan kissed him?If this is not a dream, then Shen Yan must be crazy.

Li Shi'an took a closer look, wondering if he was pretending to sleep, what happened just now?

Of course, Shen Yan didn't fall asleep. He didn't expect that Li Shi'an's actions just now would awaken Li Shi'an. Li Shi'an's breathing was close at hand. He didn't dare to open his eyes. Opening his eyes was to show that he had done the absurd thing just now, so he could only slow down as much as possible. Stop breathing and try to fall asleep as normal.

Li Shi'an couldn't tell whether he was asleep or awake, so he had to lie back.

The two of them fell asleep in a panic with one of them in their arms, and they didn't know when they fell asleep.

Early the next morning, when Shen Yan came back from his run, he saw that Li Shi'an was still sleeping, so he went into the kitchen and planned to make breakfast before waking him up.

I don't know if what happened last night is over. Shen Yan doesn't know if Li Shi'an will ask, if he asks, how should he answer?

After thinking about it, I felt that I was thinking too much. Li Shi'an should not ask. According to normal logic, he should pretend that nothing happened.

nothing happened?But it obviously happened.

Shen Yan made a start, he didn't know if it was a good start, but since he started this start, he didn't want to hide it.

Thinking about something in his heart, water was boiling in the pot. After the water boiled, Shen Yan withdrew his thoughts and lifted the lid of the pot.

Put two fingers of thick and thin noodles into the pot. One end of the noodles becomes soft when it meets the water. When the chopsticks are stirred, they are completely submerged in the water. Look at the time to prepare the soup. In another small pan, fry the eggs. Wash the shallots and chop them finely. Take the time to pick up the noodles and pick them into the prepared ingredients.

Before the end of the summer vacation, Shen Yan was already familiar with doing these things. He could find pleasure in taking care of Li Shi'an's trivial matters, so he was willing to learn, and he learned well.

A piece of firm noodles, a fried egg that is old and tender, cooked vegetables, topped with sesame oil, sprinkled with chopped green onion, and two bowls of fried egg noodles served on the table, full of aroma, and I will not forget it at the end Put a carton of milk next to Li Shi'an's bowl.

Li Shi'an just came down from upstairs. He had already forgotten the worries of last night. When he saw the noodles made by Shen Yan, he moved his index finger, ignored the milk, and ate with chopsticks like a starved ghost reincarnated.

The two filled their stomachs with noodles, looked up and saw that the rose brought back by Shen Yan last night was actually placed in the vase that had been empty all year round on the dining table, and suddenly remembered something that had been forgotten last night, and couldn't hold back for a moment, choking Almost breathless.

"What's wrong?" Shen Yan handed him water and hurriedly patted him on the back.

Li Shi'an breathed a sigh of relief: "No, it's nothing." At the end, he added, "This flower...my dad thought I was in love, so I better throw it away."

Shen Yan was happy when he heard the word "love", but he was reluctant to hear "throw it away": "I bought it for ten yuan."

Li Shi'an couldn't see anything from Shen Yan's face, thinking about the inexplicably wet earlobes last night, but felt that it wasn't because of the ten yuan that he didn't throw away the flowers.Soon, Shen Yan's actions proved his guess.

Shen Yan didn't return home last night. After eating, he went into the kitchen to tidy up and was about to go home. Before leaving, he took the rose away. Before going out, he wanted to hide it: "Anyway, you don't want it."

The more Li Shi'an thought about it, the more something went wrong, and the more he thought about it, the more confused he became. He turned on the projector, and the last night's movie ending prologue that was left on the player was displayed on the projection screen.

This is Shen Yan's chosen movie.

The movie that Shen Yan chose was the first time that Shen Yan offered to watch a movie. It was a movie about homosexuality.

After one night, Li Shi'an's reflex arc finally circled the earth and returned to the end point, but the more he was sure about Shen Yan's meaning, the more he refused to admit it.

Admittedly, it means that this friend is gone. At the beginning, he wanted to know Shen Yan because he wanted to be a confidant, but he couldn't think that one day he wouldn't be able to be a friend, he couldn't recognize him, and he didn't even want to recognize him.

"Thinking too much." Li Shi'an said to himself, and patted his chest to comfort himself after speaking, "It must be thinking too much."

After some rationalization, Li Shi'an was quite at ease, and then received Shen Yan's WeChat message: [I can't come over at noon, you can settle lunch yourself, you can't skip it.Let's do the quiz together in the afternoon, what do you want to eat in the evening?Anything is fine, you think, I will do it. 】

The word "Pampering" was almost written on the screen for a moment. What self-soothing is justified is bullshit. A thunder in the head shocked Li Shi'an in place.

