[Hehai] Memories are a city

23. You don't say + I don't say = we all know?

When Li Donghai woke up, his eyes were blurred and he couldn't see clearly, the weight on his lips was filled with familiar warmth and wetness, and something trembled and touched his cheek, the feathery touch, with inexplicable commotion.My mind was chaotic, and it was too late to grasp the meaning, when Li Hyuk-jae's voice rang in my ears.

Gently warm familiar voice.With an unknowable concealment and dullness.

"He Jae?" Sleeping softly, Li Donghai stretched out his hand from under the quilt and handed it to Li Hyuk Jae weakly, motioning for the other party to pull him up.

"Are you awake?" With a smile, Lee Hyuk-jae held Lee Dong-hae's hand slightly, watched him sit up, and then lay down in his arms without any surprises, "Wake up and get up, parents are already preparing things, You can go out when you get up." Subconsciously running down the sleepy hair in his arms, the voices of their respective parents talking could be faintly heard outside the door.

"Ah? Where are you going?" Li Donghae, who had regained consciousness a little, noticed that Li Hyukjae was fully dressed and looked like he was about to go out.

"Hehehe, did I have a fever last weekend or did you have a fever! Didn't my mother say that I would go on an outing this weekend?" Donghai tugged at Donghai's ears in a funny way, Li Donghai who just woke up~

"Oh, I forgot~" Still limp, sat up straight for a while as if remembering something, "Ah! Then why didn't you call me earlier! Get out! I want to change clothes!" said in a hurry Get up out of bed and go to the bathroom.

That's how you wake up.Seeing Li Donghae's movements, Li Hyukjae got up and walked towards the door.

"Hejae!" Li Donghai poked his head out of the bathroom holding a toothbrush.

"Huh?" Lee Hyuk-jae was about to leave the room.

"Hezai, you just..." hesitating

"What?" Is it a genuine question or pretending to be stupid?

"Forget it, nothing."

"Ah? Donghai..."

Or don't say anything, don't know anything, okay?

The person in the mirror in front of him, with slightly red and swollen lips, deeply confused eyes, and the delicate struggle in the bottom of the eyes—who is it?

You don't say + I don't say = we all act as if we don't know = we all know?

"Didn't sleep well yesterday?" Lee Hyuk-jae looked at Lee Dong-hae, who had been pecking rice countless times not long after getting in the car, and finally just used his leg as a pillow to sit on the seat and started to catch up on sleep. He took the coat cover from one side Well, I patted him on the back.

"No, it's just that I went to bed late. Our teacher assigned a small paper on Friday to be handed in on Monday. I thought about it last night and finished it. I didn't expect to go out today!" complained faintly, but also I don't know if it's the teacher's essay, today's outing, or my own forgetfulness.He stretched his arms around Li Hyuk-jae's waist, buried his face in his arms, and breathed steadily.No matter what, the taste of Lee Hyuk Jae can make him feel at ease.

"Then let's sleep for a while, so that you will feel better. The weather is fine today, and you still want to sleep when you get to your destination, but it's too wasteful~"

"En." Responding vaguely, the hair sticking to the face was itchy, but he was too lazy to reach out to pluck it, frowning slightly, and was gently caressed away in the next second, warm fingers lightly touched the cheek , dizzy with warmth, and then gently attached the soft earlobe, entangled...

"What's wrong with Donghae? Are you uncomfortable?" Mother Hyejae in the front seat turned her head and was slightly worried when she saw Donghae lying down.

"It's okay, Donghae didn't sleep well last night." Smiling and shaking his head, he lowered his voice to answer his mother's question, pointed to the stereo to remind his mother to turn it down, Li Hyukjae looked down at Li Donghae sleeping peacefully and raised the corners of his mouth.It is an unconscious tenderness.

"He Zai, you—" He Zai's mother subconsciously spoke while looking at her son in a daze.Seeing his son raised his head to look at him, he suddenly didn't know what to say, so he could only shake his head lightly, turned back and sat down.After hesitating for a while, he gently pushed Hezai's father who was driving beside him, and lowered his voice, "My husband..."

"what"

"..."

——I just feel like something has changed. . . . . .

"Mom, I'll get it!" Le Diandian leaned over to Li Donghai who was carrying things beside He Jae's mother.

"Hehe, Donghae woke up?" Blinking at Donghae, Hyejae's mother teased with a smile.

"Ah! I slept a little late yesterday." She smiled a little embarrassedly, and reached out to take the picnic box from Hezai's mother.

"What were you doing yesterday? Your dad and I reminded you to go to bed early." Donghai's mother just got off her car.

"Donghae is writing a paper assigned by the teacher, which is due on Monday. Auntie, do you want to take this out?" Lee Hyuk-jae went to the front to put down his things and then turned back.

"Ah, yes, will it be too heavy? Let your uncle take it! Is Donghai's thesis finished?"

