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On the evening of July 7th, the sky in Jincheng was covered with a beautiful sunset glow, and the afterglow shone obliquely into the car through the car window, making people mistakenly think that picking up this handful of glow can keep time, the beauty of this world There will always be greed.

The sunset is infinitely good, just near dusk.

Such a beautiful and lingering moment, why do I think of such a sad poem?

I reached out to turn on the music in the car and turned up the volume. The quiet and sad atmosphere was finally much more relaxed than it was at the beginning.Lin Yucen's gaze always pretended to be inadvertently swept over, but he remained silent with his lips pursed.

After a long time, she still asked, "You guys, when will your wedding be held?"

"The exact time hasn't been set yet. If you can come, Xiao Xu should be very happy."

Lin Yucen slowly relaxed his shoulders, and slowly leaned against the back of the chair, like a little hedgehog suddenly in an unfamiliar environment, repeatedly making sure that the surroundings are safe before he dared to reveal the soft part of his body.

Pretty cute.

Looking at the gorgeous sunset outside the window, I suddenly remembered the first time I saw Xiao Xu in Manchester.

I don't like Manchester, where there is no clear change of seasons, unlike Jincheng's winter, which is full of snow and mighty; nor is it like Jincheng's summer, which is scorching hot and scorching sun.

"Xiao Cen, do you remember the summer in Manchester? There is no such beautiful sunset there."

The sunset outside the window changes for no reason, and it changes every moment.

I suddenly felt that the distance between me and the people around me might not be that far. For that moment, I really wanted to share with Lin Yucen the secret that had been buried in my heart for a long time.

"The first time I met her was in Manchester, when she was very young, but she was very brave."

Lin Yucen was surprised, but she was good at controlling her expressions and didn't exaggerate, she just put on a good posture of a listener.

"I was ten years old at the time. I was pushed into the water after school. She saved me, but she doesn't remember it anymore."

"After so many years, I didn't expect that my wife would be her, but everything seems to be arranged freely."

The Jinqiao in the distance forms two beautiful arcs in the gorgeous sunset glow. The more beautiful the scenery in front of you, the wider the space and the longer the distance, the easier it is to draw out the past events deep in your memory.

20 years ago, my mother traveled alone to Italy, and met a bard, thinking she had found her soul mate. Later, after the poet cheated her of most of her property, she regretted it deeply, and her father resolutely ended them. That marriage lasted 12 years.

Impurities are the most intolerant of human feelings. I never mentioned the past to Xiao Xu. What I gave her was always the purest and most ardent love.

I think we are destined to be together.

Just like the sun shining obliquely on a person, there will be shadows on the ground.

I am her shadow, and I will be with you all my life.

As long as I think of having her for the rest of my life, many things that sound terrible will become tender, aging, disease, death, separation... Xiao Xu will give me infinite courage.

"That day, outside Huayang Square, I saw you trying to run in to stop your brother, and it was very brave."

Lin Yucen's thin lips were slightly loosened, as if he had something to say.

What happened to Lin Zhao, what happened to Lin Yusi, they all reaped the consequences of themselves.I know that Lin Yucen will understand such a simple truth, but he can't let go of the grievance in his heart for a while.

Occasionally, I also feel that it is a bit reluctant for a girl who is only 21 years old to bear all this.

But fate has already laid out the trajectory for everyone, hasn't it?

Everyone is born with a place that suits her.

If I have the opportunity, I would like to maintain a relationship with her as a teacher and a friend as before. I don't mind teaching her what I know and learn. It's not a so-called repayment, but simply admiring such a potential junior.

When the green light was released, I lightly stepped on the accelerator and drove onto Jinqiao.

The river is rushing, the river is open, and the clear river wind is blowing the colorful flags on the guardrail. The sky in the west is changing with clouds and clouds. It should be such a sunny day tomorrow.

Tomorrow, I want to watch the sunset with Xiao Xu, go to Xizi Mountain or somewhere on the outskirts of the city, and ask Xiao Xu to bring the violin.

Beautiful scenery on a good day, a pleasure to watch.

Doesn't it mean that there is no so-called consummation in life?

