don't let me go

The smile on Duan Xu's face slowly dissipated with each sentence of reproach, and in the end, his expression tended to be serious.

Lin Guo's gaze was erratic, and he glanced around guiltily, occasionally sweeping across Duan Xu's face, and once he saw it, he would quickly move away as if getting an electric shock.

He could understand every word Duan Xu said, but the combined meaning seemed to be hidden by him deliberately.Cover it with a layer of hazy gauze, and I don't want to uncover it.

He wanted to escape, but as soon as he started to retreat, Duan Xu, who was walking quickly, held down his shoulder.

Duan Xu stared at him steadfastly until Lin Guo couldn't take it anymore and had to look back at him.

"Brother..." Lin Guo called softly, he lowered his head and said hoarsely, "I'm sorry, brother."

Duan Xu laughed out of nowhere, no matter how he heard it, he felt that the smile was not strong, "Don't want this."

Don't want this?Apologize, don't "sorry", so what?Lin Guo was even more at a loss, his hands were hanging down and he pulled the seam of his trousers awkwardly, "Then how should I apologize?"

He really didn't know what Duan Xu wanted to hear, and he didn't know what he should say.

No, he might know, but he dared not say it.

Duan Xu pinched his chin and forced him to raise his head to meet his gaze. When Lin Guo was about to drown in his bottomless eyes, he quickly pecked Lin Guo's lips.

"I want this."

Lin Guo shrank back suddenly in fright, covered his mouth and looked at Duan Xu in disbelief, "Brother, how could you..."

"You kissed me many years ago, now I can take revenge on you, can't I?" Duan Xu stopped forcing him, and he changed his method.

"I know you're not stupid, the idiot has been in the society for so many years and already knows much better than before.

You know what brother means, and you also know why I decided to talk about my relationship so openly and honestly.

It's like I know that you know all this, but for some reason, you are still unwilling to accept it.Not only unwilling to accept me, but also unwilling to accept yourself. "

Now that it's started, Duan Xu doesn't want to let this matter go unnoticed.

Too long, too many years have passed.Without the reunion that day, he really couldn't estimate how long he would wait.

Just waiting like this, waiting aimlessly, waiting for a person who was forced away by me indirectly, who has no name and no part to me, and I also has no name and no part to him.

He didn't know how long he could be stubborn.Now I can only rejoice, fortunately, although many years late, but I have caught up.

How precious it is to have a chance to meet again in the vast crowd.

They all know.

"I can't..." Lin Guo shook his head, "I can't let you be like me."

He muttered to himself in a very low voice, but there were only the two of them in this empty place, no matter how small the voice was, Duan Xu could still hear it.

"Let's go, I won't stay here anymore, my brother will cook for you." Duan Xu went out, and Lin Guo followed behind.Slowly, preoccupied.

After getting home.

Lin Guo slumped on the sofa and looked at the ceiling, his mind was empty.I can vaguely hear Duan Xu talking on the phone, and it seems that Duan Xu is required to return to the company now about work matters.

Duan Xu discussed it: "Send me your email and I'll check it at home, is that okay?"

The other party agreed, but emphasized the urgency and told him to hurry up.

Duan Xu put down the food at hand, took out the computer with one hand and put on his glasses with the other, sat next to Lin Guo and concentrated on it.

Lin Guo was lying on his side, occupying most of the sofa, and he could still see a small part of Duan Xu's face when he tried to turn his eyes forward.

"Looking at me?" Duan Xu said.

Lin Guo withdrew his gaze and continued to look at the ceiling, "I didn't."

"Well, we will have to wait a while before we can eat. There is an urgent matter to deal with."

Lin Guo happened to not know what he should do here now, so he simply sat up, turned his back to Duan Xu and said, "Why don't you...you are busy today, and you can have dinner next time, so I'll go back first...ah! "

In the middle of speaking, the back collar was pulled back forcefully, and his butt was forced to move back a certain distance. When he lay down again, his head fell firmly on Duan Xu's thigh.

Duan Xu adjusted his glasses without changing his expression, picked up the computer that had just been moved aside, and put it on the coffee table.

His eyes were still on the computer screen, and he freed a hand to pinch Lin Guo's overly frightened little face, "You haven't apologized to me, who will allow you to go back?"

Lin Guo opened his lips slightly, staring at Duan Xu's chin, this angle is so strange, he is obviously looking up but feels so safe.

"Wait, it won't take you long."

After saying this, Duan Xu stopped talking, but when Lin Guo tried to sit up, Duan Xu's hand on his face would force him to push him back, and he would put the pulp of his thumb on his lips. He rubbed against him warningly.

It won't take long, but Duan Xu is a very meticulous person in his work, and the documents in his hands usually don't make any mistakes.

He worked slowly and meticulously, and when he closed his notebook, the guy on his lap had already fallen asleep.

Duan Xu glanced at the sky outside, but had no choice but to choose takeaway for dinner.

