Timeless Beauty

the truth

Although I don't know who Li Chengjue is visiting, I think it must be a very important person. He must not be free recently, and the director also went to meet friends, so I wandered the streets alone.

The noisy street is full of traffic and traffic, but fortunately, the greening is very good. There are tall dark green banyan trees planted on both sides, and the slender weeping branches are densely packed to form a natural screen with leaves. I secretly feel that this tree is really long. , tall and mighty yet sexy and cute, laughing at himself while thinking about it, there is really nothing to think about to be so boring!

It was already evening when Chengjue called. I saw the time on the phone as if it had been a lifetime ago. Why did I not feel tired after walking alone for so long? Sorry.After all, it was his deep and urgent voice that woke me up, "Meixin, where are you?"

"I'm on the street..."

"The specific address?" Some were frightened by his excited questioning, their heartbeats suddenly went out of order, and they calmed down for a moment, while answering 'amount', while running towards the street sign, he probably knew what I was doing, so he was silent at the moment .

I was waiting for him by the bus stop, and my whole mind was filled with nervous guesses, why did he come to pick me up in such a hurry?Why is the tone so urgent?A large piece of why became silent after getting in the car.

He didn't say a word, only the roar of the engine could be heard in the car, the car was speeding in the twilight, he was driving very focused, it seemed that even the slightest movement would distract him, so he sat stiffly all the time, only slightly moving his arms and hands on the steering wheel. shaking

Intentionally or unintentionally, I set my sights on him, and I could only catch a glimpse of his slightly tired side face. I subconsciously kept quiet along the way for no reason, and kept sitting stiffly like him.

After a long time, the car slowed down and stopped at a place that looked like a night market. Looking out, there were small stalls next to each other with no end in sight. The seats were full of people, and there were not a few standing around.He moved over and stretched out his hand to shake the car window on my side. I quickly reached out to help, but seeing that he didn't intend to move away, I shrank back my hand embarrassingly. At this moment, the car window was already half open, and his hand suddenly grabbed me. The palm of the retreating hand was as generous and warm as before, but the palm was soaked in a lot of sweat.

I didn't react, and looked at his next move with some puzzlement. He moved a little more, and shouted at the aunt at the stall outside the car, "Hello, please..."

It was the time when there were many people, and the aunt was busy watching the cakes frying in the pan, and had no time to take care of us.

The aroma drifted into the carriage, and the gluttons swarmed in an instant, only to realize that I hadn't eaten yet, and I was about to shout again with my soprano voice, when a red ticket appeared in front of my eyes, "Don't look for it! Please hurry up! "

When I turned my head and opened my mouth wide to show my astonishment, the aunt had already got the money, and asked what I wanted with a smile.Li Chengjuan quickly took the things worth at most 20 yuan, and drove the car away with a 'whoosh' sound.

I have everything in my hands, and I continue to wait for his reaction as I secure the bag in the storage bin between the seats.Finally he said, "You haven't eaten yet, let's make do with it, and I'll treat you to a good meal tomorrow." Although he smiled, it seemed to be intentional, he had that before It's a pity that I seem to have forgotten when, because of what, I only know that it is very familiar.

"What do you want to eat, steamed stuffed bun? Fried dumplings? Or drink soy milk first?" I inquired, staring at him, and held the soy milk to his ear while speaking.

His tone was light, but sincere, "I'm not hungry yet, I'll talk about it later, you hurry up and eat something to fill your stomach."

I looked at the pile of buns and pancakes in embarrassment, and said to myself, "Are you treating me as a pig? There are so many, let me handle it alone? Why buy so many if you are not hungry?" Of course, this can only be said to myself , He doesn't look like he is in the mood to joke with me at the moment.

After finishing the two meat buns in a hurry, it seemed that the increased energy had turned into courage, and finally couldn't hold back anymore, "Where are we going? What happened?" I was worried, but my face remained calm.

His face was a little pale in the night, and he seemed to be absent-minded for a moment when he heard my question, but he soon returned to normal, but his expression was not as indifferent as before. After a long while, he replied, "Meixin... let's visit a Patient." He seemed to want to say something, but interrupted.

I looked at him in a daze, and he stared at the front in a daze, as if avoiding my eyes.

