A collection of allusions from the same road

After the first family leave.The company commander also received the news that the old mother at home was seriously ill. Under the repeated urging of the instructor, the company commander agreed to embark on the return journey to visit relatives.So the instructor asked me to go with the company commander, and I have a companion on the road.

Although the old mother was ill, but due to his position, the company commander was reluctant to spend a lot of money on air tickets, and boarded the train returning east with me.

The train crosses the vast land of Xinjiang and enters Yangguan. Outside the train window is still a vast desert, a scene of northwest scenery.In Wuwei, many passengers got off, and the sleeping compartment was empty for a while.There was only me and the company commander in the carriage.I moved to the bottom bunk next to him.

I served freshly soaked instant noodles, our staple on the road, all to save money.The train continued to move on, and the company commander and I talked more and more gradually. It was strange that he talked more and more, as if he was a different person, and I was driven by a curiosity, and I I really don’t know why, it’s because I feel very excited when I look at him, because I’m going back to my hometown, I must talk about things and people in my hometown, the company commander’s words are like a kite with a broken string, endless, I Listen patiently.Listen to him talking about the plains of his hometown, the wheat fields of his hometown, and the customs of his hometown.The level of his narration is not very clear, but I can connect his words together to form a living young officer's nostalgia and love for his hometown.Like him, I also have inseparable feelings for the hometown I am about to return to, and I have a strong desire to recruit people to return to my hometown.

He was very interested in the hometown I expressed. "I can't see that you, a stupid boy, have a lot of affection for your hometown!"

I said: "A soldier may shroud his corpse in horse leather on the battlefield, but his hometown will always be in his heart."

The company commander turned his head and stared at me tightly: "You...do you think so?"

I nodded and hummed the song "Dream Camel Bell" softly

The company commander didn't say anything anymore, obviously he was infected by my emotions.But I saw some moisture in his eyes, yes, why didn't he want to do this?He fell silent.

And it was only at this moment that I discovered that in all the respect I had for him earlier, there was still an inexpressible love hidden. At this moment, I clearly felt that I had fallen in love with him.

At this time, I hugged him tightly from behind unscrupulously:

"Brother, I love you!"

He didn't take my hand away, and let me rest my head on his thick shoulder.

"I will love you forever."

He turned around and we hugged and kissed each other.

"Brother loves you forever."

Like me, my brother had a sexual orientation deviation since he was a child, and we have not been able to fall in love until today.It came so suddenly, so sincere and innocent, and the love was so true and holy.

I enjoyed my brother's kiss to my heart's content, "Bin, brother will love you forever, and cherish the relationship between the two of you forever!"

I shed tears for the first time after my teenage years. In front of this strong brother, I don't need to be strong anymore.I shed tears of excitement, tears of happiness.

On the speeding train, in the empty sleeper car, our two brothers fell in love and became gay lovers who talked about everything.

He told me that he had liked me secretly for a long time, but he never wanted to be with me. As for this time, he didn’t want to go home at all, because he strongly opposed his family’s forcing him to go on a blind date. He had been in the army for more than ten years. I met family members who coaxed him home with various excuses and forced him to go on a blind date.This time he also suspected that his family members used this method again.As a son of man, he is really worried that if his mother is really ill, and besides, he will return east with me.He was three months away from his family leave, and it was the instructor who swapped the leave with him.

"With you, brother will never marry another woman even if he dies!"

We brothers swore in the carriage that we would never betray each other even if we died.

When the train arrived at Lanzhou Station, the sleeping car was immediately full of passengers. We gave up one of the berths to a woman with several children, and the two of us squeezed into one bed.

This visit to relatives was the happiest trip I felt for the first time in my life.Because I have gained a heavy love.

When I rushed back to the army, I found that my brother had already returned to the army.After seeing him, I was full of words that I couldn't say, but I just couldn't talk about it.I asked my brother secretly, and as expected, it was his family who coaxed him home and forced him to go on a blind date.He politely rejected the woman's request, and his parents had nothing to do with him, so he returned to the team early and stayed away from the home that upset him.

After all, the army is a place with strict discipline. Although we are far away from each other, we rarely contact each other, and our two hearts are tightly attached to each other, but we are both satisfied with each other.