Why do I feel that all the good things come to me, her family is willing to accept our feelings, we will have a blessed wedding, maybe we will have lovely children in the future, and have a happy and complete family.

The mobile phone placed in the central control lights up frequently, and I want to free up my hands to answer her calls. We have not seen each other for two weeks. Being busy can create the illusion that time is passing quickly, and when she calls me every night , Time flies quickly but it is not an illusion.

A heavy truck suddenly followed behind me. I glanced at the right rearview mirror and changed lanes lightly.

Not only did the large trucks fail to maintain the distance between them, but their speed was getting faster and faster.

The car accident at the intersection in the morning flashed through my mind, isn't it...

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Speeding up, overtaking, changing lanes, I completed a series of actions almost instantly, but the big truck did the same thing with me, and the distance between the two cars was getting closer and closer.

That's too late.

"Bang." There was a loud noise.

it hurts.

This breathless pain and illusion is exactly the same as when he was accidentally pushed into the water when he was ten years old.

This time, I once again clearly saw the pretty girl coming out of the glaring white light.

The five-year-old girl, speaking broken English, hung the amulet around my neck, and just like I dreamed again and again, she waved her hand and turned away, running to the end of the path.

In fact, after the reunion, I kept thinking, if I had asked one more question about where her home was, would the relationship between us have started earlier?

I finally took a step to catch up, but a circle of white mist filled the surroundings, blocking all sight.

The past is like a montage lens of a movie, cut in front of my eyes one by one.

We kissed for the first time, hugged for the first time, had sex for the first time.

She looked at the pendant on my neck curiously, and I proposed to her with the ring.

After marriage, we loved each other deeply and there were many quarrels. She was trying to grow up in her own way, and I thought she was panicking when she was leaving.

I received a gift from her, a very small house with a great design, and the gifts she gave me are actually more and more pleasing to me.

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I always thought that I love someone because I am willing to pay for her.

Later, it was she who made me understand that I love someone so that she can have me, my like, my trust, and my dependence.

Why do I think of this at this moment...

"Mr. Lu?"

"Boss Lu?!"

Lin Yucen?

"Buzz—" the phone fell on the co-pilot's floor mat, the screen lit up, and Xiao Xu's profile photo kept flashing.

The avatar photo was a screenshot I secretly took when Xiao Xu was playing a video with me a few days ago. He looks handsome, with sharp eyes. He is more serious and focused than usual at work, like an elite.

Yes, like an elite.

She, you may think she is a little silly, but in my heart she has always been the most powerful.Although I often laugh that she was admitted to Jinhua purely by luck, but I know she will become a good lawyer in the future, don't you believe it?She will definitely prove it to you later.

after······

Yes, in our future, she is still waiting for me to come home.

I reached out to reach for the phone, but my upper body was tightly locked by the steering wheel and the seat, while my lower body was completely numb. The blood snaked down from my arms, and one or two drops fell on the screen, following the cracked marks on the outer screen. A bright red flower came out.

It's a little bit closer, I'm a little bit closer to getting the phone, but it's only a distance of ten centimeters, it seems that no matter how hard I try, I can't reach it.

Just a little bit.

Does this herald the end between us.

It's just a little bit away from happiness and consummation.

I thought I might not be able to go back, so God let me see our past when I was about to lose consciousness.

The pain in my body has torn apart my remaining sanity, hallucinations began to appear wherever I could see, I was in a cold and silent world, I could see my lover, but when I opened my mouth to call her, I was caught by someone from nowhere. The water gushing from everywhere was submerged and poured into my internal organs.

I have never encountered such a desperate situation, and every breath is accompanied by severe pain.

If she really can't go back, what should she do?

Will she do stupid things, become depressed, will she really live the rest of her life with obsession as she said?

I am not satisfied with either choice.

Although I am not reconciled, I still hope that there is someone who loves her, who will be by her side for the rest of her life, and love her for the rest of her life. The short one year between me and her is just like a dusty past. Slow precipitation.

Until this moment, I didn't admit that all the deep love in this world can resonate.

Because when you love someone, in the final analysis, you want that person to live well.Regardless of whether that person is with him or not.

There is someone who really loves Xiao Xu, right now, by my side.

