Psychological Control

"Here, the water you want." Because I was not allowed to leave the studio, or to be more precise, my figure was not allowed to leave the picture in her painting.So Sophia went straight out and fetched me a glass of water herself to quench my stated thirst.I noticed her visibly quickened pace when she came back, showing her concern.

"Thank you, sorry for the trouble." I looked up and smiled at it and took the water glass from her hand, and I even kept the posture of sitting on the ground.Since she seems so worried that I'm going to get up and walk around, why don't I try to be more kind to her and let her ease her inner tension.

Sometimes people feel very nervous when they feel that they can't take what is going on in their own hands.This is not a case of some people, but happens to everyone.It's just that different people experience different levels of stress.

"Speaking of which, why didn't Sophia talk to me about your last model? It's a boring break, right?" After noticing that the water was handed to me, she seemed a little unsure of what to do, but subconsciously wanted to Sophia who stayed in the studio and watched me.I decided to start what seemed like small talk in a casual tone.

"Why did you bring this up all of a sudden?" Maybe it was because the topic seemed a bit abrupt, so her expression and body movements showed a sense of defense for a moment.

"Because Abid and you had a quarrel because of this male model named Adam Sugarman." I smiled and spread my hands, making a very frank appearance. "Don't look at me usually being quite quiet, but I'm actually very gossipy."

Seeing Sophia's brows gradually ease, I continued: "Although I know that because of his new tattoo, he couldn't complete the shooting that Abed wanted. But I am still very puzzled. When he was working with you, What taboo did you do to make you need to find a new model? It also helps me not to make the same mistake again."

"It's nothing, it's just that when he was with me, he understood the matter as another situation." Sophia showed that she didn't want to mention it, but even if she avoided talking about it, I was still sure that Adam should be in I fell in love with Sophia to a certain extent.

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After chatting for a while, like when school always feels like the end of class is too short, I just got to know her a little bit through the conversation, and we got back to work again.

Another hour or so passed until Sofia told me she had finished the overall pencil sketch and I could relax for a while before she started coloring.I was finally able to sit up straight and stretch my limbs.

Unlike before, maybe it was because the process of painting deepened her devotion, and Sophia's character traits that were usually hidden from people's eyes became more and more obvious.This situation is as if the patient is in a dialogue with a psychological counselor, and gradually after the dialogue deepens, he really shows his mental state.

The most obvious thing is that she no longer acts nervous because she is worried that my behavior is out of her control, or for some other reason I don't know.She became more confident and outgoing, and her desire to control allowed her to subconsciously take the lead in asking questions in our small chat.

"So you really won't consider being a commercial model anymore after taking this job?" Sophia sat on the high stool next to her easel, looked down at me from top to bottom, and continued our previous lounge chat topic.

"That's right, because if I want to have a deeper and better development in psychology, I don't have so much free time to disperse my thoughts in other places." After I discovered her intention, I subconsciously Let go of the dominance in the conversation.

When a person is comfortable with where he is, he reveals more than he should have said.The current Sophia is more like the Sophia I saw in the restaurant when we first met.But she couldn't help being the same, because the gesture she usually made was just a subconscious defense and disguise for outsiders.

But at this time, she was aloof, but there was a factor of madness about her art in it. "That's such a pity, I think if you want to, you can become a high-end fashion model with all the jobs in the fashion industry at your fingertips."

"Should I say thank you for looking up to me so much, Sophia." I smiled and shook my head, "Modeling is really hard work, and the life span of this profession is too short. You can be a model over 30 years old. There are very few of them. I don’t want to spend the rest of my life on my laurels.”

While talking, I leaned against the table in the display behind me, because half of my body and thighs were numb due to lying on my side, and when the blood returned, I felt an unbearable feeling of numbness and pain.Maybe it was because of the uncomfortable expression on my face, Sophia suddenly made a proposal that surprised me very much.

"Are your hands and feet numb? This happens to many oil painting models after maintaining a posture for too long. Why don't I give you a massage? After all, it was I who put you in such a side-lying position in the first place." , on the ground that is only covered with a layer of cloth and not soft."

As she spoke, she ignored my audible refusal, and walked over to me almost unquestionably.Now I sort of know why the missing model, Adam Sugarman, took things the other way, as she said.Because this is Sophia's intention!

As soon as she walked up to me and knelt down, the expression on her face changed into a sexy expression that could easily be interpreted into another meaning.When she pressed her hands on my thigh muscles, one light and one heavy slow and firm massage, it was more like flirting.The expression on my face inevitably stiffened.

I don't know how Adam Sugarman behaved in the face of Sophia's behavior.Anyway, how he behaves is a relative interest, and the results are unlikely to be good endings.And my natural aptitude also determines that it is impossible for me to show any feeling of being attracted to a woman.