This coming year will be my third year in the military, and since I have not been converted to volunteer, that means my service has expired.Although I don't want to leave the army, I don't want to leave my brother, but I have to leave again, so it is true that the saying goes: A soldier in a barracks made of iron!

After retiring from the army, I came to Shanghai to work.My brother and I still maintain close phone contact.Tell each other what is in your heart.

Three years later, my family members began to persuade me to get married, and I avoided it again and again.My father even rushed to Shanghai to persuade me to go home and get married.At that time, the construction site where I was was undergoing intense construction, so I excused myself. After my father returned, I resigned later, left Shanghai, and went to work in Zhejiang.Because there are few fellow villagers here, no one informed my family.I can also feel at ease.

Soon I met with my brother. I was waiting for my brother in a small hotel in a county not far from the army. I was satisfied seeing my brother. All words were superfluous. We hugged and kissed as much as we wanted. It stopped, and in the small room there was only the sound of our hearts beating tightly together.

Brother only has two hours of leave, and the troops are practicing. Even the two hours of leave are specially approved by the head of the regiment. He must rush back to the troops 30 kilometers away.

"Bin, brother may also leave the team this year." His words revealed his deep attachment to the army. "I'm so sorry. I've been a soldier for so long, and I still don't know how to live after I go back?!"

This was the feeling of many veterans. I said: "Brother, when the time comes, we will go out together, and I don't believe that there is no way under our feet."

Brother smiled wryly: "Brother is not like you. He is young and quick to accept things. Apart from leading troops, Brother really doesn't know what to do in the local area."

I came here by train for many days, and it took me less than two hours to meet with my brother. Seeing his hurried figure, I already feel satisfied.Before my brother changed jobs, I had to work harder to save money and work harder.I have to have a certain amount of savings and experience to welcome the reunion with my brother.

But half a year later, my brother suddenly cut off contact with me.His mobile phone was turned off. Unbearable, I dialed the instructor's mobile phone and learned that my brother had changed his job and returned to his hometown.

I left all the work at hand and hurried to northern Anhui to find my brother.

His expression became haggard, and when he saw me, he was very panic-stricken.I saw that the wedding couplets mounted outside the gate were still so dazzling.

I understand, my brother is already married to another woman.A feeling of being cheated surged into my heart, my heart ached suddenly, I turned around and left, in a small bamboo forest behind the village, I couldn't hold back anymore, opened my mouth, and spit out Big mouthful of blood.

At this moment, he came after him.

He hugged me tightly and shouted: "Bin, it's all my brother's fault! I'm sorry, so you can scold me!"

The clothes on his body were stained with blood, big drops of tears dripped on the bloody clothes, and he said in a sobbing voice:

"It was my mother who forced me to die. Seeing that the gleaming knife was about to pierce my mother's heart, brother had to be a filial son."

"Brother, I don't hate you, go back and live a good life with your sister-in-law."

After calming down, I really can't hate it at all.

He began to cry loudly, and the sound of crying echoed in the bamboo forest.

"Brother, I have to go, can you kiss me one last time?"

"No, Bin, brother is no longer the brother he used to be. He is a sinner who betrayed his oath, and he is no longer qualified to kiss you anymore."

I looked at my brother, and took off his blood-stained shirt, exposing his uneven arms, how I wanted to lean on them again.

What a familiar body, but it exudes a strange aura. This is my lost position.

After I withdrew, unconsciously, I took a bite on his right arm, and a surprising smile appeared on the corner of his mouth.

I'm gone, leaving him, the man I once loved.

My heart is broken, with many scars, I lost on the road of same love.How difficult it is to love the same, a numb heart, belittle the worldly human feelings, but the nostalgia in the heart can't be dispelled for a long time.I was tired, and when I got home, I was no longer able to compete with my parents, so I hastily married a girl.

Both my husband and I came to Zhejiang to work. My wife is a virtuous mother and a very responsible housewife.

In the dead of night, I can't help but think of him, is he okay?I often hate myself why I can't forget him.

The time with him is the happiest and happiest day for me, and the only love in my life.

