Good day and beautiful scenery

Shen Yan's face turned pale and then red, and even the circles of his eyes turned red. He was really angry. As revenge, his hand that was stuck on my arm also tightened.

I secretly broke out in a cold sweat, and I didn't know if the wound had opened again, but I knew where the blood was bleeding.I think my injury is probably not going to heal.

I avoided his eyes, looked at the gray concrete floor next to me, and said, "It doesn't matter if you have it or not. Shen Yan, Lawyer Shen, let's stop here."

"no!"

Shen Yan caressed my face with the other hand, forcing me to turn my head back. I lowered my eyes and didn't look at him, but he suddenly became ruthless. No matter where it was, who was watching, he pulled me into the He hugged me tightly in his arms, patting me on the back and touching my head, he seemed to be in a hurry and lost his demeanor.

I couldn't stand the pain in my hand, and being held in such a hug couldn't move, so I had to say to him: "Shen Yan, let me go first."

"I won't let you go. Xiao Jing, don't say that, you believe me, I still love you, very, very much, Xiao Jing." Shen Yan's face was pressed against mine, and when he spoke, his cheeks moved up and down Move, it makes my face itch and my head hurts.

I had a real headache, and the low-grade fever didn't go away, and it hurt all the bones in my body.I closed my eyes, and while enduring his hug, I wondered if I had some terminal illness, such as love-deficiency disorder, otherwise I wouldn't have secretly prodded and become a little addicted.

I'm not as noble as I thought. Compared with my words, my body's reaction is honestly embarrassing. It's used to the fit of this hug, and even more accustomed to the temperature and smell of his body.

Suddenly I became weak again, until I realized that Shen Yan lowered his head to ask me, I woke up from the momentary trance, and instinctively pushed him away.

How could he still kiss me, with the same mouth he had kissed others!I felt nauseous, I barely pushed him away, and my stomach churns uncontrollably.I held back, but I didn't dare to stay for another second, so I turned around and left with a sigh of relief.

I took advantage of the vacation and slept for a few days, but too many things happened during this time, bad luck, life was not peaceful, and I couldn't even sleep peacefully. I had nightmares one after another, either being killed or being chased. To kill.

I don’t usually believe in evil, but after being ill for a long time, my will has weakened a lot. I think these dreams are not good omens. I searched the Internet and found that there were all kinds of things.He also said that seeing blood is a bad omen, but on the contrary, he also said that good luck is coming. I was depressed and only believed what I wanted to believe.

It's fair to say that the pressure is great.It’s just that these words are too indifferent. I’m stressed not every day or two, and I haven’t always been in dire straits when dreaming every day.

After pondering about it for a few days, an anonymous netizen pointed out the truth in one sentence.He replied with a short sentence under my question, saying that my inner demons are too heavy because of my sins.

The sin is too deep, the sin is too deep, I stared at these words for a long time, and at first I blushed, as if I had been slapped in public, I was ashamed and ashamed.But looking at it, I was really fascinated, and my heart sank slowly, sinking.

I think that person is right, I just have too much sin.

We have a well-known temple here. There are many eminent monks who have attained enlightenment, and overseas monks often come to exchange Buddhism. On the first and fifteenth day of the Lunar New Year, a master gave a lecture, and the number of believers increased.

I decided to worship the Bodhisattva, atone for my sins, and pray for my innocence.

The day I went was Friday, and the weather was fine, sunny and breezy.Even though the temperature was not high in the morning, I was afraid of the cold, so I still wrapped up a few more layers when I went out.

I don't drive, and the distance from home is not close, so I had to take the bus and subway a few times.At the foot of the mountain, I bought tickets to enter the mountain, and walked all the way up, but there were not many people.However, most of the people who came here on weekdays were devout men and women who prayed to the Buddha. Some of them knelt down three times and kowtowed nine times from the moment they entered the park. Looking at them from a distance, they seemed to be more devout in their hearts.

After walking for a while, I realized that I was indeed wearing a little too much clothes. I walked slowly and slowly, and when I reached the middle of the mountain, my back was still sticky with a layer of sweat.

Stopped on the side of the road to recover for a while and then continued to go up.But right now, he was so tired that he didn't walk very far, his heart beat faster, his feet were as soft as noodles, and he couldn't even step on them.

I just thought that I hadn't exercised for too long, and I was ill for almost a month, no matter how strong my will was, it was worn out.This panting and dizziness, I can't help but think sadly that it's almost the end of autumn.

Barely unable to walk anymore, I had to find a stone by the side of the road to sit down and rest.

The environment here is really good, the trees form a forest, the early winter sun passes through the bare branches, and scattered lazily on people's bodies, which makes the worshipers over there more enthusiastic, and the people next to them are also full of flowers and trees Either way, the quieter it is.

