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The moonlight soaked Ji Yanfei's face lying on the hospital bed.The person who was always in high spirits turned pale and ashamed at this moment. Xia Yulian helped him tuck up the quilt, walked to the window of the special ward, and looked at it from a high position.The lights of the city encroach on the night, guiding the confused passers-by where to go.At night when the sun sets, the city made of reinforced concrete comes to life in an orderly manner.

Xia Yulian reached out to open the window, thinking that the wind might be harmful to Ji Yanfei's injury, so she gave up.He just breathed lightly on the transparent glass, the dense white mist blurred his vision, stretched out his right index finger, unconsciously smeared on the disappearing mist.

His eyes unconsciously turned to the person lying peacefully on the hospital bed, and the last stroke was a horizontal stroke, the end of 'no'.

Yan Fei.Repeatedly.

Xia Yulian tried to figure out the meaning of Ji Yanfei's name, and she couldn't tell with emotion.Is it because of him that a person who has been on the right path turned to the wrong opportunity?He pulled Ji Yanfei off the cliff?Luo Zhen's desperate eyes suddenly passed under him. Is he the executioner who caused the two of them to be bruised?

No, it wasn't his fault.What did he do?Confession, breaking up, going to bed, everything is like a routine thing, at most it is a touch of strangeness in the step-by-step life, why is it that he is the only one who has encountered so many troubles?

He just has more misfortunes than others.He pinned this misfortune on the seemingly happy Ji Yanfei, and used three-point favorability to connect seventy percent of Gu Ying's self-pity.

If Ji Yanfei is completely different from him, then that's all.Seeing a positive and bright winner in life, he would just sigh indifferently, then lower his head and get busy with his life, only responsible for spreading the ground, secretly responsible for lurking in the corners, and the well water does not interfere with the river water.However, there are some similarities between Ji Yanfei and him, for example, neither of them has much interest in life.The difference is that Ji Yanfei can write the word "game" on his face, and Xia Yulian lives honestly with the shackles of "ordinary".

He has no ability to break free from the shackles.The shackles have been with him since he was born, growing into his flesh and veins, forming a part of himself.

Xia Yulian without the shackles cannot be called 'Xia Yulian'.

Relying on a few similarities, many overflowing self-movements and self-delusions pieced together his love.It would be great if he could live the way he adores.

Xia Yulian sincerely loves her ideal life.

But in the final analysis, what Ji Yanfei attracts him may be the incomplete emptiness covered by perfection in essence, and the two are seamlessly integrated into one.From the perspective of others, Ji Yanfei is just because he has too many things, so he can squander them without cherishing them, but Xia Yulian can understand that part of Ji Yanfei, that kind of emptiness comes from mental boredom, no matter what amazing things he gets, In the eyes of the owner, it is no different from the dung on the street. When he found out this by accident, he felt happy and relieved, as if he was looking at a piece of beautiful skin that is all over the country, and it was turned out and attached to the bottom. dripping flesh and blood.The more beautiful something is, the more noticeable its flaws are, and the more attractive it is.His soul resonated violently at that moment, and he was deeply immersed in it.The love on the face has turned into a deeper obsession.

The tragedy in aesthetics is never the destruction of jade and stone, but the twilight of beauties.

All the premise is based on the fact that Ji Yanfei is a high god.The incompleteness of Ji Yanfei's body is limited to what he can see, or what he wants to see.

A Venus with a broken arm can be shelved in an art gallery, while a poor man with a broken arm can only live on the streets miserably.This is roughly the difference of how much incomplete.Rare blemishes on jewelry can be regarded as an important basis for identifying authenticity, but when blemishes are found in every corner of the jewelry, it can only be called a waste product.

Who is this person lying on the hospital bed because of impulsive compulsion and even stupidity?

Xia Yulian had to re-examine Ji Yanfei from the perspective of ordinary people, and she was instantly inspired with sympathy and pity.Guilt, guilt, irritability, confusion, despair, and subtle pleasures mixed together, Xia Yulian made a hole in her heart, threw all the confusion into it, and then closed her heart tightly.