About 10 minutes later, the car stopped in a quiet grassy forest. He parked the car, took my hand and walked through the path, and then there was a wide and flat road with several towering majestic buildings in front of him. The still noisy building.

The big red letters hanging on the top were shocking. For some reason, a trace of fear rose in his heart, and his hand increased his strength, as if he was afraid that I would escape, or that he needed to grab more power from me.

He walked dully, followed step by step, the initial rapid steps slowed down, Li Chengjue stood at the gate, watching the crowds coming in and out of the hospital, he was stunned for a moment, then turned his head to look at me, as if mustering up the courage of his life , "Meixin, the patient I'm talking about visiting is... your mother!"

The body swayed, and he was half-supported and half-hugged weakly by him. He couldn't believe it and deeply imprinted these words in his mind.I didn't say a word for a long time, let him walk in with his arms around me, enter the elevator, get out of the elevator, go straight, turn, stop, and then let go of his hand suddenly, the harsh roar lingers in the strong smell of disinfectant Son...

"Auntie, Auntie, Xiaoling is here, Auntie..." Li Chengjue hunched over, screaming heart-piercingly, never seen him so sad, as thin as a piece of paper in the wind would be torn into pieces in an instant.

A sneer suddenly appeared in my heart, the person on the bed was my mother, but I didn't feel heartbroken, and the only moving expression could be dedicated to anyone.Standing leaning against the door, still not approaching, not daring to look at that bony face, because of the loss of that period of memory, how many feelings did I miss, how many people and things did I ignore?

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I can't remember how I lay on the soft double bed and left the hospital until now, so everything is like a mess, with my head drooping heavily.Li Chengjue's soft words were still echoing in my ears, but I forgot to answer them. It was not until he closed the door and left that I realized that I was the only one left in this huge room, curled up under the quilt, and a huge helpless panic hit me. every pore.

I don't know how long it took before the doorbell rang suddenly. I was half asleep and half awake at the moment. When I was awake, I was shocked. I regained my composure and calmed down again. Did he come back?

The lights in the room were blindingly bright. I turned on the phone and saw that it was past two o'clock in the morning. The doorbell was still ringing. I was about to call Cheng Jue when the phone rang too. With a shake of my hand, it slipped onto the bed sheet. It was Zhang Ji calling.

Can't wait to answer the phone, before he could speak, he heard him say, "Meixin, I'm outside the door!"

Dazed for a moment, he stood up and opened the door in surprise, the voice on the phone continued, "Are you there? Meixin..."

If it was him, I leaned against the door with my mobile phone in my hand, still looking surprised. The person in front of me smiled slightly and lifted the bag in his hand, "Dangdang, are you hungry?" He naturally pulled me into the room with his arms Elbow closed the door, while still muttering, "It's still hot, and it tastes like red bean paste, but it's too late and there's only this one flavor."

I saw that he was busy taking out the food and laying it out, completely ignoring my surprise. He didn't take the initiative to speak until I persisted in this expression for a long time, "Li Chengjuan called me."

I asked, "Where did he go?"

"He said he would send the ashes back to Qingdao."

After a pause, "But... that's my mother... I..." Even I didn't know what I wanted to say, my tongue was tied, and I was thinking about where to start and where to ask.

Zhang Ji came over and put his hands on my shoulders, "I know, I know, Mei Xin, don't worry, you will remember."

I choked up, "No, I don't want to rely on this to remember slowly anymore," holding Zhang Ji's wrist, "You tell me, tell me the past, okay, I don't want to live a blank life anymore."

He stared at me without saying a word, before turning around and leaning on the sofa for a long time.Lit a cigarette, and the white mist shrouded in all directions!

"We were in Qingdao when we met for the first time. Did you see the school we stayed in when you went back?" He turned his head and asked, and I nodded, "Well, but Cheng Xi said it was renovated."

"Really?" He asked lightly, "I haven't been back for many years, and now I feel so close to my hometown." Zhang Ji moved his eyes to the front again, and the night was heavy and long.

"At that time you were still young, of course I was only nine years old, I was very rebellious since I was a child, my father died in the mine, my mother ran away with the compensation, I lived with my uncle and them, but no one cared anyway Me, no one cares how I mess around!" His tone was awe-inspiring, understated, but it couldn't hide the sadness in his bones.

