Who are you?

I started shouting, I was so afraid that Gu Nan would never open his eyes to look at me again, even if he woke up and scolded me, beat me up, whatever!But don't lie in front of me so quietly with your eyes closed, don't let me lose him again after remembering everything.I really can't bear it, I'm afraid I'm going crazy.

My voice attracted the nurses patrolling nearby. When the little nurse followed the voice and saw Gu Nan lying in a pool of blood, she screamed in fright, and then ran away quickly to call someone.

"Someone's hurt over here! Hurry up, over here!"

Then there was chaos, but I lost my ability to think like a puppet and let them take me away.

Not long after Gu Nan was sent to the operating room, his parents appeared in the hospital together.I sat quietly at the door of the operating room, with no extra expression on my face, and they couldn't figure out what was going on with me for a while.

"Xiao An, how are you? Is there anything wrong?" Mom asked worriedly.Suddenly seeing the blood on my hand, my face turned pale with fright, "Blood? Why is there so much blood? Are you injured? Doctor..."

"No! It's not my blood, it's my brother's." I hurriedly stopped it.

"Brother?" The two looked at me in surprise.

I guess they probably didn't know about Gu Nan being sent to the operating room, they probably rushed to the hospital only after they were notified that something happened to me.

I looked up at them, I don't quite know what the expression on my face is, it shouldn't be very pretty, maybe it looks like I'm about to cry or not.I looked at my mother, and my heart was full of guilt.If it weren't for me, Gu Nan would still be that excellent Gu Nan, his life wouldn't have any stains, and he wouldn't have to go back home alone, let alone get hurt now.

And my mother doesn't have to endure the pain of mother and child separation, but she still has to please me, the person who made her unable to reunite with her son.

In fact, from the beginning to the end, I was the only one who was wrong. Falling in love with my brother, leaving home privately and putting myself in danger, being hypnotized and losing my memory, all of this is my own fault, isn't it?Now Gu Nan was injured again, and his fate is still uncertain in the operating room.

I am indeed a born evil star.But even so, even though I know that I will only bring disaster to those around me, I still can't give up and fulfill myself.I'm actually, really selfish.

"Mother……"

Mom's expression froze for a moment, obviously she didn't expect that I would call her that suddenly, because I haven't called her mom since I lost my memory.

"What did you call me?"

"Mom, I'm sorry." I'm sorry for worrying you for so long; I'm sorry for keeping you and Gu Nan separated; I'm sorry for ruining your excellent son; I'm sorry... even if it has become so bad, I still can't give up on Gu Nan.

"What's wrong with you? Why... suddenly..." Mom's expression was a little unnatural.

I didn't care about it, and continued on my own: "Gu Nan..."

"Gu Nan? What Gu Nan? What's wrong with Gu Nan? You..." Just a name made the expressions of the two adults change instantly, and my father suddenly stared at me seriously and asked.

I was terrified by his sudden utterance. In fact, I was in awe of my father from the bottom of my heart.Although my father has never severely punished me since I was a child, I still dare not go against his words easily.Liking Gu Nan is probably the most disobedient thing I have ever done to my father in my life.

"Gu Nan was injured, and he is in the operating room now. It's all because of me..." Thinking of the scene of Gu Nan lying in a pool of blood without blood, I was frightened for a moment, tears couldn't help but fell down, and I looked up at my father I couldn't bear the sadness anymore, "Dad, I remembered... I remembered everything..."

Complicated emotions flashed in Dad's eyes, he opened his mouth but didn't say anything in the end, and Mom also covered her mouth in shock.They may have thought that one day I would remember those things, but they certainly didn't think that day would come so soon.

"What's wrong with Xiao Nan? How did he get hurt? Xiao Nan..." Mom still loves Gu Nan after all. The news of Gu Nan's injury overwhelms everything I can think of. After all, there is no mother who does not love her son.

"I'm sorry, he wouldn't have been hurt if it wasn't for me, I'm sorry..." The self-blame almost overwhelmed me, and I pinched my nails nervously, repeating I'm sorry.To be honest, I'm afraid that they will send Gu Nan farther this time.

Dad saw that something was wrong with me, touched my head, and said, "It's not your fault, don't worry, it will be fine."

