Who are you?

Nan smiled and sat in front of the piano, looking at Zuo An with a gentle and beautiful smile.

Zuo An only felt that his heart was beating so fast, as if it was going to jump out of his chest in the next second and jump into Gu Nan's arms.

"Where is the gift you want to give me?" Zuo An tried to divert his attention.

"Hush. Here is the gift." Gu Nan stretched out his index finger to his mouth, successfully calming Zuo An down.

Zuo An watched Gu Nan's fingers dancing happily on the piano keys, and couldn't look away.Until I gradually realized that the melody played by Gu Nan was somewhat familiar.

"How is it? Do you like it?" After the song was over, Gu Nan asked Zuo An with a smile.

"This song is like the one I played randomly that day?"

"That's right, you played it. I thought it sounded good, so I wrote it into a complete song and gave it to you as a birthday present. Do you like it?"

"I like it! What's the name of this song?" How could Zuo An not like it?Not to mention that this is a song specially written for him, even if it is a song that Gu Nan casually played with, Zuo An would think that it is the most beautiful music in the world.

"Well, it's for you, so you can choose the name, how about it?"

"Then... let's call it "Shimmer"!" Just like you are to me, a faint light that illuminates me in the dark.Even if it is small, it is the meaning that gives me courage.

"Okay, then it's called Shimmer."

"Haha! I want to learn this, you teach me!"

"Are you sure? You can really learn?"

"I don't care! This is your birthday present to me! Of course I have to learn it, otherwise how can it be mine?"

"Okay, okay, I'll teach you."

***

Did you learn this song at that time?

I sat in the dark, thinking in a trance.

The boss, the second and the third sleep soundly. I can clearly hear the snoring of the boss and the second, and I can even hear the breathing of the third.

The scene in the dream is still vivid, and even the sound of the piano is still lingering in my ears, as if I haven't left that unreal dream.

The fingers moved unconsciously, I didn't realize it, it was the posture of playing "Shimmer".

I still can't believe that the person in the dream is me.I couldn't believe it at all, the other main character was Gu Nan whom I just met not long ago.

In the dark, I hugged my head in pain. I need someone to tell me, which one is the dream?

Who is Gu Nan?What is the relationship between me and him?

If we are really brothers, why doesn't he admit it?But appearing beside me as a stranger?

I don't understand.

But I realized one thing, my memory is really playing tricks on me.

31,

Until this moment, I felt that everything I experienced was just a dream.Without this inexplicable game, without Gu Nan, without those chaotic illusions.

Yes, I would rather believe that those are just illusions.

But the more proficient playing by my subordinates, and the more and more familiar melody, all these are mocking my self-deception.

But Gu Nan was gone.

I cannot find him, nor can I know the truth of everything from him.

The most disturbing thing in the world is not the moment you know the truth, but the process of waiting for the truth to be revealed.

In the music classroom, the oldest, second and third child sat on the floor behind me, listening to me play the piano.The school celebration time is getting closer and closer, and I have spent almost two days in front of the piano.A few of them also looked more diligent.

"Do you think that Si'er's playing is getting better and better." The boss exclaimed, although he deliberately lowered his voice, but it can still be classified as a nuisance.

"It's very good, it feels like a different person is playing." The voice of the third child sounded thoughtful.

"I also feel that when I listened to it before, I just thought the melody was okay, but now I have an indescribable feeling when I listen to it."

No one responded to the boss's words, maybe they couldn't express their feelings at the moment.

The piano sound stopped abruptly, and my hands were quietly placed on the keys. I think my expression must be very calm now, so calm and cold.

"What's wrong?" the boss asked me in astonishment.

I didn't turn my back to them, I couldn't see their expressions, and they couldn't see mine.

"Second, don't you have anything to say to me?"

"What?" The second child's voice sounded dazed.

"For example, about Gu Nan, about that psychopath. Don't you have anything to say?"

The second child probably didn't expect that I would suddenly ask him such a question, and everyone fell silent for a while, and no one spoke.

The quietness in the music classroom was eerie.

After about a minute or so, maybe.The voice of the second child sounded a little dry.

"Gu Nan and that psychopath? What happened to them? I... what should I say?"

