the name engraved in your heart

In 1987, on July 7th, Taichung Special Boys High School in summer vacation.

In the swimming pool, Ahan swam to the edge of the pool, came out of the water, took off the frog mirror, leaned against the wall to rest, and slightly adjusted his shortness of breath, when he felt a gaze.

Turning his head, he saw a boy of the same age beside him, also leaning against the wall by the swimming pool, panting slightly, resting.

The moment the two eyes met, the boy immediately turned his eyes away, but when Ah Han looked away, the boy looked at him again, Ah Han noticed that when he turned his head, the boy turned his head away again, and the two just avoided each other's eyes , but also saw each other clearly.

The boy had a handsome face with a playful smile on his lips.

Ah Han hadn't seen him.

Someone blew a whistle on the other side of the swimming pool, and Han was about to set off, but found that the boy was also about to set off, so Han retracted his body again, unexpectedly, the boy also retracted his body at the same time.The two couldn't help but smile at each other.

"What's your name? I don't think I've seen you before?" Han asked.

The boy didn't answer, just turned his head, looked at the other side of the pool seriously, and kept breathing rhythmically.

Ahan was a little embarrassed. In order to cover up, he put on the goggles, squatted down and kicked his feet, and swam out quickly.

Seeing this, the boy also swam out after him.

Father Ou, who was standing at the other end of the pool, watched a group of big boys in the wind band scurry in the pool, and shouted: "Don't be afraid of the water! When you were babies, wasn't your mother's stomach full of water? So To feel that water is the most comfortable place...like being baptized, laying in the water, being embraced by God!

The bus, nearly 190 centimeters tall, emerged from the water like a Loch Ness monster, spit out a mouthful of water, and shouted: "I was in the water when I was still in my father's body! I worked hard to swim to my mother's place!" Everyone laughed out loud.

At this time, the strange boy followed him to this end. Ah Han took off his frog mirror and summoned up the courage to ask, "Did you just transfer here?" Before the summer vacation, he remembered that Father Ou mentioned that there would be a A transfer student came to join their brass band and sure enough, the boy nodded.

"Are you a sophomore in high school? Which class? My name is Zhang Jiahan. Ahan from the natural group of the second grade of high school introduced himself. I don't know why, but he has a good impression of this boy whom he met for the first time. After fetching water, he sank his face into the water to practice exhaling. At this moment, the bus deliberately said: "I just peed in the water, is it good?" The boy suddenly stopped.

Several big boys laughed together, and Father Ou smiled and said, "It's okay to drink it. Bao 1 boy raised his face in the water, with a sip of water in his mouth, and the bus yelled with other boys: "Swallow! Swallow! Swallow!" Han looked helpless, and said to the boy: "Fool, just spit it out!" The boy spit all the water on Han's face. Han couldn't laugh or cry, wiped his face, and explained to the boy: "...they lied to you .

Father Ou on the shore smiled and motioned for Han to reach out and hold the boy to help him practice swimming.

Ahan stretched out his hand and supported the boy's waist in the water. The boy's muscles were strong and his skin was hot. He suddenly had the urge to touch him, so he quickly lowered his head, turned his eyes away, and held back.This is the first time he has received a body of the same sex as his age.

"Relax, relax your body again!" Father Ou instructed the boy on the shore: "Relax until he can support your body without exerting any force!" Ah Han clearly felt the muscles that were originally touching his palm slowly Relaxed, as if he finally began to trust him, and then found the most comfortable and natural posture.

At that moment, Ah Han felt a little strange.

"Very good!" Father Ou shouted, "Didn't you do it?" Ah Han came back to his senses, realizing that he was distracted just now, and his eyes unconsciously fell on the youthful body of the boy in front of him.

At this time, Father Ou asked Han to let go of the boy's body, "Okay, let him practice slowly by himself." Exhale slowly, exhale slowly, and prolong the time..." Everyone in the swimming pool sank, but the bus was the first to be impatient, and emerged from the water in less than ten seconds.

Father Ou smiled and shook his head, looked at the clock on the wall, and said, "It's almost time, everyone go back to practice!" "Got it!" The bus was the first to jump ashore.

