boy chasing lightning
Chapter 20 (1)
Biancheng has been inquiring about work for the past few days, but he decided to help Yu change a job, at least not so hard to make people feel distressed.Unexpectedly, it was Fang Yuanyun who found a new job for Yu in the end.
That day, Fang Yuanyun came to the apartment angrily, and when he entered the door, he yelled at the border town.Bian Cheng and Yu Luo were so frightened that they didn't dare to say a word, they stood aside like a primary school student who had done something wrong.
"Biancheng, how on earth did you take care of Yuluo?" Fang Yuanyun grabbed Yuluo's hand and held him in front of Biancheng. Biancheng saw a red bloodstain on Yuluo's hand, which was a little swollen.
"Do you know that the painter's hands are more important than life, you two, just treat these hands like this for me?" Fang Yuanyun trembled angrily.
"Yuluo, tell me clearly how this happened. If you don't tell the truth, don't come to me in the future." Fang Yuanyun said harsh words, and Yuluo had to say it.
When she heard that Yuluo hurt her hand because of moving construction materials, she stood up abruptly, "From tomorrow onwards, you are not allowed to go to the construction site anymore. Isn't it just a job, tell me earlier."
After saying this, Fang Yuanyun left gracefully, and let Yuluo go to work in her studio the next day.
"You just stay here in peace of mind. When you have customers, greet them. There is no need to deliberately recommend anything. People who understand my paintings will buy them without your introduction. People who don't understand me, you said It's useless. When there are no guests, just concentrate on painting for me, and I have to check every day, do you hear me?" After Fang Yuanyun arranged Yuluo, Biancheng finally let go of a big rock in his heart.The life between him and Yuluo seemed to have returned to calm.
They had more time to spend together, and Yuluo didn't have the hard work of the previous period. On weekends, they always went hiking and playing ball with Biancheng.Every night, the two of them rode their bicycles home from night school together, and on the way home they would buy some food from the roadside stalls.Such a day is simple and happy.
Biancheng always thought, just live quietly with Yuluo.Don't think about when he will leave, and don't think about the relationship between the two.Less luxury, more satisfaction.This way, maybe better.Treat Yuluo as his younger brother, a relative, maybe in this way, they can still be together forever.If one day, the layer of paper between them is pierced, I'm afraid I will be reluctant to let go, I will be unwilling, and it will be easy to lose him.
After thinking about this, Bian Cheng felt that getting along with Yuluo seemed easier. He would often pet Yuluo's head like a spoiled child, and even joke with him, chasing and fighting.But sometimes Biancheng feels that Yuluo seems to have some distance from him. Although the two get along more and more naturally, Yuluo seems to be getting farther and farther away.
When Yuluo first came, although he didn't like to talk, Biancheng could understand what he was thinking from his expression, movement, and even breathing, but now, although he was joking with himself, he couldn't figure it out. to his heart.One weekend, they went to the supermarket together and met a colleague from the hospital.Biancheng introduced to the other party: "This is my younger brother." He saw Yuluo's eyes showing displeasure.
After the people left, Biancheng strangled Yuluo's neck, rubbed Yu's hair as usual, and asked, "What's wrong? Who made my Yuluo unhappy." Yuluo pushed his hand away, He said displeasedly: "Don't tell people that I am your younger brother in the future." After finishing speaking, he strode away, leaving the border city there, not knowing what he said wrong.
Bian Cheng felt very annoyed, he couldn't see Yu Luo's heart clearly, he didn't know his thoughts, he could only be cautious, for fear that a certain action of his would push Yu Luo away from his side.He was used to seeing figures waving his hands on the balcony every day when he came home, he was used to Yuluo leaning on his lap while reading a book, he was used to falling asleep listening to Yuluo's breathing every day.
He didn't dare to think about what would happen to him if Yuluo left him one day.
One day, when they were looking at the sunset glow in the sky together, Bian Cheng said:
"Yuluo, I often feel that if my mother and your father hadn't broken up, maybe there would only be one of us left. It's like we were divided into two halves, wandering in different parts of the world. Now, we are finally complete. If one day, you ignore me, my life will only be half." After saying that, Bian Cheng found a tear streaming from his eye, and the tear reflected the sunset , glowing red.
In fact, Yuluo is not the same.The moment this man picked him up from the cold floor, Yuluo couldn't leave him anymore.He loves his kindness, loves his affection for his mother, loves his love for himself, if there is no border town, Yuluo will never know what the true love in the world is.If I hadn't met him, what would I be like today?Perhaps he has already embarked on the same path as his father.He has gratitude, attachment, and other emotions to Border Town, but he can't express them.
He knew that Biancheng liked him, and Yuluo could feel it from every look he looked at him.But he knew better that Biancheng would never take that step.He is different from himself.He has nothing, so he is not afraid of losing, but the border town has too much, and he cannot afford to lose.Yuluo couldn't bear to let the border town suffer the harm he shouldn't have to bear because of himself.
They are destined to have no ending.
Therefore, it is the best choice for them to accompany each other in each other's lives like a relative.
Page 21
One weekend in July, it was maddeningly hot.Biancheng and Yuluo came back from swimming in the lake outside the city, and as soon as they stepped through the door, they felt the breath of another person.There was the sound of ping-ping-pong-pong cooking in the kitchen.
Bian Cheng came to the kitchen door and said, "Don't tell me when you come back, so I can pick you up."
Yuluo greeted Hsinchu, gestured to Biancheng, and returned to her room.
"Help me set the table and chopsticks, the food will be ready soon."
"We have eaten outside." Bian Cheng said a little apologetically.
When Hsinchu heard this, the movements of his hands stopped slightly, but they quickly returned to normal.
"It's okay, just sit and watch me finish eating." Hsinchu put the vegetables into a bowl, asked Biancheng to add another bowl of rice for himself, and began to eat.
Bian Cheng wanted to find something to say to her, but didn't know where to start.
"Border Town," Yu Luo came over at some point, carrying a black schoolbag, "The studio has to catch some paintings these days, so I have to stay for a few days."
After saying this, he exchanged some polite words with Hsinchu, and left in a hurry.
Biancheng knew that Fang Yuanyun's studio was not so busy at all, and he also knew that Yuluo deliberately avoided it, just like he would deliberately avoid it every time he came back from Hsinchu.Every time he watched Yuluo leave alone, Biancheng felt very sad.He didn't dare to think about where the rain would drift in those nights, and what he would be thinking in his heart.
Biancheng looked at Hsinchu on the opposite side of the dining table. I don't know when, Hsinchu and himself are like now, separated by something.They seldom talk on the phone anymore, their words are becoming more and more polite, and the content of the chat is either work or going abroad. It seems that there is nothing else to say except this.The situation like tonight has happened many times. At the beginning, he also tried to have a dinner party with three people, but the dull atmosphere and uneasy emotions made everyone extremely uncomfortable.
Seeing that the relationship between Hsinchu and himself is getting colder and colder, and seeing Yuluo wanting to escape more and more, he suddenly finds that he is constantly hurting the two people who love him the most.Hsinchu and Yuluo, he has to make a choice, and he can only choose one of the two, if he wants to protect one, he has to tear the other bloody, but no matter what he chooses, he will be a sinner .