"You are also a poor little boy," he laughed. "When you are bullied, you are always stubborn and want to fight back but you can't beat others. Fortunately, you met my brother and me later."

I returned a bleak smile and motioned for him to continue.

"Your mother works in the county town. In fact, she is doing a legitimate job, but she is always pointed at by others. It's all because of your alcoholic father, who talks nonsense when he's drunk. If your mother doesn't give him money, he will make trouble endlessly." .”

I froze, unbelievable to what he said, how could my dad be like that, he is obviously an excellent middle-aged man with humor and money, no matter what, I can't associate him with alcoholics.

He saw my surprise, and continued, "But your father changed a lot later, maybe he has experienced a lot, and his temper naturally gradually softened, and so did I. Who can tell that I used to be a gangster? "

"You were young and ignorant at that time, so you didn't have a good relationship with your family, especially your mother, but I even added fuel to slander my aunt, so now I dare not even see her body!"

A burst of guilt suddenly surged from the bottom of my heart. Am I too indebted to that skinny body?

"When I was in junior high school, I met a gangster in the society. At that time, all I wanted was to learn a skill and protect my friends, especially you!"

Looking up to meet his eyes, sincere and pity.

"Since I can remember, I have secretly vowed that I will not be looked down upon by others, and I will not be bullied at will. Those who looked down on me and laughed at me must be punished. At that time, I always treated you like my own sister, until you were in the second grade of junior high school. That year, suddenly there was another person beside you, and you even said that he was your boyfriend for the first time..."

I think he is talking about Li Chengjuan!

A sneer overflowed, "At that time I realized that my feelings for you were not just brothers and sisters. I tried to get him to leave you. Of course, these were all hidden from you, but the more you are like this, the more stubborn you are. He was together, and he wouldn't leave even if he was beaten to death. In the end, I had no choice but to break up with you completely. I don't want to see you again, and I don't want to see you smiling at him. "

"It was a year after we met. Both of you were promoted to the third year of junior high school, and I was promoted to the second year of high school in a daze. Although I wanted to see you very much, I tried my best to restrain myself and vowed never to look for you. Then suddenly one day Li Chengjue took the initiative to find me, and what he said left me speechless, he actually begged me to kidnap him."

Who would be stunned to hear this, I asked, "Why did you agree to him?"

"He said he would give me 20 yuan after it was done. Of course I wouldn't be so stupid to believe that such a good thing happened, but he begged me earnestly and lied to me that he caused a big disaster outside, and he would suffer if he didn't give the money. I didn’t dare to tell my family, so I came up with this method. Later, I realized that I was really stupid, and I believed his words. I was arrested by a group of policemen before I officially started the operation that day. In a panic, I fought with him. Thinking of...the result is that you blocked that blow for me."

I gathered the corners of my clothes tightly in my hands, slowly approached the sofa, slumped on it and shrank my body and asked, "What happened next?"

"After you were injured, I stayed in prison for kidnapping and extortion, but Li Chengjuan was released on bail. When my uncle came to see me, he said that Li Chengjuan's mother came to your house to apologize. It must have cost a lot of money! Later I am released from prison,

I found out about you after many inquiries. That encounter was not the first time I saw you. I thought about reuniting with you countless times, but I just didn’t have the courage to go forward. I didn’t make up my mind until my job was transferred to Shanghai. Determined to meet you.Unexpectedly, you really forgot everything! "

I don't know what to say, a brother's unswerving protection for his sister appeared in front of my eyes, the boy's youth and innocence disappeared in the sinful years...

Why didn't Li Chengjuan tell the truth?Why would he know where my mother is?Why……

Sensing Zhang Ji's gaze shifting over, I didn't look up at him, just sat silently.

After a while, he broke the silence, "I thought you blocked that blow for me because you had me in your heart!" After a pause, he shook his head, "Unfortunately, you still chose him! Li Chengjue tried his best to keep you in Shanghai , stay in "Hua Mei", stay by his side, he succeeded!"

I slightly raised my head to look at him. As I thought, it was not a fluke to enter "Huamei" by chance, "He owes you too much."

Zhang Ji lowered his eyes slightly, "That's right, he owes me too much, but unfortunately I don't have the ability to retaliate against him, should I drag him to die with me?"

