every breath

Zhuang Yu rolled his eyes speechlessly.

In such a short life, he has never seen anyone more brazen than Qin Xuanyang.

This person was actually able to follow him home with a shameless face.

The cause was still a phone call from my mother.

Earlier, because Zhuang Yu said that he had to finish his thesis before going home, his mother gave him a few days of grace.But at the beginning of August, she still didn't hear the news that her son was going home. She was a little anxious, so she couldn't help calling him again.

But the timing of the call is a little tricky.

It happened to be a cloudy day that day, Zhuang Yu saw that the weather was not so good and didn't want to go outside, Qin Xuanyang also agreed.But staying in the dormitory couldn't think of anything interesting to do, so the two of them randomly searched for a movie on the Internet, turned off the door, turned off the lights, closed the curtains, and turned the volume of the notebook to the maximum. The two of them just curled up on the chair and stared look.

The choice is a European and American film, which is spliced ​​together by several completely different short stories, and the whole film is filled with strong black humor.Qin Xuanyang was quite interested, but Zhuang Yu was probably tired, his eyelids kept drooping, and he seemed not interested in the film.

Halfway through the film, he sat in a chair and fell asleep smoothly.

This man really can fall asleep watching any movie.

Seeing how tired he looked, Qin Xuanyang couldn't bear to wake him up, so she had to turn down the volume.At this time, the mobile phone on the table rang.

The ringtone of Zhuang Yu's cell phone was a strange song in a foreign language. Qin Xuanyang looked at the screen of the cell phone and saw only one word jumping on it: Mom.

He didn't intend to answer the phone at first, but when he saw that it was Zhuang's mother calling, he was worried that she had something urgent, so he picked it up.

"Hey, Xiaoyu, didn't you say you would go home after finishing your thesis? It's already August, are you going back or not? Haven't you finished your thesis yet?"

Qin Xuanyang answered carefully: "It's Zhuang's mother, I'm Zhuang Yu's friend, he's asleep now, can I ask him to call you later?"

Unexpectedly, the tone of Zhuang's mother on the other side changed from complaining to enthusiastic in an instant: "Hey, it's Xiaoyu's friend, why are you still in school, aren't you going home?"

"Oh, I'll write the paper with him, and I won't go back for the time being."

"The kid also told me to write a thesis every day, and he couldn't finish the thesis. I don't know if he plans to go home this summer vacation."

Qin Xuanyang looked up at Zhuang Yu who was sleeping soundly, and suddenly a plan came to his mind: "Auntie, Zhuang Yu has finished writing his thesis today, he just bought the ticket to go home, and he plans to go back tomorrow. "

"Really?" Zhuang's mother's tone softened obviously, "I'll be back tomorrow, so why didn't he call me, this kid is real."

"He's so tired. He was going to call you when he woke up. I'm busy."

"How can there be troublesome things." Zhuang's mother became more enthusiastic, "By the way, when Zhuang Yu goes home, won't you be left alone at school? It's so boring to be alone, why don't you just come back with Zhuang Yu .”

"That's so embarrassing." He said so, but Qin Xuanyang smiled secretly in his heart: the plan was successful!

"There's nothing to be embarrassed about. Just don't think that our small cities have nothing to ask for."

"How could it be! Then thank you, Auntie!"

"Hey. Then I'll make arrangements for tomorrow's meals for you."

Qin Xuanyang exchanged some pleasantries with Zhuang's mother before hanging up the phone.

The air conditioner in the dormitory was humming, Zhuang Yu slowly opened his eyes from sleep, and asked vaguely, "Who were you talking to just now?"

"your mom."

He didn't react for a while: "...who?"

"Your mother." Qin Xuanyang raised her voice and smiled in front of him, "I told her, we will go back to your house tomorrow!"

"Huh?!" Zhuang Yu was so frightened that he almost fell off the chair, his eyes widened and he looked at Qin Xuanyang, "What did you say?!"

"I said, tomorrow, you, want, take me, back, home!"

Zhuang Yu had a look of disbelief: "When did you decide?"

He smiled brightly: "Just now."

"Who decided?"

"Me," he pointed to the mobile phone in his hand, "and your mother."

Zhuang Yu, who felt deeply overwhelmed, stared at him, and after holding back for a long time, he finally shouted two words: "Damn it!"

It was the beginning of August, a summer full of cicadas.Zhuang Yu reluctantly brought Qin Xuanyang back to his home in City A.

