The Sun of Rebirth

It was past twelve o'clock after returning home by taxi from the airport, and the house was lit with warm lights. Su Chaoyang's tense face instantly disintegrated, and the corners of his mouth uncontrollably pulled away.

No matter how much he has experienced, no matter how time changes, he can't control people's hearts, and he doesn't have full confidence to obtain a perfect love. The only thing he can grasp and must grasp is the family affection that belongs to him alone. He felt sorry for his mother, but the lack of the word mother in the dictionary gave him a clearer father's love, which can dispel all anxiety and misfortune, and is the lamp that will always be lit for him whenever he returns home.

"Dad, I'm back."

The living room was empty, and Su Da came out of Su Chaoyang's bedroom in pajamas, with a grim expression on his face: "Go to bed early when you come back, do you want to eat supper?"

"Full, Dad, are you... playing with my computer?" Facing his father's rare stinky face, Su Chaoyang had a bad feeling. He played on the computer at home, and Su Da also went to the Internet cafe if he wanted to play. Shang seldom entered his room, and he didn't do anything to hide it.

"Well, go to sleep." Su Da was about to go back to the room.

"Dad, wait, I have something to say." Su Chaoyang simply stopped him. Su Da is not a person who is good at hiding his emotions. Su Chaoyang can always easily see through his thoughts. His father probably got quite agitated today. , I will definitely not be able to sleep at night.After all, the blockbuster movies in his computer... are really exciting.

"Dad, did you read something on my computer that I shouldn't have seen?"

Su Da's face was dark, staring at his son silently.

Su Zhaoyang lowered his head and smiled wryly: "I'm sorry, as you suspected, I do... like the same sex. I have never had a chance to confess to you. Since you found out, I don't want to keep it from you."

Su Da, who had been dizzy from the stimulation for a long time, shook his body. Su Chaoyang's honesty was undoubtedly another blow. He wished to hear his son's denial, but he was so straightforward that he couldn't accept it.

Like the same sex... as in the film?His intuition is not that simple, after all, he has never heard of anyone who likes the same sex can walk in the sun openly in the end, and the society he has seen 'does not' have that kind of person.

"You're still young, go to bed early." Su Da dryly comforted her, and went back to her room listlessly.

Su Chaoyang leaned against the wall quietly, staring at Jasmine on the flower stand in a daze. Sooner or later, he would have to face this day, and his father just couldn't accept it for a while.

It's good to confess early, and in the future with Lin Zhan...

Thinking of Lin Zhan, Su Chaoyang's heavy heart sank again, and he didn't even want to think about it at all. He had a very bad feeling that Lin Zhan's position was more important than his father's approval.

Even if his father loves him and chooses to support him unconditionally and encourage him to be happy with gay people, the premise must be that there is such a person who loves each other wholeheartedly...

Su Chaoyang was destined to suffer from insomnia that night.

"Mom, there is a person lying at the door, she is a lunatic from the town, will she die lying in the snow in such a cold..."

"Xiao Luo, didn't you hate that lunatic before? Why do you suddenly feel sorry for her today? Let me tell you, there must be something to hate about a poor person. Even if she freezes to death outside, she should have retribution, so Xiao Luo must learn well."

"Mom, she seems to be really dying. Look at her eyes...there is no light."

"Xiao Luo! Who told you to run out! Don't you care if she doesn't understand? Don't care if she is dead or not, don't touch the dirty ones."

"Mom, I heard her calling me, did you hear that?"

"Xiao Luo, come back!"

"There are so many wounds on her body... so pitiful."

"A madman is not worthy of pity."

"She seems to be dead...really dead."

"It's good to be dead, don't worry about it, someone will drag the body away after death."

"Where are you dragging... Mom..."

Bang, the door slammed shut, cutting off the inside and outside of the house, and he could no longer see it.

Where did that lunatic woman end up?

Chen Luo woke up faintly, took off the blindfold and stared at the top of his head in a daze, he seldom thought about the things of his childhood, no matter whether it was unintentional or intentional, he almost forgot.

