Please care for Lonely and Widows Sanxian [Traveling]

Ji Wuyou spent a night in the police station before getting his so-called freedom.

Although he is not the person the police actively want to rescue, and the crime of illegal imprisonment is a crime that Ke Haoyan can easily escape.But after he was rescued, he still needed to record what he had experienced during the three years of being imprisoned by Ke Haoyan.

Even though Ji Wuyou's memory is not as good as before, he can still tell the police in detail about what Ke Haoyan did to him.He is nearly 40 years old, and maybe he would feel extremely ashamed to say these things when he was young, but now, he said everything without hiding anything.

The policeman in charge of the record was a policewoman who looked about 40 years old. When Ji Wuyou told about Ke Haoyan's method of torture, his sympathy for him became more and more serious.

In the evening of the next day, before leaving the police station, he asked the policewoman if he could let him see Xiao Yang's body for the last time.

The policewoman opened her mouth, trying to say something.

At this moment, a high-pitched and angry voice came into Ji Wuyou's ears along with the sound of pattering footsteps: "No, no! If it wasn't for saving him, how could Xiao Yang die like this! We clearly There is a safer way to capture Ke Haoyan...it's fine now..." A man with a tired face and bloodshot eyes appeared in front of Ji Wuyou, grabbed Ji Wuyou's collar, and said with wrath, "Worriless Ji? You know, originally, Xiao Yang would be able to come back and be promoted after this undercover investigation, and enjoy his peaceful life as a police officer in an office. He doesn't need to do those risky things anymore... But it's because of you... ...Because of you he is...Ke Haoyan has most of the responsibility, and you are also responsible, so I won't let you see him even if I die!"

He recognized this person, the one Xiao Yang called a tiger.

Ji Wuyou didn't know how to express his emotions anymore. His heart collapsed after the shot was fired, but he struggled and cried, and the person who passed away still didn't come back, as if he couldn't do anything. It is redundant.

He knew that he should be more sad, and even painful, but when he entered this police station, he unconsciously buried all the ups and downs in his heart, and now facing the tiger's resentment, There was only dullness left on his face.

"I know. I'm sorry," he said.

"...Do you think that a single apology can offset everything?!" Maybe it was because this seemingly calm expression angered Tiger even more, and his fist came towards Ji Wuyou's face.

"That's enough!" The policewoman called someone at some point, and someone pulled the tiger out.At the same time, the female policeman also used her palm to block the anger that the tiger had nowhere to vent.She amplified the volume and cursed, "Yong Yi, don't do this! Mr. Ji is also a victim!"

Yong Yi panted heavily, and stared at Ji Wuyou after being pulled away.

Ji Wuyou stared blankly at him, and finally asked calmly, "Officer, please tell me Xiao Yang..."

The policewoman interrupted Ji Wuyou: "Mr. Ji, although I am not familiar with Police Officer Xiao Yang, as a policeman, I believe that in the end, he is very happy that he can save you from there." She took a deep breath, looked up at Ji Wuyou, "Since you have come out of Ke Haoyan's place, live your own life in the future. Don't mention Xiao Yang's matter, Mr. Ji, go back."

……

In the end, Ji Wuyou hunched over and left the police station in a daze.

When he asked someone to open the home he had been away for for three years and closed the door again, he leaned directly against the back of the door, and then gradually slid to the ground, burying his head in his hands.

After a long period of silence, he let out a subdued sob and buried his head in tears.

Ji Wuyou still remembered that when he returned to the police station, the outside policemen gradually returned to the station, but Xiao Yang and the man named Tiger were not there.Although he already knew the result, he still wanted to find someone to confirm whether something happened to Xiao Yang, so he asked several policemen, and everyone told him that "Xiao Yang died"...

Yong Yi said that Xiao Yang died because of him.

Ji Wuyou thought so too.

At the beginning, how much he looked forward to Xiao Yang's words, "Trust me, I will rescue you." Now, how much he hates himself who put all the chips of freedom on Xiao Yang.

After crying again, Ji Wuyou didn't allow himself to indulge in grief, he put away the grief again, stood up staggeringly, then staggered and looked around the whole house, and found that everything in the house seemed to be the same as before he left What a difference.

The floor and furniture were also clean, as if they were often cleaned.

He thought of Ke Haoyan once saying that his house has been cleaned by a special aunt. Since Ji Wuyou left there, he has never let anyone in, and he has always maintained the appearance he left here. .

