uncommitted man

In fact, I didn't sit on the edge of the flower bed at the station for a long time, and I waited for a drunken staggering person. I knew it was him, but I didn't look back. Not surprisingly, a chest as hot as a soldering iron was about to I wrapped myself up tight.

For a while, neither of them spoke, and I could sense his depression.I also know clearly that this is the first time he has experienced the tip of the iceberg of the hardships of same-sex love.The feeling that all the joy, anger and sorrow can't be put into the mouth is really uncomfortable.But what can I say to him at this time?

In all the love stories back then, it wasn’t that the two people who separated didn’t love each other anymore, and some couldn’t be together because they couldn’t bear the pressure of keeping silent with the world.

After thinking about it, maybe I should tell him that if it is too late to regret it now, I should tell him in a joking tone.However, I couldn't say it.I sincerely hope that the person who hurt him will never be me, because liking someone, no matter who that person is, is really innocent.

I don't know how long this state lasted, but I saw that he didn't intend to let go, so I had to break the silence and say, "Do you feel sick now?"

Instead of answering, he asked, "Have you been enduring this silently?"

"I...?" To be honest, I have never thought about this question carefully. Maybe I am a more pragmatic type of person. I take one step at a time, so it is really rare to make a summary of the past life. I don't know what to say.

"Thinking about it makes me feel bad!" He held my face again and said.

In a moment of hesitation, I raised my eyes to look at the blurred face in Ming Ming Mi Mie Zhong.

"I've been thinking about it just now, but it's a pity I didn't meet you earlier."

"So, your unhappiness just now was not thinking about yourself"

"Qin Lang" he called my name for the first time and said, "I'll give you a whisper." Accompanied by the strong smell of alcohol, he leaned close to my ear, "I just made a wish..."

A cold fingertip wandered across my palm, and I sorted it out stroke by stroke, 'May you never suffer from this grievance again in your life. '

Then, as if he was afraid that the word would fly away from my palm, he took my hand and quickly closed it on his chest, saying to me, "I promise!"

The moment the tears flowed, I seemed to realize what happiness is.

I originally refused Xiao Xiao to go home with me that night, after all, he is the birthday star today, and his buddies should have follow-up arrangements.He suddenly blinked those sly eyes and said, "They see that I'm all over, how can I continue?"

"So you did it on purpose."

"But I'm still dizzy. After all, I've been fed a lot." He put his head on my shoulder coquettishly.

When I got out of the taxi, I handed him a small box. He looked at me in surprise and surprise and said, "I thought you forgot."

I suddenly felt embarrassed, but I still said, "How could I forget."

He confirmed my expression with a smile but didn't dare to laugh and asked, "So?"

"So" under his expectant eyes, I said to him seriously: "Xiao Xiao, happy birthday!"

Seeing the mouth slowly collapse, my mood brightened. He strode up to me and said, "Then you have to help me put it on when I go home."

That is a pair of simple obsidian stud earrings.

But in fact, what surprised me the most that night was that Xiao Xiao was very sober all the way, but he couldn't get up when he was lying in bed at my house.Even when I turned him over, he said that the world was spinning so badly that I could only keep feeding him water, wiping his face and sweating all over his body.

The whole night, apart from taking care of him, I really didn’t feel sleepy. As soon as I remembered what he said to me at the station and what he did, I felt my heart was filled with sugar water, which was too sweet. I looked at his sleep again. Yan, suddenly a little scared.

Turning around, I took out the photo album I took many years ago. In it, there was a group photo of me and my favorite senior when I was studying. We were very childish at that time. I asked the senior to take a photo with me after a sports meeting.

The following are some memorable photos of me when I was working, the first time I walked the catwalk, the first time I spoke for a small business, and the first time I signed a contract with a studio.

Then there are some scenes with Gao Zhen, which are not really affectionate photos, he is also a more rational type of person, so in the photos, there are always friends or people who eat together with him Objects or something, a lot of people crowded on one photo.I remember that the only two photos of me and him were the only ones I picked out from a large pile of photos that I could still see clearly.

Scrolling back is the mother I added one after another, um, there is also a recent photo of the wisteria flower and the old man.

Sighing heavily, I got up and went to another bedroom, because there was no one living there, so I put some sundries away.

When I showed up in my bedroom with a camera, although I felt that it was a bit infamous to shoot an unsuspecting child who was sleeping, I still really wanted to leave this feeling of tonight in the form of photos Records may be better for me.

When one day I am old and find out this photo album, what kind of mood and what kind of thoughts I am at the moment may be more direct than the way I keep a diary.

Before taking the photo, I really put those earrings on him, since I bought them all, why not use them?

When it was about to dawn, I saw that Xiao Xiao didn't look like he was going to wake up, so I squinted my eyes and slept beside him for a while, but I couldn't sleep for a long time. As long as he made a sound, I would wake up completely. Three times back and forth, I found the sound of water ticking on the roof outside the window.Putting on a sweater coat, I got up to look, and it really was raining, and it was still heavy.Opening the window a little wider, I seriously thought about what life experience I had in the past 20 years, and after thinking about it hard, I really didn't.People say that one stands at thirty, but I am really tired of everything at the moment.

Turning around, Xiao Xiao was still asleep, but I was surprised to find that the pillow I was supposed to sleep on was gone, and looking under the quilt, it was Xiao Xiao who hugged him tightly in his arms.I went and stretched out my hand to pull him. He was half asleep and half awake, but he stretched out his arm reflexively, making a gesture of wanting to hug someone. My heart moved slightly and I hugged the pillow in his arms away. He fumbled and fell asleep again, and slept until after nine o'clock in the morning.

In the process of making porridge for Xiao Xiao, I answered a call from the senior sister I met in the cake shop yesterday.I pressed the answer button, and the senior sister told me on the phone that her daughter wanted to say a few words to me.

"Oh?" I agreed with some surprise, "That's good."

Then a nice baby girl voice called me on the phone and said, "Thank you, Uncle Qin, for the cake."

In fact, the feeling of being called uncle by a child is really good. I chatted with the child happily. I don’t know if the volume of my phone is too loud. Xiao Xiao had already got up, and leaned halfway in front of the kitchen door as if he hadn't slept enough.

"Are you hungry?" I pointed to the porridge in the pot and said, "It should be ready soon."

He suddenly said to me, "Uncle Qin, I want to eat cake too."

"...!!"