I stared at him, Zhang Ji’s emotions were a little agitated, and he fell to the bottom with loss and helplessness. His voice was pale and weak, “After I was released from prison, I made a surprisingly good friend. In the end, I entered the "Huami" Huizhou subsidiary as I wished. At that time, I was very surprised that I used almost all the knowledge taught by that friend, even more than that. Later, I found out that he was a senior executive of another company. , and I also made great progress with the excellent performance. Three years later, I took the initiative to transfer to the company here in Shenzhen, but that friend miraculously disappeared, and we had no contact again, but I didn’t struggle with it. I was I just want to do a good job in my career, and then face you by myself, not a murderer, but I really didn’t expect that when I found out about you after many twists and turns, you were already a stranger to me. Even so, I also Trying to get transferred to Shanghai, I want to be closer to you."

The author has something to say: I am about to go to Shanghai again and there will be another story

March is coming to an end, and today I was walking on the road suddenly as if in a daze.

☆, memory

There was only Zhang Ji’s voice in the room, which was sometimes low, sometimes angry, and sometimes gratifying, as if listening to a kind old man telling Grimm’s fairy tales. I listened attentively, but what he told was only the misery of the little match girl.

"After arriving in Shanghai, my friend who had disappeared suddenly appeared again. He was in the same company as me. Later, when I saw him by Li Chengjuan's side, I realized that it was a 'friend' he sent to me. ’, I went back to the original point after the ups and downs. I thought there was no connection between you. I originally wanted to take you away and leave his world, but it turned out that we have been controlled by him all the time. "

His sneer dipped into his bones, he was just an ant, and Li Chengjuan became the culprit.

Feeling sad, recalling the little things with Li Chengjuan, how much is true and how much is false, how much sincerity, and how much conspiracy?

Zhang Ji's voice sounded again, "The surprised look in your eyes made me think that you didn't have amnesia, but just lied to me. I didn't expect Li Chengjuan to look for you a few years ago. You The look in his eyes is still the same as before. But I am not reconciled, since you broke up, I must seek a chance for myself, but your heart is always on him. "

Out of the corner of my eye, I noticed that his gaze returned to me. Perhaps it was because of guilt that I didn't look up.

He stayed in prison for five years. Of course, I don't know what happened after I was injured. Even if I know, it's only a rough idea. Only Li Chengjue knows the reason!

Suddenly remembering that night, I asked, "I saw you quarreling with him once, and you gave him a wad of money..."

He said, "There is no way to make up what he owes me. He helped me get out of prison early, sent friends to support me, and I will pay him back all the expenses. I want him to owe me from beginning to end."

I shivered and couldn't help shaking, "Why did you leave the company? Isn't it because of relief?"

He snorted coldly, "Relieved? How to be relieved? Want me to forget the past and write it off?"

I looked up at him and met his gaze. He hesitated for a moment and asked, "A Ling, can you be relieved? Don't mind the wrong he did to me, don't mind your mother leaving, don't mind their family taking money Shame thrown?"

I froze, trying to avoid his sharp gaze, but couldn't move, do I mind?Can I be relieved?If it is possible, will he and I never come to this point?I doubted him too!hated him!But I still loved him!

The room was silent and the air was stagnant. I don't know if Zhang Ji and I were fighting against each other or weeping for each other.

The ear-piercing ringing sounded like thunder, ushering in the long-lost hustle and bustle, as if waking up in a dream, the strange number on the mobile phone continued for a long time, I paused and connected.

Sweet female voice, "Hello, is this Miss Dai Ling?"

I hesitated, and was about to answer that I made a typo, but quickly changed my words, "Yes, I am!"

It was from the hospital. The nurse who was making the bed found a letter for me, but Li Chengjuan had already left, so he called from my number on the envelope.

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I was a little flustered, the letter arrived in my hand neatly, and I didn't open it right away. I went back to the hotel with Zhang Ji, and he said that he was on the sofa outside the door, and he called him immediately if there was anything to do.

I nodded, locked the door tightly, closed the curtains, turned off the dazzling crystal lamp on the ceiling, turned on the lamp, and nestled on the floor next to the bed, wrapped in a blanket.As if preparing for a holy prayer, everything must be kept in the most comfortable style.

