my ten boyfriends

Sometimes, I feel that I have successfully blended into the big dye vat of society, and I can no longer see the naive habits of my former student, and sometimes I don’t feel that I am different from before, I still think I am naive enough, Also enough self.

I just had a break from my last project.It is said to be a rest period, but it is actually just a normal working day without overtime.Our company pays a lot for overtime, but I'm not an overtime madman. Taking advantage of this time, I took a make-up vacation and proposed my weekends to go out and have fun.

I want to play with Duoqing, but Duoqing can't go.He is a fitness instructor, and many of his clients have to take his private lessons.In his job, there are no holidays to speak of, and he has to make do with the client's time, not to mention that he often works until nine or ten at night, and he doesn't have any personal time on Saturdays and Sundays.He declined my travel invitation, so I hurried through the formalities and went to Iceland for two weeks.

In a country like Iceland, I feel like I've been baptized from the inside out.Haha, this is a bit funny, anyway, when I was in Iceland, I did have the idea of ​​settling in this country many times, like a cat who wants to live without worrying about food and clothing, and just needs to walk the dog and play with the mouse. It's silly, but it's just a thought.I got on the plane obediently, went to my mother first, gave her a gift, ate a meal with her, slept with her—by the way, as soon as I returned to my country, I felt that I was still My hometown is good, not that kind of "good", and no matter how leisurely and comfortable Iceland is, it doesn't make me feel at ease like here.

I rested before going to my own house.How should I put it, since I gave the key to Duoqing and it's a relationship, I don't want to expose my tired and ugly appearance to him.When I got home and opened the door, Duoqing hadn't come back yet.I went to the kitchen to have a look. There were a lot of vegetables, fruits and meat that seemed to be just bought. Yes, I told him when I would come back.I was overwhelmed with emotion.

The house is very clean, and there is a vague fragrance, which is very fresh, and I haven't smelled it before.Unexpectedly, although Duoqing is a fitness trainer with strong muscles, she is unexpectedly emotional.He came back after ten o'clock in the evening and gave me a hug when he saw me.We rolled onto the bed, he giggled and said, "Look, we are egg fried rice!"

"Hey, what kind of joke is this?"

"There used to be a TV series called "Rolling Egg Fried Rice". It was an idol drama."

"Then I'll fry you, okay? I'm an egg, and you're rice!"

I leaned over and kissed him.

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He also has a scent, but it is not the same as the new one at home.I asked him, did he fall in love with perfume recently?

He immediately grimaced, and said that recently two female colleagues who came together like to wear very strong perfume, every time he took them for personal training, especially when stretching their muscles afterwards, it was unavoidable It will be stained, and I am not the first to ask him if he is a person who likes to wear perfume recently.

I laughed out loud, feeling wronged for him.But suddenly I thought, the job that Duoqing is doing is too "safe".Every time I am stretched by him, I will inevitably get hard, so what will happen when he stretches other men and women?Moreover, we hooked up so easily, how could he know that he wouldn't hook up with other people.I don't want to make myself too suspicious,

I asked him casually:

"The smell of perfume mixed with the smell of sweat is terrible, can you bear it?"

So he showed an indescribable expression and showed me a ghostly look.I just believed it.

After returning from Iceland, my boss immediately put a lot of work on me, and I resumed working overtime. I could no longer go to the gym every day, and I didn’t go to the gym for about a month.Once I got off work early, I remembered that my change of clothes was still in the bathroom cabinet, and I didn’t know if it would be moldy in such a humid environment. Tell him and go straight to the gym.

I don't know what kind of picture I will see.To be honest, my nerves are not that sensitive, and it’s not that sad when I think about that scene—love is just a name and a state to me, not an adjective, representing a certain mood.

The private classroom is a small cubicle separated by glass. For the sake of publicity, there is no privacy at all. Besides, everyone comes here to exercise, and the shyness can be thrown away. The girls are told by the coach that there is too much belly fat. When this is only ten catties of meat, I will not be angry.

But that doesn't mean that when I see Amorous flirting with two girls in short tank tops and hot pants, I will be indifferent.