The people went ashore one by one. After Ah Han went ashore, he looked around for a while, but he didn't see the newly transferred boy. At this time, the bus also noticed the strangeness, and looked into the swimming pool, and sure enough there was a figure sinking at the bottom of the pool.

"Wow, maybe he died from drowning, right?" Before the bus could finish his sentence, Ah Han had already jumped back into the swimming pool to save someone.

Just when Ahan swam to the boy, the boy jumped out of the water and gasped for breath. Ahan followed him to the surface of the water inexplicably, and what caught his eyes was the boy's bright smile covered with crystal water drops. The boy pointed at his hand. Looking at his watch, he shouted happily: "Two minutes and five seconds! After 2 minutes, Han resisted the urge to roll his eyes, and felt powerless for a while.

Worry for nothing.

The boy was still smiling at him friendly. This time it was Han who sank into the water. He looked up at the boy, and then found that the boy also buried his head in the water and continued to smile at him.

Why keep laughing?

Because it's fun?

Why are you happy?

Is it because you saw me?

Han thought.

The practice room of the wind band is located in a dark basement that is not very ventilated. Father Ou is the leader and conductor of the band, but he understands that these young boys have endless energy. If they don't let them go swimming to consume their excess energy, how can they sit obediently in the basement to practice?

The boy I met in the swimming pool was Wang Baide, who had just transferred from another school. Wang Baide asked everyone to call him Birdy. Han later found out that it was an American movie called "Birdman", but he didn't watch it. Just relying on some imagination, he thought maybe the boy called himself Birdy, which represented the longing for freedom?

What kind of freedom does Birdy yearn for?

That day, Birdy came to the basement with three other new recruits. Father Ou pointed to some wind instruments and said to them, "Take a look and see which one can make the sound." Birdy picked a saxophone to blow his head, but no matter how he played, he couldn't make a sound. Father Ou said: "Use the power of the dantian, do you know where the dantian is?" Birdy looked blank.

Ahan, who had been watching him from the side, secretly pointed to his abdomen.

Father Ou suddenly turned his head, pointed at Han and said, "Tell him where the dantian is and teach him how to make a sound!" On the surface, Han was reluctant, but there was an indescribable joy in his heart.

He asked Birdy to put down the blowing head first, pressed Birdy's lower abdomen hard, and said: "Try to practice making the long sound of "Ah-" first, and try to use this place to make the sound. If the position is right, the muscles here will work hard, put my hand Push it away!"" When he got up, his stomach pushed against Han's hand on purpose. Birdy obediently said, "Ah, don't push it on purpose! The position of the voice is a little lower." Ahan suppressed a smile and said that Birdy did the same. This time, his voice was in the right place.

Ah Han nodded in satisfaction, and handed the blower to Birdy, asking him to try it out, but Birdy still couldn't make any sound after trying for a long time.

Ah Han was helpless, looked at Father Ou, and saw that he was instructing other people, obviously not free, when Birdy handed the blower over to him, he took it, put it in front of his mouth, and couldn't make any sound after blowing for a long time.

With a puzzled look on his face, Ahan picked up the blower and used it, and actually threw out a lot of saliva!

"It's full of your saliva!" Ah Han wiped the saliva on Birdy, and Birdy just smirked.

While staring at Birdy, Ah Han carefully shook off the drool in the blowing head, and then blew on the blowing head, this time, there was a sound.

Birdy found that he could really make a sound, his eyes widened, he snatched the blower head back, and blew hard until his face was red, and finally managed to make some strange sounds. Too comfortable expression.

Ah Han guessed: "Is there water in my ears?" "I don't know, I feel water flowing in Birdy's head," pressing his ears, Ah Han pulled him up, asking him to learn how to tilt his head and jump "This will make the water come out," said Han. Birdy tilted his head to the right and jumped, and then jumped to the left. "Which side of your ear is the water in?" Han was angry and funny. Birdy didn't answer. , just dancing and smiling while looking at him. Ahan thinks he looks so good when he smiles. After school started, Birdy lived in the dormitory on the first night, even though Ahan and his dormitory were different, he took him around Walking around the dormitory, he introduced the rules of life in this place, but Ah Han soon felt that Birdy was not the kind of person who followed the rules. Birdy was an interesting person, and interesting people would never obediently abide by those rigid rules.