In this unbearable longing, I quietly went to him again.

However, I came late, he had already passed away three years ago, he died of depression.The time is within three months after parting with me.

I wanted to cry but had no tears, and wept bitterly in front of his grave.

It was I who harmed him, no, there is still the secular world!

Brother, I was wrong, you were wrong, we were both wrong!

But the love between us is sincere, because there is a love with blood and tears between us!

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☆, teacher's back

My hometown is on the banks of the Han River, in the Chaoshan Plain, where rich and colorful Chaoshan characteristic culture has been bred since ancient times, and a profound cultural foundation has been accumulated here.At that time, China's urbanization was only 13%, and the population was mainly concentrated in the vast rural areas.Our village is a village with a population of several thousand, and it can only be regarded as an extremely ordinary village on the Chaoshan Plain.

At the same time, it is very traditional here. The boys in the family are the future of the family, and the girls are mainly female celebrities such as Chaoxiu, so very few girls go to school. No matter how poor the family is, the boys are still sent to school.In this way, I was sent to school by my father and handed over to Teacher Liu.

Teacher Liu is an old primary school teacher in the production brigade. When I was very young, every time I saw him, I always felt a sense of fear.

Mr. Liu is a tall, thin, unmarried man in his forties, a returned overseas Chinese from Siam.In the classroom, he is a teacher who speaks eloquently, but as soon as the get out of class is over, he becomes a person of few words, and he is a different person from the class.

At the same time, he is a person who is rigorous in his studies. He can explain things he doesn't understand over and over again, and he must complete the homework requirements of the students. The students in the class are very afraid of him, and I am especially afraid of him. Maybe it is this kind of Fear makes us acquire the knowledge we should have in school.

Just when we had just graduated from primary school, we encountered the Cultural Revolution. When we were in junior high school, the middle school in the town went on strike. It was class struggle and learning quotations all day long. At this time, I happened to be suffering from jaundice and hepatitis, so I stopped school and stayed at home.

At this time, Mr. Liu was also arrested and denounced as the five types of black and evil. The charge was that he had unclear overseas relations. During the denunciation meeting, I saw Mr. Liu lower his head for the first time.I couldn't help being secretly happy, thinking about all the reprimands he gave to the students before, I really felt a kind of schadenfreude.

Especially the bullpen is in the isolation of my house. The so-called bullpen is the place where the five black people are detained. I see these bad guys every day. Except for being dragged out to criticize them, they stay in the cowshed every day and are guarded by the basic militiamen of the brigade. with.

My illness recovered quickly, but I didn't want to go back to school to read quotations. I had nothing to do at home every day, climbing trees to dig out bird nests, and going to the fields to catch fish and shrimp.

One day, when Mr. Liu was sent back by the militia, he saw me climbing a tree and yelled at me, oh my god, his expression was just like that in class before, I trembled, walked up to him obediently, and looked at him. Teacher Liu with a stern face, I lowered my head and admitted my mistake.

He asked me to write [-] characters every day and finish the junior high school courses, how could I do it?

"If you don't know, come and ask me." Teacher Liu said while looking at me, he didn't see the look of bowing his head in the criticism meeting.

From then on, I studied again under the supervision of Teacher Liu. Although it was a self-study, I have actually become his only student now.And his lectures are located in the cowshed.

Mr. Liu's movement is restricted. When there is no criticism, he teaches for 5 hours in the morning, 3 hours in the morning, and 2 hours in the afternoon. He still gives lectures like that, but his voice is much softer.

Our generation is an unfortunate generation. At that time, education reform just happened, and junior and senior high schools were divided into two years. My four years of middle school were spent in mediocrity.There is nothing in the belly, but the mouth has become much more powerful.

It was not until a year later that Mr. Liu was released from detention and returned to school. I also returned to the junior high school in the town. When I was 16 years old, I met the last batch of people who went to the countryside. as far away as Hainan Island.

Before leaving, my parents and relatives all came to see me off. I saw Mr. Liu standing in the distance silently looking at our group of young people who were about to go on a long journey. He was much older.Many of us were his students.

