Yamaishi

Shen Zhuoqing entered the ward and stayed there for about two hours.

Shen Cong was still weak at this time, and the soup that was sent down was shelved after a few sips.

In fact, when receiving a call from Ruan Linlin, Shen Cong heard that someone was looking for someone, so he didn't care at all; when the other party cursed and said "perverted son", he didn't think about it, and was even pleasantly surprised that Shen Zhuoqing had returned; The man yelled and threatened to bring down his whole family, and he called crazy.

But when she walked out of the house and heard Wang Xia say "I got a man", everything suddenly became a thread.

At that moment, my heartbeat seemed to stop for a beat, and then my eyes went dark.Shen Cong himself didn't know that there would be such a big reaction.

"Are you tired?" Shen Cong saw Shen Zhuo's dejected look, and patted his head.

Shen Zhuoqing was lying on the hospital bed, her face buried in the quilt, as if she had no face to see him.

"What you have to do is always tiring." Shen Cong looked at him calmly, and there was no sadness or joy in his tone.

"You are so young, why are you working so hard?"

Shen Zhuoqing's shoulders immediately rose and fell, and he let out bursts of sobs.In the past fifty hours, even though his nose was sore many times, he never cried.But in this simple sentence of concern, Shen Zhuoqing heard the accumulation and depth of love from more than 20 years.

Beating and scolding are just hurting people, but gentleness is hurting one's heart.

Shen Cong waited silently for him to finish crying before slowly handing over a handkerchief.

Shen Zhuoqing was very familiar with this handkerchief. Shen Cong had used it for more than ten years.

Parents always treat themselves extravagantly, but they are willing to buy a bag of books for Shen Zhuoqing.

"It turns out that there are two boys in our theater troupe who have been very close since childhood." Shen Cong suddenly mentioned an unrelated matter.

Shen Cong's voice was as quiet as telling a bedtime story to Shen Zhuoqing when he was a child: "It's so good that it makes everyone feel sick. When they were kicked out, I even gave them food."

"Later, they died during the criticism."

What Shen Zhuoqing heard from this meaningful story was worry and concern.

There is no anger in the story, just a few words, but Shen Zhuoqing seems to have swallowed a sugar-coated stone, the pain overflows from the wound, the blood is bloody, and it can also smell sweet.

"Zhuoqing...you are gone, he still has family backing...but you are our home."

Shen Zhuo listened quietly, stroking Shen Cong's severed finger up and down, sobbing and unable to speak.

"Is uncle alright?" Li Fangqian raised his head and asked when he saw Shen Zhuoqing come out.I don't have any strength in my feet, I haven't slept or eaten for two nights, and now I can't stand up at all.

"It's much better, my mother is taking care of it inside." Shen Zhuoqing stretched out his hand, trying to pull him up for a walk, "Let's go, go eat something first."

Li Fangqian reached out his hand hesitantly, and the moment his fingers touched it, he withdrew it like an electric shock.

Shen Zhuoqing grabbed him resolutely and pulled him up from the chair.

"Fang Qian, we..."

Inertia brought the two very close again, Shen Zhuoqing didn't dodge, but just looked into the eyes of the opposite person.

"do not!"

Li Fangqian saw determination and loss in Shen Zhuoqing's eyes, and instantly understood what he was going to say.The soreness came up and blocked the ears and eyes.With an unprecedentedly strong tone, he interrupted Shen Zhuoqing's words.

Don't want to see, don't want to hear, don't say, don't say anything...

Shen Zhuoqing smiled to himself, like last night with a sad and hopeless smile.

"Do you know that the overturned fruit was washed for me to eat?"

When hearing the slander from outsiders, the first reaction is not to ask for proof, but, when the child comes back, wash the freshest fruit and bring it to him to eat.

"I know......"

Anticipating what would happen next, Li Fangqian reached out to cover Shen Zhuoqing's mouth, shaking his head mechanically: "I'm sorry... Shen Zhuoqing... I'm sorry... don't say It's..."

Shen Zhuoqing held that hand with moderate strength, stayed there for a while, and slowly took it away from his mouth.The warmth of the palm is still on the lips, dry and warm, making one unable to resist yearning for it.

"No need to apologize. It's not your fault, but that's the problem."

Shen Zhuoqing's cruel lips, she still wants to let go of this vast ocean and speak to herself, not even Qingbo of love.

"We don't even dare to hold hands in an open and honest manner now. If I really go to N University, do you dare to say that we, who have betrayed our relatives, will be able to live well there?"

