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A state of bewilderment, occasionally for fun, for long periods of time is madness.

After the energy he had spent on Ji Yanfei shifted, Xia Yulian began to think about how to repair her relationship with Luo Zhen.Because of Ji Yanfei, they had a lot of unhappiness, and he also ignored Luo Zhenduo.When Luo Zhen called, he pretended not to be at home, and used various reasons for food, clothing, housing and transportation to shirk the invitation. After clicking on the message that Luo Zhen sent on social tools, he canceled the reminder and forgot to reply.

Human energy is limited, and exhausting one thing will inevitably lead to indifference to the surroundings.

In the past few days, he has been looking for Luo Zhen more frequently. Whenever he encounters something delicious and fun, he can't wait to share it with Luo Zhen.Luo Zhen was the same as before, always responding to any news.Xia Yulian had to rack her brains so that the conversation could go on without being so blunt.

It's a very boring and tiring activity, but killing time alone is killing time anyway, and if two people waste their lives together, the amount of time lost will not increase, so why not do it if you talk about unimportant things.

His impression of Luo Zhen is not bad, and his disgust is definitely not called it.With a certain amount of love, it can barely bring some motivation to his pleasing behavior.Although if the relationship is completely severed for a period of time, he and Luo Zhen should be strangers, forget about each other, and enter the new social circle like ducks in water.But now he has not had any friction with Luo Zhensheng that really touched his scales, the time together is generally considered pleasant, and having a friend can save a lot of trouble.

It's not bad to maintain a friendship that is not salty or gag.

In his world, only Ji Yanfei represents the ideal and perfection, and it is normal for other things in life to have large or small defects. Dream.Defects too large to be repaired, discarded.Keep things that can make do with their own functions.Luo Zhen was a relatively complete impression in his life that was hard-won. Before the extremely destructive incident happened, he was tired of looking for new partners.

The world is so big, I met you.not easy.

There is nothing bad, and this can be dealt with as good.

Xia Yulian is a nostalgic person, even if a stool with a leg is missing, she would hesitate to throw it away before throwing it away.

Luo Zhen struggled again and again, and finally asked Xia Yulian: "Have you given up on Ji Yanfei?"

Xia Yulian didn't evade, "I don't know, I need cooling time. He hates me and gave me a warning."

After waiting for this series of answers, Luo Zhen was immediately overwhelmed by the turbulent surprise. In order to prevent Xia Yulian from seeing the clue, he pretended to be calm and said: "You should also restrain yourself. In that way, it is already tolerant for him to wait until now to warn you." It’s a lot. Sure enough, no one can bear you except me, and I’m really touched by your kindness in dedicating myself to saving you.”

"I think so too. I don't want him to feel sick, so it's better to disappear for a while. Moreover, the more I get to know him, the more I realize that it's a little different from what I imagined." Xia Yulian omitted several encounters between him and Ji Yanfei , he was sure that Luo Zhen was not interested in those contents.

"I'm stupid, what do you mean by that? You can't find him, so you came to me."

"Ah, that's not what I meant. I feel like I haven't contacted you for too long, and I miss you a little. The above is just an explanation of why I gave up on him."

There was a voice in my heart, yes, that's it.After close contact with Ji Yanfei, the hazy veil was lifted, and the attractive charm was reduced a bit.

Will he be able to meet someone like Ji Yanfei again in this life when he is restless?The chances are very small, so he must cherish his feelings for Ji Yanfei, if he burns out early and squanders it all, then the rest of his life will only be at the pass line level.

After all, he is so in love with himself who is burning for one thing.

Luo Zhen felt much lighter in his body, "Okay, then I'll be a good person to the end, I'm sorry for you, I'll be with you all the time. I'll take you to dinner tomorrow to celebrate your broken love."

Look, he's still the winner.He even laughed secretly why he cared so much about Xia Yulian's feelings a while ago, it was obviously just a whim.He knew that Xia Yulian wasn't gay at all to be precise, and that her attachment to Ji Yanfei was just a rimball like envy and jealousy.

The tears he shed while hugging his knees that night can be completely dried away.

Going deeper, Luo Zhen didn't know what kind of feelings he had for Xia Yulian. He couldn't bear the risk of the relationship going bad, not to mention that he was originally in an ambiguous borderline.Xia Yulian was so fascinated by Ji Yanfei, he felt displeased in his heart, as if his belongings were suddenly snatched away by alien creatures that fell from the sky.

