I heard you still love her

That night, Xiao Ruoyan hugged Yan Zhilan, humming a song as if she was a teenager.

"The most romantic thing I can think of is growing old with you..."

When Xiao Ruoyan was young, she always had a lot of ambitions. When she and Xiaoyan were walking on campus holding hands, she swore to her.

"I will work hard and give you the best life in the future, so that my family can rest assured that we are together."

"Xiaoyan, I must make you happy."

……

She wrote songs desperately, stayed up day and night, dinner after dinner, glass after glass of wine exhausted her body.

It's really here now.

She just understood.

Their happiness is very simple, that is, two people together.

Just two people together.

The moonlight spread and spread over the two of them, coating them with a layer of sacred light. Xiaoyan looked at Xiao Ruoyan's pretending to be strong, and gently touched her cheek with her hand.

In her heart, there is a kind of power surging, which makes Xiaoyan know that she must be strong at this time.

In the past, it was Ah Yan who protected her, but now it's her turn to protect Ah Yan.

next morning.

Because Xiaoyan had to go to school for the last time before the winter vacation, Xiao Ruoyan was the only one at home.

She has not been in a very good condition, and she doesn't know what's wrong. She always has an intuition that the dean seems to be hiding something.

As if some kind of confirmation, my sister came here very early, and she must have come here at this time to pick on Xiaoyan's absence.

My sister doesn't communicate much with Xiao Ruoyan on weekdays, although she would quarrel occasionally, now, as soon as she opened the door, she saw Xiao Ruoyan standing on the side and looking at her in a daze as if she had been waiting for a long time.

Xiao Ruoyan wore a white nightgown, a belt was tied around her frail and slender waist, her hair was simply tied in a knot, she still held a cup in her hand, and looked at her sister silently. Those sad and melancholy eyes, curved smoky eyebrows, flimsy skin, and not a little red lips really killed my sister.

Yan Zhiyi has seen countless beauties. Before, she knew that Xiao Ruoyan was good-looking, but she had never gotten her beauty like this moment.

It's really like the ancients who came out of the landscape paintings, beautiful and cold.

Yan Zhiyi pursed her lips and forced a smile: "Is Xiaoyan at home?"

Xiao Ruoyan shook her head, she looked at her sister, and said softly, "Sister, do you have something to tell me?"

Such directness, as if she had guessed it, made Yan Zhiyi, who had thought a lot along the way, blocked all her words.

Seeing her expression, Xiao Ruoyan confirmed her guess even more. She smiled consolingly at her sister, but she was so lonely: "My sister who is fine, can bear anything, it's just... Xiaoyan... ..."

Let her dream about the lover who will never let go of her.

"Not as bad as you think."

Sitting on the sofa, my sister took out yesterday's checklist. She took a deep breath and looked at Xiao Ruoyan: "Ayan, have you ever had liver pain before?"

Xiao Ruoyan sat there and looked at the list that her sister took out, "I just occasionally feel stomach pain, liver..."

Her hand subconsciously touched the liver.

The elder sister nodded: "Maybe you haven't noticed it all the time. There is a little shadow here. I will take you to check it out today."

After the inspection yesterday, my sister and Ah Yan left. Many things were said to her privately by the dean: "Mr. Yan, look here, I look like a tumor, I will bring her to have a reexamination tomorrow, it's just—" She adjusted her glasses: "The liver is one of the most common sites for tumors, and benign tumors are relatively rare."

At that time, Yan Zhiyi felt that her hands were cold, as if she couldn't catch blood.

The dean looked at her: "I want to ask, is your sister Xiao often sentimental? As the saying goes, anger hurts the liver..."

My sister basically didn't listen to what was said later, but her heart was dripping with pain.

Sentimental?

The ten years of separation, most people can't resist, how can she not be too sad, how can she not be sentimental?

When I got home.

Yan Zhiyi was always dazed, with empty eyes, sitting on the sofa drinking wine.

She hasn't told Lanlan about this yet. My sister knows about the relationship between Lanlan and Xiao Ruoyan.

But, maybe with Lan Lan, it is easier to empathize.

My sister really wants to ask the parents of both parties.

ten years apart.

Just because of the same gender.