In fact, maybe Biancheng has no choice at all. Hsinchu has been with him for many years, and the two have always been heading towards marriage. There is no love, but there is also family affection.As for Yuluo, he still doesn't understand what's going on between the two of them.Say love, but you can't take that step, say you don't love, and worry about it, and you can't let go of 1.But it doesn't matter if you can't let it go, feelings are so vulnerable in the face of reality.
"Cheng, let's get married!" While Biancheng was still thinking, Hsinchu dropped a blockbuster.
Bian Cheng was taken aback by these words, he didn't dare to answer the words, and didn't know how to answer them.Hsinchu sensed his silence, and continued: "My father is sick, and he said he doesn't want to be angry with his daughter anymore. I just hope we get married as soon as possible, and then go to the United States to accompany him and enjoy the family happiness. "
When Hsinchu said this, he choked up a little.
Biancheng knows that Hsinchu has always been strong, and she must be really sad for her performance today.He really wanted to comfort her, but he still didn't know what to say.
"Dad called that day, and I felt very uncomfortable. Over the years, he always asked me to go to the United States to accompany him, but I..." Hsinchu cried out, "It's all right now, Dad said that as long as we get married, he will I will apply for you to go abroad immediately. Biancheng, we have finally waited until this day."
Biancheng felt very guilty.Yes, I have known Hsinchu for so many years, if it was not for me, she would have gone to the United States long ago.Now, her request for marriage is not excessive at all.This was what the two had always planned.
Biancheng wanted to agree, but when the words came to his lips, he just couldn't say them.
When he thought that he was going to the United States soon, when he thought about leaving this city far away, when he thought about never seeing Yuluo again, when he thought about Yuluo wandering in this city alone, he couldn't say anything.
A few months ago, he was still planning to go abroad with Hsinchu, but now that he really has to leave, he is reluctant to give up.How can people's hearts change so quickly.At this moment, no amount of reason or rationality can keep the hearts of people who are drifting away.What kind of relationship for many years, what the other party has paid, if you love each other, you will cherish it, but once you stop loving, it is nothing.
People are selfish after all, reason can never overcome emotion, he has to admit that he no longer loves Hsinchu, from the moment he would rather bear her than leave this city, he knew that he and Hsinchu have long been strangers .
No.20 Section Two
At this time, Yuluo was riding alone on the street at night. The neon lights were flickering, illuminating the whole city like daytime. There was no wind in the air, and it was so hot that it was hard to breathe.Yuluo felt a tightness in his chest, as if he was about to vomit.He speeded up and rode the bicycle fast, finally bringing a little coolness.As Yuluo escaped from the brightly lit city, the wind gradually picked up. A thunderous thunder resounded through the night sky, and Yuluo rushed forward like crazy.The thunder followed, and all the boredom and depression just now seemed to have been left behind by him.He pedaled faster and faster, one picture after another flashed in his mind.When he came to the end of a small road, he jumped off his bicycle and saw lightning bolts piercing the sky one after another, as if trying to tear apart the night.
He stopped and stretched his hand into the air, only to find that the lightning was so far away, so far away that he couldn't reach it. He has always been so obsessed with that lightning, but he could never catch it.Just like Bian Cheng, he is obsessed with him, but he will never be able to get him.Now Yuluo's heart is more helpless than sad.
"Why, abandoned by that little boy?" A voice came from behind.
Yuluo picked up the bicycle and wanted to leave, but Ye Yang grabbed his arm.
"Let go," Yuluo said coldly.
Seeing that Ye Yang didn't let go of himself, Yuluo turned around and punched Ye Yang. He was already feeling uncomfortable, but this guy came to provoke him at this time, and Yuluo couldn't care less about the consequences. Passing Ye Yang's collar, he raised his fist again.Ye Yang didn't dodge at all, he just stood there, as if he was ready to be beaten by Yuluo.
His appearance made Yu Luo's fist unable to move down.
"Why, reluctant to do it?" Ye Yang said provocatively.
Yuluo pushed him away, picked up the bicycle, and walked back.
Ye Yang followed behind him, watching the wind getting stronger and stronger, making Yu Luo's figure sway in the dark night.He was so pissed and funny.What's so angry is that this kid doesn't give him any face at all, what's funny is that he is not angry at all after being beaten.
"Hey, it's thundering, you're pushing the bicycle, you're not afraid of being struck by lightning." He yelled at Yuluo.
Yuluo ignored him at all and continued walking forward.
"I told you a long time ago that you are not the same kind of person as he is. Why, you were kicked out so quickly." Ye Yang really poked Yu Luo's heart with every sentence.
Yuluo turned around and gave him a hard look, Ye Yang was not only not angry, but also laughed out loud.
"I just like the way you glared at me. When you glared at me for the first time, I was thinking, this boy's eyes can be so charming by staring. Now that you don't stare at me for a few days, I feel uncomfortable. "
"I'm sick." Yuluo really thought so.
"I also think I'm sick. If I'm not sick, why would I be so fascinated by you young boy? I was supposed to hug left and right in the clubhouse, but now I'm fine. I'm here with you. I don't know when It was struck by lightning."
"Chop you to death."
Ye Yang rushed to the front of Yuluo, stopped Yuluo's bicycle, "Follow me back to Yulong Bay."
Yuluo shook off him, "I said I wouldn't go there. Can you stop following me, we are not the same way."
Ye Yang got a little angry when he heard this, "We are not on the same side, so who are you on the same side with? They dumped you halfway, and you are still sticking up."
"Whether I post or not has nothing to do with you."
Ye Yang didn't want to talk nonsense with Yuluo anymore, he took Yuluo's arm, and said to Yuluo very seriously: "I told you the other day, I won't stop you if you want moths to catch fire, but you really Are you going to burn yourself to death?"
Yuluo didn't shake him off, and he also said to Ye Yang seriously: "I'm willing to burn to death."
"You must be sick." Ye Yang really had the urge to beat him to death. "You have no results with him. You'll understand after I tell you a few times. If you like men, I'll let you pick all the men in the clubhouse. It doesn't matter what you want. Is it okay?"
"Who told you that I like men?" Yu Luo looked at Ye Yang even harder.
"You don't like men, so what are you doing now, come here to pose."
"Then what are you doing here, you like men?"
"Yes, I like it." Ye Yang replied without any shyness.
Yuluo didn't expect him to be so honest, "I don't like it. So stop pestering me."
"If you don't like men, you still don't like me." Ye Yang asked very straightforwardly.
Yuluo sneered and said, "I don't like men, and I don't like you. Do you want me to be more clear?"
Ye Yang gestured to listen attentively.
"Because you are a man, I don't like men; if you are a woman, I also hate women. In short, I hate you very, very much."
"You mean, because that doctor is a man, you're starting to like men now." Ye Yang wouldn't just let him go.
Yuluo also knew that if he didn't stop talking, he didn't know how much saliva he would waste with this person in the future.
"You're right. I like him whether he's a man or a woman. I don't like a man, but him. I'm not interested in anyone except him. Are you satisfied with this answer?"
"What about him, is he the same as you?" Ye Yang immediately hit Yuluo's heart.Yes, what about him, will he be the same as himself?Yuluo didn't dare to answer Ye Yang, because he didn't have an answer himself.Yuluo could feel the heart of the border town, but he would never be able to grasp it.His love is too deep and restrained, he has too many scruples and entanglements, maybe Ye Yang is right, Biancheng and himself are destined not to be the same kind of people.No matter how hard I try, the border town will always be the elusive lightning in the sky.
