A collection of allusions from the same road

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It has been nearly a year since I came here, and many people have gradually stopped treating Lin Chun as a man. When chatting with the young daughters-in-law in the village about tailoring clothes, they were particularly envious when they saw some potbellied young daughters-in-law. After all, he also wanted children.

"Silly boy, you are a man, how can you have such thoughts?"

"But they all say I look like a woman." Lin Chunying said, "Why is it a man?"

Mother said: "Women squat down to pee."

What?Is it that simple?Lin Chun thought, I am a woman, so I will squat down to pee from now on.

From then on he started squatting down to urinate, and soon the old man looked at Lin Chun in amazement, and gradually understood what was on Lin Chun's mind, and even burst out laughing.

"Your mother is right, you can't become a woman even if you squat to pee, and you can't bear children, because you are a man, the reason why I want you back is because you behave like a woman, Besides, my house is full of children and grandchildren, it doesn't matter if I want children or not, I want yours."

In that year, the People's Liberation Army came to their village, and the ensuing land reform classified Qigong's family status as landlords, making them the only landlord family in the village.After the land reform, it is said that Qigong’s family was forcibly moved out of the village in accordance with relevant policies. In this way, the original big family was forcibly dismantled.

Splitting up the families of landlords and rich peasants was a policy and a rigid rule at that time. Except for Qigong who stayed in the village, his five sons were forcibly relocated to other villages.

As for Lin Chun's matter, after investigation, the government believed that it was a bad habit left over from the old society, and they did not recognize this absurd marriage relationship at all. They intended to let him return to live with his mother, but his mother and elder brother refused to accept it. his return.The sentence "Whoever is married, the water that is poured out" is really overwhelming, and I can't blame my mother.

Since his mother and eldest brother refused to accept Lin Chun's return, and his identity could not be recognized, he could only stay and live with Qi Gong, so he could only be regarded as a member of this family.Besides, he doesn't want to see Qigong live alone, even though the relationship between the two has long been abolished by the government.

At this time, except for a thatched cottage, all the land, livestock and real estate in Qigong's family were confiscated and returned to the government. In 1952, a cooperative was established in the village. Because there was no land and livestock, and they were landlords, they had no part to participate.

Fortunately, there are barren slopes and wild mountains around. After all, Qigong is still an experienced old farmer. He believes in a saying that one side of the soil supports one person, and hard work is the foundation of life. He led Lin Chun to work day and night to cultivate land. He raised a few acres of wasteland, planted corn, soybeans and sweet potatoes, planted mulberry trees, and raised silkworms. In less than a year, he built a small tile-roofed house on the original site of thatched house, and lived a peaceful and prosperous life. Life is no worse than that of turning over households.

They lived a pastoral life of farming and weaving.What Qigong misses most at night is his children. He and the children were separated and moved to other villages. You must know that the actions of the landlords and rich peasants were supervised by the government at that time, and the children were also strictly supervised. The next is not allowed to leave the village without authorization.

In the spring of 1953, Liu Zhi, who had been separated for many years, quietly returned home. Qigong wept with joy when his grandson appeared. Liu Zhi is his eldest grandson. He joined the Communist Party behind his back when he was studying in the county. Liberation Army Company Commander.And Qigong didn't even know about these things.

Seeing his family reduced to the present state, Liu Zhi felt very miserable. It can be seen that he is a young man with a rebellious mentality, yearning for a new life. At the same time, he also loves his family, respects his parents, and even more respects his grandfather.After knowing the relationship between Lin Chun and his grandfather, I felt very embarrassed. After all, when we were playing together as children in the village, Lin Chun was much younger than him.

"Just call me by my name." Lin Chun saw Liu Zhi's embarrassment, and he never called Lin Chun's name in front of his grandfather.

When he learned that Liu Zhi was coming back from leave, Qigong was worried that his grandson's return would affect his future future, and these were also the things Lin Chun was most worried about, so the two urged him to leave overnight.

Before leaving, Qigong told his grandson that now Lin Chun is the only relative around him, and only with Lin Chun can he feel at home. He still doesn’t know where his parents, brothers, sisters, uncles and aunts are living, and even more so. No audio from them.