At this time, the teacher had a worried expression on his face, and he was wearing a five-category black hat, so he could only silently send the students away.No one in my class dared to say goodbye to the teacher, so I pushed through the crowd and came to the teacher.

"Teacher, I'm leaving."

Said and bowed to the teacher.

The teacher's eyes were red, and he hugged me into his arms.

I can feel the slight trembling of the teacher's body.

"Bozi, when you arrive in Hainan Island, remember to write a letter and come back, don't waste your studies!"

"Yes, sir, I remember."

I bid farewell to my relatives, my teachers, and my hometown.

Going back to Chaoshan, my hometown, which is gradually disappearing, and Hanjiang, which raised us, a feeling of nostalgia suddenly arises in my heart, nostalgic for my hometown, my relatives, and my teacher.

We settled down on a farm called Jinjiling and started the first step in my life.

Life on the farm is monotonous, but fortunately there are a dozen educated youths in my company.During the day we faced the loess and turned our backs to the sky. Although it was hard work, it was terrible at night. We were always thinking about our hometown and missing our loved ones.

At that time, a song called "Olive Tree" was circulated in the know, and the sad tune was very moving. Guangzhou (Zhou) educated youths and (Chao) Shantou youths adapted the lyrics according to their own preferences.There are many versions of the master, often stroking the qin or guitar at dusk.Sing the song that is not old in your heart.

I sang the song in my heart:

"Farewell to home,

farewell to loved ones,

i am alone

come here to fix the earth

Beautiful Hanjiang, my hometown

In the village classroom

with an elbow laugh

Another teacher looked at me

Let the time go by

I miss my relatives

only in dreams

Bad luck made me go far away

goodbye my beautiful hometown

Today I'm in a foreign land

Heavy physical labor

destroyed my body and mind

can't break my mind

Long way to the end of the world

where is the destination

vagabond vagabond --

Wanderers think of their hometown! "

On the farm, although the people in the farm say that we are fresh blood, in fact we educated youths are regarded as a naughty and disobedient group, because the educated youths often have various frictions with the old workers.Out of the mentality of revenge, many educated youths often steal money and other things, but the "night raid team" of educated youths has never been caught.Especially a few people who usually like to make irresponsible remarks to the educated youth, the chickens in his house must be raised for the educated youth.I was timid and couldn't stand the instigation of my partners, so I participated in the "Night Attack Squad" many times.

In fact, we all know that what we do is contrary to common sense, but we are young and ignorant, just for the sake of momentary enthusiasm, for the purpose of gratification and enmity.

Although we are bold and reckless guys on the farm, we are actually very timid in our bones. We never dare to disobey the instructions of our family and write letters to our family on time every month to report our safety.Some educated youths had to tell their family members that they had a good life in Hainan Island even though they were criticized by their leaders, just because they were afraid that they would worry!

Writing home letters has become the best way for me to miss my relatives. In addition to writing letters to my parents and family members, I also maintain correspondence with Mr. Liu.

Every time Mr. Liu wrote to me, he asked me to continue studying cultural lessons. Although there was still some strictness of the teacher between the lines, it contained more of the requirements of the strict father.

At that time, he was still a person wearing a black five-class hat. Among his many students, I was the only one who kept correspondence with him.

He has no relatives in China, and he showed me a rare father-son relationship in private messages.Although we are still called teachers and students, we have already integrated a strong father-son relationship.

In the second year after I came to Hainan Island, I began to enjoy the annual vacation to visit relatives. When I boarded the Shanghai Ferry and crossed the Qiongzhou Strait, I felt a feeling of returning home as a wanderer, and I felt like returning home.

Everything is fine at home, not much has changed.My father and three older brothers were strong laborers, my mother and three sisters-in-law did housework, and the family lived happily.

To my surprise, Teacher Liu, who treated me like my own son, has been kicked out of school.How can a teacher who has been a teacher of Confucianism all his life be able to move the hoe? The family life is already in trouble.

Looking at the teacher, I cried and hugged him tightly. The teacher who was over [-] years old was also crying at this time. The teacher's misfortune caused me to be indignant, and I hated myself for not being able to help the teacher.