It was already an over-distance physical contact, with a hint of flirting, and I could smell the aroused hormone taste through the glass.Speaking of it, it felt very similar to when he held mine.The two girls were smiling coquettishly there, as for what they said, I couldn't hear them through the glass.

I knocked on the glass door, Duoqing and the two girls looked up at me.Passionately smiled at me and beckoned me to go in.His attitude was so calm that I couldn't help but wonder if what I saw before was my illusion.But it doesn't fool my senses.

I didn't say anything.I won't get into a fight, and I won't show my emotions on the surface, not to mention, I don't feel surprised at all by being sentimental.I just said to him, I'm here to get the clothes, stop by to have a look, and then I said goodbye in a friendly way.

When I got home, I opened the bag to see that the clothes and towels inside had a musty smell and were still damp to the touch.I didn't want to wash it, so I just threw it away and put a new set in the bag to take with me to the gym next time.

Passionate didn't come this evening.It's nothing. Originally, he didn't come too many times. I just gave him the key, not asking him to live together.

This man is bisexual.I already knew that the gay scene was chaotic enough, but now I don't feel surprised to see Duoqing like this.We didn't agree on anything, and we didn't say what kind of person he was.I just still feel the phlegm.I thought we were in love, not just sex.

At first, I thought I would not care about anything, even if it was a simple sex, but I also felt that once I accepted this setting, I would never be able to fall in love again.When I can't make a choice, I like to listen to my mother talk about chicken soup for the soul.So I went to ask her, and asked her to talk about loyalty and single-mindedness in love.

My mom is a smart person, and she knew what was wrong with me as soon as she heard me say this.

She stopped feeding me chicken soup, and said to me firmly:

"Talk to him, and if you can change it, then take another look. If you don't repent, hurry up and don't make yourself uncomfortable."

I listened to her.I really can't get through that road myself, I have to talk about it.

As for what I said, Duoqing finds it very interesting:

"I thought you've been in the circle for a long time, but I didn't expect you to be so interesting. Don't do this, I haven't messed around, at most, it's flirting, and playing occasionally, it's better for them to go too far."

"I'm not them. I won't give up on myself, and I won't just enjoy temporary pleasure out of despair. I want to find a long-term boyfriend who can finish the relationship and get married." I replied.

He fell into a long silence, and then said:

"So you've come out to your family?"

"Yes, my mother knows, she understands me very well." I couldn't hide my pride, but it stimulated him.

Passionately sneered, "Hehe, you are very lucky, so why bother looking for me, where do I have the label of a man from a good family? How dare you expect love from a man who can be hooked up immediately in the gym?"

"I just want to give it a try. If it fails, I won't be disappointed. Homosexuality is a sexual orientation that will not change. Even if I am seven or eighty and can't do it anymore, I still have the right to fall in love."

Passionately flung my keys at me, and said:

"Then I really regret that I didn't meet you when I was more innocent. Return the key to you. Next time you want to talk about your 'love', remember to keep your eyes open and don't waste time on inappropriate people."

I looked at him calmly, without taking the key:

"How can you know if it's suitable if you don't try it? Now that you know what I think, would you like to try it with me?"

"No, I'm past that time of being patient and trusting."

Passionately walk away.I put the key in the porch.If I can still meet someone who is in my heart, I will still give him the key, even if I will take this key back many times.

Later, when I went to this gym again, I could occasionally see Duoqing flirting and joking with others. Sometimes when I came out of the shower late, I could see Duoqing walking out with the arms of men or women.I never spoke to him again, and he just pretended I didn't exist.When my card was about to expire, Amorous also disappeared here for a few weeks.I asked the front desk casually, and the front desk said, Duoqing went back to my hometown, and I don't know what happened.

I guess he went back to get married.It's better to be bisexual than gay.I just feel sorry for the girl who will be his wife, and I hope she gets a faithful marriage.

For every gay who dare not tell the truth, there will be one more victim kept in the dark.I'm not a champion of women's rights, I just look down on men who feel sorry for their parents but not their wives.

And I will continue to pursue love.If he wants, I will take responsibility.If he doesn't want to, we'll just get together and break up.

The author has something to say: I have written three times and ended up changing my boyfriend’s name in the middle of writing... So now in the serious text, the selected keywords are really easy to confuse.