In 1954, the three anti-five evils began, because Lin Chun was unwilling to leave the old landlord, and soon Lin Chun was regarded as a landlord who slipped through the net, adding the status of a landlord, and Lin Chun also became a landlord.During the criticism meeting, Lin Chun, a landlord and husband-in-law, was personally attacked and beaten, which greatly stimulated Qi Gong, and he fell ill.

Since Liu Zhi left, he secretly searched for his family members, who secretly came back one after another to visit the seriously ill old man.Seeing that they are so affectionate, Xiang Zhu Yimo is an elder who values ​​love and righteousness.

Before her husband died in early 1955, he looked at his children and grandchildren who were by his side and said:

"I'm leaving. Your Uncle Lin is the only one left in this family. Come back and see him when you have time. If you are able, you might as well help him. You must know that your mother has a good life. She didn't live a day of misery, yes The natural disaster that year caused me to take advantage of the chaos and buy him, a young man, into the house to entertain my heart. I never thought that it would ruin his life. Not only did I get a bad name, but I was also worried about me every day. Compared with my mother, I am better than my mother, but I will be uneasy until I die, and no matter whether he leaves or stays in the future, don't make things difficult for him."

No one had the heart to interrupt his intermittent conversation. After returning to the light, Qigong's aura became weaker and weaker. Liu Zhi knew that the old man was dying.

"Grandpa, don't worry, we will take good care of Uncle Lin."

In the early morning, the old man passed away, and the family wept bitterly.According to the custom, it takes three days to be buried in the ground. Since the family members have to return to their current residence and cannot stay for long, Lin Chun asked them to leave at dawn, lest the village officials find out.

Lin Chun went back to his natal home and asked his eldest brother to discuss Qigong's funeral. Because Qigong's original coffin had been divided during the land reform, he and his eldest brother found the head of the household. In the end, the elder brother used one Yang changed the coffin back, and Qigong was able to have a coffin for burial.

On the day of the funeral, they hired a few middle-aged men to help, dug a hole behind the house, and did the funeral according to the custom before burying it.

In this way, Lin Chun became a loner, and Qigong's descendants came back to visit him every year. After several of his sons died, the grandchildren rarely came back.It looks like they've gotten used to where they live now and don't think of it as their hometown anymore.

As early as 1958, after the commune, Lin Chun stopped wearing women's clothes. At that time, he was often criticized as a monster and paraded in various towns and towns, so he decided to wear men's clothes again.In his heart he still felt that he was a man with a husband.After commune, in the commune he did men's work and earned women's work points.What can he say about an unfair society with two standards?

In the end, Liu Zhi was still influenced by his family status. He joined the revolution early and fought in wars. He was awarded the rank of captain in 55. He was already the head of the regiment in 1967. He lost his chance of promotion and was forced to transfer to a local area.

In the early 80s, the Guang'an man initiated reform and opening up across the country, gradually restoring the vitality of the rural economy. Soon Lin Chun was also removed from the title of landlord, which was of great significance to his family.Fewer and fewer people called him the landlady to his face.

Lin Chun has long lived in an environment where he has no status and is subject to arbitrary insults. Every time he goes to the street to buy daily necessities, he is insulted.Some people even tried to rape him halfway. After all, he was in his prime, so he didn't let the other party succeed.

He has been busy since he got up early in the morning until night. Although he is lonely, his life is getting better and better. A few years later, he repaired the old tile-roofed house again, deliberately renovated Qigong's tomb, and erected a tombstone. Let his children and grandchildren remember him.

Although his children and grandchildren returned less and less often, much of it was due to embarrassment.The younger generations regard their birthplace as their hometown, like birds flying away from the mountains and poverty. Lin Chun sincerely prays for their happiness and joy in his heart.

After the age of 70, cadres came from the village and asked this five-guarantee household to go to a nursing home, but he refused. He didn't want to be inseparable from this home, and he had to guard his grave.

Lin Chun'an is content with this tranquility, and rarely goes to the market at the fair, and is even less willing to socialize with others. In the rural areas where the living environment is backward, he does heavy farm work, and although his physical strength has declined, he can support himself.The years have ruthlessly aged his face, but the living habits he has developed over the years have not changed at all. He has never been interested in women, let alone contact other men.

I remember that in the summer of 2003, when the town sent an agricultural science popularization team to the countryside, a technician surnamed Feng fell in love with him.

