Good day and beautiful scenery

It was the ears that woke up first, and in the dead silence, they heard the incomparably clear beeping sound.Other organs of the body also slowly regained consciousness, and opened their eyes feebly, looking around blankly, seeing cold and pale eyes.

Yes, I can see it, right now I'm in the hospital.I thought I was going to die, but I still came back to life, like the grass and trees that have been burned by the fire, after a long spring rain, they are still struggling to come back to life tenaciously.

But what about Zhou Jingwen, that Zhou Jingwen who used his body to protect me from the disaster, and kept saying "I can't die, I can't die" in my ear with blood on my face?

I closed my eyes, feeling unbearably sad, but there were no tears in my eyes.I know, I know, that Zhou Jingwen, who would act coquettishly and playfully, just to be with me, his life will always be fixed on that rainy day, and he will never come back.

Gathering up some strength, I raised my hand to tear off the oxygen mask on my mouth and nose, and pulled out the needle on the back of my hand.I wanted to get up, but this body, which had been lying down for an unknown amount of time, didn't respond to my commands, and was sweating profusely, which also caused the sharp beeping of the machine next to me.

I turned my head to look, and I was extremely tired of that cold and ruthless machine, but I couldn't do anything about it. The only thing I could do was try to move my hand and tear off the thing that was attached to my chest bit by bit.

See what I've caught, if only I'd been strong enough to wrap it around my neck like a scarf, and with a little effort, I'd end my life of sin and lingering death.

I think this is the greatest wisdom in my life.It's a pity that my idea was too good, but God didn't give me a chance to redeem my sins.It took all my strength to put those colorful wires around my neck, but the door of the ward was knocked open amidst the sound of footsteps swarming in.

"Zhou Jingchen!" Shen Yan exasperated.

"Zhou Jingchen!" Allen said with a worried face.

I looked at them coldly, and felt funny in my heart, I never thought that in this life, I would have the opportunity to meet these two martial arts masters at the same time.I smiled at them, but my hands were even harder.

Shen Yan was the first to pounce on me, pinching my wrist firmly with one hand, and breaking off my fingers one by one with the other hand, as if there was something he cared about.

But I know that I have nothing in my hands, no past, no future, and no love, completely empty, I really don't know why Shen Yan is so desperate.

"Let go, let go quickly Zhou Jingchen, do you hear me telling you to let go!" Shen Yan blushed and turned pale, and shouted at me, not remembering that he had ever been gentle to me.

Seeing that I didn't move, he called Alan again angrily, "Why are you in a daze, hurry up and help, he's going to strangle himself to death, don't you see?"

Shen Yan is too exaggerated, how could I kill myself, I'm so afraid of death, I've been living so resentfully, how could I commit suicide.Such a cowardly me, what face do I have to see Zhou Jingwen.

As I smiled, I thought of a martial arts drama I watched inappropriately. Both the pros and cons were masters, and their strengths were equal. In order to compete for the top, they fought for three hundred rounds without any results. They were not tired. , The audience who watched could not wait to use the remote control to give them a knife.

I'm not that screenwriter, so I'm destined not to be able to write such a bloody plot.It doesn't matter to me how much Shen Yan and Alan played hard, and I am no longer interested in waiting for the final outcome.I closed my eyes, comforted by the dizziness from my breathlessness.

But in the end, my combat value is still too low, Shen Yan alone is fine, plus Alan, they surrounded me and scolded me, and even slapped me when I was in a hurry.It's not really a fight, it's just that the momentum is a little scary.

Shen Yan finally pulled the last thread out of my hand. He let out a heavy sigh and sat down on the bed, staring at me with red eyes, while Alan touched the marks on my neck with his fingers, and said: Just scolded: "Fuck you are playing for real!"

I just fell on the quilt and laughed.I am playing for real, because who said that playing can't come true.

"Chen Lin," Shen Yan said in a bad tone, but he still restrained himself and asked Alan, "Can I ask you to go out for a while?"

"No! What do you want to do?" Allen stared back, "surnamed Shen, don't blame me for not reminding you, he has become like this, and you have nothing to do with it. If you want him to die, you can do it strangle him."

Shen Yan seemed to be stepped on by Alan, and suddenly turned his head to look at Alan. His eyes were vicious. If he was a real martial arts master, he might have thrown out countless hidden weapons.

"I know what I did, I don't need your mother to remind me."

Not to be outdone, Allen stood up, looked down at Shen Yan, and said with a sullen face, "It's best to remember, you scum!"

"Get out!" Shen Yan lowered his head and gnashed his teeth.

I looked at the blue veins on his neck that were bulging because of anger, and felt strange and strange.This person, if so many things hadn't happened, how would I have known that he had so many facets.