I bought food and drinks at his house that night. It was a pleasure in bitterness. The two of them were in a bad mood. We drank with him and got drunk. We stayed at his house that night. Taking advantage of the gall, I crossed the line for the first time, and the teacher also fulfilled it. me.

This was my first time, although I was drunk, but my mind was sober, thinking about it afterwards, I wish I could stay drunk forever.

Early the next morning, I wondered why my face was red? Isn't this what I thought?

Seeing that the teacher's face was also red, with a trace of sullenness, I was afraid that he would get angry, so I hurriedly put on my clothes and rushed out, running away.Afterwards, I didn't dare to see the teacher again, for fear that he would scold me. I have always been in awe of him since I was a child.

It was not until the end of the fifteen-day holiday that I timidly went to visit him.

Seeing me, he was a little surprised, and his face returned to the unique cold look of the teacher's dignity in the past, and asked me if I would continue to study my homework after I came back? He scolded me after I answered truthfully.Knowing that I was going to leave, he handed me two packs of preserved tea leaves.

Chaozhou people have always been addicted to tea. One bag is Dancong produced in Fenghuang Mountain in the north of the city. The statue of Avalokitesvara in Yanyan, so it was called "Iron Goddess of Mercy" very early on, but what is far more precious than tea leaves is that the teacher gave me a calligraphy and painting "Manjianghong" written by him, which inspired me with Yue Fei's magnificent story.

"You must never give up your homework. No matter where you go, you can't do without culture. You are the teacher's best student. Promise the teacher and don't let the teacher down."

I looked at him and solemnly agreed: "Teacher, I will listen to you and not let you down"

With the exhortations and instructions of my family and the expectations of my teachers, I left my beautiful hometown again and returned to the farm on Hainan Island.

I knew that the teacher's life was extremely difficult, so I sent him 10 yuan every month. At that time, my salary had risen from 27.3 yuan to 33.85 yuan. I bought all books except for living expenses.

Not long after, I took part in the correspondence class of the Guangdong Institute of Education. It was the second year after the fall of the Gang of Four. The teacher's historical problems were rehabilitated, and he was reinstated and returned to school to teach again.After I got the news, I was so excited that I shed tears. A Confucian should be a teacher standing on the podium!

I feel lucky for the teacher, history has resumed its normal course, and the country is getting things right!

The following year I obtained a diploma of correspondence studies and taught at Farm Central Primary School, where I also became a teacher.

In the autumn of 79, the first year after the resumption of the college entrance examination after the Cultural Revolution, I was admitted to South China Normal University and became the first college student in my family.I am an ignorant person who can be what I am today, because I listened to the teacher's teachings and made me work hard. I am also the first college student among the teacher's many students.

After graduating, my parents asked the media to run around for my affairs, but I resolutely declined all blind dates. I always had my teacher in my heart, and I always wanted to be his only one.

When I told my teacher what was on my mind, he thought for a long time and looked at me: "You are a man, how can you delay your life for this fruitless matter, how can I bear it?"

"But I really love you."

The teacher said: "But I won't love you. Don't be foolish and mistaken for my old man. You are not young anymore. It's time to start a family."

I kept silent, I can defy my parents' words, but I dare not defy the teacher's wishes.

"Okay, you go back first, I paid attention to it for you!" said the teacher.It seems to be a negotiation but more like an order.

A few months later, Teacher Liu personally introduced a girl to me. She was the youngest daughter of an overseas Chinese named Lu who had returned to China with him in the early years.After marriage, my wife gave birth to a pair of children for me. Although my wife is uneducated, she is a master of fashion embroidery.

In order to allow me to live and work normally, Teacher Liu deliberately alienated me. Besides, my school is in a foreign city. During the winter vacation, whenever I saw him when I went home, he would always avoid him. I was sad and helpless.

Today, I have been with my teacher for 30 years, but we are far away from each other. Now I am over [-] years old. Whenever I see the retired teacher, he becomes older and older. I see the teacher alone in the autumn wind. Standing tall in the middle, the wind keeps blowing his windbreaker, leaning on a cane with both hands, looking at the ever-expanding city in the distance, his tall and straight body is still so stalwart.

