I heard you still love her

After being called ugly, Xiao Xiao stopped screaming. It turned its head, kicked its little paws, broke away from Yan Zhilan's arms, and walked away with its tail drooping and its feet padding like autistic.

Xiao Ruoyan looked sad, "Xiaoyan, don't be like this, it understands."

Animals are spiritual after being raised for a long time.

Yan Zhilan looked into Xiao Ruoyan's eyes: "Is it because of its cute canine teeth that you protect it like this?"

Xiao Ruoyan was silent for a while, Wang Tian was in a mess.

This jealous and savage little woman.

Who just took her to see her when she was young, pampered her like a child, and didn't let others say an ugly or bad word.

What is this doing now?

Xiaoyan snorted coldly, she looked at Xu Xiaohe, Xu Xiaohe's long and narrow eyes were smiling, and nodded: "Well, this cat's canine teeth are really cute."

Yan Zhilan snorted coldly and entered the room, Xiao Ruoyan was straightforward, she turned to look at Xu Xiaohe: "Doctor Xu, she has a small mind, so don't tease her."

Xu Xiaohe smiled and followed into the house.

The room is not very big.

But it is very warm, and there are recent photos of the two of them everywhere.

Once, what Xiaoyan owned was the mottled note that Xiao Ruoyan left her, which was torn to pieces by her father.

Xiao Ruoyan didn't have many photos, and they were also torn up by her parents. The only thing left in her wallet was the photo of Xiaoyan playing the piano that Teacher Chu gave her, which had turned yellow after being touched countless times by her.

nowadays.

Their small home is filled with photos.

There are smiling faces of two people in every photo, they are either hugging or holding hands.

The magnified one hanging in the living room was chosen by Xiao Ruoyan. It was secretly photographed by Lanlan. She and Yan Zhilan were walking hand in hand. Lanlan called them, and they turned their heads with a smile. The smile on her face is warmer, it's really beautiful like a dream, with happiness bubbles from inside to outside.

Xu Xiaohe has been engaged in the psychological industry for many years, and his biggest habit is observation.

There are two sets of cups, slippers and even small bowls and chopsticks at home, one pink and one blue.

Yan Zhilan boiled water to make tea for Xu Xiaohe. Her movement of making tea was beautiful, her upper body was straight, and the steam carried the tea fragrance upwards. Her slender fingers dragged the teapot, and the boiling water was brewed repeatedly. The tea color was transparent, and a few strands of tea leaves floated. When she got up, a strand of long hair slid down her forehead, and Xiao Ruoyan, who had just washed her hands, passed by and tucked it behind her ears.

Yan Zhilan smiled, raised her lips, looked at her, and pouted.

Xiao Ruoyan shook his head: "No, it's too late, you can't drink tea, just give it to Dr. Xu."

Xu Xiaohe: ...

It's really an inhumane show of affection.

The tea is very fragrant.

It was brewed by ingenious people.

Xu Xiaohe blew on the tea and sipped the tea, his eyes still watching the two people.

Xiao Ruoyan was taking off her coat. She seemed to remember something, hesitated for a moment, and looked at Xiaoyan.

Yan Zhilan hooked the corners of her lips, Xiao Ruoyan paused, folded the coat, and hugged it in her arms, as if it had been stolen by someone.

The way the two get along is very cute, and there is nothing unusual about it.

If it hadn't been for what he heard, Xu Xiaohe wouldn't have felt that Xiaoyan had any "illness".

After all, I also ate the barbecue and drank the tea, so I still have to get down to business.

Xu Xiaohe looked at Yan Zhilan, "I wanted to see you before, but Weiwei said she was afraid of irritating you, and then Ruoyan also said to relax."

Yan Zhilan smiled, her heart was very warm to have such a lover and friend by her side.

After Xiao Ruoyan changed her clothes, she walked over, took a long legged step, and hugged Yan Zhilan from behind, Yan Zhilan habitually stepped back and approached her arms, Xiao Ruoyan looked sincerely at her with her dark eyes. Looking at Xu Xiaohe: "Doctor Xu, how do you want to treat it?"

Xu Xiaohe: ...

Caught off guard, he was fed another mouthful of rations.

She coughed: "I still need to understand Xiaoyan's heart, including the content of her dreams."

As soon as the words came out.

Both Xiao Ruoyan and Yan Zhilan froze and fell into a brief silence.

Xu Xiaohe felt that he had discovered something, and as expected, there must still be some gap between the two of them, which made Xiaoyan like this.

It's been a long time.

Yan Zhilan looked at Xu Xiaohe and said with difficulty: "I can tell you, I'm just afraid of her..." She looked at Xiao Ruoyan, she was afraid that Xiao Ruoyan would be unhappy.

Xiao Ruoyan took a sip of water from the tea cup next to her, and said very generously, "I won't be angry, since I promised to cooperate with the treatment, why are you so narrow-minded?"

Is it?