But of course, I can't show disgust, otherwise I'm afraid it will backfire.So I could only relax my body as much as possible, and while enjoying the massage service she gave, I answered the questions she asked and continued the conversation, trying not to make the atmosphere awkward.

At the beginning, Sophia found that I was not so easy to be teased by her, and the expression on her face was very satisfied. It was obvious that my 'settling around' was exactly what she wanted me to achieve.But as things continued to develop, I was surprised to find that there was some anger on her brows that was easily overlooked.

Did I do something to make her think I did something wrong?I even glanced away and looked in other directions, trying to avoid meeting her gaze.The doubt lasted for a few minutes before I understood what she said before she stopped.It's not that I did anything wrong, it's that I did a great job!

"Although I knew you were gay before, I didn't expect you to have no interest in women at all." Her expression seemed obscure, so I couldn't figure out what she was thinking. "Could it be that in your eyes, Abid's serious obsessive-compulsive workaholic appearance at work is more attractive than me now?"

I was confused all of a sudden, and I could only shake my head subconsciously and said: "It's not like that, Sophia. Of course you are a very attractive woman! It's just that my sexual orientation is natural, and I thought you didn't want your model Think of going somewhere else."

Although I don't know what's wrong with Sophia, sometimes many straight girls do the same thing.Make inexplicable moves in gay bars to seduce gays who are openly gay.Sexual orientation is a confusing thing, and sometimes bisexuality can be there as well.Maybe that's what makes them more addicted to this game.

She tried her best, but couldn't make me show any interest in her, so do you feel insulted?As I said before, her psychology is so contradictory that it has reached a point where I can't figure out what kind of result she wants to get.

It seems that the words "women's heart needle under the sea" are still very applicable to my current situation.Is it because I am not good at school, or is Sophia's thoughts really too difficult for people to understand.But no matter what, today I am afraid it will be difficult to test further.

The seemingly long time of being alone is actually just a period of rest, which is less than an hour, and a little bit of trial and error with small talk.The rest of the time I just stayed in the same pose and couldn't move at all.I sighed inwardly, and began to plan how to persuade Dillon to start with Abid when I got back after today's work was completed.

He looked ignorant, but that was simply because he didn't care about the clues he found.After all, if he lived with Sophia, Abid would definitely notice her strange and different behavior.

After the second break, the third working period began in an atmosphere of silence and embarrassment.

Maybe because of what happened before, Sophia seemed to want to ease the atmosphere. While preparing the paint, she started talking about some trivial things.Although it is not very relevant to the clues I want to get about Adam's disappearance, it is not completely irrelevant.

For example, Adam Sugarman is bisexual. In order to please many designers in the fashion circle, he has always claimed that he is gay.For another example, the reason why she found the newcomer Adam Sugarman to cooperate is because in her imagination, the fallen angel Anil should have long red hair like hellfire.

But the most important point is that I know the answer to a question that has always puzzled me from her fragmentary gossip!It turns out that the long red hair piece Abid gave me that is now attached to my hair was given to him by Sophia!

Because Abed was furious that Sofia had painted Adam and had the model get it tattooed, and decided not to use a model who to him was a blemish for the photo shoot.This made him busy in a studio for a while, and the work plan of each staff member needed to be rearranged, so this was an apology gift from her.

Because Sophia knew that Abid, like her, valued the most in this model, which was the well-maintained long red hair.To be honest, besides this 'couple', who else would give each other a box of other people's hair as an apology?Of course, by the end she didn't say anything about Adam Sugarman's whereabouts after her collaboration ended.

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The third working time is over, and today's work has come to an end.Sophia walked out of the studio to get water for a drink because of intermittent talking.Because I was in a hurry for nearly an hour, I stood up from the set without thinking, changed my clothes and went to the toilet.

I noticed that in Sophia's works, she has almost applied the base color, and basically every large color block of the whole painting has been filled, but the details have not yet been detailed.For example, the expression on my face, the shadow between the eyebrows, and the shadow of the muscle texture.On the other hand, the vase pattern in the background of the display, because it was written before I came, so the degree of completion is very high.

When I finished using the bathroom and was about to go to the living room to say goodbye to her, Sophia came out of the studio with the wine goblet that was obviously placed in the set before.It's not a wine glass made of glass, it's more like an antique from a certain age.She smiled and said to me: "Drink this cup before you leave, forget about the embarrassment before."

Seeing that I didn't react for a while, Sophia thought I was going to refuse, and continued to explain: "The red wine in this glass is actually taken from my wine collection at home. The red wine produced in the eighteenth century, Good wine and beautiful women are worth it.”

It is indeed worthwhile to taste the red wine of that era.Without thinking about anything else, I smiled and walked up to take the wine glass from her, took a sip and drank it all down.