Because they are both women.

One committed suicide by cutting his wrists, and the other was depressed and sick all over his body.

It was supposed to be such a happy ten years, but they were separated because of the obstruction of both sides. If the parents who gave birth to them knew all this, would they regret it?

On the way to the hospital.

My sister was a little nervous, her hands holding the steering wheel even trembled slightly, but Xiao Ruoyan was very calm, but she was worried about Xiaoyan, "She's going home for dinner at noon."

"I told Lanlan to let her go to my house. You and I will go to work with me to meet a music-related client." Yan Zhiyi had already made arrangements, and Lanlan was very happy to hear that there was a party, so she specifically asked her and Xiao Ruoyan to come back early .

Xiao Ruoyan nodded, looked at her sister's trembling hands, and smiled slightly: "Sister, I'm really fine."

Yan Zhiyi nodded, "Yes, after the inspection, it will be fine."

Xiao Ruoyan's current body is really not ideal, and it will take a long time to adjust.

Xiao Ruoyan looked ahead and said softly, "Even if it's vicious, I'm not afraid."

Yan Zhiyi's heart trembled, she looked at Xiao Ruoyan, and Xiao Ruoyan looked into her eyes: "Sister, for Xiaoyan, I will definitely not die."

her girl.

Fell in love with her from the first sight.

Ten years of entanglement.

She paid and sacrificed again and again for her.

How could she be willing to abandon her?

Whether it's life or death, she will never abandon Xiaoyan.

A person's life will always require many miracles. She believes that even if it is the worst outcome, she will defeat her.

Love can work miracles.

Xiao Ruoyan and her sister's inspection had kept Lanlan a secret.

She knew that the physical examination of the second child was not good, but Lanlan was always optimistic. She felt that she was still young, and the days would be so long, and there were so many of them, wouldn't it be enough to serve her together?

It will be all right, everything will be all right.

When Xiaoyan came home from get off work, she didn't even wash her hands when she entered the room. She kept shouting: "Ah Yan? Ah Yan?"

Lanlan hurriedly called her: "She and her sister haven't come back yet, are you tired? Are you hungry?"

Haven't come back yet.

Xiaoyan's eyes were a little erratic, Lanlan was afraid that she would think too much, so she quickly stopped her: "Come on, I'm frying the vegetarian meat that I specialize in, last time the second child also said he likes to eat it, do you want to learn it?"

Now Xiao Ruoyan can only be used to divert Xiaoyan's attention.

Xiaoyan nodded, she looked away, and walked into the kitchen.

Lan Lan was already very familiar with her sister's house, and she seemed to occupy the position of the hostess.

In the past, she was very afraid of Xiaoyan talking to her. Although it was a joke, she was somewhat guilty.

It was like that in high school.

Xiaoyan is gentle and gentle to everyone, even if someone says something excessive, she will not get angry, she always smiles and passes.

But in that smile, there is always an invisible barrier.

But now, Lanlan really hoped that Xiaoyan could quarrel with her. She had spoken a few times, but Xiaoyan didn't respond much, only the sound of the oil pan "sizzling" in her ears.

Lanlan talked for a while on her own, then she sighed and looked at Xiaoyan: "It's almost there, let's go, fourth, let's sit in the living room."

Sitting on the sofa.

After Xiaoyan held the hot tea that Lanlan gave her, she realized how cold her hands were.

When Lanlan handed her the fruit, she shivered when she touched the ice-like skin: "Did you catch a cold?"

Xiaoyan's face was a little pale, she shook her head, and said softly to Lanlan, "I'm fine."

She has always been like this.

This happens when you drink alcohol and feel unwell.

But Ah Yan never disliked her, on the contrary, she felt distressed.

I still remember when I was in high school.

Xiaoyan once had a cold, and she ate ice cream before her aunt came, and she could hardly get out of bed the next day because of the pain.

Ah Yan was called by the vocal music teacher very early to say that he had something to discuss, and everyone hadn't woken up when he left.

Before the class, the boss and Lanlan called her once, Xiaoyan was lying on the bed, her face was as pale as paper, and she said weakly, "Please take a day off for me, I can't get up."

