Psychological Control

The other reason I mentioned is actually very simple, America's Next Top Model.From this year male models are allowed to participate.

This is a reality talent show, and the final reward of the show is also very attractive.A contract with a modeling agency sponsoring the show, a chance to be on the cover of a famous fashion magazine, and an advertising contract with a luxury brand.

Regardless of whether the champion of this competition can be won or not, it is only the first step in my trilogy.Build popularity.

In this competition, what is important to me is not whether I can win the championship on the show, but whether I can win the hearts of the people on the show.After all, this is an era of looking at faces. There is no reality show that is more likely to attract fans than this kind of model competition where beauty accounts for more than half of the proportion.

The goal is to enter the entertainment circle, but I don't want to take a career that is too restrictive like an actor and a singer.Reality TV star is the most suitable career direction for me after two years of investigation.

In the midst of all the attention, the sense of urgency to worry about being treated as a different kind of person will make it easier for me to adjust my mental state.The shackles formed by external factors do the same to Sheriff Harry's presence on Dexter.I don't have a strong and responsible adoptive father, so create an external factor myself.

And, if you want to hide your true self.Approachable and integrated into the community?In fact, this is just the most mediocre way, and it is also the easiest way to be exposed after the incident.In the profiling analysis in criminal psychology, no matter how well you hide in the crowd, you will be exposed under the psychological analysis of the profiler.

So, my purpose is not to hide, but to shape.When I created an impressive image in people's minds by participating in one reality show after another, and one can think of my name at the mention of my name, who else can easily break through the thick shell and see dozens of layers? What about me in the nesting doll?

"You're going to run for America's Next Top Model??!" Mike showed obvious surprise for the first time when I told him the news.He obviously couldn't understand why I, who is so concerned about privacy, would suddenly choose to participate in a reality show that might expose all my information.

I nodded, poured iced milk into the two cups of boiling tea, and put a cup of tea on the table in front of Mike. "That's right, America's Next Top Model began to allow male models to participate this year. The howling is so big, and the rewards are also big. I just want to try it out before going to college. Why, you don't have confidence in me?"

Mike took a sip of the tea and almost got scalded. "No, of course I have full confidence in you." He grinned without a smile on his face, "It's just that I didn't expect you to want to participate in this kind of program... After all, you always seem to like things these young people like not interested."

Actually, I had the idea of ​​participating in a reality show a long time ago.It's just that I didn't expect that the first applicant would be America's Next Top Model.I originally tended to be social games like Big Brother and Survivor.After all, only those kinds of social games can really allow me to exercise my mental control ability, whether it is for others or for myself.

Moreover, the reality show will expose the private life of the contestants.Reality shows would take up less of my time and garner more attention than singing into the limelight.And I want to use these concerns to monitor and control my behavior from the perspective of a third party.Because even if I stepped out of the mental sanatorium, I was still afraid and worried about Brian's own personality and the impact on me.

Of course, I will not tell anyone my real purpose.

"I just didn't have the time and energy before. I sent the video I took to participate in the initial audition a month ago, and then I received the re-election notice two weeks ago. The plane arrives in New York tomorrow, and it is estimated that 35 places will be selected. When the first episode is officially filmed, it will be cut in half." I held the teacup in both hands and smiled at Mike.

Mike stared at the cup of tea without making a sound. After a while, he said, "No wonder you said you would resign without saying a word. It's obviously a month before you start classes at the university."

"I will have a day off when I arrive in New York tomorrow. The day after tomorrow will be the re-election, and then I will wait for a week's notice in New York. Bless me, don't be dismissed before the official shooting." I took a sip of tea and said.

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From the small suitcase, I found the simplest white T-shirt, and the trouser legs of the straight jeans were rolled up at the calf, avoiding the high top of the Martin boots.I went to the mirror and brushed my hair. The ginger curly hair seemed to be glowing orange in the sunlight coming in from the window.