But it is impossible for the human heart to turn on and off at will. Even though I know that the lightning is far away and dangerous, I am obsessed with it and want to chase it. Even if I can only watch it from a distance, I am very satisfied.Just love, so what if you just love without desire or demand.When one day I can no longer love, my heart will let go.Yuluo didn't answer Ye Yang's words, and couldn't tell him what he was thinking just now.The thunder was getting closer and closer, and Yuluo knew that the rainstorm was coming.
"Hurry up and get in the car, it's going to rain." After Yu Luo finished speaking, he got on the car and flew away.
"Boy, we haven't finished talking yet." Ye Yang shouted at Yuluo's back.
"You bastard, it's really a headache." Ye Yang got into the car and watched the bullet-like raindrops fall on the car window, "Boy, do you have to let yourself be covered in injuries before you turn back? Well, you are not afraid of death, I will accompany you. When you are full of scars one day, I will help you heal, who made me like you so much." Ye Yang thought.
When Ye Yang's car passed by Yu Luo's side, the rain fell from the sky like a flood that opened the gates. He looked at that stubborn figure and remembered that he had the same stubborn look when he first saw him.
In the stick, Yuluo tightly protected the soldier in his arms, without begging for mercy.He was seriously injured, but he still couldn't hide the disdain for himself in his eyes. He would rather work on the construction site than set foot in the past life. How could a boy born like this have such aloofness.
From that day on, he has been paying attention to everything about this kid, and he wants to conquer him.Want to get rid of the arrogance in his eyes, want him to surrender to himself.But today, he himself can hardly figure out which of the two of them conquered the other.
No.20 Three Sections
Since the day he came back from Hsinchu, Yuluo has been living in the studio, and he has never received a call from Biancheng again. This has never happened before.No matter how long Hsinchu came back, Biancheng would always contact Yuluo, what went wrong this time, and why Biancheng deliberately avoided him.The more Yuluo thought about it, the more frightened she became.He can only keep drawing, not daring to stop his thinking for a second.
As long as he stopped for a moment, countless thoughts would pop up in his mind. He was too scared, afraid of some unbearable result, and even more afraid of the process of waiting for the result.
After holding on for a week, he couldn't take it anymore.He practiced repeatedly in his mind how he would respond and behave in various situations.If Biancheng wanted to get married, he would pretend to be a happy blessing. If Biancheng wanted him to move out, he would move out obediently. Whatever the outcome would be, just don’t just leave him alone without saying a word like he is now. He never had anything to do with the same thing again.
When Yuluo returned to the apartment, he didn't dare to open the door by himself, so he politely rang the doorbell.There was no sound at all in the room.
"Could it be that there is no one at home? Or, have they left? Where will they go when they leave? "
Thinking of this, Yuluo took out the key with trembling hands, and the moment he opened the door, his heart sank to the bottom of the valley.The room was pitch black, the curtains were tightly closed, and more importantly, there was no breath of human life in the room.
Yuluo searched in every room, and the more she searched, the more desperate she became.
Biancheng is gone, he really is gone.Without saying a word to himself, he just walked away quietly.
Yuluo sat slumped on the ground, he had no time to be sad, all his emotions were now occupied by surprise and doubt.How is it possible, how can Biancheng abandon himself so resolutely.Didn't he say that life would not be complete without himself?Didn't he say that he would accompany him to pursue his dreams?These words seemed to be in his ears, how could he just leave like this?
Yu Luo sat in the empty room, he didn't believe it, he didn't dare or he didn't want to believe it.He remembered the first time he and Biancheng went to Yuluocheng, when he fell on the edge of a cliff, it was Biancheng, carrying him, his back was so warm; when he was sleeping in the dark basement, it was Biancheng, sitting by the bed Accompanying him, his eyes were so affectionate; when I was injured and returned home, it was a border town, and I hugged him tightly, his embrace was so hot.
"No, he won't leave." Yuluo thought firmly, "He will definitely come back, definitely, definitely will."
Yuluo did not allow himself to doubt, let alone despair. He stood up, opened the thick curtains, lowered the white screens, and opened the small door leading to the terrace. own textbooks.It may have been wet by the rain and dried by the sun, making it look wrinkled.
Yuluo sat down, opened the book that she hadn't finished reading,
"Biancheng, we haven't finished reading the book yet, you must come back."
Seeing that the words on the book were gradually blurred, Yuluo shook his head and pulled himself together. He believed that when the book was finished, Biancheng would come back.
Yuluo just waited hopefully, he read the book quickly, but seeing the back of the book getting thinner and fewer people in the garden, his heart became more and more anxious.The street lights came on, making the path even more lonely.Yuluo hastily turned on the lights in the house, he was afraid that he would not be able to see himself when he came back from Border Town.
"Continue to read the book, and he will come back when he finishes." Yuluo sat down and muttered to himself like a hysterical patient.
Just like that, after an unknown amount of time, the street lamp in the garden cast out a long shadow. Yu Luo saw that shadow getting closer and closer, and a person walked slowly from the path.When the figure came downstairs, he raised his head and saw Yuluo sitting on the bright terrace, he waved his arms hastily.Yuluo threw down the book, leaned on the balcony railing, and waved his hands vigorously. At this moment, his heart finally returned to calm.
Yuluo opened the door of the house, came to the elevator door, and watched the number change little by little until the number thirteen lit up. With a ding, the figure finally came in front of Yuluo.
Yuluo took the travel bag in Biancheng's hand, and he found that Biancheng seemed to be thinner and haggard.He didn't know where the border town had been these past few days, and he didn't dare to ask.
He thought to himself: "As long as you come back, everything is not important as long as you come back."
Bian Cheng didn't seem to want to say anything, he was very tired, and fell on the sofa as soon as he entered the living room, Yuluo was afraid that he was sick, so he hurriedly touched his forehead, but Bian Cheng grabbed his hand suddenly.
Yuluo didn't dare to move or speak.There were thousands of words in my heart, but I couldn't say them.
"I'm so tired, just let me stay like this for a while, okay?" Bian Cheng said and fell into a deep sleep.
Yuluo sat down on the sofa. He looked at the border city. He had never seen him so close. His face was sharp and angular, his nose was high, and his lips were beautifully colored. Because of the journey, there were blue spots around his mouth. whiskers.
And his hands, with slender fingers, always carry a kind of reassuring warmth, Yu Luo leaned his face on their holding hands, and told himself that from now on, he would never let go of these hands.
The next morning, when Biancheng woke up from his dream, he saw Yuluo leaning against him and falling asleep.This scene is like a dream he has had countless times these days.He couldn't help but think of his hesitation and hesitation in this room a few days ago when Hsinchu brought up the topic of marriage.
He couldn't bear to refuse Hsinchu's request, and he couldn't let go of Yuluo, but in the end, one side will always win.
"I'm sorry, Hsinchu." After saying this, Biancheng himself choked up.After all, this is someone who has been with me for many years. It would be a lie to say that he has no feelings.Saying such a cruel answer, Bian Cheng's heart seemed to be split open.
Hsinchu's reaction at that time was not as excited as Biancheng expected. She stood up, walked to the window, and closed her eyes, as if she didn't want to see this cruel ending.
"Cheng, you have someone else in your heart, don't you?" She said the unspeakable words for Bian Cheng.