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Consciousness and body are slowly being separated, the surrounding temperature is getting lower and lower, and I feel colder and colder.

I don't seem to have much time to carefully consider and arrange the rest of Xiao Xu's life.

I can't walk in the door with her today and see her parents nod to both of us, only we will know how much we have been waiting for this day...

On this extremely ordinary day, I never even had the chance to hear her voice or look at her again.

I don't know what the rest of her life will be like, who will she live with?Will there be a child as lovely as her?Do you get wrinkled like everyone else when you get old?Even wrinkles are a gift from time, so it must be fascinating, right?

Everything about Xiao Xu's future is unknown, but there is only one thing I can be sure of.

She won't have me for the rest of her life.

The roar of the engine of a large truck suddenly sounded on the road, and at the moment when the speed of the vehicle hit, Xiao Xu's voice suddenly rang in his ears.

she is calling me.

Across the sea of ​​people, she was walking towards me.

I wanted to look at her again and touch her face.

I don't want to leave her at all.

Even though it was midsummer, my limbs felt icy cold, like being frozen in the wind by sadness and unable to move.

The unbearable pain is unbearable to recall.

After the violent impact, I rushed out of the guardrail along with the car, drew a beautiful arc under the beautiful sunset, and then fell into the deep water. Wisps of liquid darker than the water wave gushed out from my body and flowed around It drifted away, swaying with the water waves like smoke and mist, and gradually faded away.

As night fell, the sky condensed into a dark purple, resembling the lifeless face of a dying person.

I don't know how long time passed, the soul woke up in the light of the fire, and the fire in the cremation furnace incinerated the body that had been soaked in the river water.

Life is strong, but it is also fragile. What was alive at the last moment can be lifeless in an instant, or it can be turned into a handful of ashes in just a few minutes.

The handful of ashes was finally put into a small square box and placed in front of the portrait.

I used to think that the afterlife was just a beautiful lie. For the first time, I realized the theory of the soul that has existed since ancient times. The theory of reincarnation is not just a beautiful imagination of the ancestors.

A mourning hall was set up in the funeral parlor, and dirge music was played, and the people I was most familiar with stood on both sides of the portrait.

Time has left obvious traces on their parents, which are old postures that cannot be concealed by exquisite makeup, hair and decent appearance. They are no longer young.The two people who planned to never get along with each other when they were divorced finally met at my funeral. I don’t know how they felt at this time?

Perhaps mutual dislike outweighed the grief of losing a daughter.

On the other side stood Xiao Xu's parents.

At this moment, I was thinking how wonderful it would be if this was not a funeral but a wedding.

I once imagined our wedding, without too extravagant decorations, simple, full of flowers, the scent of red roses is more charming than the color of the flowers, the guests are all important people in our lives, with joy Your smile blesses me and my wife.

I looked around, but I didn't see Xiao Xu, she didn't come.

It's okay not to come.

After a brief pause, a gust of wind blew over from the door, and the spirit body floated upwards with the wind, becoming lighter and lighter, painless and almost scattered.

At the end of the western sky is a piece of darkness, where is the entrance of another world, waiting for the countless souls floating in the world to go there.

I suddenly realized that even if there is reincarnation, even if I can still see her now, we still have to separate.

Perhaps after a pile of loess buried the last thing that belonged to me, I really said goodbye to this life and her, and then forgot everything in this life, including her, and went to the afterlife.

But the living will continue to live.

In fact, I still hold a glimmer of hope, hoping that what happened on the bridge that day was just a nightmare, and after waking up from the dream, I can continue to hug her, kiss her, and have countless days and nights with her.

But the body is getting lighter and lighter, and has gone away with the wind uncontrollably.

"Liu Liu, I'm late..."

The mournful cry from a distance suddenly stopped me.

But I seemed to be more timid as I was closer to my hometown, and I didn’t dare to look back at her. I was afraid to see her withered and haggard face;

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She didn't cry, her eyes were as deep as a pool of stagnant water, real sadness would make people lose the ability to shed tears.

The moment I saw her, the spiritual body who had nowhere to go for refuge suddenly felt heavy, and I went through everything and walked towards her.

I wanted to tell her in person with all kinds of heartache and guilt, but she couldn't hear it.