Because it was the first time that Zhuang Yu brought a friend from college home, Zhuang's mother was very hospitable and thoughtful, she would always ask Qin Xuanyang about various things whenever she had the opportunity, as if the aunt of the neighborhood committee was doing a household registration survey.Zhuang's father seemed much more peaceful and quiet, usually he didn't speak much, and sat in the living room after eating, drinking tea while reading the newspaper, which formed a stark contrast with Zhuang's mother.

Qin Xuanyang is also a person who is good at maneuvering and coping. He regards himself as his college friend, and chatted with Zhuang's mother very happily. In just one day, she completely fell in love with this talking boy.

On the contrary, the precious son Zhuang Yu, who rarely came back, was left alone and no one cared about him.

Not only was no one interested, no one cared, but she was also assigned by her mother to be a free tour guide for Qin Xuanyang.

"It's rare for Xuan Yang to come here once, why don't you take him out to have a good time, what does it look like to be bored at home all day long?"

Under the urging of his mother, Zhuang Yu had no choice but to take him out under the scorching sun.

City A is a second-tier city. Although its economy is not as developed as that of a first-tier city, the entertainment and transportation facilities are quite complete and have everything that one expects to find.It's just that the high-rise buildings and the dazzling array of goods in the bustling urban area are no different from other cities, Zhuang Yu really can't think of the meaning of going to those places.He simply found another way and took Qin Xuanyang to the lakeside park.

Lakeside Park is not a tourist attraction, but the locals like to take a walk here to see the scenery when they have nothing to do. The naturally formed large lake is surrounded by willows, and there are antique gazebos on the lakeside and in the center of the lake. Not far away There are also some ancient buildings, which are said to be left over from the Ming and Qing Dynasties. The green tiles and white walls look very ancient.

He took Qin Xuanyang for a walk along the lakeside, the weather was hot and the wicker was blowing gently in the wind.They found a bench by the lake to sit down and rest.Zhuang Yu was a little drowsy, but Qin Xuanyang was fascinated by the ancient buildings not far away, staring at them for a long time.

"What's so interesting about that ancient house?" Zhuang Yu asked.

"I think of the house in my hometown, with the same blue tiles and white walls, and I miss it a bit."

"Where is your hometown?"

"Yongchuan, a small town, you probably haven't heard of it."

Zhuang Yu thought for a while, then scratched his head: "I don't seem to have heard of it."

Qin Xuanyang looked at him and smiled: "I'll take you back when I have time. It's a very quiet town with a feeling of isolation. Time doesn't seem to pass there."

"Sounds a bit like Xanadu."

"It's quite similar, but unfortunately I moved to another city after graduating from elementary school, and I haven't been back since then. I really want to go back and take a look someday." He stretched his waist while talking.

The lake water in front of Lin Linlin was rippling, Zhuang Yu restrained his drowsy eyelids, and looked at Qin Xuanyang in a daze: "Qin Xuanyang, you are a weirdo, do you know that?"

"What's wrong with me?"

"You are always very unexpected, and your words and actions do not follow common sense." He turned his head and looked at the willows and the lake in front of him, his eyes were a little blurred, "Even I don't know why I agreed to play this game with you."

"In life, not everything needs to be done seriously and carefully. Isn't it good to do whatever you want occasionally?"

"It's not bad." He sighed, "It's just that if you look back, you will have a strange feeling."

"You want it to end?"

But Zhuang Yu shook his head again: "I just don't understand what I'm thinking. Sometimes when I think about it seriously, I feel that this relationship between me and you is very ridiculous. What is this?"

What is this so-called game of mutual assistance and mutual benefit?

He shrugged: "It doesn't count. We all just need someone to accompany us in special times, but there's nothing wrong with that, is it? Thousands of people in this world, don't they all rely on Are you living with short-term or long-term hallucinations, and who can know exactly what you are doing every minute and every second?"

After all, being alive is nothing but an illusion.

Looking at the blue sky, Qin Xuanyang did not say these words.

Zhuang Yu's gaze became more distant.He neither shook his head nor nodded.

After returning home from the park, Zhuang Yu's mood dropped significantly.There was no sound at the dinner table, just eating mechanically.Only Qin Xuanyang enthusiastically cooperated with Zhuang's mother.

After dinner, Qin Xuanyang chatted with Zhuang's father for a while before returning to Zhuang Yu's bedroom.

Because the dealer did not have a guest room that could be used to entertain guests, Qin Xuanyang could only sleep in Zhuang Yu's bedroom.

When he entered, a bamboo mat had already been spread on the floor, and Zhuang Yu was digging out a thin quilt from the closet. Seeing him coming in, he said in a low voice, "You sleep on the bed, I sleep on the floor."