It seemed that everything was ready, I stuffed a few small change and credit cards into my trouser pocket, took my mobile phone in my hand, picked out a half-read book from the suitcase, opened the door of the hotel room and walked out.

Although Mike is often called a little old man, when passing the time, I still prefer to read those psychological works that he considers difficult and obscure.The re-election in New York is said to be attended by thousands of people, and it's always a good idea to bring something to pass the time.

After taking a taxi for ten minutes, we arrived at the re-selection site, a large studio.At this time, all the sets and cameras were cleared in the studio, and there were only rows of chairs for the models to wait in line.After receiving my number, I randomly found a place with no one to sit down, and opened the book in my hand.

There is still half an hour before the official start time, but almost everyone has arrived.At a glance, most of the boys who came to participate in the re-election are biased towards a neutral posture, which makes some of the more masculine boys get special attention. The female models only turn their eyes on them, and their eyes are hot At the same time, there are guards.

There is no discriminatory meaning. It can be said that gays are also the majority of the audience of America's Supermodel.However, for the fashion industry that respects female models, only male models full of masculinity can bring out the sexy and soft beauty of women.At this point these excited boys are probably going to be disappointed.

I'm not interested in joining the social games of those who don't know if there will be communication in the end. I just sit in a corner a little lonely, in order to distract my thoughts.After turning over a chapter, Rob Evan appeared on the scene with a camera, causing a commotion.

Rob Evan is the model judge of America's Next Top Model except for Tate, so naturally he is the representative of male models.Like Taylor, Rob is also a black supermodel. Although he has a dark complexion, he has a deep and angular face because of his mother's white mixed race.

I thought it was an accident that Rob, as a male model judge, appeared in the first America's Next Top Model competition with a male model, but unexpectedly, Taylor, the pillar of America's Next Top Model, and Jonathan, the creative director and location host of the competition, followed closely. Appeared on the scene after Rob.

The staff began to instruct the models to walk the show in groups according to the numbers they got. The models who got affirmed took another number plate and walked aside to wait for another screening. The models who were rejected in person left with a blank face.

I waited for another nearly an hour before being called to get my number plate. It seemed that I was still late.I was in a group with a male model and two female models, which seemed to be a well-balanced configuration.When the number was called for the first time, they had been watching in the crowd, and they jumped out excitedly when they heard their number.

I rubbed the space between my brows and stood up, closed the book and put it on the chair, walked around the crowd and walked to the place where the camera lens was directly facing. "Excuse me, excuse me." I squeezed out of the crowd with a smile on my face.

Every move under the camera is an exam, and I accurately calculated my every move as if I were standing on a stage.I walked out from the separated crowd. Amidst the excited expressions on the faces of the three models, I maintained a flat smile on my face.

"Brian Moss?" Jonathan took the last piece of information from the staff and called my name.

"Yes, sir." The crowd's crowd covered the curly hair on the forehead to the eyebrows. While answering Jonathan, I raised my right hand to comb the hair back from the forehead, and let it fall behind the ears.

Seeing my Jonathan and Taylor looked at each other and smiled, I just walked over to the three models as if I didn't notice their interaction.I could feel the sudden tension around me as the camera focused on the four of us standing side by side.

While the camera shot past the male model beside me, I pretended to inadvertently raise my eyes that were originally looking at the ground in front of me, and looked straight into the camera lens.The camera freezes for a second, I look away and put away my smile.

"You can start." Rob raised his hand to signal.

The crowd quieted down, and the male model next to me obviously wanted to get ahead of me, but I didn't know that I was watching his elbow from the corner of my eye.I took the step almost at the same time as his elbow flicked slightly.My stride is easy and strong, but he seems to start hurriedly because he wants to be one step ahead.

Martin boots elongate the overall line of my body, and there are clearly audible footsteps on the ground.My eyes clung to Rob's as he looked over, and after he looked away, I shifted my eyes to Tyler.

As the distance approached, the eyes that could have been looked down had to look down, because Taylor Robb was sitting in the judges' bench.I looked away ahead of Tyler, with an indistinct smile on the corner of my mouth, and my gaze began to look directly behind the judges' seat.

