Yamaishi

Li Fangqian was telling him about the fifth safety rule, when he was suddenly interrupted, and he still didn't react: "In the future? Go to school B, the list is all down."

"What about later?"

"I didn't think about it—don't interrupt, I just told you, remember?"

"Remember!" Shen Zhuoqing lifted the quilt, his heart was pounding, and no matter how abnormal his behavior was, he couldn't wait to ask: "Have you ever thought about what kind of person you will live with in the future?"

Li Fangqian also sat up and looked at him suspiciously: "Did you get stimulated by something today?"

"Say it now!"

"Too busy, I haven't thought about it. However, my mother has introduced me to the daughter of someone I know since freshman year." Li Fangqian sighed, and lay back down again, "To be honest, I don't have much expectation for these, maybe Like most people, start a career and start a family."

Get married, get married and have kids...

Li Fangqian waited for a long time, but did not hear Shen Zhuoqing's answer.

He must have fallen asleep, exhausted after a long day of driving.

Li Fangqian raised his hand to bring his cotton padded jacket, and gently covered Shen Zhuoqing's end with another layer, so that he would not move around, so he even tucked the corners of the quilt.After hearing the sound of even and steady breathing, I took off my glasses, put them on the bedside table, and went to sleep with my clothes on.

In the silvery night, the motel accommodates all kinds of passers-by.Next door lived the young couple who had eloped and traveled, and the sound of screaming continued until midnight.

In the background sound of love and joy, Shen Zhuoqing, who gently closed his eyes, turned over after the person beside him lay down again.

The moonlight pierced the eyes very uncomfortable, on this small bed that is very suitable for confession, Shen Zhuoqing stared at the glasses with something on his mind that he couldn't say, and stayed in a daze all night.

After returning from the fault, Shen Zhuoqing began to avoid Li Fangqian intentionally or unintentionally.

It's not a feeling of sadness or sorrow, but I simply feel that it's not a glorious thing for me to miss a friend who is going to get married and have children in the future.

But as soon as he gets close to him, the thread in his brain will be broken, memories will be raging, and every touch and every concern can affect the heartbeat.

Can't think, but can't help thinking.

God knows how much effort Shen Zhuoqing spent that night, not to touch Li Fangqian a few more times while he was asleep.

It's not that I don't dare, it's that I don't want to give up.

In fact, with Li Fangqian's good temper, even if he knows his bad thoughts, he may not necessarily sever the relationship or something, and he may even use high EQ words to deftly resolve the embarrassment.

But not like this.At least what Shen Zhuoqing wanted, not.

What he wants is to embrace bravely in front of everyone like the two courtship idiots in the novel; it is to love you across class and gender and across thousands of rivers and mountains.

And Li Fangqian... Shen Zhuoqing recalled Li Fangqian's extremely natural tone when he talked about "getting a family and starting a business", Ruan Linlin's strong appearance, and the environment where even a same-sex movie would be stopped, and shook his head helplessly .

Before everything was restored to its original appearance, Shen Zhuoqing couldn't face Li Fangqian at all.Because the flower named love in my heart was destroyed beyond recognition by a few actions and words.It is not human nature to meet the person you like with broken walls.

The two schools are far away, and Shen Zhuoqing doesn't have a mobile phone.Therefore, Shen Zhuoqing unilaterally reduced his contact with Li Fangqian on the grounds that he was busy at the end of the term.

Isn't it just to be friends?I'm so used to it.

Shen Zhuoqing would still occasionally call Wang Xia on the public phone to listen to the voices of her family members.In fact, Shen Zhuoqing has not been to many places, and most of the time is busy with studies and part-time jobs.But he spared no effort to describe to Wang Xia the beautiful things in a foreign country. He knew that this actor, who once dreamed of standing on the top stage, had a dream wider than a factory compound.

Wang Xia stopped yelling about how expensive the phone bill was, and listened very carefully.

Tell her about Broadway, about New York, about the empty long street and the night scene when the lights are on, Shen Zhuoqing can even hear her heartbeat.

Every time she hung up the phone, Shen Zhuoqing felt a sense of loss.

To live a new life for his parents, he did it.But when will they be able to live a new life?

Li Fangqian knows the cruelty of the final, after all, he is in the dark when he is busy.However, for a long time, he has long been used to checking Shen Zhuoqing's letters after eating, or receiving a call from Shen Zhuoqing after checking his words before going to bed.

When he was free, he turned on the screen again.There were only a bunch of letters written in English in the inbox, and Shen Zhuoqing had disappeared for several weeks.He suddenly felt that something had changed, and for some reason, his heart was inexplicably sore.

Li Fangqian became anxious, wondering if something happened to Shen Zhuoqing?In fact, it is not unusual to be busy with the final weeks without contact, but Li Fangqian still sent a letter to Southern California every day, which made the college's inbox piled up.

Finally, after receiving no reply to the 42nd letter, Li Fangqian got on the bus to the University of Southern California.

This road came before when Shen Zhuoqing was sent to school.Many times later, Shen Zhuoqing came to the Bay Area to look for him.