"But, worry-free... I won't let you go back, I'm afraid, I'm afraid that once you go back, you will never come back... So you should stay here, we will be together forever like this, it's not very good ?"

All the words that Ke Haoyan had said were like the whispers of demons constantly lingering in his ears.

A burst of strong vomiting moved up his throat, he stumbled towards the bathroom, knocked over a trash can on the way and fell to the ground, but before he could get up, the vomit slipped out of his throat and spit all over the floor.

He vomited out the lunch box that the policewoman had ordered for him to take care of him who was hungry.

……

It turned out that even if Ji Wuyou was not a very cheerful person, at least he had some means in terms of communication.

But now he is no more than Ji Wuyou from three years ago.

On the third day after returning home, Ji Wuyou left that city, went to another coastal city, and rented a small apartment there.Then he contacted an intermediary by phone and quickly sold his house at less than double the market price.

Before leaving, although he knew that he would return without success, he went to the police station again.

There he saw the policewoman again. The policewoman seemed to see him too pitifully, and finally revealed the location of Xiao Yang's cemetery.

She said that the memorial service had already been held yesterday, and the body was cremated quickly on the day it was sent back—because Xiao Yang felt that his family would be even more saddened to see his body—this was also the reason why Xiao Yang communicated with the police before deciding to go undercover. Bureau communication to make the decision.

"Mr. Ji, although Officer Yong told me not to do anything unnecessary, I think I should leave this letter to you." The female policeman opened the drawer, took out a kraft paper letter and handed it to Ji Wuyou, "This is the letter that Officer Yong wrote in Shaw. What I found in the clothes of Yang’s body was a letter addressed to you.”

Ji Wuyou took the letter with trembling hands, and when he opened the envelope, he almost fell to the ground because he couldn't hold it steady.

Inside was a piece of paper torn from the book, and the paper was stained with bright red blood.

Seeing the blood stains on it, Ji Wuyou's heart seemed to be torn apart again. After silently reading word by word, his eyes were red with tears streaming down his face, and he murmured "Thank you, thank you" over and over again.

……

Mr. Ji:

If Mr. Ji receives this letter, it must mean that something happened to me.Because if something happens to me, I will personally tell you the following things.

In fact, the night before I saved you, I had a dream. In the dream, I dreamed that I was shot and died. After waking up, I was a little scared. Not afraid anymore.Besides, if I really just sit back and watch you, maybe I can retire and become a leader among the police, but if this is the case, I, Xiao Yang, will regret it for the rest of my life!Instead of living my life in frustration, I prefer to do what I like vigorously.

Moreover, I have never hesitated to save you.Secretly speaking, if Brother Hao hadn’t had an accident and Ke Haoyan had chosen me as his replacement, I hadn’t been able to find out that Ke Haoyan had done such a crazy thing, so I regretted that I didn’t find out about it earlier.

Presumably, Mr. Ji also knows that there is always a banquet in the world, and death is only a matter of time. If I leave first, I will die without regret. Mr. Ji does not need to take the blame on himself, please be good to yourself life.

This is my own decision and will and has nothing to do with anyone else.

肖阳

XX year X month X day

……

Ji Wuyou has lived in the new city for three months, but he never went out except to communicate with the landlord.All daily necessities are also ordered through the Internet and mobile phones.

He always remembered what Xiao Yang said in his letter asking him to live his life well. When he first came here, he thought he could do it, but when it was time to go out, the strong sense of crisis made him He retreated steadily, unable to step out of the door at all.

He found it impossible, impossible at all.

Obviously when he was imprisoned by Ke Haoyan before, his dreams were the only place that could bring him peace and warmth, but when he was free, every time he dreamed, those tortured memories would emerge in his dreams.

In addition, there is a scene where Xiao Yang was shot by a bullet hole and his face was bleeding when he fell to the ground.Although he didn't see the real scene of Xiao Yang's death, such a picture was still lingering on his mind.

Gradually, even when he was awake, he would remember the encounters that should have left him.

He tried so hard to forget those things, but he just couldn't.

He checked Ke Haoyan's fate online, and the report didn't say that Ke Haoyan killed an undercover agent, it only said that Ke Haoyan killed someone, and that he killed someone because of his illness.

Ke Haoyan's lawyer said convincingly that Ke Haoyan had suffered from schizotypal personality disorder long ago, and produced a series of relevant medical records and other materials to prove that Ke Haoyan was a mentally ill patient.

