doting shipwreck

From the first time I had the urge to kiss Jiang Hai, to the night when I realized that it was a heartbeat, it took Yu Sheng ten months to understand that the feeling of worrying about gains and losses is called liking.

He likes Jiang Hai, but so what?

Ever since he was a child, everything around him told him that a man should love a woman. Even his father, who was not as good as a beast, used to bring wild women home to make fish and water to let him understand that this is the most important thing in society. A rule recognized and treasured by man.

Growing up in such an environment, Yu Sheng didn't dare to tell Jiang Hai his love at all. He could ignore the disgusting gazes of others, but he was afraid that such gazes would appear in Jiang Hai's eyes.

If Jiang Hai knew that he liked him, would he feel sick?Would he not want to see himself again?

When ordinary people encounter this kind of problem, they will most likely choose to talk to their friends, but Yu Sheng has no friends. Apart from Jiang Hai, he is the group of people in the "Turk Cat" crew. Although everyone is very good, But he still couldn't find a suitable one to speak to.

Being generous is friendship, being cautious is liking.

Yu Sheng, who was bound by his thoughts, perfectly displayed this sentence in his daily behavior. From that ordinary but extraordinary summer night, he seemed to be a different person in front of Jiang Hai, neither noisy nor noisy No fuss, no trouble for Jiang Hai.

And how could Jiang Hai not notice such a change in him, but no matter how Jiang Hai asked, he refused to let go, only a well-behaved and sensible appearance.

But what Yu Sheng didn't know was that this made Jiang Hai uneasy, and he cared more about the details of his life.

One gave tenderly because he felt alienated, and the other always avoided because he was afraid to speak, and the inextricable endless loop began like this.

Under such circumstances, Yu Sheng sometimes wonders if he needs to see a psychiatrist. It’s not that he thinks that homosexual love is a disease, but that he desperately wants someone to tell him that this kind of thing is not against social rules. Run in the opposite direction.

After thinking for too long and obsessing too much, Xu heard his heartfelt voice, and God brought him the answer through a rain.

In the summer of Xunjiang City, in addition to the scorching sun, there are also unstoppable torrential rains.

On this day, Yu Sheng and Jian Zhifan, who went to buy thirst-quenching drinks for the group members during the filming break, were trapped under the awning where the vending machines were set up by the heavy rain.

At first, considering the equipment installed outdoors, Jian Zhifan wanted to run back in the rain, but the rain was so heavy that everything in front of him was blurred by the rain curtain. After running back, there was no time to say anything else. That's enough for him.

So, after communicating with Shu Juan on the phone, the two decided to wait under the shed until the rain stopped before going back to join everyone.

Sitting on the bench in the shed, the speechless two looked at each other in embarrassment for a moment, and then looked into the rain tacitly.

Jian Zhifan is a "straight man" right, and he is also filming a drama with Shu Juan, so can I ask his opinion?Looking at the raindrops falling from the sky, such a voice suddenly sounded in Yu Sheng's heart.

In the next second, the idea of ​​self-protection and the love overflowing in his heart collided fiercely in his slightly thin body, and whether to speak or not was the core of the contradiction.

Raising his hand to cover his chest, Yu Sheng called out to Jian Zhifan in a somewhat stiff tone, "Brother Fan..." After all, his liking for Jiang Hai had the upper hand.

"What's the matter?" Yu Sheng's voice was not loud at all, and it was even more difficult to hear it amidst the sound of the rain. Jian Zhifan, who turned his head after hearing the sound, was a bit hesitant, as if he was asking Yu Sheng just now. I didn't call myself.

"Brother Fan, how did you and Sister Juan meet?" Even after making up his mind, Yu Sheng still didn't dare to hit a straight ball, but chose to go around the bend to open up Jian Zhifan's chatterbox.

Jian Zhifan obviously didn't expect Yu Sheng to say this, he scratched the back of his head and asked, "Why did you suddenly ask this?"

"It's boring just sitting here, I want to chat with you, Brother Fan, to pass the time."

"oh, I see."

Although Yu Sheng did say "lie", but sitting here is really boring, Jian Zhifan is not a very rich person, seeing that Yu Sheng wanted to hear the story between him and Shu Juan, he just said it all up.

Listening to Jian Zhifan's eloquence, Yu Sheng seemed serious but absent-minded. He even lamented that his ability to lie is not bad, but he always panics in front of Jiang Hai.

The story between Jian Zhifan and Shu Juan was very long, but by the time he finished speaking, there was no sign of the rain decreasing at all. It seems that God is determined to help Yu Dang understand today.

After Jian Zhifan stopped talking, Yu Sheng asked casually again: "Brother Fan, what do you think about Sister Juan's script writing in Danmei? I mean... most boys can't accept this kind of thing. Let's go..." After making a big circle, he finally started to lead the topic in the direction he wanted.