Xu Xiaohe nodded, looking at Xiaoyan, she was very good at cutting in: "Is she also so cute in your dream?"

cute?

Xiao Ruoyan frowned after hearing this word, is she cute?It might have been said that she was indifferent or used to it before, but this word doesn't seem to have much connection with her.

Yan Zhilan shrank into her arms, and said softly, "It's a little more rebellious than... um, she is now."

what……

Xu Xiaohe hadn't figured out what was going on, Xiao Ruoyan understood, she looked down at Xiaoyan: "You mean that bastard—the me in your dream is still at the mental level of a high school student?"

Yan Zhilan: ...

Xu Xiaohe: ...

Look at this man, he won't get angry just after he finished speaking, the sourness and sarcasm in his words are almost overflowing.

Yan Zhilan pinched her face: "You were not childish in high school, you were very charming."

Xiao Ruoyan tried her best to restrain herself after hearing this. She originally wanted to smile normally, but in the end, her smile was as cold as a knife: "Look, I'm finally telling the truth, you still like that bastard."

Yan Zhilan: ...

Xu Xiaohe didn't know whether to laugh or cry, if she interrupted her like this again, there would be no way to continue.

She looked at Xiao Ruoyan: "How about Ruoyan, why don't you go and make us some supper first?"

This is obviously to send her away.

Although Xiao Ruoyan was not happy, he got up obediently. Yan Zhilan grabbed her hand and kissed it, which was considered comforting, and Xiao Ruoyan got better now.

after she left.

Yan Zhilan really relaxed a little.

Xu Xiaohe could see with the naked eye that her body was no longer so tense, she thought to herself, it seems that her dream had a deeper part.

Yan Zhilan has seen many psychiatrists over the years, and most of them would tell her repeatedly, "You have to open up your heart, and you have to say whatever you think in your heart", "Don't hold yourself back, just say it, How do we understand it if you don’t talk about it?” Or you will tell her: “You have to get out of this state, otherwise your family and friends will be worried, can you bear it?”

She wants to say.

She couldn't bear it.

But she said, her father commanded and objected, she couldn't bear it anymore, and the only one who was sad was herself.

Xu Xiaohe's way is very special and very intimate. She doesn't ask questions or treat with a purpose, but is as usual as chatting.

"I heard from Weiwei that it was the year you separated."

Yan Zhilan nodded, her gloomy expression made Xu Xiaohe a little sad, "It was a beautiful time, if you hadn't separated, you should have been admitted to the same university together."

Yan Zhilan knew what she meant, she bent her knees, buried her cheeks in and said softly, "Yes, we passed the exam to a university."

Her eyes became a little confused, and the light in the middle scattered, as if she had entered another world.

She murmured: "In my dream...we were not separated, we worked very hard and were admitted to the ** Conservatory of Music."

Xu Xiaohe followed along and asked: "Do you still remember when the first hallucination was?"

Yan Zhilan nodded, she fell into memories, even though it was fake, she still couldn't help smiling.

——We were very happy the day we went to college. Ah Yan went with the guitar in her arms. We were a little worried when we left home. On the way, she held my hand.

……

They went there by green leather train.

Yan Zhilan's previous means of transportation were basically airplanes. When she left home this time, Yan Feng offered to send her off, but she secretly refused, saying that she wanted to practice her independence. Her sister Yan Zhiyi couldn't help laughing at her.

Is it for independence, or for a sweet trip with Xiao Ruoyan?

Go to school that day.

Yan Zhilan was very happy. It was the first time she took such a green leather train, she should have been nervous, but Xiao Ruoyan kept holding her hand, she was not afraid of anything anymore.

On the train, Xiao Ruoyan arranged for her very well, she rubbed Xiaoyan's hair: "I won't let you come with me."

Yan Zhilan smiled shyly, her eyes hooked her: "I want to follow you."

University, what does it mean?

The freedom they longed for finally came.

Xiao Ruoyan laid out her berth very carefully. In fact, if she came by herself, she would buy a hard berth to save money. The family spent a lot of money learning music for her. live frugally.

But with Yan Zhilan, she couldn't let her suffer.

Xiaoyan was very curious about everything in the train, she looked around, and secretly asked Xiao Ruoyan: "Where is the legendary trolley with melon seeds, chicken feet, and eight-treasure porridge?"

After Xiao Ruoyan packed everything up, she took out a thick coat from her bag and put it on Xiaoyan: "I'll come here in a while, but it's not so amazing now. The train used to be crowded with people. Even a fly can't get through it, but the small car is free to pass, how spacious it is now."

After she finished speaking, she was about to go to the upper bunk to clean up, but Yan Zhilan tugged at her skirt, Xiao Ruoyan lowered her head, Xiaoyan blushed easily when she was a teenager, her face turned red little by little, and she whispered: "Don't be so troublesome Well, just one shop will do.”