Li Fangqian looked at the unfamiliar scenery along the way, and suddenly realized that every meeting before seemed to be initiated by Shen Zhuoqing.And I never knew when I started, and I enjoyed this feeling of being trusted and relied on.

As soon as they disconnected, everything went wrong.

Compared with Shen Zhuoqing's familiarity with Stanford, Li Fangqian has no other impression of this place except Movie Dream and Troy.Shen Zhuoqing didn't have a mobile phone, so Li Fangqian just sat under the academy for a long time.

At that time, there were not so many Chinese who went abroad.Girls in twos and threes walked by, and people of different skin colors smiled at him.

Using this stupid method to find someone is really not something Li Fangqian would do.Therefore, when Shen Zhuoqing went out to see him, he even thought it was because of his longing.

"Li Fangqian?" Shen Zhuoqing didn't know whether to be pleasantly surprised or to avoid it for a moment, thinking of how long he had been neglected, he felt guilty.The toes kept moving in the shoes, but the face remained shocked, and even added some flattering smiles impromptu.

Seeing Shen Zhuoqing standing in front of him, Li Fangqian breathed a sigh of relief: "I thought something happened to you, and you haven't replied to my letter for so long."

"A letter?" Shen Zhuoqing's eyes widened.

This time he really didn't know.No one reminded him to pick up the letter from the college, and no one had ever written to him before, so Shen Zhuoqing never went to that mailbox.After I didn't take the initiative to call, I thought that the two sides were really busy and alienated.

Knowing this misunderstanding, Li Fangqian frowned: "Why is your college like this, you don't even notify the letter, what should you do if there is a mistake?"

"Most people will check it from time to time, and not everyone has a mobile phone like you." Shen Zhuoqing clenched his hands, and the fabric on his side was wrinkled by him.

"Let's not talk about this for now." Li Fangqian looked up to see that the sun had already set in the west, rubbed his numb legs, and asked, "My roommate is celebrating his birthday tonight. He kept saying that he wanted to meet you and asked me to invite you together."

Actually Peter never said that.But it doesn't matter, Li Fangqian thought, he must find a reason for his stupid behavior.

Shen Zhuoqing quickly agreed.For some unknown reason, he thought that as long as it was cooled for a period of time, the surging love would retreat by itself, but the appearance of Li Fangqian was like a valve, and the moment he approached, his heavy heart began to beat violently again.

"I'll go with you right away! Wait first!" Shen Zhuoqing threw the materials to his classmates, and almost jumped back to the courtyard building.At the corner of the stairs is the mail room, where all kinds of items are put away in different categories.He trotted all the way to the small box, and found the "LETTERS" logo in his swaying field of vision.

A letter followed the sound and fell. It was a coincidence that the top one was written in familiar Chinese characters.In other words, it's not a coincidence, but Li Fangqian sent too many, and the chance of falling out is higher.

With trembling hands, Shen Zhuoqing patiently picked up the snow-white envelope, carefully wiped it with the corner of his clothes, and sandwiched it between the hardcover books.

It's too thick to hold at all.Shen Zhuoqing childishly compared it with his fingers, it was as thick as the knuckles of his index finger, and his heart felt like it had been soaked in honey.

Just one day, Shen Zhuo Qing thought.After today, return Li Fangqian to this world that needs him to marry and have children.

Once this idea appears, those guilt and entanglement can be put aside for a while.In the following time, Li Fangqian found that the person he was waiting for had improved visible to the naked eye.

"Why are you so happy to go back to the academy?" Li Fangqian joked, noticing the pile of things that Shen Zhuoqing hid in the big pocket on the inside of his clothes, "What are you holding?"

"I won't tell you!" Shen Zhuo went back to the dormitory mysteriously, put down the pile of letters, and then came to the agreed place with Li Fangqian.

Peter's dress is not unexpected at all, it is a very iconic image of rock and roll youths in that era.Shen Zhuo is not good at drinking sake, so he had to allow Li Fangqian to order sparkling water and eat Peter's leftover birthday cake after the party.

Peter has a boyfriend, which Shen Zhuoqing did not expect.What surprised him even more was that these two people were extremely presumptuous in front of them, and Li Fangqian seemed to have gotten used to it.

"Ever since he knew that the two of us went to that bar on Christmas...he didn't avoid me anymore." Li Fangqian smiled helplessly and explained to Shen Zhuoqing.

Seeing the two of them whispering, Peter threw a pillow over, kissed his boyfriend's face by the way, and asked, "Qing, why aren't you together yet?"

"Huh?" Shen Zhuoqing was flustered for a moment, obviously he was Li Fangqian's roommate, even if it was a joke, why would he make such a joke about himself?Is it really so obvious?

In the next millisecond, sadness replaced the previous emotion.It's so obvious, how could Li Fangqian not see it?Or did he notice it a long time ago, just because his upbringing and friendship didn't break through?

But what are those letters?

Even though there were eight hundred twists and turns in my heart, it seemed that only a moment passed.Li Fangqian seemed to be used to Peter's mess, and hurriedly cleared the situation for Shen Zhuo.

A stone fell heavily.

It turned out that Li Fangqian didn't have that much thought at all, and it was another one-man show.