Still nervous, the room amplified the sound of the heartbeat silently, took a long breath, and opened the envelope nervously.

A quick glance at the entire letter revealed neat and neat handwriting. For some reason, it felt as if a draft had been made and then moved over. When I saw some words, I glanced over them negligently, and then took a deep breath before continuing to read from the beginning.

'Xiaoling, I'm mother, I'm afraid you won't remember it, but unfortunately my sickly appearance looks scary, otherwise let Chengjue take a picture of me.

I haven't seen you for a long time, and I was afraid that one day it would be too late to see you for the last time, so I wrote this letter in advance, but Cheng Jue said that he would definitely let me see you.He is an honest boy and really brought you to me. Unfortunately, I was too far away in the coffee shop that day, so I didn't see you clearly. You seemed to have lost weight, but it was very happy to laugh with him. '

Tears were dripping on the letter paper, I hurriedly removed the letter, wiped the tears away with a blanket, and tried to recall the coffee shop she mentioned, when?When is it?Why can't I remember?It hurts to grab the flesh on the leg, but still refuses to let go.He glanced sideways at the crack of the door and saw a small black shadow swaying back and forth on the ground, and he stood guard outside the door, feeling a little more at ease before picking up the letter.

"I'm relieved to hear that you and your father had a good life. Cheng Jue said that you changed your name. It's okay to change it. Anyway, I left irresponsibly. I didn't take good care of you before. I should tell you Dad’s surname. Now that you have money, you can finally live a good life. Fortunately, your dad still has some conscience. I’ve always worried about him squandering the money.’

'I asked Cheng Jue when you two got married, but he didn't answer, did you two have a fight?It’s a good thing to forget about the past, and it’s a blessing not to remember it, but it’s a pity that you still know about it.Don't blame him, I shouldn't have begged Chengjue, if it wasn't for raising money for my treatment, he wouldn't have thought of asking Zhang Ji to kidnap him, and it was my fault for accidentally hurting you. It was my own decision to take the money and run away, and it had nothing to do with him.He is a kind boy, don't blame him. '

Like five thunderclaps, the convulsed heart is throbbed with pain,

"I didn't expect Chengjue to come to me again, and I didn't forget you. I knew he was always guilty of letting Zhang Ji go to jail, but he kept it in his heart and didn't say it. That time he called and said he would give Zhang Ji a promotion." I happened to hear it, and I also confessed that I must keep silent about going to jail. I blame me all the time, Zhang Ji is also a good boy, and he took good care of you, and you played well when you were young."

"I didn't expect that Zhang Ji had been in prison for so long. I wanted to ask Cheng Jue a few times why he didn't tell the truth after I ran away anyway. At that time, I didn't have to care about my feelings at all, but I didn't dare to ask. , Cheng Jue is a kind child, if he had no other choice, he would not let Zhang Ji be wronged.'

"After I left Qingdao, I stayed in the hospital for almost a year. The chemotherapy every day was really painful. I think I just had a hard life. I didn't marry a good man, and I didn't have the ability to take care of you, so I don't regret leaving. On the one hand, I don't need Put up with your dad as an alcoholic, on the one hand you are hurt, and if my family knows that I have cancer, it will be even worse. I also want to survive. The money from the Li family gave me a new life, but unfortunately I have no luck. The money ran out, and the illness relapsed. When Cheng Jue came to see me, I was already on the verge of dying. I wanted to die early, but Cheng Jue took care of me so carefully, and always told me about you in college. I can't bear to leave!''

I bury my head in the blanket, sobbing in the stuffy air, Mom, Mom, my mom, I've lost you.

"Xiao Ling, I don't know if you can read this letter. I'm afraid you won't see it and I'm afraid you will see it. If you marry Chengjue, you will be blessed. I hope you don't suffer like me. , Fortunately, you are in college and have your own job, so you and Chengjue can be regarded as a good match. When you get married, show me your wedding photos. Anyway, I can’t wait to have grandchildren. You have to take care of yourself in the future , don’t make things difficult for yourself, and cherish the people in front of you. Mom won’t tell you anymore, and I don’t know what to write. I just hope you have a good life in the future, so I have no regrets.”

The strength of my hand was too strong, and a crack was torn on the letter paper. I lowered my hand and looked at the floor with a dull expression.