Lin Guo fell asleep, Duan Xu didn't dare to move, and kept this position until the doorbell rang, Duan Xu had to wake him up.

But I didn’t expect Lin Guo to sleep quite deeply. Duan Xu saw his lightly closed eyes and suddenly had a new way of getting up——

He lowered his head and took a bite on Lin Guo's mouth.

Duan Xu couldn't say why he was so naive all of a sudden, or maybe it was because he couldn't bear it any longer after he said it frankly, and always wanted to find a reason to kiss him.

This is a good method, Lin Guo opened his eyes instantly, covered his mouth and said, "It hurts..."

"No bleeding."

Lin Guo looked at him condemningly, as if to say: Do you still want to bleed?

Since the dinner was changed from a meal cooked by Duan Xu to a takeaway without a sense of ceremony, the two settled it hastily in a tacit understanding, and neither of them mentioned the afternoon matter during the meal.

"Brother, are you busy now?" Lin Guo was referring to work.

Duan Xu pointedly said: "There is..."

Lin Guo stood up when he heard the words, "Then you do your work first, I will start today..."

"If you don't tell me clearly today, I will tie you up at home and not allow you to go anywhere."

As Duan Xu spoke, his expression was unclear, and he even took a sip of almost cold water to moisten his throat.

It was only then that Lin Guo realized that his "something" meant something between them.

After holding back for an entire afternoon, Lin Guo didn't know how to tell Duan Xu his heart knots for so many years.

He was not good at words, and he didn't know how to speak beautifully, so that Duan Xu liked to listen.

Obviously Duan Xu knew this very well, and he didn't intend to rely on Lin Guo to explain everything to him unilaterally.

"You don't like me?" Duan Xu asked bluntly.

Just as Lin Guo sat back on the sofa, he was so frightened that he almost slipped down. He supported the sofa and moved it up, shaking his head violently.

"Then you like me." Duan Xu smiled.

This is a fact.

Lin Guo is not good at lying, so he nodded with his flushed cheeks.

"Why didn't you tell me if you liked me?" Duan Xu asked.

Lin Guo clasped his hands nervously, "I, I thought about it, let me tell you."

"When?"

"That day, that night." Lin Guo said.

Duan Xu's memory of that night was terribly deep. After many years, he still clearly remembered every detail.

It turned out that the words that Lin Guo managed to get out of his throat at that time were: "I like..."

It was interrupted when he couldn't say anything later.

So the original sentence is: "Brother, I like you."

This confession has been permanently hidden in the past few years.

Being dug out so easily today made Duan Xu's heart ache.

"Then why did you run?"

"because……"

Because he suddenly realized that he was like a dark mouse, Duan Xu seemed to get better only if he turned his back on him and left him.

But in the afternoon Duan Xu said he was wrong.

Lin Guo recalled that night, there was a thin line between light and darkness.

"Because, I'm afraid."

"I'm afraid that you will become as abnormal as me because of my liking. I'm afraid that you will live up to the expectations of your uncles and aunts. I'm afraid that you will be criticized by others if you follow this path."

Duan Xu felt dense pain in his heart, he could imagine that a fool like Lin Guo, who only wanted to be good for him, would indeed reject him only under such circumstances.But when I actually heard it, I still couldn't help being sad.

Lin Jianyi and his wife are not normal people.It is a cancer and a scum in society.

Just such a poorly educated child with undisturbed character, who lived in such a harsh and difficult environment since he was a child, has grown into the most beautiful appearance, as if he has all the kindness that his parents have lacked for decades .

Duan Xu asked softly: "I don't want to face me now because I'm afraid that after being with me, my parents won't be able to accept it, and my colleagues won't understand, right?"

Lin Guo nodded.

After a while, he said, "I'm afraid I'll delay you."

What kind of person is Duan Xu, a person who should be respected and admired by everyone.But if there is him, he will become the only stain on the statue, and it will be the most embarrassing stain.

He has no education, no culture, no courage.A three-no product with nothing.Also gender male.

"Don't think so." Duan Xu hugged him suddenly, "Do you know why I studied hard since I was a child? It's one thing to earn face for myself, one thing is to let my parents live a better life in the future, and there's another point——

It's my neighbor's house. There is a child who is always beaten. I have to work hard and have the ability to take him away. "

"Brother in the third year of high school, you were heartless and left me alone at the most important moment.

Do you know how hard it is to be in the third year of high school?I get up every morning to recite the book, and there is no longer a fool who sits beside me half asleep and half awake.

But I still have to work hard, because I have to be admitted to a good university, I have to have a good job in the future, and I have to be rich, so that I can find that silly boy and bring him home. "

"In the past two years, I have been so busy with work that I am almost useless, and I am constantly turning around every day. Brother is not a superman, and he should have been unable to hold on. If it weren't for your kid wanting a family, do you think I can have what I am now?"