The boss and Lanlan looked a little anxious, but the children didn't know anything at that time, and Xiaoyan refused to go to the infirmary, so she had to fix the hot water bottle for her, put the brown sugar water aside, and asked for some advice before Go to class.

It's time for class.

Xiao Ruoyan saw that the two came together without Xiaoyan, she was stunned: "Why is there one missing?"

Lanlan told her about Xiaoyan, Xiao Ruoyan didn't even think about it, grabbed her coat and went out, seeing that class was about to start, the boss quickly called her: "Why are you going? It's time for class ?”

"Just say I have diarrhea." Xiao Ruoyan left without looking back.

Everyone in the dormitory knows her, although she usually doesn't like to talk, but as long as the decision is made, no one can say it.

Xiao Ruoyan ran back to the dormitory. Fortunately, she was usually excellent in character and learning, so the dormitory teacher at the door saw her and let her go without asking any questions.

open the door.

Xiao Ruoyan was panting, and at a glance, she saw Xiaoyan lying on the bed, frowning, shrinking into a ball like a shrimp. Xiaoyan was extremely uncomfortable. She felt like there was a piece of ice in her lower abdomen, which was a little bit inside her body. Melting, sucking all her heat away.

Hearing that the door was opened, she thought it was Zha Su's teacher, gritted her teeth and raised her head to see Xiao Ruoyan. Xiaoyan was stunned, and then her eyes turned red.

To Lanlan, to the boss, she can pretend to be strong.

But for Ah Yan, she just couldn't do it.

That difference has been there since the very beginning.

Xiao Ruoyan was very distressed, so she went to wash the motherwort with water, poured out the brown sugar water that was sitting next to Xiaoyan, which was cold and didn't drink, made another cup, and coaxed her to drink it one sip at a time.

Don't look at Xiaoyan who is usually dark-bellied and fearless, but in her heart, she is still quite afraid of Ah Yan's stern face.

Xiao Ruoyan looked at her with a dark face: "Drink it up, or I will take you to the hospital."

Xiaoyan shivered in fear, she had been picky eaters since then, Xiao Ruoyan felt distressed and angry, hugged her in his arms, coaxing and feeding her little by little.

Drink water and medicine.

Xiao Ruoyan went to search for the boss, Lanlan and her hot water bottle again, and put them all on Xiaoyan's bed, "Is it better?"

When she touched Yan Zhilan's skin just now, she felt the bone-chilling cold.

Xiaoyan shook her head, curled up in the quilt like a baby, looking at her pitifully.

The big eyes blinked and she whispered, "It's not warm enough."

Hey.

At this time, he actually acted like a baby to her.

Xiao Ruoyan took off her coat, she lifted the quilt and lay down in it, and Xiaoyan retracted into her arms skillfully.

The love of youth is cautious and green.

Xiaoyan rested her head on Xiao Ruoyan's chest, listening to her strong heartbeat and smelling the fragrance of her body, she felt much better.

Xiao Ruoyan hugged Xiaoyan tightly, trying to warm her quickly, but it was like hugging a piece of ice, and she couldn't get warm no matter what.

She is so cold, let alone Xiaoyan.

Ah Yan wanted to make Xiaoyan get better quickly, so she sat up and began to rub Xiaoyan's coldest feet.

I took off the socks and rubbed them gently. It was really like taking them out of the refrigerator overnight.

Xiaoyan blushed, she was a little shy, and shook her head: "It's okay, no need."

"Now you know how shy you are?" Xiao Ruoyan snorted coldly, "In the future, try again if you dare to eat ice cream balls."

And Lanlan.

When the two of them come to winter, they are like two children who can't grow up. They actually compare and see who eats more quickly. Are they graduated from kindergarten?

When they first fell in love, they were all shy and embarrassed. Xiaoyan didn't exist like the current "Hedong wife" in front of Xiao Ruoyan, and she still had the burden of a girl.

But Xiao Ruoyan completely let go of her burden today.

After rubbing for a long time, it didn't get warm.

Xiao Ruoyan simply untied her clothes, grabbed her feet, and placed them on her chest.

The moment the skin touches.

Yan Zhilan felt that she was about to burn with shame, her feet... were touching Ah Yan's... Ah Yan's...