What is Shen Yan crazy about?

Li Shi'an knows what kind of friendship between same-sex people is, they are utterly honest and open-minded, but there is absolutely no such thing as "favor".

What is Shen Yan thinking?

Just when Li Shi'an was feeling all sorts of things in his heart, Lao Xie called and said that the classes will be divided when the school starts, and there will be a party in the class, and there will be a barbecue in Dongshan in the afternoon.

Li Shi'an's first reaction was to ask Lao Xie if he had told Shen Yan, if not, he would just hide in the afternoon.Old Xie's voice was loud: "No, you're not together, so I'll tell him right now?"

Lao Xie hung up on the other end, and Li Shi'an didn't have time to stop him. When he called back impatiently, the line was already busy.

Li Shi'an: "..."

Putting down the phone, Li Shi'an changed his mind and comforted himself, would Shen Yan's "love" for him be the same as his brother's love for his younger brother?

But which brother would put his brother's earlobe in his mouth?

One of them couldn't figure it out, and the more he thought about it, the more upset he became, so he went out to find Lao Xie.

Whenever there is a barbecue party in the class, Lao Xie has always organized it, because there are a lot of barbecue utensils and frozen goods in Lao Xie’s home supermarket, just go to the vegetable market to prepare fresh fruits and vegetables and some fresh meat, and this time it will not exception.

But when it comes to going to the vegetable market, Lao Xie started preparing before noon. When Li Shian found him in the vegetable market, he was negotiating with the fruit sellers.

"Why are you alone? Why didn't Shen Yan come?" When Lao Xie heard that Li Shi'an said he was coming, he thought that Shen Yan would also follow.

Li Shi'an ran out to try to calm his mind, who knew which pot Lao Xie would not open and which pot he picked up, so he peeled a banana and stuffed it in his mouth.

Lao Xie was baffled, in the morning he called Shen Yan, and Shen Yan told him to go to Shi'an and he would go, the relationship between the two of them was so good that even his old classmate couldn't compare, what happened now?

Before he had time to ask, Li Shi'an had already left with the bags he had bought for him.

In the afternoon, the students arrived one after another. Li Shi'an and Lao Xie were responsible for lighting up the charcoal fires of several grills. When the charcoal fires of the last grill were all burning, Li Shi'an saw Shen Yan coming in the crowd.

As soon as Shen Yan saw Li Shi'an, he gave Xing Shi'an a questioning look, and he sent a WeChat message to Li Shi'an saying that they would study the questions together in the afternoon, but Li Shi'an slipped away without saying hello, and didn't answer the phone.

The wechat message sent this morning was a bit overdone. Shen Yan did it on purpose. Li Shi’an didn’t respond to the movie last night. what's the situation.

Li Shi'an met Shen Yan's gaze, thinking that it was all his own guesswork without evidence, and he couldn't really just ignore people like this. He patted the soot on his hands and explained, "I'll help Lao Xie move things this afternoon. I didn’t hear the phone in his bag, but I saw it later, and I can’t return it with dirty hands.”

With his explanation, Shen Yan felt relieved. With this relaxation, he suddenly stretched his hand towards Li Shi'an's face. Before he could say anything, Li Shi'an blocked him, and the air was suddenly filled with embarrassment.

Shen Yan's heart sank suddenly, and he added: "Your face is dirty."

Li Shi'an was completely stunned. He washed his face and turned around to distance himself. After taking a few steps, he paused, remembering that Shen Yan only knew him well in class. You won't be comfortable anywhere in the afternoon.

As soon as his heart softened, he ran into another evil star, Tang Doudou.

Tang Doudou didn't harass Li Shi'an after holding back for a semester and a summer vacation. In fact, she was annoyed by the phrase "we are not suitable".

Exasperated, she likes this boy, since the first time he entered Class 1 of Experimental High School, the so-called love at first sight.

But Li Shi'an always avoids her, she thinks that Li Shi'an has a girl he likes, but after observing for a long time, she also sees that he walks closest to the new student in the class.

The two boys get together every day, and Tang Doudou assumes that Li Shi'an is someone he doesn't like anymore. Now that he sees Li Shi'an, he's not in a hurry, and he doesn't force him anymore. .

Tang Doudou walked up to Li Shi'an, and without saying a word, handed over a bunch of meat skewers, full of them, and holding it in his hand, it felt like 99 roses.

The people in the class were almost here now, and a few boys started to make noises. Tang Doudou was going to take the art and sports class. Li Shi'an thought that he would be divided into classes and couldn't refuse, so he accepted it.

Sitting next to Lao Xie holding a bunch of meat skewers, Lao Xie said leisurely, "I've been busy all afternoon, and I haven't eaten a bite up to this point. You're lucky."

