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At the door of the ward, I saw Shi Min's father.

He probably couldn't stand the two rounds of blows, and half of his hair turned white overnight.The uncle who played cards with me before was still smiling, but now his eyes are cloudy and wrinkled, and he is hunched in the corner like a stray cat that no one cares about.

Fate is unfair.I can only think so.

They are all very good and optimistic people, and they are working hard in life, but the serious illness does not find the person they should be looking for, and it just picks them.

When Uncle Shi saw me, it was like meeting an enemy. I had never seen that kind of look in his eyes, and he wouldn't use such hurtful eyes when looking at garbage or a murderer.

I deserve it.

He slapped me in the hallway like it took all the rest of his strength.After shaking, he lost his strength and collapsed back on the chair.

I was beaten with tinnitus, and there were flowers in front of my eyes.

But I felt that he had slapped him lightly, and I was afraid that he would not be relieved, so I slapped him a few times.

"Remember what you said?" he asked me.

That tone was no different from talking to a dead person.

"You said you would take good care of him, let him be a teacher with peace of mind, help him cure his stomach problems, and stay with him for the rest of his life." Uncle's face was expressionless, but I could hear his despair.

He suddenly raised his head and asked me: "Which point have you achieved?"

I couldn't hold back my tears and kept apologizing, sorry, sorry, sorry.

"I'm sorry? You say sorry now...Fang, what did you do before!" He suddenly shouted.

I was in a daze at first, but when he yelled me like that, I suddenly felt like a mess.

What did you do?

My mind is full of Teacher Shi saying that he operated the knife in the hospital alone, no one accompanied the bed to bear the pain of the operation, and that he saw those messy photos during the break.

"Tell me, how did Min Min survive alone?" Uncle was mending the knife.

He beat me tremblingly, pulled my coat, and said while beating: "Min Min was fine at first, without you, nothing happened! As soon as you appeared, he was hospitalized, once like this, twice—— Fang Min, are you our family's nemesis?"

There wasn't a single tear in his eyes, but the pain in his tone made my internal organs twitch.

"Qianqian——Qianqian originally planned to treat her...After talking with you, she said that she would sell the house and go on a trip—what the hell did our family do? Ah!"

He and Aunt Lin Qian used to call me Min Min, but now, their Min Min is hurt by me.

I still apologize, apologize, apologize.

In addition to apologizing, I promised him that I would never leave Teacher Shi again.

I frantically searched for the resignation letter, wanting to tell him that as long as Shi Min is willing, no matter what happens next, I will take good care of him.

"Are you worthy?" His eyes were red, and his furious look was scary, "You take care of him like this? Fang Min, let me tell you, don't think that you can want whatever you want just because you have a successful career. You catch a lot of young people on the road—you take care of him for the rest of your life? How many of them have you ruined for the rest of your life!"

I'm speechless, I can't think of any words of assurance, I can only repeat over and over again, I will, I will, I will.

Uncle shook his head as if seeing a joke, "You will? What will you do? Min Min mentioned to me about your breakup, in that situation? Huh? That's what you said you would? Fang Min, it's hard for him to leave now Come out and live well by yourself, can I beg you? I beg you—"

He finally cried as he spoke, and he began to kneel down. I went to pull him and was brought to the ground by him.

"I beg you to let him go! Minmin really...really can't bear to be spoiled by you a second time!"

He fumbled for the phone again, and showed me the chat records with Shi Min, and said, "Do you know that the doctor said that emotional ups and downs will affect the secretion of gastric juice? It's time like this, can you let him live longer?"

I didn't hear what he said next, only saw the words on the screen:

[Min Min: Dad, Fang Min broke up with me.In fact, I thought about breaking up with him a long time ago.Our personalities are really not suitable, and he is too young, and I don't like to talk to him.The two of us are noisy every day, we are so tired, it might as well be a breakup.So I really have nothing to worry about, you don't have to worry. ]

[Min Min: Parents, where have you been traveling now?I moved out by myself, if you two want to come and see me, don't go to the wrong house. ]

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[Min Min: This is a new home, does it look good?To be honest, I feel that without Fang Min, I would have a pretty easy life.What is the picture of the cold war every day, anger will shorten the life span, separate to keep safe, you are right, I want to live a few more years. ]

[Min Min: Mom and Dad, I'm really not sad that you two don't need to call me every day to comfort me.I am watching the sea watering the flowers. You two have a good time traveling. When I come back, I will cook new dishes for you to eat. ]

I could hardly think, only to see those harsh sentences magnified infinitely.

Never grow up.

Wanted to break up with me a long time ago.

It's so easy without me.

How many more years can we live apart?

Yes, I saw with my own eyes how happy he was smiling at the pot of flowers.

When he is not with me, he reads books, waters the flowers and chats and laughs with other people, but when he is with me, he looks like a dying dead tree.I hurt him, yelled at him, made him suspicious, made him tired, and yet I have the audacity to come and say I want to take care of him?

Yes, I didn't even ask his opinion before coming here.

He was right again, I just can't grow up, and I still can't grow up now.Grass.

After a long time, Uncle Shi finally regained his composure, and said dejectedly: "Forget it, I have no right to criticize others. My own son, I didn't take good care of myself."

Then he raised his head and looked at me with a pool of stagnant water in his eyes: "Go away, in this life, don't let me see you again, and don't let Minmin see you again."

"He really, couldn't help screwing up a second time."

I asked myself, would Shi Min live longer without me?

Yes.This voice in my heart startled me.

I disappeared.

He didn't dare to appear at the door of the ward, and he didn't dare to disturb him.Later, the project in Indonesia was finalized, and I was still in charge.My employer is really generous, and the expatriate bonus is calculated by the hour.

This can save Shi Min more treatment expenses.

I asked someone to help, and hired a very professional nurse to help Uncle Shi take care of him.

I should have disappeared more completely.But it seemed that I still had some illusions. I didn't dare to change the number and chose to send him the bank card, as if I wanted to coax him to contact me.

I don't want to stimulate his emotions, so I can only tell him on the phone that I love him, always, love him love love love him.Believe it or not, I keep saying that.

I didn’t react until I hung up over there, and I kept talking, telling him to hold on, telling me to tell me if he needs to spend money, telling him to be good with his uncle, and telling him to scold me for anything if he gets angry.

But the busy tone beeped for a long time, why didn't I hear it, I just didn't want to admit it.

I was talking and crying on the phone that no one was listening to, the sea and sky of Indonesia were laughing at me, and my colleagues in foreign countries were despising me.

The author says:

Teacher Shi said this because he was afraid that his family would worry about the text message. From Shi Min's perspective, he should be able to see that he doesn't actually enjoy the life after the breakup.Xiao Fang didn't mean to give up, but the final choice did leave such an impression on Teacher Shi.