The sudden dream is very clear, as if it happened in real life.

"Boss, do you need something to drink?"

The bodyguard beside him asked considerately.

Chen Luo's confused thoughts were broken, he didn't answer, he saw the rolling clouds outside the small window from one side of his face, and the roar of the plane seemed to come back to his ears.

He realized that he was still on the plane, heading all the way to Uptown.

The stewardess delivered a rich meal, and the bodyguards were all in front of him.

Chen Luo picked up a ripe red apple.

A more realistic picture appeared in front of my eyes, the woman's dirty hands, holding a dirty apple, chasing behind his buttocks... From kindergarten to elementary school, from county town to town, from his passing There is always her wandering figure on every road, and she has witnessed his growth in a way that he doesn't know at all.

Kacha took a bite of the apple, it was crunchy and sweet, chewing the aftertaste in the mouth, pantothenic acid...

Su Zhaoyang slept until one o'clock in the noon when he woke up, his head was heavy and his body was tired.He took out his mobile phone several times and wanted to call Lin Zhan. This summer, Lin Zhan had very little contact with him. If he hadn't taken the initiative, Lin Zhan would not have contacted him at all.For the reason, he knew but didn't seem to know, he felt very distressed and helpless.

When Su Da came back from abroad, he couldn't bear it after holding back for a day and a night. Seeing his son, he blurted out and asked, "Chaoyang, I thought about it all night yesterday, tell me the truth, do you already have... a boyfriend? "He felt that if his son didn't have a boyfriend, he wouldn't admit it so readily.After discovering this fact, he couldn't calm down. The person his son likes... must not be what he worried about...

"Yes." Su Chaoyang didn't hide anything.

Su Da frowned: "Don't tell me it's Wang Ran." This boy and his son grew up together, and they have always been in focus.

The juice in Su Zhaoyang's mouth splashed out: "Dad, I like the same sex but not everyone. That kid Wang Ran...hehe, don't scare me."

Su Da heaved a sigh of relief when he heard that, when he suspected Wang Ran, something was wrong with him, and the more he thought about it, the more he felt that the kid was bad or bad.But soon he became frightened again. The only people his son had a lot of contact with were a few boys... If it wasn't for Wang Ran, based on what he saw, wouldn't it be...

Su Da's face turned pale in an instant, and Su Chaoyang was taken aback because his body swayed greatly after being sunburned for a long time. He quickly helped Su Da sit down and poured water for him: "Drink water quickly to relieve the heat."

Su Da excitedly pushed away the water he handed over, with hot sweat oozing from his head, like a dried-up caller, his voice was hoarse and inexplicable: "Don't say you like Song Chenxi! Tell me, right?"

Su Chaoyang, who was violently shaken by Su Da's arm, was startled and puzzled. Why did Song Chenxi's father lose his composure when he talked about Wang Ran? What is the difference between Wang Ran and Song Chenxi?Not all boys.The appearance of his father caused Su Chaoyang to have doubts that he could no longer ignore.

He frowned and pulled Su Da's hand away, staring at his face not wanting to miss his expression, and said ambiguous words: "I really like Song Chenxi very much, he is very cute, his nature is far more honest and patient than his appearance, And smart and independent, very good." To be honest, he really likes the Song Chenxi he knows, but it's just like a younger brother, not love, Song Chenxi is always a cute child in his heart.

Su Da almost didn't bring it up in one breath, clenched his fists instantly, stared at Su Chaoyang firmly in his eyes, and jumped to strongly object: "Chaoyang! You can't like him!"

"Dad..." Why is this happening?Su Chaoyang's heart beat faster and faster, and he had a premonition that some secret that he never knew was about to bombard his head.

Su Da's eyes dodged but his stand was firm, and he kept warning Su Chaoyang: "You can't like Song Chenxi, absolutely not, understand? Dad can't control who you like, you are my son, I respect you and bless you, I hope you live To be happy, but Song Chenxi is the only one who can't... Even if you hate me to death, I won't allow you to have anything."