After taking a shower, Yuren brushed a small washbasin in his hand and was wearing blue and white slippers. When he was walking in the corridor of the dormitory and passed the door of the dormitory room, Ahan lowered his voice and said: "The dormitory supervisor is very motorcycle, everyone calls him Dirty head, because his surname is Zhang, you can tell from his face that the little head underneath must be dirty too." Birdy couldn't help but laugh out loud.

Seeing him happy, Ah Han talked more and more vigorously: "The most important thing is that his heart is also very dirty! It's completely black! The dirty head will randomly check the dormitory, the time is not fixed, usually during our class time, what is listed in the dormitory rules You can’t bring it in, there seem to be more than sixty items, such as no food from outside, etc. Note, it’s "Wait! As long as the dirty head thinks it can’t come in, it will all be counted in "Wait"! The rules are basically set by him. !" Ah Han's face was filled with righteous indignation, but Birdy just kept staring at him and giggling, as if he saw something very strange.

"The last time someone was wearing a condom, it was also considered a contraband. That person said that it was not written in the rules that he couldn't wear it. The dirty head asked him when he would use it, and scolded him for being shameless. He replied: Anyone who uses it like you will I can’t use it!” The dirty head was so angry that he said he was disobedient to the teacher, and he immediately made a big mistake!” The two walked to the door of Ah Han’s bedroom, and saw a few big boys inside who were carefully dressing up.

Ahan introduced in a low voice, the tallest one with a peaked cap on his head is the bus, the one with bushy hair is Lao Fei, and the one wearing a Hawaiian shirt is Shuaiji.

The bus saw them and said to Han: "You have to wash until the hot water stops at ten o'clock? Why don't you change your clothes soon?" Birdy asked Han in a low voice: You want to go out?

Han nodded.

Aren't you afraid of being caught? " Between Birdy.

Shuaiji looked disdainful when he heard this, and said: "Who is afraid? The worst thing is to get a demerit and drop out of school!

As soon as he finished speaking, there was a rush of footsteps in the corridor outside, followed by She's loud voice: "Student! Don't just run around in a pair of panties!" He quickly jumped back to his own bed, covered him with a quilt and pretended to be asleep, and Ahan quickly pulled Birdy into the bedroom, led him to his own bed, and covered the two of them with the quilt.

The dormitory supervisor walked to the door of the room, knocked on the door with a cane in his hand, looked into the dormitory, and saw that everyone was lying on the bed obediently, he sniffed, "Why? You are so obedient, did you do something wrong?" Looking over, no one said anything. The housekeeper snorted, turned off the light and closed the door. Ahan pulled back a corner of the quilt to confirm that the housekeeper had gone away, and then heaved a sigh of relief.

Turning his head, Birdy, who was also nestled in his quilt, was smiling at him, "Can you still laugh?" He said funnyly that Birdy didn't answer, but still looked at him laughing, the bedroom was dark and the whole room was dark. The dormitory is quiet.

The four of them, who had already changed their clothes and prepared for a night tour, sneaked through the corridor, saw that the dormitory room was pitch black, and walked around more cautiously. Once they walked out of the dormitory, they could see a huge hollow cross standing at the school gate. The light is particularly dazzling in the dark campus.

When everyone came to the fence, the tallest bus climbed up the fence first, and suddenly bounced back!

"Damn! Someone!" The bus shouted in panic.

"Who?" The handsome chicken asked, "I don't know?"

But the girls have already made an appointment, how can they miss it?

The bus wanted to see who the other party was again, and jumped onto the fence to probe. The person outside the fence also poked his head out from the wall, and it turned out to be Birdy!

Everyone was dumbfounded!

When did this guy slip out?

"Damn! I scared your grandpa to death!" The bus reached out to punch Birdy, but he smiled and dodged it, jumping off the wall.

The bus glared at him, then climbed over the wall, and old Fei Shuaiji followed suit. When it was Han's turn, he jumped behind the wall, turned his head, and asked Bird with a smile: "What are you running out for? Pick up girls." ?” Birdy smiled and raised the hot facial liner in his hands, then quickly slipped back to the dormitory, Han stared at his back, until Lao Fei yelled in a low voice, then he came back to his senses and jumped off the wall.