Biancheng's tears flowed down, and he knew that what he said at this moment would only be more cruel.
Hsinchu seems to be enjoying the distant scenery.
"Actually, I have felt it a long time ago. People say that a woman's intuition is the most accurate. How can I not know if a person's heart is still on me? I thought, if I pretend to be stupid, you won't leave But if you don’t love it, you don’t love it anymore, and you can’t pretend it.” Hsinchu’s tone of voice was indifferent but desperate, which made Biancheng’s heart ache.
"For a long time, I thought I knew you very well. You don't like to talk. I thought it was because you were introverted. You never took the initiative. I thought you were not good at expressing. You didn't like to laugh. I thought you were deeply emotional. Over the years, You never quarreled with me, but you never said that you love me. You tolerated me but also bored me. I thought that the two of you had been together for a long time. That’s it. Now it seems that it’s just because I never I never walked into your heart." Hsinchu turned around, leaned on Biancheng's body, and said:
"Forget it, I don't blame you. There is no right or wrong in feelings. It's just, can you promise me one thing?"
She raised her head and looked at the border city full of longing, her eyes were irresistible.What's more, the border town is so guilty now, let alone one thing, I'm afraid it's willing to do a hundred things for her.
"In two days, I will go back to the United States. Before I leave, can you accompany me to the place where we used to study, just like we did before, that way, after I go abroad, I think of being here day, I will feel happy."
How could Biancheng refuse such a small request.Although the woman in Hsinchu has some ego, and sometimes is eager for quick success, she loves herself after all, and everything she does is to stay with her.Now facing her lover's betrayal, she didn't make any noise, which made Biancheng ashamed and ashamed.He decided that in the past few days, he will definitely get along well with Hsinchu and try to give her a less cruel ending.
So in the past few days, Biancheng accompanied Hsinchu back to their university campus, and they walked through every place they had ever walked, including libraries, cafeterias, and tree-lined paths.Everywhere he goes, Hsinchu will recall what they did there, but in the border town, he no longer remembers the specific things that happened, he only remembers Hsinchu wearing a white dress, jumping and running out of a certain building , happy like a dove.Which building did you come from?Biancheng can’t remember clearly, but Biancheng really loved Hsinchu at that time.
Since when, each other has changed, and the other party in that green age can no longer be found.The more he stayed in the border town, the sadder he became. Looking at the students running on the field, he seemed to see himself back then.
"Biancheng, goodbye." Hsinchu grasped the grid on the side of the field with his hands, as if saying to himself, or to a distant memory.
"Goodbye, Hsinchu." Bian Cheng didn't turn his head to look at Hsinchu, but he knew that Hsinchu was gone and walked out of his life forever.They are waving goodbye at this moment, with each other who once loved each other, and with the past that will never go back.
No matter who, when they want to erase this period of time, they will feel heartbroken and haggard.After parting from Hsinchu, he returned to Yuluo City alone, and saw that the valley was still as beautiful as before. He seemed to see a boy and a girl waving goodbye a few years ago, but he didn't know that turning around would be a lifetime.Biancheng suddenly began to understand why his mother could hardly forget Yuluo's father, it was because they never had time to really say goodbye in the future.Maybe I said it, and my heart was relieved.
On the way home, he had regrets about the past and expectations for the future, and when he saw Yuluo, Biancheng said to him in his heart: "Yuluo, thank you for waiting for me."
No.20 Four Sections
Biancheng didn't tell Yuluo about him and Hsinchu, but Yuluo seemed to know about it. After that, life seemed to return to the way it was when Yuluo first moved in. They always walked, exercised and cooked together. Do many, many things together.When Yuluo was painting, Biancheng sat and read a book, and when Yuluo was reading, Biancheng just looked at Yuluo in a daze.
And as the days get hotter and hotter, the thunderstorm season has come.Yuluo always likes to ride a bicycle and run after lightning, running all the way to the wilderness, letting go of the faucet with both hands, and waving it in the rain.And the border city is chasing closely behind.Yuluo chases lightning, and the border city chases Yuluo.For the border town, raindrops are like lightning, so bright and dazzling.
One weekend, the two came to the Heishui Lake on the edge of the city.Lying on the grass by the lake is indescribably cool and comfortable.There was a faint floral fragrance in the air, refreshing.Just lay there until it was dark, and the two of them didn't want to leave.
"It's going to rain," Yuluo said.Sure enough, the border town smelled a smell of mud, which was a message that a storm was coming.A flash of lightning flashed across the sky, followed by deafening thunder.Biancheng got up and stretched out his hands to pick up Yuluo, and the two of them just watched the lightning turn the night into day one after another.
Suddenly, Yuluo shook off Biancheng's hand and swam towards the middle of the lake.Biancheng stood on the shore and shouted: "Yuluo, you madman, come back to me quickly, it's too dangerous." But the sudden thunderclap drowned out his voice.I saw Yuluo swimming vigorously towards the place where the lightning appeared, but he couldn't hear his cry at all.He stomped his feet and jumped into the water, thinking, "Die or die!"
Biancheng was taller and stronger than Yuluo, and soon he caught up with him.He grabbed Yuluo's arm and shouted loudly: "You don't want to die, you are looking for death by going into the water at this time!"
Yuluo looked at him and smiled brightly, "Why is there such a dazzling thing, I really want to grab it and hold it in my hand."
There was a wonderful light in Yuluo's eyes, that light was more dazzling than lightning. At that moment, his feelings fell completely, and he finally understood his heart. The person he kissed was his lightning, his light , he is obsessed with him, crazy for him.
I don't know how long it has passed, but the thunder has become farther and farther away, "Lightning ran far away, are you still chasing it?" Bian Cheng asked with Yu Luo's face in his hands.
"Stop chasing, I've already caught it." Yuluo's eyes were filled with tears. To him, why is the border town not the lightning bolt?Yuluo had waited too long for this moment.When the thunder died away completely, the torrential rain hit the lake like bullets.The two men swam towards the shore, full of passion and strength, as if nothing could stop them. From then on, they no longer had to fear any wind and rain.
Whenever he recalled that night, Bian Cheng felt that he saw the most brilliant light in the world in Yu Luo's eyes, and he never saw it again in his life after that.
The morning sun shone into the floor of the room, and the white window screens were rippling in the breeze, and they were finally no longer alone.
From that day on, Bian Cheng became more and more infatuated with Yuluo. He never thought that he would describe a man with a beautiful heart, but he just thinks that Yuluo is more beautiful than any woman. Now he likes Yuluo more and more. Yuluo stays together, he is willing to do anything for Yuluo, he is willing to do his best to make Yuluo happy.
They are now like a pair of deeply affectionate brothers, but also like a pair of madly in love lovers.They don't want to take a little time to quarrel, and they don't want to be sad about anything.They isolated the outside world from this room, and only hoped to love each other so simply, until the end of the world.
No.20 Five Sections
Summer is gradually passing, and autumn is coming again.During the Mid-Autumn Festival of this year, Biancheng received a call from his father,
"Today is the holiday, and your mother is gone, so you can come back."
Biancheng didn't want to go, he wanted to spend the first Mid-Autumn Festival with Yuluo.But the father said again:
"Biancheng, after all these years, do you still hate your father?"