"Hey, what you said is right. In fact, I couldn't accept this kind of subject matter at first, but it's fine if she likes it. As long as she is happy, I am happy." While speaking, Jian Zhifan grinned, his cheeks flushed slightly Scattered a handful of dog food.

"Then...then if you don't consider Sister Juan, how do you think about homosexuality, Brother Fan?" When he really asked the question, Yu Sheng subconsciously clenched the hem of his clothes.

"Me?" Jian Zhifan was silent for a while, and then stroked his chin to look like he had thought about it, "Although Juanjuan has always said that I am a straight man who doesn't understand style, I don't think love is a good thing to say. , everyone has the right to love, and others who can't empathize with others have no right to give pointers."

is that so?After listening to Jian Zhifan's words, a glimmer of light appeared in Yu Sheng's heart. It turns out that besides rotten girls like Shu Juan and Duan Weiwei, there are also people who think that liking the same sex is not a wrong thing.

However, the joy in Yu Sheng's heart didn't last long before Jian Zhifan blurted out a twist.

"But..." After finishing his opinion, Jian Zhifan seemed to think of something suddenly, and his eyes sank.

"But what?" At that moment, Yu Sheng still asked happily.

"Did you know that the original screenplay for Earthcats was actually a tragedy?"

Jian Zhifan and Shu Juan met at the student union activities in their freshman year.

At that time, the president and vice president of the student union of the film and television department were a handsome pair of thieves, but Jian Zhifan, who was single for 18 years and wanted a girlfriend, couldn't figure out why neither of them had a girlfriend. And why are the two big men tired of being together all day long?

Later, Jian Zhifan, who came from a small town, found out that the president and vice president were a gay couple.

After knowing this, Jian Zhifan once complained to Shu Juan that "the world is going down", but Shu Juan beat his head and gave him a hard reprimand, and was warned by his ears that "love does not distinguish between genders".

Although at that time he didn't believe in this at all, and was forced to confess his love just to let Shu Juan let go, but after witnessing the sweetness of the chairman CP and countless heterosexual couples who betrayed and hurt each other under the banner of "true love" ended Later, Jian Zhifan also gradually understood the saying that "love is only where the heart wants to go".

In the ivory tower of University A, they were so happy, but the sweetness of the CP could not be maintained after all, and the tree of love could not bear fruit after all under the ravages of the secular headwind.

In the early summer of his freshman year, Jian Zhifan heard that the chairman was cast in an online TV drama in ancient costumes that came to the school to cast a role. A few months later, the online drama hit a record high in the number of on-demand winter online dramas, and it was logical for the chairman to follow suit. He was signed by an entertainment company and started his stardom.

This was something to be happy about, and Jian Zhifan also felt his joy about his lover's promising future from the vice president's circle of friends.However, no one thought that this was also the beginning of tragedy.

It turned out that the relationship between the two had been kept secret from their family members, but after the chairman became popular, some unscrupulous entertainment reporters exposed the personal information of the vice-chairman on the Internet, and crowned him the "secret taboo of the newcomer". "One said.

Overnight, questions from fans, opposition from family members, and worldly prejudice fell on the shoulders of the two boys like three mountains falling from the sky.

In order to protect the future of its artists, the contracted entertainment company has signed a contract and ordered the two to sever contact, but love is like water, and others can't stop it.

Later, things got serious, and some illegitimate fans rushed into the campus under the name of "love", and poured a bucket of ink-colored paint on the vice president, but no one in the fermented public opinion sympathized with him .Afterwards, the school actually gave the vice president the punishment of delaying graduation, trying to calm things down.

A sharp knife was stabbed in the heart of the vice president, and he was helpless in the ocean of people's words, until he was told by the family who came to the school that he would be sent to a rehabilitative center. Suicide by slitting his wrists in his hut.

As for his lover who was detained at home due to the contract turmoil, after hearing the news, he naturally had a nervous breakdown. A star that had just bloomed brilliantly on the way to stardom dimmed like this, and the bright smiling star never appeared on the big screen again. juvenile.

It is the world that killed their love, and it is the world that forgets them.

Only the juniors and girls in the student union who have been taken care of by them still remember that the gentle vice president likes cats and would carry cat food to feed the stray cats in the school every day; They would shyly follow the vice president, and reluctantly touch the cat's head after the vice president picked up the stray cat; I remember that the two of them held hands and said with a smile that after graduation, they would open a cafe for stray cats .

And this pair of lovers who have not been mentioned by name from the beginning to the end is the prototype of the characters in "Earth Cat Cafe".

"In reality, this kind of borderline love has to go through many twists and turns that we can't even imagine. It's also because the reality is really too bitter. So after the completion of the first script, Juanjuan and I decided to rewrite the ending, so that Gu Xi and Jiang Wufeng will be able to rewrite the ending. Be happy together with lovers who love each other." Speaking of the end of the story, Jian Zhifan's tone was full of regret.

It's a pity that the incompleteness of the story and the exclusion of society are the real reality.

That day, the pouring rain drenched everything and chilled Yu Sheng's heart.