"Sorry……"

***

Time passed by, and the three of them waited silently outside the operating room.From the fear and regret at the beginning to the dead silence now, I don't know how I survived for so long.Mom still fidgeted and looked at the door of the operating room, standing up for a while, and sitting down for a while.

When the door of the operating room opened, I thought hundreds of centuries had passed.Seeing the door open, I stood up excitedly, but suddenly my eyes went dark, and I didn't know anything for the next second.

41,

"elder brother--"

Waking up from the nightmare, the whole person seemed to be fished out of the water, and his clothes were soaked in sweat.

But these are not what I care about. In my mind, the lifeless appearance of Gu Nan lying in a pool of blood in my dream is still very clear. Until now, the feeling of despair in my chest still makes me feel suffocated, and the crazily beating The heart has no intention of slowing down.

It took me a long time to wake up from the dream, looked around, and found that I was still in the original ward, and there was no one in the room.It was dark outside by the window.

It's night.

"Gu Nan!" Suddenly remembered what happened before he fainted, wondering how Gu Nan is doing now?

Before he had time to think about it, he threw off the quilt and jumped out of bed. He didn't even bother to put on his shoes and ran to the door.In my panic, I completely forgot, I didn't even know which ward Gu Nan lived in.

"Xiao An, where are you going?" As soon as the door opened, I bumped into my mother who happened to be about to open the door to come in.Mom looked at me puzzled and asked.

"Mom, where's brother? How's brother? Where is he? I'm going to see him!" I saw my mother appearing at the door as if she saw a life-saving straw, and asked eagerly, holding her hand.

Mom's expression was a bit complicated, and finally she sighed helplessly, "You are not in good health yet, go back and lie down first, your brother is not awake yet, you don't have to rush to see him for a while."

"Mom, just tell me, how can I rest at ease without seeing him? Please, Mom!" My mind is full of images of Gu Nan lying in a pool of blood, how can I rest well?I can't be quiet for a moment now.

My mother was tortured by me and had no choice but to agree, "Okay, okay, I will take you there, you put on your shoes first. Your health is not good, don't turn around and catch a cold again."

I'm overjoyed, as long as you take me to Gu Nan, I'm willing to do anything, not to mention wearing shoes, even if I'm allowed to hold the stove.

It turned out that Gu Nan's ward was not far from mine, so I followed my mother to the upstairs ward.Gu Nan's ward is just above my ward.What mother said was right, Gu Nan was still in a deep sleep, his head was wrapped in a thick layer of gauze, his whole face was pale, it looked like lifeless ceramics, which would shatter if he was not careful.

Looking at such a fragile Gu Nan, my heart felt a pain of suffocation.

I still remember how he sat in front of the piano and taught me how to play the piano not long ago. It was so dazzling at that time, one look could make the air vibrate.Just standing there, without any expression, can attract everyone's attention.But now, such a fragile temperament is really not suitable for Gu Nan, he should be invincible.

Even at that time, when everyone's malice was directed at him, he had a straight back and no fear.

"Mom, I want to stay here with my brother."

"You are not in good health, go back and rest first, and I will tell you when your brother wakes up, huh?" Mom was a little worried.

I shook my head and looked at her pleadingly, "Mom, I don't feel at ease if I don't look at him, just let me stay here, I'm fine, really."

After all, my mother was soft-hearted, and finally agreed, "Don't be too tired, I'll go back and get some food, you haven't eaten all day."

"thanks Mom."

The door of the ward was closed again, and only Gu Nan and I were left in the room.I looked at the sleeping Gu Nan, and slowly reached out to stroke his face.I didn't dare to use any force, and gently touched his cheek, for fear that I might accidentally hurt him.

"Gu Nan, you liar." As soon as his nose became sour, tears could not help but fall down.I found that ever since I thought about my relationship with Gu Nan, I seemed to be crying more and more.Because this person always makes people feel so distressed. He obviously has nothing wrong with him, but he bravely puts everything on himself.

"Gu Nan, do you know that I really want to protect you like you, instead of being protected by you all the time. I only know now that I am really the stupidest idiot in the world. I always feel that I am the only one. I’m paying for this relationship. But I didn’t realize until now that compared to my recklessness and recklessness, you are forbearing and paving the way step by step. I thought you didn’t like me, but I found out that I was wrong .Gu Nan, you like me, right? Right?"

In the past, I have always been a player in the drama, but when I started to look at my previous relationship as a bystander, I