He didn't know how to refuse his pursuit, so he had to avoid it intentionally. He actually came to the door in person, seeing the heavy gift in his hand, and seeing his burning eyes, Lin Chun had no choice but to let him in.

During the chat, Lin Chun had explained his intention of coming from his evasive tone and respectful posture.

It turned out that he lacked paternal love since he was a child. In today's words, he also has his own family and children, and he can live a decent life. He just likes the elderly, and he is a typical old-loving family.He said confidently that he knew Lin Chun was also a comrade.

Comrade?Chinese people are all comrades. Of course, there is a rise in many places to call people "Mr."

Technician Feng smiled, knowing that he had misunderstood, and explained that it is homosexuality, that is, two men or two women who love each other are called gays.

Lin Chun wondered how he became a comrade?Obviously he was carried in a sedan chair, but at this moment he couldn't help but think of the late Qigong, "I am not a comrade, I have been in a sedan chair before."

Lin Chun took out a flowered dress from the bottom of the box. Although it was old, it could be seen that it was a machine-made fabric with fine stitching. It was a delicately crafted women's coat.

Seeing his bewildered face aroused Lin Chun's bitterness and suffering. The past was like smoke, and it was the first time he cried in front of outsiders. Xiao Feng hugged him tightly and wiped away his tears.

Lin Chun came to his senses very quickly, restraining the sense of happiness that surged deep in his heart. He was not a slut, and he kept his integrity for decades just to be worthy of the late Qi Gong.

He did not accept this unexpected love, so Xiao Feng, who was good at digging his mind, gave up and left Lin Chun.

However, the floral dress of the old man carries a period of bitterness. Perhaps this floral dress is his only thought when he is alone in time.Perhaps this is the lack of historical records

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☆, rainy night

Short Story "Rainy Night"

Old Chai was awakened in a haze. It turned out that his adoptive son A Dong who was sleeping next to him was begging for sex. Before his mind was clear enough, Lao Gen was already pointing at the ceiling angrily.Although Lao Chai is old and in good health, he has inexplicable erections from time to time, which is exactly what A Dong wants. With a few help, Mr. Lao Gen can talk to him. If it is not that A Dong's teeth are too sharp, Old Chai would not be woken up by the slight tingling pain in Mr. Laogen's body.

He pushed A Dong, who was lying on his crotch, to prevent Lao Gen from being wronged again.A lazy donkey rolled around, and sent the pioneer Comrade Lao Gen to greet A Dong.

Suddenly, Lao Chai heard the sound of splashing water droplets and the sound of wind, stopped his rhythm and asked, "Is it raining?"

"Yes, it's been down for nearly an hour." A Dong was answering, pressing Lao Chai's thigh, signaling that the war should not stop.

Under the light of the small night light, Old Chai saw that the curtains were fluttering slightly, and the strong gale still came in through the thin cracks of the closed alloy windows, shaking the curtains.

Lao Chai, who was fully awake, seemed to be absent-minded at this time. The vanguard soldiers in Somalia could not get support, and they were ordered to retreat before they had time to repent.

The rain was getting heavier, Lao Chai lost all sexual interest, and A Dong refused to let go, so he had to lie down quietly and follow A Dong to apply lubricant on the chrysanthemum.

A burst of deathly pain penetrated into the viscera, and after stopping it several times, A Dong finally got his wish, and the waste wood was able to feel a burst of inexplicable happiness.

As expected of a fast swordsman, Ah Dong resolved the battle in a few minutes.Somalia was liberated before he had time to savor the taste carefully, and Lao Chai immediately went to the toilet to expel what should not be kept.

Only then did he realize that his wife next door had also woken up. The spring rain was considered a heavy rainstorm, and some rainwater had entered the hallway of the house.

She went downstairs to inspect the water in the house, and asked Lao Chai downstairs to bring the watchdog tied in the corridor into the house. The dog still likes it, and occasionally walks the dog.

"A Dong, go and bring the dog into the house." Old Chai transferred his wife's order to A Dong.

A Dong hurriedly rushed downstairs in his clothes, and came up after a while, saying that the dog was wet and was shaking water droplets in the porch.

Both his wife and A Dong are Lao Chai's "waiters".