Xiao Ruoyan didn't think about it that much at all, she felt that it was effective, "It's better, isn't it?"

"Yes, yes..."

Not only is it better, Xiaoyan's brain is booming.

who is she?where is she

After a while, the temperature rose, and even Xiaoyan felt a ball of fire burning along the soles of her feet. Xiao Ruoyan felt it too. She breathed a sigh of relief, looked up at Xiaoyan's expression changed, and just as she was about to speak, she turned to her. Her soulful eyes.

"You, are you alright?"

It was only then that Xiao Ruoyan realized that her actions seemed a little "inappropriate". She didn't think too much about it just now in a hurry, but now she blushed all of a sudden, and quickly put Xiaoyan's feet down.

Unfortunately, it's too late.

When she stepped back, Xiaoyan followed her closely, holding Ah Yan's cheek, looking into her eyes: "I'm not well."

Xiao Ruoyan shivered for a moment, her ears turned red, and Xiaoyan stared straight at her: "I know a better and faster way to warm up."

Now, it's too late to say anything.

A young man's kiss, although pure and lacking any skill, is really enough to set a person on fire.

In the end, Xiao Ruoyan felt that her body was like a stove, but the instigator still smiled and leaned into her arms and said, "Next time I'm cold, can you still use this method?"

……

Remember the past.

Tears welled up in Xiaoyan's eyes, and Lanlan panicked when she saw it, and quickly went to get a tissue and handed it to her: "What's wrong? What's wrong? Oh, fourth child, don't think too much, my sister just took She goes to see clients."

Xiaoyan sniffed, and she looked at Lanlan: "No."

Lanlan looked at Xiaoyan in a daze.

Xiaoyan's head lowered slowly, and her voice was very low: "Lanlan, I met her when I was 15, and now I'm almost thirty."

Lanlan felt a dull pain in her heart when she heard this.

"I've loved her for half my life, and she can't hide it from me." Xiaoyan said softly, "She must be unwell somewhere, my sister took her to the hospital."

Lan Lan shook her head, still denying: "No, no, Ah Yan can just adjust it."

Xiaoyan looked up at her, "Really?"

Tears were clearly rolling in her eyes, but she was still trying to smile: "I hope."

Her smoke.

For her, it has long been in her heart.

Ah Yan's every move, not even a look, can't escape Xiaoyan's eyes.

She knew that she couldn't sleep all night last night, even though she was lying motionless on the bed, breathing steadily, Xiaoyan still knew that she didn't sleep.

She also stayed up all night.

once Upon a time.

Xiaoyan read a sentence, no matter how strong the love is, after a long time, it will not be as passionate as it was at the beginning.

Sometimes touching each other is like touching your right hand with your left hand.

But once something happens, it hurts like digging flesh out of your own body.

Ah Yan is her pillow person, how could she not know, how could she not understand.

Xiaoyan didn't want Lanlan to see her tears.

She sat with her for a while to eat, halfway, Lanlan received a call from her sister saying that she would go back later, it would take two or three hours.

After hanging up the phone, Lanlan looked at Xiaoyan in embarrassment. She had never seen a client for such a long time. Now she seemed to believe what the fourth child said.

Xiaoyan smiled: "It's okay, I just happened to go out for a while."

Lanlan hurriedly followed: "Where are you going? I'll be with you."

She was afraid that the fourth child would not be able to figure it out.

Xiaoyan looked at her: "I'm going to see Dr. Xu, do you dare to go? My sister will tear you apart."

Lanlan: ...

Still worried, Lanlan went back and forth, and even wanted to challenge her sister's might, but Xiaoyan smiled and patted her on the shoulder: "Lanlan, don't worry, I'll be fine."

"But..." Lanlan looked into her eyes, Xiaoyan said softly: "From today on, I will take good care of my body. If Ah Yan has anything, I have to serve her, right? She is that person, I am the only one who is not used to other people getting too close to her."

When she said this, she seemed to be complaining and sweet, but it forced Lan Lan to tears.

After all, Xiaoyan went out.

Lan Lan sat at home and cooked all the meals, then sat on the sofa and waited for another half an hour.

She was like an ant on a hot pan, fidgeting.

She didn't dare to think, if the second child really had something, what would the fourth child do...