Everyone felt that Ke Haoyan, as the leader of an organization, must have been a strategy he came up with in order to escape punishment. Moreover, how could a mental patient manage a gang in such an orderly manner? When no one believed and questioned it, the court gave The result of the sentencing——Ke Haoyan will spend his whole life in a mental hospital.

After Ji Wuyou heard the news, he didn't even dare to go out.

He knew that Ke Haoyan was pretending, although many of his actions towards himself were no different from mental illness, but he still pretended.

This result also caused Ji Wuyou to panic even more. He was afraid that Ke Haoyan's subordinates would find him as soon as he went out, and he would be taken back again.It's not that he is narcissistic about the position he occupies in Ke Haoyan's heart, but that he is afraid that he will become the target of Ke Haoyan's revenge.

So he would rather hide in this small apartment than go out again.

Ji Wuyou often woke up from nightmares, and then couldn't fall asleep again. During his insomnia, he thought again and again that he just entered another cage from one cage.

Fortunately, he was the only one in the cage this time.

He knew there was something wrong with his mental state, and he knew that he must have some post-traumatic stress disorder, but he didn't want to seek medical treatment.And he will not commit suicide just because Xiao Yang's death reminds him that his life was saved by Xiao Yang.

Ji Wuyou occasionally wakes up, he wants to wait for a year, he wants to go around, see the world, he also wants to go abroad, he still keeps the money after the house is sold, enough to go abroad travel expenses...

When fantasizing about these, he will feel that life can be better than it is now, just to see if he wants to change.

But often, these psychological constructions and visions of the future will be defeated by the fear that Ke Haoyan will find him at any time.

……

On this day, Ji Wuyou got dressed as usual, sat on the sofa in a daze, and then heard the doorbell, saying it was a courier.

He remembered that he did buy this week's vegetables today.

Before opening the door, he casually picked up the scissors on the table and put them in his pocket.This is a habit he has developed in the past three months, and he is afraid that it will be Ke Haoyan who opens the door.After all, he is just a one-room apartment here, and he has nowhere to escape, so he has to keep a hand at all times.

And when he saw the person entering the door, he realized that he was wrong.

There were two people standing outside the door, with a cursive word Cheng tattooed on their necks - they were members of the Yan Gang's rival Cheng Gang.

Ji Wuyou was about to close the door, but it was still not as fast as the opponent's. When the door was closed halfway, it was directly pushed open by those two people, and then he had nowhere to escape. He was restrained by his backhand and crushed to the ground , followed by a sudden pinprick-like tiny tingling sensation on the neck.

He heard the voice of the person suppressing him sympathetically say: "Go, don't get involved with these gangs in the next reincarnation, and live your life in peace."

Another voice said contemptuously: "Hey, you say that every time you kill people, is it interesting? Hypocrisy. The boss should be happy now that this guy was solved so easily. After all, this is Ke Haoyan's old friend, and the old friend is dead. , Ke Haoyan is probably going crazy. I don't know what the boss thinks, but he actually likes the surname Ke..."

kill……

Oh, he was killed.

When no one has given him death, death has not come for a long time, and he is always in fear, but because of Xiao Yang's words, he has no courage to commit suicide, the death that comes at this time is like a belated redemption.

As for later becoming a soul and witnessing Cheng Bang who spread the news about his homosexuality, he doesn't care anymore, since he is dead anyway, these are no longer things that can shake his emotions for him.

……

Ji Wuyou didn't expect that he could get a new life again. When he came to this new world, he let go of those gloomy emotions in the past.

After leaving the original world, all the illnesses seemed to heal without treatment. He thought that he could really let himself live a good life so far, and live up to Xiao Yang's message.

And when he saw Ke Haoyan here, for a moment, he was actually still afraid.

That was the fear that existed deep in his heart. If Wen Qingmo wasn't by his side, maybe he would really run away.

But because Wen Qingmo was by his side, he faced up to that fear for the first time, and successfully defeated it.

In the final analysis, it was because Ji Wuyou was too weak all this time. Because he was too weak, he could only watch himself lose his freedom and bear the harm given by others.

But after becoming Xuan Zhu, everything was different, he got real freedom.

……

When the memories came to an end, Xuan Zhu cut off the connection between Yuanshen and the golden core in Wen Qingmo's body, and saw Wen Qingmo who opened his eyes earlier staring at him, and asked in a cold tone: "Ji Ke is Ke Haoyan? "

Xuan Zhu covered Wen Qingmo's cold hands for some reason, and asked back: "Yes, do you know why I didn't kill him at that time?"