Without saying a word, Li Shi'an divided half of the bamboo sticks in his hand, thinking in his heart, it's a good thing Yu Qiao didn't come today, otherwise he would make people feel miserable.

Shen Yan settled down when he came, and finally sat next to Lao Xie, one on the left and one on the right with Li Shi'an, with Lao Xie in the middle.

It was still hot, Lao Xie was fat, and he was almost cooked by charcoal grilling, and he returned the angry goods between the two of them. He swallowed the last bamboo stick Li Shi'an gave him, lifted his ass and left, leaving There is a distance between Li Shi'an and Shen Yan.

Sitting on the opposite side were a few familiar but unfamiliar classmates who were chattering. Li Shi'an could strike up a conversation with everyone, but Shen Yan didn't speak.

He grilled skewers for Li Shi'an, a string of fish, a string of shrimp, a string of tofu... Passed them like running water, Li Shi'an continued, and he didn't do anything with Shen Yan, it didn't make sense for Shen Yan to let him not eat, just eat I was full, and when I turned my head, Tang Doudou handed me another handful.

Is this the rhythm to support the dead?Li Shi'an had already refused in his heart, but when he raised his eyes and met Tang Doudou's forcedly gentle eyes, he regarded himself as a ruthless skewering machine.

Li Shi'an just breathed a sigh of relief, Shen Yan handed over a few more strings of chicken wings, and he couldn't refuse, he said: "Enough, enough, I'm full."

Shen Yan stared at him blankly, and didn't intend to take it back. Li Shi'an understood that this guy was competing with Tang Doudou.

What do you call Tang Doudou?Li Shi'an was speechless and accepted his fate.

Lao Xie came out of nowhere to look for drinks, but he drank them all, so he panicked and grabbed Li Shi'an's drink and drank it wildly.

Li Shi'an roared, "Mine!"

"It's so hot, I can't take care of it anymore," Old Xie said dissatisfied after quenching his thirst, "We both slept, what's wrong with drinking a drink? You're stingy."

What Lao Xie was talking about was that once he quarreled with his family and went to live in Li Shi'an's house for two days, but now because of Shen Yan's relationship, Li Shi'an is now afraid to hear these sensitive words.

He felt that if he hadn't been too out-of-shape and caused Shen Yan to misunderstand something, Shen Yan wouldn't have those messy thoughts.

"Shut up, don't talk nonsense." Li Shi'an snatched the drink bottle from Lao Xie's hand, took it in his hand, thought for a while, and put it on the low table next to him.

What does Lao Xie think of him today? He's not right: "Hey, what's the matter? I have a girlfriend? Even if I have a girlfriend, I won't be jealous of me, right? I'm not a woman."

Li Shi'an looked at Lao Xie even more annoyed.

Lao Xie bumped into him, asked him to move, and squeezed his ass over: "You boy, you won't really meet someone you like if you go on a trip, right? Shen Yan, didn't you follow? What's going on? "

Lao Xie walked over Li Shi'an to talk to Shen Yan. Shen Yan and Li Shi'an were arm in arm at the moment, still thinking about what Lao Xie said, "I have slept in it", and silently squeezed the piece of "Xiao Xie's nest" in his pocket. After speaking in half, he said slowly, "No."

Someone next to him spoke up: "Do you know, can you still follow Li Shi'an at night?"

"We sleep in the same room at night." Shen Yan said.

Someone ridiculed again: "Hey, old Xie, your Shi'an cheated!"

"What's going on? It's obvious that Shi'an and Shen Yan are true love. How long have you known each other? They are like glue, and Fei Xie is the third child!"

Everyone joked with each other, but Li Shian felt embarrassed all over. Normally, he would not care about these jokes, and would take the initiative to make fun of them, but today he was obviously not in the mood, so he said to leave in advance, and Lao Xie complained about him. He didn't listen to a few words to leave too early.

As soon as he left, Shen Yan followed naturally, and the two of them walked down the mountain. Li Shi'an kept thinking about a question: Do I look crooked?

Immediately deny it, fart, I am straighter than a tree.

He held the back of his head with his hands and looked far away. Among the sycamore trees he could see on both sides of the road, one was twisted coquettishly, with its neck crooked out of the sky.

Li Shi'an almost fell flat on the ground.

Shen Yan helped him, remembering how Li Shi'an blocked him when we first met today, and then withdrew his hand. He wasn't quite sure whether Li Shi'an understood, nor was he sure what he meant, so he could only talk nonsense. Said: "Why didn't Zhu He come today?"

Li Shi'an said, "He does a summer job."