Since they got married, they have never been red-faced because of money. Old Chai is not good at managing money. All the household affairs are in charge of his wife. Women like to manage money and manage affairs. Fill a large basket, let her take care of the money, and do more housework...all accepted by Xiaochai.

Xiao Chai, who never wanted to start a family since he was a child, rejected the ten women who were introduced. His mother cried and his father also cried. Xiao Chai relented and promised that the next woman to be introduced would be their daughter-in-law.But this time, the one who was introduced was a divorced woman like Xiao Chai, with a very dark face and a tall one called "miserable"!

The married life was not spent in quarrels, but Xiao Chai was unilaterally scolded, but the surname Chai didn't care about it.

"A Chai, cook the vegetables." The little daughter-in-law ordered.

"Okay, it will be ready soon." Xiao Chai turned the dishes into pickles.

The daughter-in-law scolded fiercely, and Xiao Chai has since lost his job.

"A Chai, wash the dishes," the young daughter-in-law's tone was obviously compulsive.

"Okay!" Xiao Chai said without saying a word, isn't it just a family's bowl?Just flushing with water is "faster and more economical".

When the little daughter-in-law checked, all the dishes were oily, so she was scolded naturally. It was expected that she would be laid off, and there were a few sentinel-like cigarette butts hidden in the sweeping floor.

The title of "Waste Chai" is a patented product given to Xiao Chai by his daughter-in-law, and no one in the family dares to share it.Since then, the little daughter-in-law has been fully employed!It has persisted until now.

When my son was young, the family conditions were very poor, and he rarely used paper towels to wash his hands before meals. Most of them were towels. Sometimes mothers would let their sons wipe their hands on their clothes. Occasionally, Xiaochai would also enjoy this patent. Now that the child is grown up, the patent is only owned by Feichai.

For decades, Fei Chai has never quarreled with his wife. He is puzzled by those quarreling and fighting families. Isn't he just a life partner?

Not to mention the coat and trousers needed for the appearance, but the color of the useless socks and the style of the underwear are all considered by the wife, a special waiter.

Waste wood does not think he is a good person.

When his daughter-in-law bears children for him, when he is excited, he puts his palm on his daughter-in-law's neck and says, "I will kill you and swallow you!" Feeling.What he cares about is not the land, but the parents and children who live together in this family.

After the child was planted, Waste Chai basically left the land that belonged to him.Although she was a nice person, she was like a swamp. What he needed was a flat man like the sunshine at night!

Lao Chai has maintained a relationship with him until he passed away. He is the old landlord who Lao Chai went to the countryside to engage in social education nearly 40 years ago, a simple old farmer, and Lao Chai's lover in this life.This made Lao Chai extremely sad, an indescribable yearning and sadness made him age prematurely, and he saw gray temples in the mirror.

But sexual orientation itself is a sexual desire.Lao Chai soon became acquainted with an old soldier from the same city.

The ill-fated old soldier retired as an English teacher and often subscribed to some English publications. When they met, the old man was already 82 years old. His sparse white hair was combed very neatly, and his mechanical square steps all had a military With a unique temperament, the dark blue suit made the old man look elegant and majestic.

They talked about the Eastern Expedition and the Northern Expedition on the coast, about the War of Resistance, about the past of the cooperation between the Kuomintang and the Communist Party, and about the Marine Police District where he was located!Listen to him singing old military songs and school songs.He also quietly listened to Lao Chai explaining "The Gadfly" and "Divine Comedy", about Europe and Japan. The old soldier thought he had met an academic figure, so he regarded Lao Chai more as an equal.

Of course, the most talked about is sex!

"Food and sex" is the most common sentence the old soldier said to him. He believes that both men and women should maintain a normal sex life.

He had a short marriage history and had two children. During the Anti-Rightist campaign, he divorced under such circumstances for reasons of protecting his children and hating women on the one hand.He is a guy who cultivates both civil and military skills. When he was young, he would occasionally eat Shuangfeng fans when he couldn't find Mr. Pingyuan.Generally speaking, the nature is still hard to change. I met the eyes of the so-called tortoise. The weapons of the old soldiers are basically stored in the warehouse. The baby is as soft as cotton, but the heart is not dead. It is often called hope Settle down to 0 to die!

They had been dating on and off for 6 years. Six years later, after a small farewell, Feichai found out that the old man had married a 50-year-old head nurse from Hunan.Waste wood feels somewhat jealous, but what does he have to do with him?Why stop them?