The bus has great powers, and I made an appointment with girls from a vocational girls' school, four boys, four girls, three motorcycles, two motorcycles and three stickers, and rode all the way to the deserted cemetery in the silent night, no one would come here , is a good base for cheating.

Boys of this age are full of brains. When they arrive at the destination, they say a few words, and then get to the point. Using the call machine, the four boys hand over all their calls and put them in the pockets of the bus. The girls take turns to smoke.

After the pairing, the bus moved the fastest, hid behind the tombstone and soon began to make troubles, the handsome chicken pretended to chat with a girl, and started to fight while chatting, the old man thought he was romantically chasing a girl, flirting and scolding The girl who was paired with him deliberately wore a low-cut top, and the deep cleavage made Han feel a little embarrassed. The girl didn't know where to go. The girl saw him so shy, but thought he was cute. "Is this your first time?" "Oh... no." He looked at the group of classmates who were full of sperm, and thought in his heart: If he had known that he would "pick up girls" so directly, he would rather stay in the dormitory and secretly eat supper with Birdy.

The few times I went out with the bus and the others at night, I always went to the beach or night market to eat hot fried food. Isn't it the first time that it's lively and fun?That's still so shy?I haven't seen you before, have I? ' asked the girl.Ah Han looked at her and couldn't help asking: "Do you always do this?" The girl smiled and said: "You don't have to think too much, my name is Angel. How about you?" Ah Han consciously asked a question that shouldn't be asked, Quickly apologized, but Ngel didn't care, and said, "What are you doing apologizing for? You have to do it anyway, and the spring night is short, so it's faster to get straight to the point!" She took Han's hand, "Do you hate girls who are too direct? ?” Ah Han’s immediate reaction was to nod, but he was afraid of hurting the other party, so he shook his head stiffly, so Angel pulled his hand to his soft chest.

Han's body stiffened obviously, "Do you think I'm horny?" Angel purposely put her lips next to his ear and whispered.

He instinctively wanted to withdraw his hand, but he could only hold back, and shook his head stiffly.

"Don't you play a musical instrument? Then you can use my body as a musical instrument..." Angel leaned over softly, pulled his hand under her jacket, and grabbed Han's other hand with the other hand One hand, pressing on his waist. "How does it feel?" "Uh, it's very soft..." Ah Han stuttered. Angel smiled, and the whole person took the initiative to straddle Ah Han's lap, then reached out to touch his crotch, and was about to praise him: "Then you..." Then there was a pause.

Ah Han's there is also very soft.

Angel lost interest and slowly left Ah Han's lap.

When she got Ahan back then, she secretly rejoiced that she got a handsome guy and he didn't seem so anxious, but who knew there was no reaction at all!

"You're not a virgin, are you?" Angel glanced lazily at Han, feeling a little overwhelmed, and quickly apologized.

Seeing his innocence, Angel couldn't help laughing, thinking that this guy might be a virgin, because he's too shy to get hard, right?

It seemed that she had to teach him slowly.

Being a virgin is fun too.

She took off Ahan's shirt, took out a pen from her bag, and wrote her phone number on his chest.

"Call me when you have time!" She smiled and said that Han hurriedly put on his clothes, nodded vigorously Angel stared at him for a while, then suddenly turned his head, took out a cigarette and lighter from the bag, and skillfully Lian Lian laughed at himself and said, "I don't think you will call me. I will!" For some reason, Ah Han blurted out that he felt that Angel was not very happy.

Angel puffed out a cigarette, not sure whether to tell Han or herself: "Some people say that if there is no love, it's not sex, it's just venting." Han didn't know how to answer "Without love, you will Do you want to hug me?" Angel turned to look at him. Han didn't want to hug her, but he didn't want to tell the truth. Angel seemed to read the answer from his eyes, and smiled self-deprecatingly, a tear suddenly fell down Han Hastily asked: "Are you okay?" Angel sniffed and said: "I don't want to go out for night tours anymore, you are all the same" You?Who is her "you" referring to?

Weak groans and rapid gasps rose and fell next to the two of them. It was clear that the distance between their bodies was so close, but the distance between their hearts was so far away that they couldn't see each other no matter how they looked. Ahan silently watched Angel smoking a cigarette without saying a word.