After hearing this, Biancheng knew that he would go back today no matter what, otherwise the old man didn't know what he would think.Yu Luo beside him also made a gesture to let him agree.
"Dad, then I'll be back tonight."
That day, Fang Yuanyun came to the apartment angrily, and when he entered the door, he yelled at the border town.Bian Cheng and Yu Luo were so frightened that they didn't dare to say a word, they stood aside like a primary school student who had done something wrong.
"Biancheng, how on earth did you take care of Yuluo?" Fang Yuanyun grabbed Yuluo's hand and held him in front of Biancheng. Biancheng saw a red bloodstain on Yuluo's hand, which was a little swollen.
"Do you know that the painter's hands are more important than life, you two, just treat these hands like this for me?" Fang Yuanyun trembled angrily.
"Yuluo, tell me clearly how this happened. If you don't tell the truth, don't come to me in the future." Fang Yuanyun said harsh words, and Yuluo had to say it.
When she heard that Yuluo hurt her hand because of moving construction materials, she stood up abruptly, "From tomorrow onwards, you are not allowed to go to the construction site anymore. Isn't it just a job, tell me earlier."
After saying this, Fang Yuanyun left gracefully, and let Yuluo go to work in her studio the next day.
"You just stay here in peace of mind. When you have customers, greet them. There is no need to deliberately recommend anything. People who understand my paintings will buy them without your introduction. People who don't understand me, you said It's useless. When there are no guests, just concentrate on painting for me, and I have to check every day, do you hear me?" After Fang Yuanyun arranged Yuluo, Biancheng finally let go of a big rock in his heart.The life between him and Yuluo seemed to have returned to calm.
They had more time to spend together, and Yuluo didn't have the hard work of the previous period. On weekends, they always went hiking and playing ball with Biancheng.Every night, the two of them rode their bicycles home from night school together, and on the way home they would buy some food from the roadside stalls.Such a day is simple and happy.
Biancheng always thought, just live quietly with Yuluo.Don't think about when he will leave, and don't think about the relationship between the two.Less luxury, more satisfaction.This way, maybe better.Treat Yuluo as his younger brother, a relative, maybe in this way, they can still be together forever.If one day, the layer of paper between them is pierced, I'm afraid I will be reluctant to let go, I will be unwilling, and it will be easy to lose him.
After thinking about this, Bian Cheng felt that getting along with Yuluo seemed easier. He would often pet Yuluo's head like a spoiled child, and even joke with him, chasing and fighting.But sometimes Biancheng feels that Yuluo seems to have some distance from him. Although the two get along more and more naturally, Yuluo seems to be getting farther and farther away.
When Yuluo first came, although he didn't like to talk, Biancheng could understand what he was thinking from his expression, movement, and even breathing, but now, although he was joking with himself, he couldn't figure it out. to his heart.One weekend, they went to the supermarket together and met a colleague from the hospital.Biancheng introduced to the other party: "This is my younger brother." He saw Yuluo's eyes showing displeasure.
After the people left, Biancheng strangled Yuluo's neck, rubbed Yu's hair as usual, and asked, "What's wrong? Who made my Yuluo unhappy." Yuluo pushed his hand away, He said displeasedly: "Don't tell people that I am your younger brother in the future." After finishing speaking, he strode away, leaving the border city there, not knowing what he said wrong.
Bian Cheng felt very annoyed, he couldn't see Yu Luo's heart clearly, he didn't know his thoughts, he could only be cautious, for fear that a certain action of his would push Yu Luo away from his side.He was used to seeing figures waving his hands on the balcony every day when he came home, he was used to Yuluo leaning on his lap while reading a book, he was used to falling asleep listening to Yuluo's breathing every day.
He didn't dare to think about what would happen to him if Yuluo left him one day.
One day, when they were looking at the sunset glow in the sky together, Bian Cheng said:
"Yuluo, I often feel that if my mother and your father hadn't broken up, maybe there would only be one of us left. It's like we were divided into two halves, wandering in different parts of the world. Now, we are finally complete. If one day, you ignore me, my life will only be half." After saying that, Bian Cheng found a tear streaming from his eye, and the tear reflected the sunset , glowing red.
In fact, Yuluo is not the same.The moment this man picked him up from the cold floor, Yuluo couldn't leave him anymore.He loves his kindness, loves his affection for his mother, loves his love for himself, if there is no border town, Yuluo will never know what the true love in the world is.If I hadn't met him, what would I be like today?Perhaps he has already embarked on the same path as his father.He has gratitude, attachment, and other emotions to Border Town, but he can't express them.
He knew that Biancheng liked him, and Yuluo could feel it from every look he looked at him.But he knew better that Biancheng would never take that step.He is different from himself.He has nothing, so he is not afraid of losing, but the border town has too much, and he cannot afford to lose.Yuluo couldn't bear to let the border town suffer the harm he shouldn't have to bear because of himself.
They are destined to have no ending.
Therefore, it is the best choice for them to accompany each other in each other's lives like a relative.
Page 21
One weekend in July, it was maddeningly hot.Biancheng and Yuluo came back from swimming in the lake outside the city, and as soon as they stepped through the door, they felt the breath of another person.There was the sound of ping-ping-pong-pong cooking in the kitchen.
Bian Cheng came to the kitchen door and said, "Don't tell me when you come back, so I can pick you up."
Yuluo greeted Hsinchu, gestured to Biancheng, and returned to her room.
"Help me set the table and chopsticks, the food will be ready soon."
"We have eaten outside." Bian Cheng said a little apologetically.
When Hsinchu heard this, the movements of his hands stopped slightly, but they quickly returned to normal.
"It's okay, just sit and watch me finish eating." Hsinchu put the vegetables into a bowl, asked Biancheng to add another bowl of rice for himself, and began to eat.
Bian Cheng wanted to find something to say to her, but didn't know where to start.
"Border Town," Yu Luo came over at some point, carrying a black schoolbag, "The studio has to catch some paintings these days, so I have to stay for a few days."
After saying this, he exchanged some polite words with Hsinchu, and left in a hurry.
Biancheng knew that Fang Yuanyun's studio was not so busy at all, and he also knew that Yuluo deliberately avoided it, just like he would deliberately avoid it every time he came back from Hsinchu.Every time he watched Yuluo leave alone, Biancheng felt very sad.He didn't dare to think about where the rain would drift in those nights, and what he would be thinking in his heart.
Biancheng looked at Hsinchu on the opposite side of the dining table. I don't know when, Hsinchu and himself are like now, separated by something.They seldom talk on the phone anymore, their words are becoming more and more polite, and the content of the chat is either work or going abroad. It seems that there is nothing else to say except this.The situation like tonight has happened many times. At the beginning, he also tried to have a dinner party with three people, but the dull atmosphere and uneasy emotions made everyone extremely uncomfortable.
Seeing that the relationship between Hsinchu and himself is getting colder and colder, and seeing Yuluo wanting to escape more and more, he suddenly finds that he is constantly hurting the two people who love him the most.Hsinchu and Yuluo, he has to make a choice, and he can only choose one of the two, if he wants to protect one, he has to tear the other bloody, but no matter what he chooses, he will be a sinner .
In fact, maybe Biancheng has no choice at all. Hsinchu has been with him for many years, and the two have always been heading towards marriage. There is no love, but there is also family affection.As for Yuluo, he still doesn't understand what's going on between the two of them.Say love, but you can't take that step, say you don't love, and worry about it, and you can't let go of 1.But it doesn't matter if you can't let it go, feelings are so vulnerable in the face of reality.