"Xiaojing..."

Shen Yan looked at me with a pale face, and shed two tears after watching for a while, he touched my face with his hands, and then my neck, they were too ugly, so he cried so hard.

The acting skills are really good. I thought, thinking about it, my heart became hot, and so did the nose, as if things that should have come out of the eyes, all ran into the throat and nose when I got excited.My vision became more and more blurred, and my consciousness gradually drifted away. Finally, I could be completely quiet again.

I don't know how much time has passed since I fell asleep again.

I had a long dream, but the people and things in the dream were too messy and chaotic, and I didn’t remember anything when I woke up from the dream. I only knew that I was exhausted physically and mentally, and I had to struggle and struggle even to open my eyes.

It's still the same room, still the damn sound of beeping. The difference is that I seem to have no chance to try to save myself, because there are too many pairs of familiar and unfamiliar eyes staring at me with their own thoughts.

I thought it was because I slept for a long time, my mind was confused for a while, and I returned to the wrong body in the dream, so I saw people I shouldn't see.Then he closed his eyes again, and looked again when he was sure that he was really awake, but there was no difference.

Shen Yan, Alan, William, these are fine, but my father and mother are also there. My mother is sitting at the end of the bed with her head down and wiping her tears, while my father is leaning against the wall by the door with a sullen face and closed eyes.

"William..." I turned to him and smiled.In fact, among so many people, the only one I can face calmly is him.

William walked over with red eyes, knelt down beside my bed, and called me, laughing and crying, "Brother Jing..."

I smiled slightly: "Sorry, I didn't tell you before."

William immediately put on a straight face: "So I'm very angry, you know? Brother Jing, Linda and I are getting married next month, you have to get well soon, and then be my best man."

I couldn't help being a little happy: "Congratulations, you are finally getting married."

With red eyes, William said again: "Brother Jing, Linda said that she wants to ask you to be our child's godfather. You won't refuse, will you?"

"Godfather?" I asked with a smile.

In fact, since I was with Zhou Jingwen, I never thought that in my lifetime, there would be such a small soft guy who would lie in my arms and call me daddy.Godfather is naturally different, but I'm afraid I can't even wait for this godfather.

"How long are you going to go on about those crap things?" Allen looked impatient, and walked over and dragged William's collar out, while complaining to me dissatisfiedly, "Zhou Jingchen, how did you know that this guy is talented?"

I couldn't help being happy when the two of them made such a fuss, but I just glanced at Shen Yan's gloomy face, and my heart sank involuntarily, I looked back at my mother.Oh, actually at this moment, I don't really want to call her that.After all, after so many years of acting, I am also tired of it.

"Xiaochen, how are you?" My mother cried nasally.

Her small voice made me dazed for quite a while.I know she is not feeling well, and I am not feeling well either.I looked at my mother, not knowing whether to laugh or cry: "Mom, I dreamed about Zhou Jingwen, and he said he was in pain."

My mother covered her face and cried: "Don't talk about Xiaochen, please don't talk about it... It's all my fault, I'm too selfish, I never considered your feelings..."

When Zhou Jingwen had just left, the atmosphere in my house couldn’t have been worse. My parents would quarrel when they met, and sometimes they would fight. When the quarrel was the worst, my father stayed at school for several days and didn’t come home.

Although they quarreled fiercely, they adopted a different attitude towards me, neither beating nor scolding, nor paying attention, as if in that house, Zhou Jingwen left, and there was no need for me to exist anymore.

I was at home on sick leave, and I had serious physical and psychological problems, and going to school became an impossible task.I think I may be crazy, because I always hear Zhou Jingwen calling me with a smile.

The first time I thought of going to Zhou Jingwen was on his [-]-day death anniversary.My parents had a fight early in the morning.I don't know the reason, I just remember that when I changed my clothes and wanted to go out with them to see Zhou Jingwen, my dad got angry at me for the first time and slapped me without saying anything.

I was beaten dizzy, but what I cared about was whether I could follow Zhou Jingwen. I turned my head and begged my mother, how could she be in the mood to talk to me just after the quarrel, took my things and went downstairs crying.

I stood with the door trembling and watched my mother walk away without looking back. Looking at my father, he took out a lock from nowhere and put it on the iron door.I looked at him numbly, and he crushed the half-smothered eye in his hand, staring at me and said: "This family has been destroyed, you pity us for our old bones, we can't stand you any longer." toss."

"Dad...I..."

"Stay well at home. If you still have a little conscience, go to the study room and kneel. When will he forgive you, and when will you get up again."