The back of the teacher is more and more clear. In his heart, there is a kind of imprisoned treasure, which may only be able to release the feelings of the past in the rustling autumn wind; When we are weak and slack, we always get his encouragement and spurs.

I was far away, not daring to disturb the tranquility that belonged to him, I could only watch him silently, feel his every breath with my heart, let the tears flow, my eyes are still watching the teacher's back tightly ...

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☆, network feelings

Internet feelings

The wind stopped, and the ground was full of dead leaves. Occasionally, a breeze would lift up the rolling dead leaves; Jungle and lawn in red twilight.Looking around, the evening scenery of the mountains and fields is so charming. Looking at the western sky, the setting sun is setting and the setting sun is about to disappear.

I don’t know why, the redbud tree replaced those disorderly trees in our field of vision and became the main road tree. On the way back to the city, in a place dozens of miles away from our home in the city center, in a village, no, more To be precise, it was a section of the road with less traffic. I stopped the car and sat on the dead leaves all over the sidewalk. The clean fallen leaves rustled as I sat.In this year, with the rapid expansion of urbanization, it is hard to find such a quiet place in the suburbs.

In fact, my traveling is just a kind of escape, but I can slowly forget my troubles, feel the beauty of nature, taste the charm of nature, and cultivate my life in this aimless tour. own heart.Just like the mood before the trip, I am about to return to reality. Looking at the vehicles coming and going on the road, my mood is also heavy.

Xiao Zhang and I met on the Internet, so it has been a long time.

He was still a college student at that time, and he was on family leave at that time, and he was on the Internet on the computer at home, watching his information, with the honorific words I like, and more importantly, he is a sincere child.He didn't have a cell phone, but I gave him my cell phone anyway.

We chatted together almost every day for more than ten days. On the night before he returned to the military academy, I agreed to his request and had a video chat with him. Although the light at night was not good, I could see that he was a handsome man. The young man, with his tall stature and fair face, couldn't conceal the masculinity in his body.

Later, when he returned to school, I never heard from him. To be honest, during that time, I went online just to wait for him to appear.A little disappointment also began to appear in my heart, maybe this is also a passing visitor, maybe it is really inconvenient for him, after all, he is still a college student at school.

I don't know why I care so much about this young kid, but I know I like him already.Every time I look at his gray head, I feel bitter longing in my heart.

During the May Day holiday, our children and grandchildren all came back to visit us.For our family, it was a rare day of reunion. At the suggestion of our grandson, our family drove to the White Tiger Garden in Lianhua Mountain.This is a very famous zoo with expensive tickets, but it is still full of people, and the park is full of bustling crowds.

At this time, a strange call came in, who knew it was Xiao Zhang, I hurriedly stuffed the little hand of my grandson into the hand of my wife to hold it, and turned around alone to cover the phone.

It's Xiao Zhang!How much I want to have a long talk with Xiao Zhang at this time, ask about his recent situation, ask about his situation, but what can I say?My family was by my side, so I hesitated and didn't dare to say more. My wife was in a hurry and asked me who was calling.

"It's an old colleague." I leaned closer to the phone and responded to my wife. In fact, I wanted to tell Xiao Zhang, who was thousands of miles away, that I was inconvenient at this time. "He called to say hello." Then he wished the other party a happy holiday and hastily ended the call.

"It's rare that this old subordinate of yours hasn't forgotten you."

My wife said and stuffed my little grandson into my arms. "That's it" I kissed my little granddaughter's smiling face fiercely, trying my best to hide my apology and uneasiness towards Xiao Zhang in my heart, and covered up the restless hope in my heart with my strong family affection.It made this trip able to reap the expected results amidst the enthusiasm: family reunion and happiness!

The May Day holiday is coming to an end, and my wife is busy preparing the farewell banquet for the children. I hardly do any housework at home. For a long time, my daily life and food are taken care of by my wife, which has cultivated me to be extremely dependent on him. Sex, especially after retirement, there is no housekeeper, and all the housework falls on the husband, but she is very happy about it.

The sons and daughters already have their own families and careers. When we are about to leave, we will inevitably ask us to relax and pay attention to our bodies.In their view, the health of their parents is their happiness.It was the wife who took up the quarrel with them, and kept telling the children this and that.Let her finish everything I want to say, and I only give my children a look full of eager anticipation and a sincere smile.