Xia Yulian's side can only be him.

Sitting on the swivel chair, Ji Yanfei saw an extra tail beside his stalker, and his eyes darkened.Just because he loosened the rein just a little bit doesn't mean he'll let the Mustang escape.

He punched out a string of unfamiliar numbers and made a call.Regardless of the occasion, time and place, Ji Yanfei directly issued an order to Xia Yulian, "Leave your playmates behind and come to see me on the fifteenth floor of this building where I am, and I will give you four to ten minutes to come over." , No one will be seen at that time, you will bear the consequences, illegal stalking, the matter is big or small. Don’t tell me, now you don’t even know where I am.”

An angry order.

Before Xia Yulian had time to defend herself, Ji Yanfei hung up the phone and made it clear that there was no room for discussion.Fortunately, the streets were noisy, and Luo Zhen didn't hear Ji Yanfei's words from the receiver.

Ji Yanfei's eyes were gloomy and cold, just like the bluestone road after the drizzle in March, the heat dissipated little by little.

Some time ago, he was busy dealing with the follow-up of the criminal gang, and had no time to take care of Xia Yulian who was just a witness.Then, Xia Yulian and another man chatted happily, as if treating him like a dream and forgetting about it.

There was nothing good about Xia Yulian.There is neither talent enough to look up to, nor appearance that attracts attention.Not ugly, it belongs to the appearance that is easy to be pleasing to the eye but hard to impress.There are many shortcomings that can be counted here and there, but there are no defects that are unbearable to ordinary people.

All in all, it is just a stone thrown into the crowd, and there is nothing special about it.

It's such an ordinary person who is more attached to Ji Yanfei than anyone else.When he was watching Ji Yanfei, Ji Yanfei was also watching him.Ji Yanfei more or less developed a natural curiosity, facing the shadow behind him.

After investigating all the information on that person, it turns out that his background is not an ordinary family—of course not on a commendatory level, for example, the family is actually the descendants of hidden merchant giants or high-ranking officials.

His father was sentenced to death for drug trafficking and murder, and his mother suffered from mental illness and committed suicide after staying in a nursing home for two years.The current Xia Yulian can be said to be alone, with no worries or cares.

There always seemed to be a bright smile on the face of the stalker.Ji Yanfei also thought about it, what kind of plot does a person with such a family background follow him, kidnapping?What benefits do you want?Get his attention?

Xia Yulian, the strangest thing is that he has no purpose, just following natural physiological activities like eating and drinking.

People around Ji Yanfei, more or less, have been looking for something in him, only that stranger, nothing.

What is it about me that people follow without asking for anything in return?Ji Yanfei wanted to know the answer.Xia Yulian always maintains a proper sense of proportion, not taking a step further, not taking a step far, so as not to disturb his life, nor to disappear from his sight.

Admiration is really a blind thing, Ji Yanfei occasionally saw the figure following him like a shadow, and couldn't help thinking so.

Watching other people burn their lives for themselves doesn't feel bad.In a sense, it was Xia Yulian's extreme and ignorant approach that aroused his interest.Weighing the pros and cons and judging the pros and cons are the rules of the game that adults are accustomed to, but because of the constraints of the rules, the fun of life has to be detracted too much.

Looking back, the more times he saw that person, the more Ji Yanfei could smell the dilapidated breath deep in that person's soul.What he saw in Xia Yulian's body was not the clear and fragrant lotus, but the deep mud of rotten roots.

The petals are withered, the rhizomes are curled up, leaving only an empty shell, but they don't want to wither.

Some part of his soul resonated with this vicious emotion.The desire for power and money is in the same line as love, the difference is that the former longs for the dead, while the latter pursues the living.

After all, people are the most untrustworthy people. They would rather hold the cold treasure firmly in their hands than dare to be honest with another human being with the same organ structure.How much fear of others comes from our own dirty reflections.

When it comes to male admirers, Ji Yanfei has never had or lacked.When he was a student, there were men who pursued him straightforwardly and boldly, and love letters and roses were all available.Looking back, he couldn't even spell that man's name, and what remained in his mind was the impression of a farce-like joke.

Ji Yanfei is naturally good at getting favors from others.There is no need to do it deliberately, men and women will present to him various explicit hints, and it is enough for him to choose the one that best suits his heart for what he has to do.