"Six Six, let's go home."

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Everything has a chance, maybe even time will give way in the face of unforgettable emotions.

As time goes on, I always stay by her side.

I watched her start drinking day after day, watched her sing by the window when the sun was setting, watched her shock when she found the talisman, and the joy and determination when she hoped to have a child. Then, I saw Our child, seeing her watch that movie over and over again in the middle of the night, just because there is a name I left for her at the end...

The sun outside the window rose from east to west, and I have been by her side like this for ten years.

She has changed a lot, her smile is less and less, she has long hair, her voice is calm and calm, and she has the charm of a mature woman. Only at night, she lies alone on the side of the big bed in the master bedroom, hugging my clothes, murmuring Whispering, she is the one I am familiar with.

Sometimes I even think she can feel my presence.

I used to think that I could curl up in the dark for decades, watching her grow old, and even wait until we meet again in this world.

The cause and effect of the world go hand in hand, until a senior monk came to the family one year and brought up the past, I didn't know that the peace talisman was her life talisman.

My fate should have ended when I was ten years old. She saved me and gave me a peace talisman. Changing my life to continue my life is an act against the heavens, and it will greatly deplete my merits and virtues.

Only then did I realize that Yi Ziyue told my fortune by pinching my fingers before, saying that when I was 30 years old, I would meet someone who was destined to meet in my destiny.

No wonder Yi Ziyue persuaded me not to interfere with the affairs of the Lin Group. She said that not only would I not be able to be the savior of the world, but I might involve myself in it.

Maybe she figured out something, and she couldn't reveal the secret.

At the end of the day, I really can't be alone.

This is the most helpless part of life.

"All living beings have died and reborn in the six realms since time immemorial, and have been born and died again, going out of this place and entering that place, endlessly. Covering the dust and the past, cause and effect follow each other. All living beings don't remember past lives, so they only know this life. "

"When a person dies, he must be buried in the ground to be safe in the afterlife." The eminent monk folded his hands together against the white wall, chanting Sanskrit mantras, and I knew he could see me.

"The next life..." Xiaoxu moved her thin lips and repeated the word in a murmur. Her eyes, as dead as a dry well, finally turned up the monstrous waves. , "Master, can I continue our fate with her in this life in the next life? As long as I can see her again, I am willing to pay any price."

It's not the Fodu infatuated person, but the infatuated person who donated all the blessings accumulated in the previous life and the reincarnation of the ten lives.

There is never a free transaction in this world.

With the blood into the talisman and the talisman as a contract, Xiao Xu promised the eminent monk that she would exchange her blessings for ten lives in exchange for our reunion in the next life.

Before drawing the blood, the eminent monk closed his eyes tightly and told me in the emptiness: "You should have entered the path of reincarnation early, but you have stayed in this world for a long time. Now your merits and virtues have been destroyed, your spiritual body is getting damaged day by day, and your soul is about to die. If you want to continue this life Fate still needs to reshape the spirit body."

"She has accumulated countless virtues in her previous life, and in this life and even in the tenth life, she will be honored and honored, and now she wishes to destroy the blessings of the ten lives and lose the reincarnation in exchange for the fate of the two of you in the first life. Will you agree?"

does it worth?

Do I deserve her to treat me like this?

Who knows what the afterlife will be like?

If I insist on continuing like this and staying in the world without refuge, I am afraid that we will not even have the fate to pass by in the next life.

The eminent monk found out what I was thinking at a glance, and seemed to sigh, "They are all idiots."

The eminent monk opened his eyes, said to me, and also said to Xiao Xu, "Are you willing to destroy your own fate, destroy your own glory, and follow her into the reincarnation of the next life?"

I knelt beside Xiao Xu, glanced at her face that had been bruised by the years, kowtowed together with her, and prostrated myself on the ground, "I am willing."

In the sanskrit chanted by the eminent monk, my voice and Xiao Xu's voice are so clear and firm.

"After the first life, you will never enter reincarnation again, don't you regret it?"

I replied to her again: "Disciple does not regret"

The eminent monk sighed, shaking his head and sighing, "This is the fate."

Fate.

He clasped his hands together and recited the mantra of the past life, and I have no memory of what happened after that...