I turned my back on him and sneered.I know I'm not smart, and a lot of the time I don't want to think.So even though the second child had so many doubts, I never doubted him.

"You've actually known Gu Nan for a long time, right?"

"Si Er, what are you talking about? How did the second child know Gu Nan?" The boss asked in confusion.

The second child followed closely: "Yeah, how could I know Gu Nan? I didn't know him at all before!"

"You really don't know Gu Nan?" I turned around suddenly, staring at him with burning eyes, "You really don't know that Gu Nan is that psychopath?"

Several people looked at me in shock, but the second child still had panic in his eyes.So I became more certain about my guess.

"Do you dare to swear on our friendship and say that you really don't know? Do you dare?"

The second child opened his mouth, but made no sound.

The eldest and the third are also full of complex faces, they have never seen me so domineering.The me they knew was never so sharp.

"I'm sorry." After a while, the second child murmured sorry.

"Oh, don't you know me? What are you apologizing for?"

"I'm sorry Si'er, I didn't mean it, it was Gu Nan! He threatened me! I... I was also forced!"

"If he threatens you, you will betray me?"

"I……"

"Forget it, there's no point in worrying about it now." I turned around and turned my back to them again, "Where's Gu Nan?"

I just want to know where this crazy man is now!

"He said...he will appear after you complete the last task." The second child said cautiously, with a little flattery in his voice.

"boom--"

I slammed my fist on the piano with a loud bang.

Play me like this again!Is it fun to play me? !Gu Nan!Don't let me find you!

"Sier..."

"Get out!" Realizing that his tone was too extreme, he said again, "You guys go out first, I want to be alone for a while."

32,

"Look at the bulletin board!"

"What happened?"

"There are perverts in our school! Two boys kissing was exposed! Photos are posted everywhere!"

"Damn it! What's the situation?!"

……

If I have always thought that this game was a nightmare, then when I suddenly woke up from such an absurd and weird dream, I just felt that it was hell.

The whole school was talking about it, no matter where Gu Nan went, there were students pointing and pointing at him everywhere.Because of such a photo that suddenly appeared without knowing why, his life has undergone earth-shaking changes.

He was supposed to be the proud son of heaven, he was only one step away from ascending the clouds, but I ruthlessly pulled him down to the muddy ground, his whole body in a mess.

I thought he would hate me.

I thought he would choose to destroy me together - because I would.

But no, he chose to bear everything by himself.I have never been able to forget the last look in his eyes when he looked at me in the dream, as if full of resentment, but calm as if there was nothing.

When he came out of the principal's office, I clearly saw five fingerprints on his face.It was beaten by her mother, I know.

I actually heard it from outside the door.

"Brother..." I called to stop him, but he ignored me, just paused for a moment and left.

I wanted to catch up, but I couldn't move my footsteps.My body seemed to be pressed by a huge boulder weighing a thousand catties, and two words were engraved on the boulder-guilt.

If I hadn't kissed him recklessly at that time, I wouldn't have been secretly photographed, and there wouldn't be so many things that happened later.

In fact, everything started because of me, but Gu Nan was the only one who ruined it in the end.Even, he never responded to my feelings from beginning to end.

Back home that day, the stick in mother's hand hit Gu Nan's body again and again, and he held on stubbornly without saying a word.

"Tell me! Who is that person? Did I raise you so that you would be so shameful? Are you worthy of me?"

My mother's question fell on my heart.I was really afraid that Gu Nan would be unable to hold on and confess me, but I also vaguely hoped that he would tell me so that I would not feel so guilty.

In the end, in the end, everything was still messed up by me.All of Gu Nan's forbearance and humiliation were wiped out because of my impulse.

In the end neither of us could keep anything.

"Okay! You have a hard mouth, right? You have grown up! Your wings are hard! I can't control you anymore! You pack up your things for me tomorrow and go to your dead father! Don't come back again!"

I looked at my mother in shock, and Gu Nan's body stiffened.

Gu's father is far away abroad, and has always had a history of domestic violence. Gu Nan's return to Gu's father's side is really completely ruined.I can't accept it, no matter what the reason is, I can't accept Gu Nan leaving.

"mom……"

"you shut up!"

It was the first time I saw Gu Nan showing such a fierce expression, as if if I dared to say one more word, he would