But...but...

My sister and Xiao Ruoyan are back.

As soon as she heard the sound of opening the door, Lanlan jumped up from the sofa and rushed to the door almost as if rushing. The speed was so fast that she startled the first sister who entered the door: "What are you doing?"

Lanlan looked at her anxiously, Xiao Ruoyan followed behind her sister, she made exactly the same movement as Xiaoyan when she entered the room, "Xiaoyan? Xiaoyan?"

Lanlan was stunned: "The fourth child said he went to find Dr. Xu."

Dazed for a moment, Xiao Ruoyan looked at her: "Why is she looking for Dr. Xu?"

……

The wind whistled in his ears.

Xiao Ruoyan walked downstairs quickly holding her mobile phone, and she called Dr. Xu.

The phone rang once, and Dr. Xu answered, "Ruoyan? Are you home? Are you looking for Xiaoyan? She just left 10 minutes ago."

Xiao Ruoyan was full of anxiety, "She didn't come back!"

Her voice became hoarse because she was anxious, and Xu Xiaohe hurriedly said: "Don't worry, she said you like the strawberries next to the school the most, so she went to buy them, and she will go home after buying."

After hearing this, Xiao Ruoyan immediately opened the taxi door and went in. While telling the driver the address, she asked, "Did she tell you anything?"

Doctor Xu was stunned for a moment: "No, I just chatted for a while."

Xiaoyan came to look for her, and she was not in a good mood.

Xu Xiaohe didn't know about Xiao Ruoyan's affairs. After such a long period of treatment, they had already become friends, and they thought it was because of the quarrel between the two.

Xiaoyan just sat in her studio for a while. Halfway through, Dr. Xu answered a few calls from patients, most of whom were telling her about the pain of life, mostly because of feelings. Dr. Xu was very patient, and Xiaoyan Listening quietly, after a while, Dr. Xu hung up the phone and looked at her apologetically: "I'm sorry, I was on vacation a while ago, so a lot of work has piled up recently."

Xiaoyan shook her head and smiled: "It's okay."

Dr. Xu sighed, "Hey, in this society, I don't know what's wrong. When two people are together, there is nothing good about trivial matters. Look at the phone call just now. Her husband is sick. She takes care of her every day, and her husband is still there." Make faces for her, and cry for the woman's grievances."

"Birth, old age, sickness and death is the normal state of people." Xiaoyan said quietly, "If one day Ah Yan gets sick, I will serve her. Even if she makes me look like that, she should be happy."

as long as she is there.

Anything is fine.

……

Doctor Xu: "When I was leaving, I asked her if she had something on her mind? She was still laughing at me, what's the matter, Xiaoyan? Did you quarrel?"

……

Xiao Ruoyan was in a hurry and didn't have time to explain to Dr. Xu, so she simply said a few words, she hung up the phone, and the destination was almost there.

She paid the money quickly, got out of the car and ran to the school gate.

The strawberries in the fruit shop were indeed her favorite when she was a student.

Xiao Ruoyan walked quickly, but she hadn't reached the place yet, and she saw a small familiar figure on the side of the road far away.

Crowded street roadside.

On the ground was Xiao Ruoyan's favorite strawberry, and her Xiaoyan was sitting on the ground hugging herself alone, watching the distance while silently wiping the tears on her face.

She is uncomfortable.

She suffers.

Her heart ached and bled, but no one could tell.

In the past, Xiao Ruoyan was her god, Xiaoyan could tell her anything, but now she couldn't.

She didn't dare to imagine what she would do if the sky fell, she really couldn't bear the weight of parting from love.

Step by step approach.

Unknowingly, Xiao Ruoyan's chest seemed to be pressed by a big rock, and her heart was about to be torn apart. Standing in front of Xiaoyan, she squatted down slowly. Tears looked at her.

Xiao Ruoyan looked at her bright red eyes, wiped away the tears on her face, squatted down, she stretched out her arms and hugged Xiaoyan tightly, "Okay, okay, don't cry, huh?"

He was obviously comforting his lover, but at some point, Xiao Ruoyan had already burst into tears.

The author has something to say: Happy New Year's Day everyone.

Happy new year, happy~