Xiao Ruoyan was stunned for a moment, and then her face became a little hot, she coughed, although this thought moved her heart, but the four people in this carriage were not just the two of them, "Good boy, wait until school, eh? "

Yan Zhilan nodded, "Okay."

The train continued to move forward, making various noises "clang clatter".

Yan Zhilan saw everything new, and the magical little cart finally came, she looked at Xiao Ruoyan pitifully, Xiao Ruoyan rubbed her hair helplessly: "Okay, I know, don't be greedy. "

Xiao Ruoyan bought her eight-treasure porridge, Xiaoyan took a bite, and said doubtfully, "No, this tastes a bit bitter."

"It's you who are too tired."

Xiao Ruoyan smiled, and soon, two other people in the box also came in. They were an elderly couple. After they came in, they smiled at Xiao Ruoyan and Yan Zhilan friendly and took a rest.

Gradually, the lights in the carriage dimmed, and the voice of the announcer drifted out.

"Friends, passengers, hello everyone! This train left the station amidst the sound of beautiful and cheerful music... Here, all our crew members send their greetings to you and wish passengers a happy journey and a safe journey."

Everyone is asleep.

But the young couple hugged each other, looking at the unclear scenery outside.

Occasionally there will be lights flashing.

Yan Zhilan leaned against Xiao Ruoyan's warm arms, holding her hair with one hand, and said very softly, "Ayan, do you think I'm dreaming, we finally got admitted to a university."

Xiao Ruoyan kissed her forehead: "Why is it a dream? Xiaoyan, when we get there, we don't have to sneak around anymore. We can rent a house outside and have our own little home."

Yan Zhilan smiled, "Are you willing? It costs a lot of money to rent a house."

Xiao Ruoyan hooked the corners of her lips: "It's worth it. I'm going to do more business, we can create together, make more money, buy your favorite piano, my guitar, I'll hug you and hum songs Okay? Get another little cat."

Yan Zhilan lightly tapped her shoulder, her eyes were shining brightly, she murmured: "Ayan, I'm so happy."

"There are happier things."

Xiao Ruoyan secretly looked at the old couple on the upper and lower bunks, and made sure that they were asleep. She restrained her violent heartbeat, and kissed those thin lips.

Her taste is Xiaoyan's favorite sweetness.

But now, it is full of bitterness.

"Wake up, wake up!"

……

Something sounded in her ears, Yan Zhilan's body trembled, she hugged Xiao Ruoyan tightly, even though the bitterness in her mouth was about to overflow, she still refused to let go.

She kissed and began to cry, "Ayan, Ayan, don't go."

Her eyes were suspended in the air like particles, and a huge roar resounded in her ears. Xiao Ruoyan's figure was floating in the air. She turned her head to look at Yan Zhilan for the last time, and her vermilion lips spat out a bewitching temptation.

——I'll wait for you here.

No matter how hard Yan Zhilan tried, Xiao Ruoyan still crumbled and disappeared across her fingertips like quicksand.

Immediately after, her eyes were shone with something like a flashlight, and her sister's crying sounded beside her ears, Yan Zhilan slowly opened her eyes.

The surrounding area is white.

She moved her body, and there was no pain anywhere on her body, and her wrists were wrapped in thick gauze.

a few days.

After being rescued from the gate of hell, she was so emaciated that she can only be described by one word--destroyed.

Yan Zhilan looked at her sister suspiciously, she couldn't make any sound, all she could move was her eyes, and Yan Zhiyi was still dragging the water cup and medicine in her hand.

what.

It turns out that the bitter taste of eight-treasure porridge and kiss comes from here.

She looked at the doctor next to her again. She was holding a talking flashlight in her hand, she was a bit old, and she was writing beside her, and beside her stood a male doctor who was also not young.

They seem to have known each other, it turned out to be the couple who appeared in the carriage.

Yan Zhilan's head hurts, she looked blankly at everything in front of her, Yan Feng folded his arms and looked at her angrily and helplessly: "Are you awake? Xiaoyan, you have let father down so much, you...you actually wanted to die ...I raised you so much, you don't even want your father and sister for a woman?"

Yan Zhilan still looked at him, her eyes were straight, Yan Zhiyi wiped her red and swollen eyes, "Dad, my sister just woke up, don't say any more."

Yan Zhilan moved her lips, she couldn't make a sound at all, Yan Zhiyi walked over and lowered her head.

She was listening very seriously, Yan Zhilan's every word was very light, she had been in a coma for a long time, her body seemed to be exhausted, after speaking a few words, her back was soaked.

Most people escape from death, there will be a short blank, and some personalities will change drastically, and most of them will hug their family members and cry bitterly.

But Yan Zhilan was different from them.

She whispered in her sister's ear with all her strength.

— Sister, I finally saw her.

A line of tears rolled down her stiff body, Yan Zhilan smiled so happily.

Her smoke.

The fifth year they were forced to separate.

She saw her.

Since then, dreams have become her obsession.

That was the only place where she could reunite with Ah Yan.

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