Su Da was heartbroken when he said these words, and he felt that his liver hurt when he said it. He was not so willing to recognize his son's sexual orientation, but he only found out after searching the Internet, even if he put a knife on his son's neck, this fact It can't be changed, unless like many Chinese parents, they ignore their son's preferences, force their son to marry a woman he doesn't like, and even have no sex life when they marry back home... Either endure it for a lifetime, or cheat your wife to go out and fool around, no matter what Has nothing to do with happiness.He didn't want his son to experience that kind of dirty life. Since his son couldn't change, what choice did he have? Apart from supporting his son, he had no other good choice.I had no choice but to enlighten myself and make more money. If I had no choice in the future, I would send my son abroad. I heard that foreign countries are more accepting of this.In the future, the son can adopt a child, and it would be even better if a child is conceived through test tube surrogacy.

However, he finally figured this out, and what followed one after another, which almost frightened him too much, was the object of his son's liking.

"Don't ask me why, except Song Chenxi, anyone you like is fine."

It was with great difficulty that Su Chaoyang managed to calm himself down and face his completely bewildered father. If he wanted to continue the conversation properly, there had to be someone who suppressed the urge to speak out.His father's reaction made him [-]% sure of his guess. Song Chenxi followed his mother's surname, and his mother was once a student of grandma's, which showed that she was very familiar with the Su family. Su Da must have had some contact with her. Since she The student who was a grandmother proved that the two families have a good relationship, but now they have no contact at all, and even he has never heard of the Song family from his family, except for the medical trouble that his uncle said.And his father's reaction when he first met Song Chenxi is also very strange when he thinks about it now.

Song Chenxi... Song Chenxi... At this moment, Su Chaoyang, whose mind was full of troubles caused by this name, suppressed the pain in his heart. Perhaps no one would believe him when he said it. After living to this moment, he is no longer what he used to be. An ignorant child longing for maternal love, compared to a strange mother who suddenly appeared, he would rather she never appeared, and he did not want the peaceful life with his father to be broken.

What's more, those two people are in a distant foreign country at this time, since they are not in their own lives, why bother to disturb the peaceful time.

After Su Chaoyang thought for a while: "Dad, you think too much, I treat him like a child...I like him like a younger brother, my boyfriend is not him, you calm down, if I like him It won't be so indifferent when he returns to England, at least I will fly over to see his mother when he is on vacation, will he?"

The fragmented Su Da, who was hit by the violent wind and rain, suddenly found that the sky had returned to tranquility. The wind, rain, thunder and lightning disappeared, and instead, the sun quietly emerged.

Can't believe it.

"It's not him?" Su Da was stunned.

Su Chaoyang shrugged: "How could I like that kind of brat, uh... You know Lin Zhan, too."

"...Lin Zhan..." Su Da suddenly realized that Lin Zhan was indeed closer to his son, but every time Lin Zhan came to the house, he didn't talk much, he was quiet, and looked at the boy who was very serious and rigorous... like that Boy, actually like his son?It's no wonder that for a while, his son actually boiled Chinese medicine for him every day. At that time, he felt that Wang Ran couldn't compare to his care.

"Ah."

"……Oh."

"You know the relationship between me and Lin Zhan now."

"Oh."

After going through a lot of ups and downs, Su Da had nothing to say. He was exhausted physically and mentally. He let go of the big stone in his heart and immediately rubbed his neck: "I'm going to take a nap for a rest."

The gap between Su Da's reactions before and after made Su Zhaoyang dumbfounded. There is nothing to be sure about it, but his father pretended to be stupid, and he was happy to play stupid.

Thinking of the little things since I met Song Chenxi, there is no doubt that the two of them get along very comfortably and happily, and their relationship is much better than that of ordinary friends. They have accommodated him, cared for him, comforted him, and treated each other with sincerity.He treats him like a brother...

But if it was the real brother, he couldn't be calm.

Lying on the bed that night, he suffered from insomnia again, and the long-lost thing called loneliness escaped uncontrollably. He looked at the clean and tidy information on his phone, and felt less sleepy.