Li Fangqian's heart twitched.

He actually thought about compromising, and this made him feel ashamed.Indeed, he didn't have any capital to tell Shen Zhuoqing, you can rest assured to follow me, I will protect you; he also didn't have the slightest position to challenge Ruan Linlin, telling her that her life and career would not be affected by her sexual orientation, and that she could still live without society. well done.In fact, if he is really exposed, he may even have to go through the political trial again.

No job, no friends, no family, like two weeds, read the best books, but also the most ruthlessly abandoned.

Therefore, Li Fangqian was also very worried about what Ruan Linlin would really do.

With this "stain", it is too easy to ruin Shen Zhuoqing's future.And the Shen family is now as thin as a cicada's wings, and it really can't stand any more storms.

Shen Zhuoqing didn't care about Li Fangqian who was stunned, and continued: "If the fault is yours, I dare to tell you to change it. But the problem is not with you, I can't help it—we can't help it."

You can't even take a knife to operate on this crux, because she was never the one you should fight.

"Stop talking..." Tears welled up in Li Fangqian's eyes, Li Fangqian knew that every word of Shen Zhuoqing was reasonable, but every word was extremely painful, he couldn't refute, he couldn't even promise, he could only beg, beg He stopped talking.

How could he not understand these things?How about running away for a while?Isn't it good to escape for a lifetime?

"Also, Li Fangqian... My dad can't stand the second time..."

Shen Zhuoqing's calm eyes were already full of waves, but at this time the sea could not even see the ripples clearly.

He knew that Li Fang potential hesitated.

In fact, Shen Zhuoqing is not afraid of the rolling maliciousness and threats, nor is he afraid that he will not be able to withstand the pressure of his family.But he was afraid that the person who said he would join hands would be shaken.

Therefore, when using these words to persuade Li Fangqian, Shen Zhuoqing still had a faint expectation.Looking forward to seeing Li Fangqian look back at him with the same sincere and firm eyes on the bus, hold her hand and say, it doesn't matter, I can do whatever I want, I will accompany you.

However, Li Fangqian was still in a daze, as if he was looking for a more compromise solution.

Shen Zhuoqing waited for a long time, but still did not hear any reply.He laughed at himself, and sighed long into the distance.

"I can't accompany you to N University."

The moment the words came out, Shen Zhuoqing's heart seemed to be tightly held by a hand.The blood in the whole body could not flow back, and it was almost freezing.Both suffocation and despair closed off the senses.

The hand was pulled away suddenly, but the air did not come back.

On the day Shen Cong was discharged from the hospital, Li Fangqian bought a ticket back to N City.

Shen Zhuoqing knew that he should speak at this time, looked at the license plate, but only asked: "What time does the car leave?"

"Three o'clock."

"That's two hours."

"Well. You go back first, uncle can't do without people."

Calm and alienated, like old classmates who haven't seen each other for many years, and a week ago, they were dancing intimately.Shen Zhuoqing shook his head, and just sat down on the empty seat next to him.

Li Fangqian wanted to say something else.As soon as I opened my mouth, I wanted to do something to keep me, so I had no choice but to keep silent.

As long as she begged to save her, Shen Zhuoqing would probably soften her heart, and most likely they could go together on the N-big road hand in hand.But he couldn't watch Shen Zhuoqing being torn apart by two families.He can be willful, run away, and resist, but Shen Zhuoqing can't.

Time passed by every minute and every second, and these two hours passed extremely quickly.Although they were all silent, Li Fangqian had secretly sketched his side face, remembering every mole exactly.

Before the arm was traced, the announcement sounded in the hall.

"It's time to go in." Shen Zhuoqing stood up, habitually reaching out to him.

At that moment, all of Li Fangqian's psychological construction collapsed - Shen Zhuoqing was reaching out to him.

These hands once led Li Fangqian through the library and the rented house, intertwined and held each other for the rest of his life after the catastrophe, and were even bravely exposed to the eyes.

Yes, be brave.When they first got together, Li Fangqian was convinced that they could kiss and love each other like no one else.

Just like the question Wang Xia would ask every time she broke down, why?

Why is this hand close at hand, but I dare not shake it?

A voice shouted wildly in Li Fangqian's ears, it was the swan song of a group of terminally ill patients who were dying to live.

"Respect freedom, ecstasy, taboo, homosexuality, any sexuality!"