After a long time, I got up and opened the curtains, wanting to see the outside world at this moment. The neon lights flickered on and off, and there were still so many vehicles galloping in the dark. The place is already full of profound ice.

At a certain moment, I had a strong urge to rush to Qingdao. I couldn't wait any longer, and I had to set off immediately.Turn on the light, pull out the box from the cabinet, and quickly rearrange the clothes. A few books were rushed to the ground by me. I was about to pick them up impatiently. Got my interest again, old paper material, it must be many years.

Kneeling on the ground, open the half-curved cover on the upper layer fastened to the round nail.The moment I opened it, I was surprised and delighted at the same time. It turned out to be my diary. After many years, the previous things stayed by my side, but I didn't realize it!On the first page of white paper, my name Dai Ling was clearly written. The record began in September 2002, when I was in the first grade of junior high school.

The first article: I graduated from elementary school in a blink of an eye, and I actually went to junior high school, but most of it was because of Zhang Ji. Since he has already enrolled, I should also follow!

Oh, why is he always messing with those girls?Does he really like them?Always say that I am a child who doesn't understand love, but I really understand!

He hasn't come to see me since school started for so long, the class is so boring, did Zhang Ji really forget me?He always asks me to call him brother, but I don't want to, otherwise he will always treat me as his younger sister, and I want to be his... (End)

I didn't write any more, probably because I was shy, did I actually like Zhang Ji?Shaking his head in surprise, he continued to browse.

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The second article: I read the diary in elementary school today, the words are too ugly, and there are not many happy things, it is nothing more than my father drinking and swearing, and my mother comes home for a long time. My temper was at my grandma's house again.

It's over, it's over, Zhang Ji really forgot about me, the monthly exam is about to come, he used to urge me to study before every exam, he really has no conscience, he values ​​sex over girls!

I'd better look for him, look for it or not, yeah, the coin said I should look for it.Then go, go now.

Seven o'clock in the afternoon: I shouldn't have gone to him, how could he be like that, coaxing other girls like that, he's so shameless! ! !Ahhh... disrespectful!unacceptable!

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Chapter [-]: A few days before the monthly exam, he came to me for the first time, bought me snacks, and told me to study hard, otherwise I will bear the consequences!I thought it was funny, he was so lazy in his studies, and even came to teach me, but I obediently agreed, because he said that if he did well in the exam, he would take me out to see what the underworld is like.I was so yearning, so I made up my mind to go all out.

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Chapter [-]: I accidentally saw him playing basketball today. He is the tallest one in the crowd, and his gestures are full of domineering. What's going on, he seems to be getting more and more handsome.

Later, his good buddy smiled and asked me if I was looking for Zhang Ji, I nodded and hurriedly said no, and then ran away.

As a result, that boy came to me again at night and gave me a cup of milk tea, saying that Zhang Jirang gave it to me.I was very happy, but fortunately I couldn't show it.

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Chapter 1: No.[-] in the class is angry, I am only [-] points less than her, she satirizes me sourly, probably many people think I cheated, but I don't care, I think I can go to the underworld and talk to them What's wrong with these kids?

After the results were announced, I rushed to find Zhang Ji. His head was growing big. He was wandering around the playground with a girl in his arms. In front of people, I yelled like a lion roaring 'Ahhhhh...', everyone was startled, and after a long while, I suddenly thought it was funny, and ran away like a rabbit.

But after returning to the classroom, I was still very sad, why doesn't he like me?But I am a little relieved, anyway, his girlfriends have been changing all the time, those girls who dated him also dated many other men, Zhang Ji is not serious!

Evening self-study is too boring, the class monitor is always staring at me, my grades offended her, so it's unwise to sneak out at this time.

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Chapter [-]: The boy who delivered milk tea came to look for me again, everyone was pointing at the door, I blushed a little, walked to the corridor with him and asked him what he was doing.

He said that Zhang Ji promised to take me to see the underworld. I was ecstatic and said that he must call me on weekends.Then he handed me a bag of snacks, saying that Zhang Ji asked them to take good care of his sister and me. I took the snacks embarrassedly, and ran away after saying thank you, my heart pounding, feeling that the boy liked me a little bit.