"Cheng, let's get married!" While Biancheng was still thinking, Hsinchu dropped a blockbuster.
Bian Cheng was taken aback by these words, he didn't dare to answer the words, and didn't know how to answer them.Hsinchu sensed his silence, and continued: "My father is sick, and he said he doesn't want to be angry with his daughter anymore. I just hope we get married as soon as possible, and then go to the United States to accompany him and enjoy the family happiness. "
When Hsinchu said this, he choked up a little.
Biancheng knows that Hsinchu has always been strong, and she must be really sad for her performance today.He really wanted to comfort her, but he still didn't know what to say.
"Dad called that day, and I felt very uncomfortable. Over the years, he always asked me to go to the United States to accompany him, but I..." Hsinchu cried out, "It's all right now, Dad said that as long as we get married, he will I will apply for you to go abroad immediately. Biancheng, we have finally waited until this day."
Biancheng felt very guilty.Yes, I have known Hsinchu for so many years, if it was not for me, she would have gone to the United States long ago.Now, her request for marriage is not excessive at all.This was what the two had always planned.
Biancheng wanted to agree, but when the words came to his lips, he just couldn't say them.
When he thought that he was going to the United States soon, when he thought about leaving this city far away, when he thought about never seeing Yuluo again, when he thought about Yuluo wandering in this city alone, he couldn't say anything.
A few months ago, he was still planning to go abroad with Hsinchu, but now that he really has to leave, he is reluctant to give up.How can people's hearts change so quickly.At this moment, no amount of reason or rationality can keep the hearts of people who are drifting away.What kind of relationship for many years, what the other party has paid, if you love each other, you will cherish it, but once you stop loving, it is nothing.
People are selfish after all, reason can never overcome emotion, he has to admit that he no longer loves Hsinchu, from the moment he would rather bear her than leave this city, he knew that he and Hsinchu have long been strangers .
No.20 Section Two
At this time, Yuluo was riding alone on the street at night. The neon lights were flickering, illuminating the whole city like daytime. There was no wind in the air, and it was so hot that it was hard to breathe.Yuluo felt a tightness in his chest, as if he was about to vomit.He speeded up and rode the bicycle fast, finally bringing a little coolness.As Yuluo escaped from the brightly lit city, the wind gradually picked up. A thunderous thunder resounded through the night sky, and Yuluo rushed forward like crazy.The thunder followed, and all the boredom and depression just now seemed to have been left behind by him.He pedaled faster and faster, one picture after another flashed in his mind.When he came to the end of a small road, he jumped off his bicycle and saw lightning bolts piercing the sky one after another, as if trying to tear apart the night.
He stopped and stretched his hand into the air, only to find that the lightning was so far away, so far away that he couldn't reach it. He has always been so obsessed with that lightning, but he could never catch it.Just like Bian Cheng, he is obsessed with him, but he will never be able to get him.Now Yuluo's heart is more helpless than sad.
"Why, abandoned by that little boy?" A voice came from behind.
Yuluo picked up the bicycle and wanted to leave, but Ye Yang grabbed his arm.
"Let go," Yuluo said coldly.
Seeing that Ye Yang didn't let go of himself, Yuluo turned around and punched Ye Yang. He was already feeling uncomfortable, but this guy came to provoke him at this time, and Yuluo couldn't care less about the consequences. Passing Ye Yang's collar, he raised his fist again.Ye Yang didn't dodge at all, he just stood there, as if he was ready to be beaten by Yuluo.
His appearance made Yu Luo's fist unable to move down.
"Why, reluctant to do it?" Ye Yang said provocatively.
Yuluo pushed him away, picked up the bicycle, and walked back.
Ye Yang followed behind him, watching the wind getting stronger and stronger, making Yu Luo's figure sway in the dark night.He was so pissed and funny.What's so angry is that this kid doesn't give him any face at all, what's funny is that he is not angry at all after being beaten.
"Hey, it's thundering, you're pushing the bicycle, you're not afraid of being struck by lightning." He yelled at Yuluo.
Yuluo ignored him at all and continued walking forward.
"I told you a long time ago that you are not the same kind of person as he is. Why, you were kicked out so quickly." Ye Yang really poked Yu Luo's heart with every sentence.
Yuluo turned around and gave him a hard look, Ye Yang was not only not angry, but also laughed out loud.
"I just like the way you glared at me. When you glared at me for the first time, I was thinking, this boy's eyes can be so charming by staring. Now that you don't stare at me for a few days, I feel uncomfortable. "
"I'm sick." Yuluo really thought so.
"I also think I'm sick. If I'm not sick, why would I be so fascinated by you young boy? I was supposed to hug left and right in the clubhouse, but now I'm fine. I'm here with you. I don't know when It was struck by lightning."
"Chop you to death."
Ye Yang rushed to the front of Yuluo, stopped Yuluo's bicycle, "Follow me back to Yulong Bay."
Yuluo shook off him, "I said I wouldn't go there. Can you stop following me, we are not the same way."
Ye Yang got a little angry when he heard this, "We are not on the same side, so who are you on the same side with? They dumped you halfway, and you are still sticking up."
"Whether I post or not has nothing to do with you."
Ye Yang didn't want to talk nonsense with Yuluo anymore, he took Yuluo's arm, and said to Yuluo very seriously: "I told you the other day, I won't stop you if you want moths to catch fire, but you really Are you going to burn yourself to death?"
Yuluo didn't shake him off, and he also said to Ye Yang seriously: "I'm willing to burn to death."
"You must be sick." Ye Yang really had the urge to beat him to death. "You have no results with him. You'll understand after I tell you a few times. If you like men, I'll let you pick all the men in the clubhouse. It doesn't matter what you want. Is it okay?"
"Who told you that I like men?" Yu Luo looked at Ye Yang even harder.
"You don't like men, so what are you doing now, come here to pose."
"Then what are you doing here, you like men?"
"Yes, I like it." Ye Yang replied without any shyness.
Yuluo didn't expect him to be so honest, "I don't like it. So stop pestering me."
"If you don't like men, you still don't like me." Ye Yang asked very straightforwardly.
Yuluo sneered and said, "I don't like men, and I don't like you. Do you want me to be more clear?"
Ye Yang gestured to listen attentively.
"Because you are a man, I don't like men; if you are a woman, I also hate women. In short, I hate you very, very much."
"You mean, because that doctor is a man, you're starting to like men now." Ye Yang wouldn't just let him go.
Yuluo also knew that if he didn't stop talking, he didn't know how much saliva he would waste with this person in the future.
"You're right. I like him whether he's a man or a woman. I don't like a man, but him. I'm not interested in anyone except him. Are you satisfied with this answer?"
"What about him, is he the same as you?" Ye Yang immediately hit Yuluo's heart.Yes, what about him, will he be the same as himself?Yuluo didn't dare to answer Ye Yang, because he didn't have an answer himself.Yuluo could feel the heart of the border town, but he would never be able to grasp it.His love is too deep and restrained, he has too many scruples and entanglements, maybe Ye Yang is right, Biancheng and himself are destined not to be the same kind of people.No matter how hard I try, the border town will always be the elusive lightning in the sky.