The old man's new partner was not at home, and the old man still chatted with him with a smile on his face, saying that the old man could not come to take care of him often, and that he was just looking for a life partner, and the sex life after marriage was in a state of truce.I hope that waste wood can come here often, what he needs is a man, and if you are interested, you can come to reclaim his new land.

Lao Chai felt a strange smell coming from the old man's body, and pushed away the hand that had been stretched out to untie his crotch.

"Forget it, I have a cold and feel uncomfortable these few days, let's do it another day." Old Chai refused the old man.He still has a piece of land that has been neglected, how can he have the mind to expand the territory?

"You know I've stopped lifting. I haven't done anything but share the bed, and I can't do it." The old man explained.

Even without explaining to Waste Chai, he knew that he was already a helpless old man, but an unexplainable disgust disgusted him.

After some false dealings, he left the old man, determined not to see him again for the rest of his life.

One month later, when his mood improved, Lao Chai began to miss the old man, and he missed the old man one after another. Under the impulsiveness he couldn't help, he still chose to visit the old man in the middle of the week.The gate was locked and the building was empty. Lao Chai learned from the neighbors that the old man had died of illness and that the property had been assigned to the old man's son.

"How could this be?" Old Chai thought.They had only been married for three months, and the good-natured person disappeared like this?The old man has excellent self-discipline. He quit smoking and drinking in the early years. His rosy cheeks and neck are very attractive. Although there are some faint age spots on the back of his hands, the long-term pampered life has left no obvious blemishes on the old man's white body. .It was a piece of homeland that Lao Chai was familiar with and gave up.Why……

Although the old soldier had a stubborn and somewhat casual attitude towards sexual pursuits, in the past six years, Old Chai hadn't noticed anything unusual about him.And he is a person who is unwilling to give up his family, parents and children, so naturally he cannot live with him.No matter how much you care about the distance, there will be mistakes. It's really not as convenient as having someone around you.

Maybe Viagra will intervene in the unsatisfactory married life, and Viagra is by no means a good person, it is the gospel of impotence, and it is also a killer for the elderly.

It was after Lao Chai stepped out of the old man's shadow that he met A Dong.He went online and joined the gay circle. Many netizens fell in love with the good-looking Lao Chai, and more and more followers made him feel like he was in a garden.

At this time, Lao Chai's mentality has completely changed. In his heart, the old man has fallen from a rare commodity to a pile of waste products. Before he knows it, he himself has become an old man. change.

He likes young people and cares about young people. The misfortunes of young people often make him cry with him. His complaints and struggles made him cry with sympathy. He has helped some young people pay their phone bills, and even sent money to help pay rent. The QQ password was also handed over to the other party. The one thing they had in common was that they wanted to live with Fei Chai. The cost of dealing with young people with a career foundation is so high that it stops waste wood. The gorgeous words and sentences piled up in words cannot withstand the torture of daily necessities. Some of them are bullying and gnawing on old professional households. After being cheated several times by individual young people , did not suffer much emotional damage, and did not lose a lot of money, but he gave up choosing a future sexual partner among young people in his heart.Isn't that fooling me old man?Maybe tears are worthless, making the old man's tears seem more bitter.

In this way, A Dong came to him. They were a pair of gay father and son who came down from the Internet. A Dong integrated into his life and his family.

A Dong is an extremely simple middle-aged man over forty years old in the countryside. He can't compete with those young people with good literary talent and eloquence on the Internet. He even doubts Lao Chai's character.However, during a rare video opportunity, he was also fascinated by Lao Chai's appearance. Lao Chai was the type of old man he was after, so he clung to Lao Chai and insisted on recognizing his godfather.

Afterwards, he left a message to Waste Chai, saying that he had a wet dream, and that it was in the dream that he had the first thing in his life with his godfather.I hope that my godfather will give him a chance, Fei Chai smiled, this guy looks like a young man, and he has the skills to support his family, so he agreed.

At the same time, Lao Chai also agreed with several comrades who were coming.Although the mountains are separated, and there are engineers and peddlers from as far as Africa to assist in the construction, A Dong is just a driver thousands of miles away.