He hates the close relationship between people, but to survive in the world, he has to rely on it.Probably the same as he hates being hungry and thirsty, but the basic life cannot be separated from this desire.People can never escape the shackles.

It dates back to not long ago, when an ambulance was called at dawn, Ji Yanfei was rushed to the hospital.After a series of inspections, Ji Yanfei was fine.The stone in Xia Yulian's heart fell to the ground slightly, but she still couldn't exhale that depressed breath.

Ji Yanfei's blood-colored face almost made him unable to move, and his chest was so tight that he was suffocating.This depression didn't get any better after Ji Yanfei was safely sent to the intensive care unit.

He stretched out his hand, covered Ji Yanfei's eyes, and said softly, "Get well soon. Everything will pass." Including himself.

Within a few days, Ji Yanfei was able to talk sanely, and Xia Yulian almost stayed with him the whole time, except when Ji's family came.Xia Yulian didn't want to cause any harm to a life because of her, so that the guilt in his heart would not be cleared away no matter what.What's more, if there was something wrong with Ji Yanfei, from the perspective of the outside world, he, who was in the same car with Ji Yanfei at that time, could hardly escape the blame.

The person from Ji's house was a bomb who didn't know when it exploded, and Xia Yulian was a little puzzled that he hadn't moved yet.

Ji Yanfei was like a roundworm in his heart, seeing what he was thinking. "This is between me and you. I will not let a third person participate."

Xia Yulian noticed that there was something in Ji Yanfei's words, and suddenly thought of Luo Zhen, so she didn't say anything, and silently nodded in agreement.

Dissatisfied with Xia Yulian's indifference, Ji Yanfei struggled to get up from the hospital bed and get closer to Xia Yulian, "As a reward, shouldn't you show something? Feed me or something?"

The fastened lunch box was opened, and Xia Yulian followed Ji Yanfei's instructions step by step.Since the arrival of Ji's family, Ji Yanfei's three meals have been ordered and delivered according to special recipes, which is conducive to Ji Yanfei's recovery from injury.The rich aroma of the porridge dissipated, but Xia Yulian couldn't whet her appetite.

In order to prevent her mouth from scalding, Xia Yulian put the porridge into Ji Yanfei's mouth one by one with a spoon with exquisite patterns, and blew it a few times to blow away the hot steam before feeding it into Ji Yanfei's mouth.

He is such a person who has been working hard to meet the due expectations of the gentle and kind image of Sunshine.[-]% of the things that others have explained, [-]% must always try their best to do [-]%, and there are often complaints in the belly, but they are often suffocated in the belly and buried in silence.With a relaxed and cheerful smile on his face, he played blunt humor exaggeratedly, and talked about vulgar topics that he had no interest in.

Ji Yanfei didn't know whether it was joy or sorrow, the fragrant porridge in his mouth was full of mixed flavors.His hard-fought efforts to retain him finally paid off. By adopting an illegal method, he gained a few more days of security.And after that?It can last for a while, but not for a lifetime.

Xia Yulian has been taking care of her in every possible way in the past few days, and she has not missed one item of asking about her health and wellbeing.

This is an extremely dangerous signal. Xia Yulian's interest in him has almost disappeared. How considerate Xia Yulian's actions are, it represents how indifferent he is in his heart.If Xia Yulian angrily accuses him of his reckless behavior, it can also show that he still has a friendship in his heart.But now, Ji Yanfei is about to be classified as a group of ordinary people who are not worthy of attention.He is good, but he is paying off what he feels owed.

The quicksand between the fingers can't be squeezed.

Ji Yanfei couldn't anesthetize himself.If it was Luo Zhen who was hospitalized and lying on the hospital bed, Xia Yulian would also take the same action, perhaps with a little more sincerity and randomness than with him.

Ji Yanfei could clearly see the hesitant figure outside the ward, after all, he was one of the protagonists in that sex scene.His bandaged left hand began to ache, and he couldn't restrain his desire to attack.After the next spoonful of porridge was fed into his mouth, Ji Yanfei kissed Xia Yulian's lips aggressively, sharing the delicious food meticulously.

"You've taken care of me for so long, so it's time for me to feed you a little bit. Is the taste okay?"