He can't be called disgusted with the relationship between men, but he can't breed any interest either.Imagining being intimate with creatures with the same body structure as his own, Ji Yan felt uncomfortable non-instinctively.

That not-so-tall figure appeared behind his rear-view mirror again and again, dressed simply, with forehead hair longer than his eyebrows.Ji Yanfei couldn't help thinking, if that person is in love with him, would he also have physical desires?Think of yourself as the ultimate delusional object?

But Xia Yulian's expression was too gentle and harmless, and she didn't show the same sense of aggression common to people who are passionately in love.It is like a floating cloud that cannot touch the entity, but cannot deny its existence.

Perhaps it was intentional, when Xia Yulian was following him, Ji Yanfei preferred to go in and out of various occasions—including hotels—in an intimate manner with all kinds of well-dressed beautiful women.

Will Xia Yulian do something beyond her control?

There was a soft body lying beside him, but Ji Yanfei closed his eyes, Xia Yulian's expression involuntarily appeared in his mind.Will there be loose cracks on the dull face of a loyal follower?

Several times, Ji Yanfei woke up from the dream and opened the curtains that blocked the room.

As long as Xia Yulian chooses to follow him on that day, she will always wait downstairs.No matter it is windy or rainy, at most he finds a shelter for shelter, but he never puts down the camera hanging on his shoulder.

Ji Yanfei doesn't think he is obliged to respond to those who like him, but even he can't help but look sideways at a lunatic who is so obsessed with him.

The next time, when a handsome man threw himself into Ji Yanfei's arms, he did not refuse.In fact, that person was just on the dividing line between a man and a boy, and his makeup was so dusty that he looked a little older.It is a certain niche who is now popular, and became famous in one fell swoop because he played the leading role in an idol drama.

Ji Yanfei remembered the name and plot of that vulgar TV series clearly, even though he hadn't seen it with his own eyes.It has nothing to do with who plays the leading role. The popularity of an item represents its salability. How to make a commodity that is in short supply and get as much money as possible from the public has been a constant topic for businessmen for thousands of years.

In all fairness, in Ji Yanfei's eyes, the male protagonist who became the middle school girl's after-dinner conversation material for a while was a character with zero sense of art.The effect is similar to whoever plays it, and there is no strict requirement for the artistic quality of the actors.

If you can recite lines and look at the camera, you can gain a lot of blind followers called fans.After having fans, let him be a piece of mud that cannot support the wall, blown into a fairy grass in the fairyland of Yaochi, it is only a matter of time.

To Ji Yanfei, none of that mattered.Actors, superstars or unknown people, and people in the entertainment industry, in the final analysis, they sell themselves as commodities, and the prices are different.As a buyer, he bids according to his preferences, and you have the best of both worlds.Who is more innocent than who.

The road to acting was smooth sailing, he became famous at a young age, and climbed up the big tree of Ji Yanfei, especially Ji Yanfei still made an exception for him. The boy was as proud as a peacock with its tail blooming in front of his peers, and he thought that the road ahead was magnanimous and waved to him .

Seeing the boy struggling and ups and downs in the circle, his acting skills in the play are raw and naive, and the mask outside the play is integrated into his flesh and blood, Xia Yulian's figure suddenly popped up in Ji Yanfei's heart.The boy looks much more beautiful than the unknown stalker, and his personality can be regarded as docile in front of him, Ji Yanfei has no intention to explore the little trick of secretly crowding out.

As a passable toy, it is enough.

If it was Xia Yulian, she probably wouldn't even have bad acting skills.Ji Yanfei can't imagine that Xia Yulian, who has an overly strong ego, can temporarily erase her ego and blend into other characters.

People who seem to be his admirers, even if they see him going out of the room with others, they should always accept it like this.

The boy came to Ji Yanfei to complain that his role in the play was not important enough. Ji Yanfei didn't make too much fuss, and readily agreed. He put a little pressure on the script to revise it, gave him a few more endorsements, and then broke up with the boy.

He was willing to give a parting gift.

He doesn't hate vases that look pleasing to the eye, but he hates his own garbage that can't be seen clearly.

People in the flashy circle are too smart and too stupid.Smarter than Xia Yulian, stupid than Xia Yulian.I am working hard for my own interests, but I can't find a self.