A Dong came, and he took A Dong home from the station, saying that he was a friend's nephew, and the friend asked him to recognize him as a godfather; but those netizens didn't come, knowing that Lao Chai had chosen a driver, some people were not convinced, Some people regret it.

But this is an opportunity, but also a fate, if you miss you, you can continue to leave poignant and beautiful words of love on the Internet, Lao Chai no longer cares about them.All the poignant and beautiful words are hallucinogenic drugs when you are sad and relaxed. In Lao Chai's view, they are just funny and false words.

A Dong is obsessed with Lao Chai, and he is a little overwhelmed by defeating other netizens. As an admirer, he dare not let his godfather 0 bite him once.Waste Chai played the side drum for him, reminding him that he also wanted to be K, but he just didn't want to hurt the idol in his heart.Although the godfather explained that it was not hurt, but a complete and harmonious taste.

Until one day, Lao Chai agreed to open a room with a netizen in the same city to get in touch with him, which solved the problem, but that guy sweetly left a message in Weichai's QQ, wanting to do that again, hoping to get the detailed address, what a shame Dong cried and changed his godfather's calling card, and set out the guy's words.Knowing the whole process of the matter, this made A Dong feel like dying.

Lao Chai took his suicide note and rushed to the seaside. That was the place where they fell in love for the first time, and Adong was really here.

"You are mine, with me here, why do you still..."

"Come back with me, the sea is windy."

A Dong refused to go back, and Lao Chai was afraid that he would commit suicide, so the mentally poor Chai used the trick of quarreling, which made A Dong vent his grief and indignation.His voice became louder, he talked too much, he became angry, and his suicide plan was abandoned long ago.

Only then did Ah Dong realize that this old man is not a good bird, but a worthwhile thing!

"Do you still want to commit suicide? I'll burn paper money for you." Waste wood teased his godson maliciously.

"Don't even think about it, I want to accompany you to death!" A Dong rushed forward and hugged the old man tightly, without any dislike for this bad old man. After all, he was his trophy.

That night, the godfather asked Ah Dong to take the lead in the attack. After the attack, he felt lingering fears, feeling that he had desecrated the father-like old man.

"It's okay, son, be brave!" Huai Chai resisted the severe pain, stroked A Dong's tightly stretched body, and encouraged him.

A Dong never stopped asking his godfather to be 0, although he did not refuse his godfather's request.But tonight is Adong's first initiative.

The wind and rain were still going on, Lao Chai, the old trash, hugged A Dong into his arms and kissed, A Dong leaned into his godfather's arms:

"Godfather, it's past three o'clock, go to bed."

"No, godfather now wants to be a serious farmer."

Lao Chai, who was fully conscious, stood up and became a hardworking old farmer with great interest.

The sound of the wind accompanied by the sound of rain rushing outside the window.

The night is not peaceful...

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☆、Kapok Creek 1

One of the novellas "Kapok Creek"

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In the midsummer of 1965, after I graduated from a commune primary school, I gave up my chance to go to a county middle school in order to save my family the almost sky-high expenses of 10 yuan a month for food, lodging, and travel expenses.I am the son of a farmer, the eldest son of the family, and my parents are farmers who earn work points. How can my family have so much money for my education?The unwilling father took me to the county agricultural middle school with the admission notice from the county middle school in hand. In the middle, it is because there is no money to eat here, and there is a monthly allowance of a few yuan for toothpaste. My father said that going to an agricultural school is like going out to serve as a soldier. At that time, soldiers only had a monthly allowance of a few yuan. fee.

Fortunately, in the next 66 years, the Great Proletarian Cultural Revolution swept across the country. The county middle school became the main force of the Cultural Revolution in the county, and the Red Guards were everywhere. Their unity, we still go to class in the morning and work in the afternoon, but all the textbooks and textbooks have been replaced with textbooks for workers, peasants and soldiers. Practical talents of agricultural technology.

Most of the graduates from the agricultural school were assigned to the agricultural science stations of various communes or social farms, and I was selected to enter the county's agricultural science institute. Three years later, when I was rated as an agronomist Finally, as a backbone force, I participated in the Nanfan work in the Institute and came to Hainan Island.

The Nanfan Base is located in the range of a state-run farm on the Ningyuan River on the [-]th parallel north latitude, with the Wuzhi Mountains in the north, an open valley plain and some low hills surrounded by mountains.