The children have left, and the family has returned to the previous two-person world. I just experienced the reunion of a large family. Suddenly, my wife has a lot of silence. Emotionally, her dependence on me is just like my daily life. The dependence on her is the same.We have been together for more than 40 years, not only has she lost her youthful appearance, but she has also passed the age of a wolf and a tiger, and has no sexual behavior. Our love is precisely an emotional mutual massage: find some trivial things to quarrel with each other , and then apologized to each other and reconciled as before, not only to get the love of the other party but also to accommodate the other party.In the war with my wife, I was always at a disadvantage, but she never abused me as a prisoner. The reason she did this was just to attract my attention. Serving her husband and children is her traditional woman's concept.

After my children left, I started to surf the Internet, and there was an email from Xiao Zhang in my mailbox.I was pleasantly surprised to open the email, which was sent on May [-]st.It turned out that he was off on May [-]st, and when he called me from a public phone booth after he asked for leave and went to the city, he knew that it was not convenient for me to answer the phone, so he transferred to the Internet cafe and sent me an email.

In this letter, he did not talk about the school and the subjects he studied in detail, but only said that his studies were very intense. Although he was used to the militarized life in the military academy, he only said He loves me so much and misses me.

An encounter on the Internet has also become my concern. I also like this boy with a masculine appearance and a gentle heart. He has the sunshine of the youth of the times, the elegant conversation of a scholar, and the love of an old man. shy.

I knew he didn't have time, but I still replied an email in his mailbox, and I expressed my sincere feelings in the virtual network.

I learned to surf the Internet after I retired. The most important thing is to pass the long and boring time. I remember that I couldn’t even move the mouse well at the beginning. , learned to communicate with others.The reason why I went to QQ was because a few chess players in the old listening center said that stealing food is very interesting. At the beginning, I disliked this kind of thing that is against morality. After listening to it a lot, I couldn’t help but secretly registered a QQ number. I don’t have friends, and I don’t want to chat with strangers. I just want to play steal food. Someone added me soon, which makes me very happy. Without friends, whose food can I steal?With the increase in the number of friends, I stole a lot of food, but my life was also disturbed. I became alert. I went to steal food, but they mainly chatted. Videos, and even phone calls in the middle of the night, I just realized the virtuality of the Internet, people don’t care if you like it or not, look at me, I am so stupid to use my own real information.I promptly canceled the call, revised the profile, and deleted some people who had harassed me. At the same time, I kept silent and watched, and kept in touch with a few of them selectively. Only then did I stop the harassment from the Internet.Xiao Zhang is one of these few people.

He responded to my emails very quickly.I am afraid that it will affect his study, so let him minimize the Internet.In this way, we have maintained online dating for three years in a controlled manner.

At the beginning of 2006, my wife died of a cerebral hemorrhage, and I lived alone in this deserted home. My children all wanted me to live with them.But I rejected the kindness of my sons and daughters, and I did not want to leave this home or this city.

After seeing off my wife, soon on June 6, I rushed to eastern Guangdong to pay respects to Zhang Chendong's grave.

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He was my soldier. He was a squad leader. I met him when I was in the grassroots. Two years of military life did not destroy his handsome face. The hot climate in the south caused a thin layer of sweat to form on his cheeks. Adding infinite masculinity, I moved in my heart, asked him to do some chores by name, and took the opportunity to get close to him. Although I only stayed in this company for three days, the hot impulse in our hearts, in the relationship between the two The flash in his eyes ignited the fire of desire in my heart.

And he was young, unable to grasp himself, unexpectedly at night when there was no outsider, he suddenly grasped and hugged him tightly from behind.

I gently opened his hand: "You are a sentry, you must concentrate on the sentry."

Although my voice is low, it still carries awe-inspiring air.

"Yes!" His voice trembled a little.

I hurried away from the post.Back in the room, I asked myself repeatedly, obviously I like him, why didn't I respond to him at night when no one was around?

The next day, when our group was about to leave, I tried to linger on the figure that moved me, but I felt a little bit regretful that he didn't come.

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