"Of course it's finished~ Mom, I'll put the things over there first!"

"Donghai, if it's too heavy, I'll do it!"

"It's not heavy, just hold what's in your hand!"

……

"Hehe, it's so fast, these two little guys are so big!" Donghai's mother looked at the backs of the two and chuckled.

"Yeah, I only see the children growing up, but I forget that we are getting old~ But watching them grow up is really a very happy thing!"

"En! Let's go up and help, I really don't know what will happen if I let these two brats toss!" Said Donghai's mother and walked forward towards the two.

"What's wrong, standing here alone?" It was Hyejae's father.

"It's nothing, I just suddenly feel that Hye Jae has grown up~"

"My son has gone to college, of course he has grown up. Just wanted to say this in the car?"

"No, it's about the same." The appearance of my son before flashed in my mind, "I always feel like a man suddenly! Such a focused look..." Sighing softly, I always feel that something is wrong, but it is not know what to say.

"Okay, isn't it good that my son has grown up, let's go, everyone is calling us."

"kindness."

—Grow or change, or both?

Light blue picnic mats are spread on the grass, with solid tree trunks behind and dense branches and leaves above the head, and the early autumn sunshine shone down, making it warm little by little.Parents were playing badminton in the open space not far away, and the sound of laughter and conversation drifted along the breeze. Li Hyuk-jae next to him had one earplug plugged into his ear and leaned on his shoulder to take a nap, while the other earplug was of course worn on his shoulder. on his ears.Li Donghae turned his head slightly, only the top of Li Hyukjae's head and a little bit of forehead were in his sight, and then he just became dazed like this.

Last weekend, the two slept until Mother Hye Jae came in and asked them to eat. When they woke up and saw the confusion on each other's faces, they couldn't help laughing.Li Hyuk-jae's fever has almost subsided, and his appetite is also very good. During the meal, the two of them talked and laughed as usual, and it seemed that the previous month had suddenly disappeared without a trace.Lee Donghae is still Lee Donghae, Lee Hyukjae is still Lee Hyukjae, they are still the best friends who have played together since childhood——

But Lee Donghae remembered what Lee Hyukjae said before, he said that the two of them should talk, and Lee Donghae also felt that the two of them needed to talk, but what should they talk about?Why are you talking?What happens after we talk about it?

He was able to answer none of the questions, and he thought Lee Hyuk Jae couldn't either, so the two chose to keep silent.However, not talking about it doesn't mean it doesn't exist, it doesn't mean it doesn't know...

How could he not know how he reached out to touch his lips, but he didn't know how to say it, he just didn't say it.

Not

If you don't tell me, it means we all know

But

You know I know but at the same time choose not to say

But

Why do we make such a choice?

——But why didn't Prince Hyejae and Prince Donghae say anything?

- because they grow up

——Isn’t it possible to say it when you grow up? Why can’t you say it now when you grow up?

——Because, the more you grow, the more you will know more things, and the more you will be afraid, shrink back and be timid!

——"Fear" is actually the first thing we learn when we grow up...

24. About kisses and love

When Lee Donghae woke up one morning, he asked his roommate Choi Siwon a question.

The problem is very simple. It was initially identified as an adapted version of a certain slogan.Li Donghai woke up very early that day, judging from the brightness of the sky, it should not have passed five o'clock.The sound of breathing on the bed next door was steady and regular, and according to common sense, Cui Siyuan was in a deep sleep.

Lee Donghae said, "Siwon, do you know what it's like to kiss?"

The room returned to silence after Donghae closed his mouth, blinked his eyes, and was ready to go back to sleep, but was so frightened by Choi Siwon's voice that he almost fell out of bed.

Choi Siwon's tone was full of probing and doubts, and he deliberately lowered his voice for fear of waking up something. It was actually a question, and Choi Siwon said, "Donghae, are you talking in your sleep?"

Please believe that this sentence is absolutely sincere, without the slightest bit of teasing, Cui Siwon dares to guarantee this with his faith!So Li Donghai closed his mouth, and slept through the morning class in the constant self-hypnosis of "I'm talking in my sleep".

When I woke up at noon, I saw Jin Kibum sitting on the opposite bed with a PSP, and there was an insulated lunch box on the table. I didn't need to guess and knew that it must be for myself.

After staring at the lunch box for a long enough time, Li Donghai slowly sat up from the bed, looked at Jin Jifan on the opposite side and asked, "Why is Kibeum here?"

"Hezai asked me to bring you food." Simple and clear.

But the fact is: Li Hyuk-jae called Lee Dong-hae's cell phone and no one answered, so he called Kim Ki-bum, who happened to be having dinner with Choi Si-won in the cafeteria. After the three discussed it, they preliminarily estimated that Lee Dong-hae probably overslept in the dormitory.Lee Hyuk-jae asked Kim Ki-bum to bring food for Lee Dong-hae. After hearing this, Choi Si-won ran to buy food actively, and then went back to the dormitory with Kim Ki-bum. Xin sat down to PSP by the way, Choi Siwon was just called out by other classmates to have something to do.