After getting up every day, you can see a piece of green fields and rice fields to the south, and you can see a natural barrier composed of mountains to the north. In this huge green screen, on the mountainside of the mountain, there are clusters of fiery red flowers. Kapok is endless, like auspicious clouds surrounding the mountainside, perhaps because of this reason, the production team of the nearby farm is called Hongyun Team, and the small mountain stream flowing through it is also called Kapok Creek. The resident is only half a mile away from the Hongyun team, but they are two different units.

Since I met Uncle Chen there, I started another journey in my life, which brought me a lot of pain and troubles, and I left too many beautiful and happy memories there.

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One of "Nightmare 14 Years Old"

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When I was young, I didn’t know about love for the old, at least I didn’t understand the concept.At that time, my family was poor and I had many siblings, but I also had the innocence and romance of a rural child. I ate rice from my parents, drank water from my hometown, and grew up slowly without knowing it.

When I was in the sixth grade, one night, a burst of unspeakable pleasure hit my heart, and soon after the joy, I woke up. The front of my underwear was wet, and in my hand, there was a slippery and sticky thing. I left it at night. , It came so naturally, so inadvertently, and the ejaculation was so joyful, I still often think about it afterwards.

A few days later, my mother gave me some boiled eggs dyed red with red paper. It turned out that I was 12 years old.Since then, I started to try masturbation, just looking for stimulation and pleasure.

That night in 1967.The Cultural Revolution has entered into a vigorous stage of cultural attack and military defense. There are strikes and revolutions everywhere. Only the stagnant pool in the countryside reads the quotations from "Mao Xuan" in the morning, participates in productive labor in the afternoon, and has to study by itself at night (in fact, it is a culture without quotations. Basic courses, lectures by teachers).This kind of life is so used to it that it is nothing, and all the children who come here are rural children.

Just after the evening self-study that night, the head teacher left me. He is the vice principal and the head teacher of our class. It was past nine o'clock at that time. Talk to me.

Yes, the conversation between teachers and students is nothing more than study and labor, at most it is to ask about the family situation of the students.But the head teacher asked very detailed questions, and it dragged on until nearly ten o'clock. I felt a little sleepy, looked at the teacher silently, and listened to his non-stop talking until he stood up. I thought it was the end of the conversation, so he turned off the light , closed the door, pulled off my pants, my God, I felt a sharp pain, the private parts of my lower body hurt unbearably, I wanted to yell at that time, but the teacher forbade me to yell until he was done, and before I left, I was warned not to take this Tell others when you know, or I will be expelled from school.

In fact, I don't need his warning, and I would never dare to publicize such a thing to the outside world. There are several classmates in the same village here.

I hate him to death, but I have nothing to do with him. How can I, a 14-year-old student, fight against a forty-something adult?

The nightmare began to enter my mind, which greatly affected my rebellious psychology. I became the most obedient boy in the class, although he was no longer the class teacher, was transferred from the school, and heard that he was transferred to a commune farm in the county. I have become the director of the Revolutionary Committee, but the damage he did to me has not healed.

In my heart, I yearn for strong protection. In my heart, I feel that only a man with high morals and high prestige can provide me with enough shelter. This feeling has evolved into a longing for a stable old man. .This desire is very strong, has always dominated my life, and affected my life.

After all, this is an agricultural school, with less cultural class hours and high labor intensity. The high school has encountered educational reforms, and the three-year high school has been compressed into a two-year system. In the past few years, all the rural children who study and work here have grown into big waists. The thick boys and the girls have also become graceful magnolias standing upright in the wind, extensive yet beautiful.

Before I knew it, there was some mystery among the students. It turned out that many boys and girls began to fall in love. But I didn't feel it at all. Although I also received some love letters and poems like this, I never paid attention to them except tearing them up and burning them.When I was in a hurry, I said clearly: Studying time is precious, and I will not use it to talk about these personal things.Because falling in love does have a certain impact on learning, my high theory has become my amulet.

I firmly suppressed the nightmare in my heart deep in my heart. It was the strength of stubbornness that prompted me to work hard and devote myself to study and labor. grades.

In 1971, we graduated, and most of the students returned to their respective communes or brigades. A few classmates and I were assigned to the county agricultural science institute. After two years in the county agricultural science institute, I was only 23 years old. After examination, the