Qin Xuanyang smiled: "I thought you would let me sleep on the floor."

"Let you sleep on the floor? Let my mother know that she won't kill me." Zhuang Yu threw the quilt on the mat, "Our dealer's way of hospitality is not like this."

Qin Xuanyang looked at the fairly spacious bed: "If you don't mind, we can sleep together."

Zhuang Yu raised his eyes and stared at him: "I mind very much."

After taking a shower, it was time for bed.The summer night cicadas continuously rang out from the window, Zhuang Yu lowered the temperature of the air conditioner a little, then turned off the lights, one was lying on the bed, the other was sleeping on the ground, silent.

It was a beautiful night, a full moon was just hanging on the treetops outside the window, the moonlight slanted in through the window, Qin Xuanyang stared at the bright moon and few stars in the sky.Zhuang Yu on the bamboo mat seemed unable to sleep either, turning over every few minutes.

"You can't sleep?" He turned his head to look at Zhuang Yu who was lying on the ground with his back facing him, "Is the ground uncomfortable? How about I change it with you?"

"Sleep with you." Zhuang Yu's voice was low and deep, a little irritated.

"The moon is so bright that I can't sleep."

"Then draw the curtains."

Qin Xuanyang lay on his back, put his hands under his head, looked at the moon in the sky and smiled slightly: "That's such a pity. In this life, I don't know how many times I can see such a beautiful moon."

Seeing that Zhuang Yu didn't answer, he asked again: "What are you bothering about?"

"I'm bothering you why you talk so much and don't sleep."

Qin Xuanyang closed her mouth knowingly, but still opened her eyes, unwilling to part with the boundless moonlight.In the silent room, the sound of cicadas was louder and louder.

Zhuang Yu turned over again, and muttered: "Why are these cicadas so energetic, they are singing all day long."

"Ordinary cicadas only live for a few years, but their larvae have to lie dormant in the ground for more than ten years." Qin Xuanyang said lightly, "It may be because the waiting time is too long and the singing time is too short, so they That’s why I can’t wait to call day and night.”

"You know a lot."

Qin Xuanyang is not considered modest: "I understand a little bit. What are you bothering about?"

"Have you ever been in love?" Zhuang Yu suddenly changed the subject.

"Aren't we talking, with you?"

"I'm not talking about this kind of love like playing house." The irritable Zhuang Yu simply sat up and looked at him through the moonlight, "I mean the serious one, with girls."

He also turned sideways to face Zhuang Yu, and propped his head up with one hand: "Why are you so obsessed with this issue all of a sudden? You still can't let go of Xu Xiuying?"

Zhuang Yu was startled: "How do you know Xu Xiuying?"

He smiled: "There is a man in my dormitory who has been chasing her for a long time, but has never had a chance. You don't know, he regards you as a thorn in his side. He was happy all day after you broke up. I listened to him nagging Xu Xiuying and her every day. How could you not know."

Zhuang Yu didn't know that he had attracted so much hatred, scratched his hair, and sighed: "It has nothing to do with her... But, it can't be said that it has nothing to do with it."

"You still like her?"

He shook his head.Being with Xu Xiuying is actually a very natural thing, he didn't make any extra efforts at all - they were good friends before, and she brought up the meaning of dating as a half-joking, Zhuang Yu didn't take it seriously at the time, just said Hello.Somehow it slowly evolved into a real couple.

He was confused throughout the whole process.Whether it's dating or breaking up, everything is out of his control.He also never felt that there was a couple feeling between them.

Speaking of which, his two romances started in such a daze, and ended in a daze.He himself didn't know why.

Maybe, as Xu Xiuying joked, he likes men?

In order to verify that these words were nonsense, he agreed to Qin Xuanyang's unreasonable and absurd request.But the communication during this period of time did not play any role in clarifying the fog, but made him more confused.

He scratched his head irritably, and the sound of cicadas outside the window was even more disturbing.Qin Xuanyang looked at him with his head propped up, his eyes shining brightly in the darkness.

He suddenly thought of a ridiculous and bold idea.

"Qin Xuanyang, you said that we are not serious about dating, and don't take everything in the dating process seriously, right?"

Qin Xuanyang nodded.

"Then don't take it seriously what I'm going to do to you next. I just," Zhuang Yu leaned forward and approached him, "do an experiment."

Qin Xuanyang was very cooperative and motionless, watching him slowly approaching him, neither speaking nor retreating.Until Zhuang Yu's eyelashes were close at hand, his breath was hot and melted into the air.

"It's just an experiment." He murmured, closed his eyes and kissed Qin Xuanyang.