"By the way, I forgot to call and tell him, you call yourself." After explaining, Jin Kibum turned off the PSP, lay down on Choi Siwon's bed, and went to take a nap.

Li Donghai searched for a long time before finding the phone in the corner. It was almost noon when the call was connected. Li Hyuk-jae on the other end of the phone was a little panting. He said, Donghae, why haven't you answered the phone?Did you feel uncomfortable after sleeping all morning?have you eaten?Do you want a Coke?Are you in the dormitory now?Finally, Lee Hyuk-jae paused for a moment, and said, "Donghae, open the door."

Almost without hesitation, he ran to open the door.

It was Lee Hyuk-jae, sweating profusely, panting slightly, he felt relieved when he saw Lee Dong-hae and smiled, reached out and stroked Lee Dong-hae's messy hair, and said, Dong-hae, lend me a place to take a bath!

Li Donghae gave Lee Hyukjae his clothes, watched him enter the bathroom, and then held the clothes he took off casually and looked at Jin Kibum in a daze.Jin Kibum seemed to be asleep, with his eyes closed and his chest rising and falling regularly.After silently counting Kim Ki Bum's breathing for nearly 5 minutes, Lee Dong Hae asked a question.

Lee Donghae said, "Kibum, tell me, what is love?"

"This is love!" Jin Kibum said lightly, pointing to the clothes in Li Donghai's hand, suddenly smiled brightly, turned over, and fell asleep again.

Li Donghai was stunned for a while, and then he finally said, "Jifan, are you talking in your sleep?"

Kim Ki-bum didn't answer him.

"Donghae, why are you standing there in a daze, have you eaten yet?" Li Hyuk-jae wiped his hair with a towel, standing close, water droplets splashed onto Li Donghae's body, it was cool, not the temperature of Lee Hyuk-jae.

"Donghae?" Stopping his hands, Li Hyukjae stretched out his hand to caress Li Donghae's forehead, "What's wrong? Is he uncomfortable?" The coolness and moisture in the palm of his hand penetrated into the skin and penetrated deep into the bone marrow.

"I'm going to brush my teeth." She shook her head to show that she was fine, then turned and walked to the bathroom.When he came out after washing, he saw Lee Hyuk Jae chatting with Kim Ki Bum, and when he saw Dong Hae come out, he pulled him to sit at the table.

"Hyuk Jae eat with me!" He wasn't sure if Lee Hyuk Jae came over after eating.

"I've eaten it, Donghae can eat it by himself." Handing the chopsticks to Li Donghae, Li Hyukjae also sat down at the table.

"I'll go back first." Jin Kibum got up from the bed, walked a few steps and then turned around, "Donghae, if there is anything you don't understand, you can ask Hejae." After speaking, he turned and opened the door to leave.

"Hehe, what did you ask Kibum?" Lee Hyuk-jae's eyes sparkled with curiosity.

"Didn't Ki Fan tell you?" He thought the two of them were talking about this just now.

"No, I just talked about some things in school."

"Oh~ Actually, it's nothing, I just asked casually when I thought of it."

"Oh."

However, Kim Ki Bum never thought that if Lee Dong Hae didn't say it, would Lee Hyuk Jae not listen?

But, what can I do if I hear it?

"What does it mean to be in love?" Li Donghai sat in the library and looked at Li Shengmin in a daze.

"Why do you ask this?" Of course, this sentence was not said by Li Sungmin, it was Cho Kyuhyun who came out of nowhere.

"What is Kyuhyun doing here?" Lee Donghae was extremely surprised by Cho Kyuhyun's appearance.

"This should be what I want to ask!" Cho Kyuhyun sighed, "What are you doing in our school's library?"

"I accompanied Hyejae to borrow books. And Sungmin brother and I came from the same school~ Ah! Could it be that Sungmin brother made an appointment with Kyuhyun?" Suddenly realized ING

"Don't talk about that, why did Donghae suddenly ask such a question?" Pulling Cho Kyuhyun who was about to speak, Li Sungmin changed the subject with a smile.

"Ah! It's nothing. I've watched too many movies recently, and I feel a little dizzy." He took it lightly, and a familiar figure appeared in his sight.Li Hyuk-jae nodded and waved to this side with a smile, and then motioned for Li Donghae to go over.

"Brother Sungmin, Kyuhyun, let's go first!" With a slight wave of his hand, Li Donghae nodded at the two of them, and walked towards Lee Hyukjae.

"Kyuhyun, what do you think of the two of them?" Li Sungmin was slightly hesitant.

"It's the mood of being in love..." Cho Kyuhyun absolutely affirmed.

— but definitely not in love.

kiss

and the mood of love

But

How is love?

between us?

Author FT:

memory is a city

Remembering the whole process of growing up