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Chapter [-]: Looking at the underworld is all deceitful. Zhang Ji only took me out to dinner today, and also brought his girlfriend, his brother and his brother’s girlfriend. I was very angry after eating, and kept calling him a liar. Everyone followed suit and called him a liar, laughing loudly.

Zhang Ji was not angry either, and asked if I needed stationery?I will buy it for me later, but the boy politely said he would buy it, and everyone started yelling at me and him again. I blushed and lowered my head to eat, Zhang Ji told everyone to shut up.

The boy who came home at night said that he would just send me off. I wanted to refuse, but Zhang Ji said that he would go back with me, so he would not go out to play at night. His girlfriend was a little upset, but she still pretended to be obedient.

I haven't walked alone with him for a long time, and suddenly I don't know what to say, so I can only complain that he values ​​sex over friends.He said that if he valued sex and despised friends, how could he send me home regardless of his girlfriend, so I scolded him for being playful, and he smiled helplessly and said that Zhou Tian would go to grandma's house with his uncle, so he couldn't come to play with me .

I was a little lost, but I still smiled casually, as long as I didn't go to his girlfriend's house anyway.

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Chapter [-]: My mother didn’t come back this week. My second aunt asked me to bring the money. Anyway, I’m used to it. I secretly gave some money to my grandma and bought a catty of sugar for her. She was very happy, but it’s a pity. I’m here again to ask me to live with them this week. Grandma is reluctant but has no choice. I don’t care because I’m already in junior high school and I feel like I’ve grown up suddenly.I offered to stay at my grandma's house for two weeks. This time, I didn't cry and make trouble. Grandpa and grandma were very happy, saying that my father had gone to another place and would not be coming back soon, so let me not be afraid.

I didn't tell them that I'm not afraid anymore. Although my father drank, cursed and beat others, he still cherished me and would never beat me no matter how angry he was. I've discovered this pattern, so there's nothing to be afraid of.

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Chapter [-]: Why do weekends always pass so quickly? I was almost late today. Fortunately, my grandfather has a bicycle. He came to pick me up at noon and afternoon.

Grandma made a lot of delicious food today, and she kept picking them up for me. I wonder why they don’t favor boys over girls?Thinking about it, they are actually patriarchal, and their father is their only son. Of course, they love the only son's children, so those few grandchildren are left out in the cold.

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Chapter Ten: Zhang Ji brought me breakfast!Zhang Ji brought me breakfast!Very happy, very happy!He said that his grandparents chipped in to buy him a bicycle, so he rode to the town center to buy me soybean milk and cup noodles.

When he brought me breakfast, he was sweating profusely. I took out the toilet paper and wiped his forehead. In the classroom, he glanced at the door quietly. He had already left, lying on the table and his heart was beating so fast. I wiped his sweat like this before, and I never did it again since he came to the town to attend junior high school.

My deskmate teased me and said that Zhang Ji was very kind to me, so he went to buy me breakfast so early, and I said seriously that he was my brother, and my heart was already full of laughter.

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No.11 article: Zhang Ji's girlfriend came to me suddenly, she scolded me, the word "little three" hurt me deeply, she said that if it was not because of me, Zhang Ji would not quarrel with her, separate.Although a little scared and a little sad, but more joyful, it turns out that I am so important to him!For the first time, I happily listened to other people's reprimands, and said thank you when I was done!She gave me a hopeless white look and left angrily.

In the evening self-study space, I very hypocritically approached Zhang Ji to apologize, and he said indifferently that the woman questioned my relationship with him and would not listen to any explanations, so he broke up with her.I'm a little disappointed, he still only regards me as his younger sister, are all her questions fake?

I snorted and left, and left before he finished speaking.

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No. 12: That boy keeps coming to me recently, I find it very annoying, because I have no feelings for him at all, there is no Zhang Jishuai, no Zhang Ji is good to me, why should I empathize?

He gave me a lot of food, I said I didn't like them all and refused, so he disappeared for a while, but I was a little bit disappointed, I was too much, how could this be possible!Just now a good friend told me that this is normal, girls like to be chased!That's when I feel a little better about myself.

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No.13: I finally went back to my grandma’s house, and my mother happened to be back too. She kept asking me how the monthly exams were going. It was annoying at first, but I did well in the exams these few times. She told me my grades, but