But it is impossible for the human heart to turn on and off at will. Even though I know that the lightning is far away and dangerous, I am obsessed with it and want to chase it. Even if I can only watch it from a distance, I am very satisfied.Just love, so what if you just love without desire or demand.When one day I can no longer love, my heart will let go.Yuluo didn't answer Ye Yang's words, and couldn't tell him what he was thinking just now.The thunder was getting closer and closer, and Yuluo knew that the rainstorm was coming.
"Hurry up and get in the car, it's going to rain." After Yu Luo finished speaking, he got on the car and flew away.
"Boy, we haven't finished talking yet." Ye Yang shouted at Yuluo's back.
"You bastard, it's really a headache." Ye Yang got into the car and watched the bullet-like raindrops fall on the car window, "Boy, do you have to let yourself be covered in injuries before you turn back? Well, you are not afraid of death, I will accompany you. When you are full of scars one day, I will help you heal, who made me like you so much." Ye Yang thought.
When Ye Yang's car passed by Yu Luo's side, the rain fell from the sky like a flood that opened the gates. He looked at that stubborn figure and remembered that he had the same stubborn look when he first saw him.
In the stick, Yuluo tightly protected the soldier in his arms, without begging for mercy.He was seriously injured, but he still couldn't hide the disdain for himself in his eyes. He would rather work on the construction site than set foot in the past life. How could a boy born like this have such aloofness.
From that day on, he has been paying attention to everything about this kid, and he wants to conquer him.Want to get rid of the arrogance in his eyes, want him to surrender to himself.But today, he himself can hardly figure out which of the two of them conquered the other.
No.20 Three Sections
Since the day he came back from Hsinchu, Yuluo has been living in the studio, and he has never received a call from Biancheng again. This has never happened before.No matter how long Hsinchu came back, Biancheng would always contact Yuluo, what went wrong this time, and why Biancheng deliberately avoided him.The more Yuluo thought about it, the more frightened she became.He can only keep drawing, not daring to stop his thinking for a second.
As long as he stopped for a moment, countless thoughts would pop up in his mind. He was too scared, afraid of some unbearable result, and even more afraid of the process of waiting for the result.
After holding on for a week, he couldn't take it anymore.He practiced repeatedly in his mind how he would respond and behave in various situations.If Biancheng wanted to get married, he would pretend to be a happy blessing. If Biancheng wanted him to move out, he would move out obediently. Whatever the outcome would be, just don’t just leave him alone without saying a word like he is now. He never had anything to do with the same thing again.
When Yuluo returned to the apartment, he didn't dare to open the door by himself, so he politely rang the doorbell.There was no sound at all in the room.
"Could it be that there is no one at home? Or, have they left? Where will they go when they leave? "
Thinking of this, Yuluo took out the key with trembling hands, and the moment he opened the door, his heart sank to the bottom of the valley.The room was pitch black, the curtains were tightly closed, and more importantly, there was no breath of human life in the room.
Yuluo searched in every room, and the more she searched, the more desperate she became.
Biancheng is gone, he really is gone.Without saying a word to himself, he just walked away quietly.
Yuluo sat slumped on the ground, he had no time to be sad, all his emotions were now occupied by surprise and doubt.How is it possible, how can Biancheng abandon himself so resolutely.Didn't he say that life would not be complete without himself?Didn't he say that he would accompany him to pursue his dreams?These words seemed to be in his ears, how could he just leave like this?
Yu Luo sat in the empty room, he didn't believe it, he didn't dare or he didn't want to believe it.He remembered the first time he and Biancheng went to Yuluocheng, when he fell on the edge of a cliff, it was Biancheng, carrying him, his back was so warm; when he was sleeping in the dark basement, it was Biancheng, sitting by the bed Accompanying him, his eyes were so affectionate; when I was injured and returned home, it was a border town, and I hugged him tightly, his embrace was so hot.
"No, he won't leave." Yuluo thought firmly, "He will definitely come back, definitely, definitely will."
Yuluo did not allow himself to doubt, let alone despair. He stood up, opened the thick curtains, lowered the white screens, and opened the small door leading to the terrace. own textbooks.It may have been wet by the rain and dried by the sun, making it look wrinkled.
Yuluo sat down, opened the book that she hadn't finished reading,
"Biancheng, we haven't finished reading the book yet, you must come back."
Seeing that the words on the book were gradually blurred, Yuluo shook his head and pulled himself together. He believed that when the book was finished, Biancheng would come back.
Yuluo just waited hopefully, he read the book quickly, but seeing the back of the book getting thinner and fewer people in the garden, his heart became more and more anxious.The street lights came on, making the path even more lonely.Yuluo hastily turned on the lights in the house, he was afraid that he would not be able to see himself when he came back from Border Town.
"Continue to read the book, and he will come back when he finishes." Yuluo sat down and muttered to himself like a hysterical patient.
Just like that, after an unknown amount of time, the street lamp in the garden cast out a long shadow. Yu Luo saw that shadow getting closer and closer, and a person walked slowly from the path.When the figure came downstairs, he raised his head and saw Yuluo sitting on the bright terrace, he waved his arms hastily.Yuluo threw down the book, leaned on the balcony railing, and waved his hands vigorously. At this moment, his heart finally returned to calm.
Yuluo opened the door of the house, came to the elevator door, and watched the number change little by little until the number thirteen lit up. With a ding, the figure finally came in front of Yuluo.
Yuluo took the travel bag in Biancheng's hand, and he found that Biancheng seemed to be thinner and haggard.He didn't know where the border town had been these past few days, and he didn't dare to ask.
He thought to himself: "As long as you come back, everything is not important as long as you come back."
Bian Cheng didn't seem to want to say anything, he was very tired, and fell on the sofa as soon as he entered the living room, Yuluo was afraid that he was sick, so he hurriedly touched his forehead, but Bian Cheng grabbed his hand suddenly.
Yuluo didn't dare to move or speak.There were thousands of words in my heart, but I couldn't say them.
"I'm so tired, just let me stay like this for a while, okay?" Bian Cheng said and fell into a deep sleep.
Yuluo sat down on the sofa. He looked at the border city. He had never seen him so close. His face was sharp and angular, his nose was high, and his lips were beautifully colored. Because of the journey, there were blue spots around his mouth. whiskers.
And his hands, with slender fingers, always carry a kind of reassuring warmth, Yu Luo leaned his face on their holding hands, and told himself that from now on, he would never let go of these hands.
The next morning, when Biancheng woke up from his dream, he saw Yuluo leaning against him and falling asleep.This scene is like a dream he has had countless times these days.He couldn't help but think of his hesitation and hesitation in this room a few days ago when Hsinchu brought up the topic of marriage.
He couldn't bear to refuse Hsinchu's request, and he couldn't let go of Yuluo, but in the end, one side will always win.
"I'm sorry, Hsinchu." After saying this, Biancheng himself choked up.After all, this is someone who has been with me for many years. It would be a lie to say that he has no feelings.Saying such a cruel answer, Bian Cheng's heart seemed to be split open.
Hsinchu's reaction at that time was not as excited as Biancheng expected. She stood up, walked to the window, and closed her eyes, as if she didn't want to see this cruel ending.
"Cheng, you have someone else in your heart, don't you?" She said the unspeakable words for Bian Cheng.
Biancheng's tears flowed down, and he knew that what he said at this moment would only be more cruel.