That night, after the night tour, Ah Han went back to the dormitory, lay on the bed, and almost slept through the night.

Would you want to hug me without love?

Angel's words, love keeps ringing in my head, what is it?

Can love and physical contact be separated?

At least he didn't think Daba and the others "loved" those girls.

He tried to recall the feeling of his hands touching Angel's body. He looked at his palms and thought about it, but he remembered the day when he first met Birdy, the feeling of his palms holding the boy's waist felt warm and firm. Youthful and elastic skin.

He suddenly felt a strange desire creeping up, and there was a faint commotion between his legs. He didn't dare to think about it anymore, covered his head with a quilt, and forced himself to fall asleep. He didn't know if it was his imagination or a dream, anyway. , Even with his eyes closed, he still seemed to be able to see the man smiling at him.

During wind band practice, Ah Han kept yawning because he couldn't concentrate all the time, and even felt that the sounds around him began to appear blurred, and Ah Han, who was playing the trumpet, gradually couldn't keep up with the beat.

Faintly, I heard the voice of Father Ou: "Have a soul! Music is a flowing thread, use your emotions to pull that thread up, not force! Have love! Treat musical instruments as lovers, Hug with your love, be gentle, otherwise you just hold a stone, and the people who listen to the music will be in pain..." Treat musical instruments as lovers... This sentence is a bit similar to what Angel said late.

Ah Han blinked vigorously, wanting to turn back by himself, and found that Birdy beside him was drilling his head into the oversized white euphonium.

He was puzzled for a while, so he also drilled his head in and asked, "What are you doing?" "Listen, Han~" Birdy said that the thick echo echoed in the euphonium.

Ahan smiled and said: "Stupid~" The deep laughter of the two boys was mixed together in the euphonium and accompanied by echoes, as if completely isolating the outside world on the white euphonium Father Waiou continued: "...Remember, to There is L''amour~ He closed his eyes slightly, waved his hands deftly, and looked a little intoxicated, as if recalling a beautiful relationship in the past.

Unexpectedly, someone interrupted, and the bus put down the horn in his hand, with a helpless expression: "Father, are you encouraging us to fall in love? But the school doesn't allow it, who dares?" Profiterdumoment! !If you want to live in the present moment, what are you afraid of when you are young!Love at this age is very beautiful. A smile appeared on the corner of Father Ou's mouth, "What should come is what will come and no one can resist it. When love comes, your whole person will become different." At this moment, even the corners of his eyes are There seemed to be a slight light trembling on Father Ou's face. The expression of emotion and happiness on Father Ou's face was not the only one who could see it. Shuaiji asked: "Isn't the priest forbidden to fall in love?" Father Ou was slightly taken aback, and said with a smile: "When I was 20 years old Determined to dedicate myself to God—" Lao Fei interrupted: "Father, please don't tell us that you are in love with the Virgin Mary!" "So my pending love was before the age of 20." Father Ou said .

Everyone in the wind band booed immediately, putting down their instruments and asking: "Really?" "How old are you? Did you kiss?" Bus asked cheekily.

Father O nodded.

"What was that feeling like?" Ahan asked Father Ou, looking at him with a smile, and said, "It feels good." "Let me tell you more about it! How did you meet? Are you also a foreign girl?" Fei asked.Father Ou was a little shy, he talked about him from left to right, and finally, under pressure from everyone, he finally said: "We met at a ball. He has blond hair, beautiful eyes, dark green body and a good figure..." Ou The priest hesitated several times, as if he was looking for words to describe his first love, "I still remember, at that time, we naturally looked into each other's eyes..." Ah Han heard this sentence Then, he involuntarily turned his head to look at Birdy, and found that he was also looking at him.

At that moment, there seemed to be a sweet smell in the air, only the two of them could taste it.It was rare for other people to see Father Ou talk about their childhood, and they became more and more excited. However, Father Ou suddenly stopped, waved his hand, and said, "Okay! The practice time is over, and we are going to raise the flag!" I begged Father Ou to say more, but Father Ou pushed them out of the basement one by one without saying more.

Birdy was packing up the instrument, and Ah Han glanced at him again, and found that his feelings for Birdy seemed to be very different from those of Daba and the others.

...this feeling, what is it?