Wen Qingmo moved towards Xuanzhu, because of the cross-legged relationship, he seemed to feel that the two were not close enough. He silently stared at Xuanzhu, without saying a word, suddenly pulled out his hand, and then threw Xuanzhu down directly. candle.

The two fell on the jade bed, Wen Qingmo hugged Xuan Zhu's waist tightly with his arms, put his head on Xuan Zhu's neck, and kissed.

Xuan Zhu let Wen Qingmo do what he did. He thought that the other party had fixed his posture and would not move anymore, so he put his arm on Wen Qingmo's back. As soon as he put it on, he suddenly felt that his legs were also tightened. Wen Qingmo clasped his legs tightly to his thighs.

"I don't know, tell me." He heard Wen Qing moaned.

When feeling the heat of Wen Qingmo's words on his neck, the corners of Xuanzhu's mouth unconsciously curved into a soft arc.

Even if he didn't look at Wen Qingmo at this time, he knew that the other party's eyes were full of distress, and this was not the emotion he embraced after reading Wen Qingmo's memory.

They are like two trapped animals licking each other's wounds, but in fact, these memories are no longer a past that needs to be avoided for them.

The so-called wound is no longer what they care about most, although it is something that needs to be vented.

They are not trapped animals.

They just happened to meet each other after going through those things.And it is precisely because of those encounters with each other that the current two parties have been created, and the current heart that only beats for each other has been created.

"At that time, I didn't want to expose Ji Wuyou's identity as Xuanzhu just because of Ke Haoyan. Besides, after testing, I found that he still had obsession with Ji Wuyou. Now I am no longer the one who can only listen to him in the past. I'm a puppet at the mercy of him, I want him to experience this kind of torture that he couldn't ask for."

Based on Xuan Zhu's understanding of Ke Haoyan, this kind of torture that he couldn't ask for was the most painful feeling for him. It was Ling Chi, which brought him more pain than direct death.

Hearing this, Wen Qingmo looked at Xuan Zhu, although he still felt that he was not relieved enough, but Wen Qingmo respected Xuan Zhu's decision, and he saw a trace of cruelty on Xuan Zhu's face.

This was the first time he saw such negative emotions on Xuan Zhu's face.

This kind of emotion made the character who was like a banished fairy a little more evil, but made his heart beat a little faster.He had never found that he was such a person who could not stand the temptation, besides, Xuan Zhu did not intend to seduce him, how could he...

Ever since Ning Qingmo merged with Wen Qingmo, he became a person who couldn't hide his emotions in front of Xuanzhu.When he realized what was revealed in his eyes, it was too late to put it away.

In normal times, he would not have restrained himself from this, but when he understood what Xuanzhu, that is, what Ji Wuyou had experienced, he became a little worried.

With a change in Wen Qingmo's eyes, Xuan Zhu understood what he was thinking.

Xuan Zhu felt the two legs that clamped his thigh move slightly, he stared and asked: "Do you feel it?"

Wen Qingmo coughed, did not look away, and said convincingly: "Xuanzhu, I want to get close to you, I want to do something closer to you, but I don't think today is a good day, and you are about to cross the catastrophe, You should meditate and adjust your breath. After you pass the catastrophe, let's take it slowly." After speaking, he let go of Xuanzhu, ready to leave this posture that made him want to move.

But Xuan Zhu tightened his arms, hugged Wen Qingmo tightly again, and brought him into his arms. Without saying a word, he grabbed Wen Qingmo's hand on his chest.Afterwards, he brought Wen Qingmo's somewhat flinching hand under him.

"I managed to muster up the courage. If I don't continue this time, I will probably shrink back later." Xuan Zhu pretended to have a strong man's wrist-severing expression, and after seeing Wen Qingmo stunned, he added a sentence of sincerity , "Qing Mo, in fact, besides my resistance to this kind of behavior, another reason is - I'm afraid that if I can't do it, you will lose confidence in yourself and me, and feel that my friendship with you is a fraud." Said Finally, Xuan Zhu's expression became serious.

Wen Qingmo's hand widened slightly after putting it on Xuan Zhu's place, and now hearing Xuan Zhu's words, he stared even wider, and he quickly retorted: "How is it possible, I won't!"