Hsinchu seems to be enjoying the distant scenery.
"Actually, I have felt it a long time ago. People say that a woman's intuition is the most accurate. How can I not know if a person's heart is still on me? I thought, if I pretend to be stupid, you won't leave But if you don’t love it, you don’t love it anymore, and you can’t pretend it.” Hsinchu’s tone of voice was indifferent but desperate, which made Biancheng’s heart ache.
"For a long time, I thought I knew you very well. You don't like to talk. I thought it was because you were introverted. You never took the initiative. I thought you were not good at expressing. You didn't like to laugh. I thought you were deeply emotional. Over the years, You never quarreled with me, but you never said that you love me. You tolerated me but also bored me. I thought that the two of you had been together for a long time. That’s it. Now it seems that it’s just because I never I never walked into your heart." Hsinchu turned around, leaned on Biancheng's body, and said:
"Forget it, I don't blame you. There is no right or wrong in feelings. It's just, can you promise me one thing?"
She raised her head and looked at the border city full of longing, her eyes were irresistible.What's more, the border town is so guilty now, let alone one thing, I'm afraid it's willing to do a hundred things for her.
"In two days, I will go back to the United States. Before I leave, can you accompany me to the place where we used to study, just like we did before, that way, after I go abroad, I think of being here day, I will feel happy."
How could Biancheng refuse such a small request.Although the woman in Hsinchu has some ego, and sometimes is eager for quick success, she loves herself after all, and everything she does is to stay with her.Now facing her lover's betrayal, she didn't make any noise, which made Biancheng ashamed and ashamed.He decided that in the past few days, he will definitely get along well with Hsinchu and try to give her a less cruel ending.
So in the past few days, Biancheng accompanied Hsinchu back to their university campus, and they walked through every place they had ever walked, including libraries, cafeterias, and tree-lined paths.Everywhere he goes, Hsinchu will recall what they did there, but in the border town, he no longer remembers the specific things that happened, he only remembers Hsinchu wearing a white dress, jumping and running out of a certain building , happy like a dove.Which building did you come from?Biancheng can’t remember clearly, but Biancheng really loved Hsinchu at that time.
Since when, each other has changed, and the other party in that green age can no longer be found.The more he stayed in the border town, the sadder he became. Looking at the students running on the field, he seemed to see himself back then.
"Biancheng, goodbye." Hsinchu grasped the grid on the side of the field with his hands, as if saying to himself, or to a distant memory.
"Goodbye, Hsinchu." Bian Cheng didn't turn his head to look at Hsinchu, but he knew that Hsinchu was gone and walked out of his life forever.They are waving goodbye at this moment, with each other who once loved each other, and with the past that will never go back.
No matter who, when they want to erase this period of time, they will feel heartbroken and haggard.After parting from Hsinchu, he returned to Yuluo City alone, and saw that the valley was still as beautiful as before. He seemed to see a boy and a girl waving goodbye a few years ago, but he didn't know that turning around would be a lifetime.Biancheng suddenly began to understand why his mother could hardly forget Yuluo's father, it was because they never had time to really say goodbye in the future.Maybe I said it, and my heart was relieved.
On the way home, he had regrets about the past and expectations for the future, and when he saw Yuluo, Biancheng said to him in his heart: "Yuluo, thank you for waiting for me."
No.20 Four Sections
Biancheng didn't tell Yuluo about him and Hsinchu, but Yuluo seemed to know about it. After that, life seemed to return to the way it was when Yuluo first moved in. They always walked, exercised and cooked together. Do many, many things together.When Yuluo was painting, Biancheng sat and read a book, and when Yuluo was reading, Biancheng just looked at Yuluo in a daze.
And as the days get hotter and hotter, the thunderstorm season has come.Yuluo always likes to ride a bicycle and run after lightning, running all the way to the wilderness, letting go of the faucet with both hands, and waving it in the rain.And the border city is chasing closely behind.Yuluo chases lightning, and the border city chases Yuluo.For the border town, raindrops are like lightning, so bright and dazzling.
One weekend, the two came to the Heishui Lake on the edge of the city.Lying on the grass by the lake is indescribably cool and comfortable.There was a faint floral fragrance in the air, refreshing.Just lay there until it was dark, and the two of them didn't want to leave.
"It's going to rain," Yuluo said.Sure enough, the border town smelled a smell of mud, which was a message that a storm was coming.A flash of lightning flashed across the sky, followed by deafening thunder.Biancheng got up and stretched out his hands to pick up Yuluo, and the two of them just watched the lightning turn the night into day one after another.
Suddenly, Yuluo shook off Biancheng's hand and swam towards the middle of the lake.Biancheng stood on the shore and shouted: "Yuluo, you madman, come back to me quickly, it's too dangerous." But the sudden thunderclap drowned out his voice.I saw Yuluo swimming vigorously towards the place where the lightning appeared, but he couldn't hear his cry at all.He stomped his feet and jumped into the water, thinking, "Die or die!"
Biancheng was taller and stronger than Yuluo, and soon he caught up with him.He grabbed Yuluo's arm and shouted loudly: "You don't want to die, you are looking for death by going into the water at this time!"
Yuluo looked at him and smiled brightly, "Why is there such a dazzling thing, I really want to grab it and hold it in my hand."
There was a wonderful light in Yuluo's eyes, that light was more dazzling than lightning. At that moment, his feelings fell completely, and he finally understood his heart. The person he kissed was his lightning, his light , he is obsessed with him, crazy for him.
I don't know how long it has passed, but the thunder has become farther and farther away, "Lightning ran far away, are you still chasing it?" Bian Cheng asked with Yu Luo's face in his hands.
"Stop chasing, I've already caught it." Yuluo's eyes were filled with tears. To him, why is the border town not the lightning bolt?Yuluo had waited too long for this moment.When the thunder died away completely, the torrential rain hit the lake like bullets.The two men swam towards the shore, full of passion and strength, as if nothing could stop them. From then on, they no longer had to fear any wind and rain.
Whenever he recalled that night, Bian Cheng felt that he saw the most brilliant light in the world in Yu Luo's eyes, and he never saw it again in his life after that.
The morning sun shone into the floor of the room, and the white window screens were rippling in the breeze, and they were finally no longer alone.
From that day on, Bian Cheng became more and more infatuated with Yuluo. He never thought that he would describe a man with a beautiful heart, but he just thinks that Yuluo is more beautiful than any woman. Now he likes Yuluo more and more. Yuluo stays together, he is willing to do anything for Yuluo, he is willing to do his best to make Yuluo happy.
They are now like a pair of deeply affectionate brothers, but also like a pair of madly in love lovers.They don't want to take a little time to quarrel, and they don't want to be sad about anything.They isolated the outside world from this room, and only hoped to love each other so simply, until the end of the world.
No.20 Five Sections
Summer is gradually passing, and autumn is coming again.During the Mid-Autumn Festival of this year, Biancheng received a call from his father,
"Today is the holiday, and your mother is gone, so you can come back."
Biancheng didn't want to go, he wanted to spend the first Mid-Autumn Festival with Yuluo.But the father said again:
"Biancheng, after all these years, do you still hate your father?"
After hearing this, Biancheng knew that he would go back today no matter what, otherwise the old man didn't know what he would think.Yu Luo beside him also made a gesture to let him agree.
"Dad, then I'll be back tonight."
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