My dad locked the lock and left after speaking. I leaned against the door and couldn't breathe for a long time.I know that my dad will never forgive me in this life.

After my father left, I went to Zhou Jingwen's room and knelt down as he asked.In the place where he used to play basketball, he knelt until it was dark in the afternoon.I watched the light outside the window dim a little bit, watched the shadows wrap me up a little bit, and suddenly felt that darkness was the safest thing for me.

My parents haven't come back yet, and I wanted to stand up, but because I had knelt for too long and hadn't had a drop of water in the whole day, when I got up I was so dizzy that I bumped my head against the corner of the chair.

I only fainted for a short while, and when I got up, I ignored the injury on my head, went straight to my room, and rummaged through all the medicines I could find.But those were just cold medicines and antipyretics, and I didn't know what they were, so I tore them apart and swallowed them all with water.

After I finished eating, I still remembered to lock the door, and then I turned back, closed my clothes and lay down on the bed.When my stomach was burning like fire, I bit the quilt and kept silent, feeling a faint sense of pleasure in my heart.

I don't know if it is related to the medicine, but my auditory hallucinations started again.I heard Zhou Jingwen calling me, brother, brother, which made my heart feel sour and sweet, and I was still throbbing with pain.

I thought I could finally go to see Zhou Jingwen, but my luck has never been very good, and it is easy to go wrong at a critical moment in everything I do.Just like this time, I thought everything was safe, but my mother disrupted the plan.

When I woke up in the hospital, I knew that I was wrong again, not because I chose to end myself, but because I didn't grasp the time well.I lay on the bed and looked at my mother quietly.She has cried before, but it is normal. Zhou Jingwen's [-]-day death, it is not surprising that she cried in any way.

I thought my mom would scold me, but she didn't, and never even mentioned the stupid things I did.I stayed in the hospital for four days, and she stayed with me in the hospital for four days, and she didn't even go back to the school for the inspection.

At night I had auditory hallucinations again. In the middle of the night, I heard Zhou Jingwen calling my brother. I woke up from a light sleep, lifted the quilt, got out of bed and walked outside, asking Wenwen to wait for me.

My mother rushed over when I opened the door, dragged me back to the bed, and snapped on the light again.The glare of the light made me unable to open my eyes, I just lowered my head and chattered about Zhou Jingwen in a panic.

My mother asked me what I was doing, and I grabbed her hand and said that Zhou Jingwen was looking for me. My mother was taken aback for a moment, then slapped me on the shoulder with her backhand, and then began to cry: "That heartless person is dead, you And again, you all still tell me whether I will live or not?"

I was overwhelmed by my mother's crying. I wanted to comfort her but couldn't even say a complete sentence. My mother was also confused. She knelt down in front of me with a plop.

She is really kneeling at me, because she has covered her face and begged for my forgiveness.I didn't understand what she meant, I just slid off the bed and knelt with her by instinct.

My mother cried and said: "Xiaochen, forget about your brother, what happened to him is because my mother failed too much, and I didn't educate him well, so I have such feelings for you. "

"Mom, you..."

I wanted to ask her how she knew, but I couldn't ask her. My mother understood it very well and didn't hide it anymore. She cried and said, "When your brother crashed a car, he didn't save some classmates. He quarreled with me. When he ran out in a fit of anger It just happened. That bastard, he actually told me he likes men, he said he loves you, how could I bear it, I beat him like crazy, hit him with everything I got, I wanted to wake him up Well, as a result, as a result..."

"The idea of ​​saving people is all made up by me. I was afraid that your brother would not be able to control his mouth and tell your father, so I came up with this idea. At first your brother refused to agree. I said that I would reconsider, as long as he is good. Get up, and get good grades in the exam. Who knows that he didn't even wait for the college entrance examination."

"Your father wants to save face all his life. If he knows that your brother is such a thing, don't talk about getting angry, he will kill him alive. Your father was very sad after Wen Wen left, but he remembered in his heart that Wen Wen had saved him before. Extraordinary, I still have such a little thought.”

After my mother finished speaking, she also finished crying. She touched her face, raised her head and smiled at me, and said, "Xiaochen, I don't ask you for anything else, but your father and I are just you two children. No matter how unattractive Zhou Jingwen is, he is also your younger brother, and he made a mistake, so I'll make it up to you as a mother. As for the rest, let's forget about it in the future."

My mother is a smart person. She didn't say some things clearly, but she didn't say them instead, and the meaning was more intriguing.

It is also because of my mother's good sense of proportion, I am quite grateful for her tolerance in the matter between Zhou Jingwen and me.So for so many years, I have been silently fulfilling my promise to give Zhou Jingwen's love to my mother together with mine.