I was not as persistent as the male model next to me in catching the judges' eyes. I just raised my jawbone with that faint smile. I know that too much is too much.

Out of the corner of my eye, I could see Jonathan's eyes on me all the time, and I knew that at least I had caught a judge who would speak for me in the jury.

At the end of the day, the models needed to stand still. I didn't make an awkward shape, but a random standing pose, and the smile on the corner of the mouth didn't deviate a bit.

"Okay, thank you." Taylor said.She glanced at the information on the table and put down the bi in her hand. Rob also turned his head to discuss with her in a low voice for a moment. Jonathan seemed to have no objection to their choice.

Then Taylor raised his head again, "Alice Ann, Brian Moss, please go to the side to get the number plates of your second choice."

I moved a bit and looked from the judges' Rob side to Jonathan's side with a smile, just to make sure they saw the smile on my face, then I passed by the male model who seemed a little frustrated beside me, and walked over to the one named Ellie. Si's female model.

Alice's modeling steps are very powerful and standard, and her facial features are the most standard Germanic facial features, with blond hair marks, there is no possibility that she will not be among the 35 people.

I greeted her, and the two walked side by side to the staff holding the number plate, and took the number plate.She's going to be a formidable rival, I have a very strong instinct.Alice obviously has a lot of modeling experience, and I suspect that she will also be comfortable posing for still photos. With her face, I can be sure that she must have photographed a lot of graphic work.

But she also has the biggest weakness as a model.My smile remained unchanged, and I watched Alice subconsciously look down when she took the number plate.She was nervous about making eye contact, and her self-confidence was low.

She rarely set her eyes on the male models around her. I guess she has been hurt by her ex-boyfriend or ex-husband.Looking at her clenched hands hanging between her legs, her left hand has been stroking the root of the ring finger of her right hand.Maybe she just took off her ring, a woman who just got divorced after a long time of hesitation.

Although I don't know why she got married at such a young age, maybe it was because of her dependence on men caused by her popularity in school, and she subconsciously wanted to tie herself and her boyfriend together after entering society.But obviously the person she liked originally hit her hard.

Oh, I suddenly looked away.It seems impolite to casually profile someone who is about to get along for a month.

The second selection required models to walk the show wearing only underwear, and took profile shots, frontal shots, and full-body shots.The underwear I am wearing is the same white tight-fitting style as always. It is not an over-the-top white triangle, but a short type that wraps around the base of my thighs.What kind of pants can show my leg shape better, I am handy.

Unlike most Caucasians, I seem to have less body hair, which saves me the trouble of waxing.As for the photo shoot that records personal information, because the striptease training is carried out in the dance practice room, surrounded by mirrors day after day, I am handy in controlling the angle of my body.

In front of the camera, although it is also a frontal photo, the angle of the jaw height can determine the feeling of the whole photo.The profile photo is also far away, maybe just a single-digit angle deviation, which can make you change from a mediocre ID photo to a work of art.How to reveal the curves and texture of the body in full-body photos, and to find light and shadows are also skills that I have mastered.

The second-choice show is a solo show, and once back and forth, Taylor will ask some personal questions after the show.Chrissy's number was very similar to mine, and her answer was exactly what I guessed about her ex-husband.

Most of the models only answered Taylor's question "Why do you want to participate in America's Next Top Model?" The standard answer is that modeling is their dream, but I know that the essence of America's Next Top Model is a variety show.

There are three cameras that are shooting right now, at every major angle.If it's just for the record, you don't need so many cameras, so I know that the recording of the show has already started.How to make sure that your share will not be cut in so many shots, besides the catwalk, there is your story.

Yes, the bloody and sympathetic story happened to a handsome boy. Is there anything else that attracts more attention in the season with male and female model duels?

"Brian, why do you want to come to America's Next Top Model?" Taylor asked this question after I finished walking the stage.