After a moment of silence, Shen Yan said, "That tomorrow..."

Li Shi'an also spoke at the same time: "Tomorrow I..."

When the words collided, no one said anything.

After waiting for a few seconds, Li Shi'an picked up the conversation first: "You go ahead."

Shen Yan had just heard Li Shi'an explain tomorrow, and wanted to know Li Shi'an's plans for tomorrow, so he humbly said, "You should talk about it first."

Li Shi'an also heard Shen Yan say that it was tomorrow, and he was afraid that Shen Yan would say that we would do some quizzes together, so he thought it would be good to be ahead of the game and arrange his own time, so he said, "I'm going to C City tomorrow to see my grandparents."

Going to see his grandparents is actually a decision Li Shi'an made after a long time of thinking. He doesn't care about being cheated. After all, there are not many family relationships left for him in this world, and some people disappear for 16 years, and they don't even want to lie to themselves.

I've always wanted to go, but I just didn't take any action. Now it's perfect to take it out to block Shen Yan.

Shen Yan didn't speak when he heard the words, looking forward to Li Shi'an's invitation to him.

The two parted at the door of the house. Li Shi'an knew what Shen Yan was waiting for, but he kept his heart cold and didn't say anything. He told himself that it would be good to get over it, and let Shen Yan know what he was thinking, making him discouraged.

In the end, Shen Yan didn't wait for the sound of "Let's go together", and pushed open another side-by-side heavy door with the sound of "click" closing the door.

Li Shi'an went to City C alone the next day, made several trips to Changshou Street, and bought fruit and milk at the fruit shop at the corner of the street.

The two old people didn't expect Li Shi'an to come. After several months, they kept silent about what happened that day, and they also kept silent about Liang Jing.Just asked about study, body and so on.

It wasn't a common family member at first, and they didn't have too much to say. After chatting for two or three hours, the room became quiet.

Grandpa washed the fruit and put it on the table and asked, "Why didn't the male classmate who came that day come?"

Li Shi'an didn't hear from Shen Yan for a long time, and didn't know what Shen Yan was doing, so he dealt with it indiscriminately: "Oh...he has something to do." Looking up and seeing the old clock on the wall, he said, "I should go, now I can go back Catch the last bus."

Grandma said earnestly: "Then I won't go back, it's rare for you to come, and there is still a room, so you can stay here for one night."

"The journal will start tomorrow." Li Shi'an was in a dilemma.

Grandma continued to say, but grandpa came out and interrupted: "Young people don't feel comfortable living with old people. Don't embarrass the children."

When they went out, the grandfather saw them off, and the two went downstairs. The grandfather said, "Your grandmother...she misses your mother too much. After more than ten years, her own daughter is gone, as if she had never been born. Anyone else will suffer." No. To be fair, your mother's departure has nothing to do with your father, but your grandmother refuses to believe it. Don't take what happened last time to your heart. "

This is to admit that grandma lied about what happened last time, and Li Shi'an said, "No way."

The old man patted Li Shi'an on the shoulder: "If you have nothing to do, come and see us two old guys more. When you are old, it is only when you see you young people that you feel hopeful in life."

Li Shi'an nodded: "Yes, Grandpa."

The old man didn't force him to do anything, and the overall mood was relatively relaxed after contacting him this time.

Li Shi'an told Li Qishan about his idea of ​​recognizing his grandparents. Li Qishan was holding his breath, but in the end he chose to respect the child, and endured the whole day without calling Li Shi'an.Knowing that his father was worried, Li Shi'an hung up the phone to Li Qishan on the way home, and Li Qishan didn't mention it when he knew everything was fine.

In order to catch the last car back, Li Shi'an didn't even eat any food, and was so hungry that his chest stuck to his back. At this moment, when he closed his eyes in the car, it was all the food that Shen Yan made for him, such as chicken wings in soy sauce, double pepper Fish, beef wrapped in sauce, even the simplest fried egg noodle, Shen Yan cooks so well... the more I think about it, the hungrier I get.

Opening his eyes and pulling the phone twice, Li Shi'an looked at Shen Yan'an's quiet profile picture, wondering what the hell this guy was doing all day without paying attention to him, thinking about it, he felt that he was bored, why bother to hide and think.

I simply turned off the screen, but there was a huge emptiness in my heart.

When returning home, he passed the community swimming pool. The bustle of the swimming pool had ended with the end of the summer vacation. It was very quiet. Li Shi'an glanced over there inadvertently. He saw a figure swaying inside, and at this time Shen Yan also looked over.

The dancing and walking people stopped when their eyes met. In the end, Li Shi'an turned his head and walked away as if he hadn't seen anything.