Shen Zhuoqing's hand waited for a long time, but he still couldn't hold the familiar temperature. He finally realized how wrong his subconscious action was, rubbed his fingers resentfully, and put them back in his pocket.

"Respect freedom, ecstasy, taboo, homosexuality, any sexuality!"

The broadcast repeats that there are two people queuing up mixed together, the crowds are crowded, and life is mixed.

"Respect freedom, ecstasy, taboo, homosexuality, any sexuality!"

There was a couple next to each other, holding hands and looking at tears, while their relatives nearby sent blessings and praises.

"Respect freedom, ecstasy, taboo, homosexuality, any sexuality!"

Li Fangqian stood up suddenly, grabbed Shen Zhuo Qingzheng's hand that was about to withdraw, pulled him over, and hugged the body that he had missed for a long time.

"Let's not break up, shall we?"

The sudden impact caused some pain in his chest, Shen Zhuoqing didn't understand what was going on with this strong hug, but he wrapped his arms like a conditioned reflex.

This action, they have wanted to do countless times in the past three days.

"I understand your concerns, so just listen to them... So what if one goes south and one goes north? The big deal is to procrastinate and persuade slowly... One year if one day fails, two years if one year fails Can't get away, can't get out, right?"

Li Fangqian's voice changed, sobbing and trembling were covered by the repeated broadcast sound.But Shen Zhuoqing could feel Li Fangqian's emotional changes in the beating frequency on the right side of his chest.

——Their heartbeats finally came together in the right way.

"No matter how bad...can't we secretly do it? I really...can't break it..."

Slowly tightening his arms, Li Fangqian's pleading with tears still didn't stop.Shen Zhuoqing's shoulders were wet a lot.

The people around looked at this side suspiciously, not understanding why the big man got into the car, hugging each other and crying like this.

No one will understand that what these two people who seem to want to integrate into each other are going through is not a simple farewell for friends, but the separation of lovers.

"Fool, I never said we want to break up." Shen Zhuoqing finally tried to let go of Li Fangqian, and carefully wiped his tears with his fingers.

Each has its own involuntary, but there is always a heart that belongs to oneself, right?This is the only thing that can be distributed freely, and I will give it to you without reservation.

I believe you too.

"City N and City B are separated by 5 provinces, 1 big river, and a straight-line distance of 2500 kilometers. It takes 8 hours to take a bus."

Shen Zhuoqing calmly covered Li Fangqian's eyes, imitating how they did before going to bed every night.The eyelashes are shiny, and the fog fogs up the glasses.

"But it doesn't matter. We'll still walk around the world, and it doesn't matter how long it takes."

At the end of the last broadcast reminder, Li Fangqian quickly stepped into the car.

For many years to come, Li Fangqian will remember this scene:

Through the mottled glass and the crowded crowd, he found a pair of eyes full of stars and moon.Those eyes were so bright that he always regretted not being able to kiss.

On the other side of the car window, the owner of the eyes was squeezed and swayed from side to side, like a duckweed.

Amidst the shouts, farewells and car horns, Shen Zhuoqing slowly raised his hand and covered his eyes.As I would do every night, I fantasized about every plant and tree in N.

On the boulevard where singing can be heard, there is a couple of monks.One is Li Fangqian and the other is Shen Zhuoqing.

And none of them were able to give the script a more perfect ending regardless of everything, and even made compromises cowardly and chose a more painful plan to delay the attack.

But during the 3 minutes that Shen Zhuoqing covered his eyes, he still saw a future that was still warm and unyielding.

their future.

Shen Zhuoqing murmured and repeated, like a promise, like affirmation, and like giving himself some courage.

"It doesn't matter how long it takes."

"Because we will always be together."

I couldn't cry.

And in this hustle and bustle similar to the north and the south, one day, I dare to cross thousands of mountains and rivers, and embrace you under the light.

====== Volume [-] · End of the long farewell =====

The author says:

The first volume ends with "the so-called shortcoming", and the whole first volume is about a long farewell - from N City, to the United States, and then to B University - unfortunately, it failed to bring them back to the original point.

I think I am a boring person, but I can be tolerated and liked. I can only say that the readers are really little angels~ I have seen everyone’s comments and encouragement, thank you (deep bow

Before the start of the second volume, I still want to hear everyone’s opinions. About the plot, characters or simply chatting (bushi) maybe when the three-dimensional space is not so busy, I will refer to the suggestions and come back to edit the article~

Also...maybe being coquettish can get starfish and collectibles (tearful