I looked up at the sky for a while, and the sun dazzled my eyes, and my nose felt sore, accompanied by a slight heat, and within a second, something came out. I thought it was a cold and runny nose, so I wiped it with my fingers. But when he found out that it was blood, his already dizzy head suddenly became dizzy again.

I was secretly discouraged in my heart, I was so unlucky that I was really not surprised.While looking for something to wipe the blood all over his body, fortunately, he got half a pack of tissue paper, wet it with water and patted it on the back of his neck, pinching his nose to rest.In the end, the blood naturally stopped, but the clothes and pants on his body were made a bit ugly.

Forget about the trousers, the color is too dark to be seen, and the coat is a bit horrible, with a lot of stains on it, and it is on the chest, so I can't hide it, so I can only take it off and hold it in my hand.

I also want to not just throw it away, because things that are all dirty will be ruined after washing and brushing.Besides, since it was given by Shen Yan, why bother to slap myself in the face for nothing.

I thought and thought about it disgustingly, but in the end I couldn't bear it.

It's been an hour since we reached the top of the mountain.

It is true that there are not many people at the bottom of the mountain, but I did not expect that when I reached the top of the mountain, it would be a completely different scene. It is said that there are almost as many people as a sea of ​​people. There are kneeling figures everywhere, all of them looking at their eyes, their noses, their noses, their noses and their hearts, with solemn and solemn expressions, and muttering words in their mouths. , as if he no longer cares about the people and scenes around him.

It's a little relaxed for no reason. It turns out that I don't need to ask the Bodhisattva. Isn't it just what people often say, probably everyone has something they can't get and can't let go, and they have become demons over the years.

I bought a few sticks of incense outside the temple, and was dragged by a female vendor who claimed to be a lay disciple to look at the longevity turtle for a while. I bought one without much hesitation, because the person told me that the Bodhisattva and the Lord of Buddha save all living beings, and the tortoise can also be released. It is to free oneself from sin.

I followed the people into the gate of the temple, and was surrounded by the surging crowd. I worshiped from one Buddha statue to another. I really had no distractions, so that I didn't find Uncle Li who was also caught in the crowd.

It was he who saw me first, but he didn't rush to call me, but waited at the exit of the temple.I thought it was such a coincidence that I didn't dare to say hello at the first time when I saw it from a distance, and I dared to confirm it when I got closer.

I greeted him with a smile. He took off his sunglasses and held them in his hands. He leaned against the fence in a relaxed posture, nodded to me, and said with a smile, "I didn't expect you to believe in Buddhism at such a young age."

I looked around, but I didn't see Uncle Yun.It's also because of me. During this period of time, my life has been upside down. I don't even go out when I don't go to work. Naturally, I don't know how Uncle Yun is.I remember he was a Buddhist.

"Where's Uncle Yun?" I asked.

"I didn't come at home." Uncle Li said as he put up his glasses again, motioning for me to go outside.

"Uncle Yun, are you okay?

Uncle Li didn't answer immediately, and said after a while: "It's not very good."

I was stunned, although I wasn't surprised, but my heart ached after hearing it with my own ears.In fact, I also know that if Uncle Yun was fine, Uncle Li wouldn't be here either.

"His temper." When Li Shu said this, he paused again, his tone sounded very helpless, and then said, "Headache, it's an old problem, and sometimes it hurts so badly that you don't look like a human being, and you won't show it to me." , I shut myself in the room. I can only watch, and I can't help anything."

It's not hard for me to imagine these things. Uncle Yun had already said that in the hospital last time.Just thinking about how good the relationship between these two is, it really doesn't feel good for Uncle Li to watch Uncle Yun suffer outside.

"Uncle Li..."

"Xiao Jing," he walked in front of me, turned around and asked me under the steps, "Do you believe in karma?"

I thought about it and couldn't help but smile bitterly. I probably still believe it.

Uncle Li didn't wait for my answer, turned his head, and said to himself: "If there is really retribution, why is it not on me?"

Uncle Li loves Uncle Yun, so he naturally hopes to bear all the hardships by himself, and Uncle Yun just thinks the same as him, not only is it impossible for him to bear it, but even his own pain must be hidden.

Silently followed Uncle Li, looking at his still tall and straight back, but his heart ached from the frost on his temples.He is not young after all, he thought he was at first, but he is old in a blink of an eye.

It is not said that time is ruthless and people have love, but when people are too affectionate, the years do not seem to be more affectionate. People still want to grow old, love is parted, and you can't ask for it. Getting old is just a matter of a moment.

"Find a place to sit with me?" Uncle Li said suddenly.

"Okay." I have no other ideas but to promise.

Uncle Li turned his head and smiled at me: "Su Yun and I have lost contact with those people since we came here. We don't have many friends, and you are one of them."