He wanted to find someone to reveal his thoughts without reservation, but he didn't know who to find.

A coffee shop that has been operating for many years near Wutong University is opening.

There were not many customers in the store, but the one by the window was a bit special. His forehead and left arm were all wrapped in thick gauze, and he looked seriously injured. He kept typing on the keyboard with his only good right hand.

Lin Zhan and his colleagues stood in the back sorting out the cups. His colleague Huang Yu was a junior in his department, and he introduced him to the job in the coffee shop.

When Huang Yu went out to entertain guests and came back, seeing that there was no one idle, he immediately dragged Lin Zhan into the dressing room and asked mysteriously, "Why does Yu Mingze always come to the coffee shop to look for you these days?"

"He had a car accident, and I got to know him by sending him to the hospital with my friends. He said that he was bored when he was idle, so he came to the coffee shop to relax and catch up on the manuscript."

Huang Yu shook his head like a rattle: "Lin Zhan, you may not know his reputation at all, but Yu Mingze is a big hit in the journalism department."

Lin Zhan had a bad premonition, hesitated and said, "I don't know."

"Look at Yu Mingze's very normal appearance. In fact, he is not a normal person at all, but a complete pervert. He likes men!"

Lin Zhan's pupils shrank slightly.

Huang Yu spoke with gusto, with an air of kindness to share: "No one in the entire university knows about the messy affair between him and Xu Jian... It is said that Xu Jian is determined to break up and go back to his hometown for a blind date... This time Yu Mingze is completely screwed... Now he is so hurt... The ghost didn't see Xu Jian's figure, he probably flew away, and a pair of perverted wild mandarin ducks parted ways."

Huang Yu chattered endlessly.

Lin Zhan's brain was buzzing and his whole body was stiff, his limbs were running through the electric current, his hands and feet were numb, and Huang Yu's voice in his ears didn't stop, but he couldn't raise his head to face it, he didn't dare to look at Huang Yu's face and said The facial expression when it's abnormal.

"Lin Zhan, you are too simple. In my opinion, Yu Mingze must be because you saved him, and he just broke up again, so maybe the target turned to you. After all, you are a handsome guy, so you must be on guard! If you accidentally get entangled by him Even if you jump into the Yellow River, you won't be able to wash it off."

Lin Zhan tried to calm down and said reluctantly: "He just wanted to thank you, you are thinking too much."

Huang Yu was heartbroken: "You haven't figured it out yet, don't care what his motives are, in short, you shouldn't associate with him based on his perverted preferences, what should you do if you are misunderstood, don't talk to him!"

After Huang Yu finished speaking, he patted Lin Zhan on the shoulder, turned around and went back to work.

Only Lin Zhan was left standing alone in the dressing room, looking at his pale face in the mirror, he was extremely disgusted.

He actually felt fearful because of Huang Yu's words, he didn't want to see Yu Mingze, even though Yu Mingze said to him yesterday, "It's rare that someone is willing to chat with me..." He sympathized with Yu Mingze, knowing the other party's depression and pain, Knowing that the other party is isolated and helpless, but at this time he drifts with the crowd and dare not lend a helping hand...

Lin Zhan's eyes darkened.

The sudden ringtone of the mobile phone woke Lin Zhan up, shaking off the frustration in his head, looking at the familiar incoming call notification, Lin Zhan watched quietly, unable to make any movements, watched helplessly as the ringtone stopped and the screen fell into darkness...

Putting down his phone, Su Chaoyang stared blankly at the sycamore tree outside the window. There was no summer wind blowing, and the leaves of the sycamore tree didn't move at all. Knowing that the sycamore tree kept barking, the deserted sycamore road seemed to be distorted by the high temperature, and his vision was blurred. Clearly, the voices of students reciting texts in unison could be faintly heard from the high school opposite, and it was vaguely understood that he was still standing here, but he was no longer sixteen and seven, and his high school with Lin Zhan had ended long ago.

Lin Zhan is an adult.

The adult world will force him to make choices.