love you hate for a long time

Mo Chenmo's current life is to eat and sleep, eat and sleep, and then chemotherapy, and rest. Shi Ran originally wanted to see Mo Chenmo immediately, but was stopped by Situ Yu, who just asked Shi Ran to have an examination, and then Let him go home to rest, and he came here the next day.When Shi Ran entered the ward, Mo Chenmo was still sleeping. Shi Ran gently put the rice on the table, then went to the bedside to look at Mo Chenmo.

Mo Chenmo is thinner and more emaciated than before, the flesh on his face is all lumped together, this may be the sequelae of chemotherapy, Mo Chenmo sleeps very soundly, the longer the chemotherapy goes, the more time Mo Chenmo sleeps long.

"Mo Chenmo...Mo Chenmo...get up and eat, and go to bed after eating." Shi Ran gently shook Mo Chenmo, and Mo Chenmo opened his eyes bewilderedly. Mo Chenmo who just opened his eyes thought that This is in a dream, "Shi Ran... Brother..., I didn't expect to see you again, am I dreaming?"

Shi Ran didn't expect Mo Chenmo to think of himself so much, saying that he let go, in fact, he just took all the pain and made himself sick, Shi Ran seemed to have thousands of needles in his heart I'm piercing myself.

"Mo Chenmo, you're not dreaming, it's really me, I'm here to see you." Mo Chenmo was taken aback for a moment, and then he held Shi Ran's hand as if he didn't believe it was really Shi Ran, with warmth, It's hot, it's not a dream, it seems that I'm getting sleepy every day.

"Why did they call you here too?" With the omens of the leftists, Mo Chenmo was not surprised that Shi Ran would come this time, and they must have done it. Now that he is a sick person, they say everything The final decision.

Mo Chenmo's face returned to the ice cube, which was obviously different from the previous one. This is how Mo Chenmo pretended to be his real side, and it would only allow people to discover the most real side inadvertently.

"Yu asked me to come here. I heard that you were sick, so I came here. I hope I can help you. My dad also said so."

"Can I ask you a question?" Shi Ran wanted to ask out the doubts in his heart, which might be very important to his father.

"En." Shi Ran arranged the bowls and chopsticks for Mo Chenmo, then glanced outside the door, then at Mo Chenmo, and asked in an affirmative tone. "Is that person outside the door your father? Is it the Rong Zhendong my father likes?"

Mo Chenmo looked at Shi Ran, and asked with such certainty, "Don't you already know the answer, why bother to ask me?"

Yes, Shi Ran was sure when he saw Rong Zhendong for the first time, but there was a very close man beside him.The relationship between the two seemed unusual, so Shi Ran didn't dare to jump to judgment, and could only believe it after checking with Mo Chenmo.

"What about the man next to him?"

"His boyfriend, or husband, Shi Ran, I hope you forget about meeting my dad, and don't mention it to your dad when you go back."

"Why? My dad has never been able to untie the knot in his heart. I have always hoped to see your dad again. Now that I have the opportunity to let them meet, why do you ask me not to mention it. "

Shi Ran couldn't accept Mo Chenmo's idea, his father had been thinking about Rong Zhendong for decades, but he couldn't let it go, now that the two could meet, Mo Chenmo refused.

"Shi Ran, you won't understand. Not seeing each other is the best way for two people."

"That's why you treat yourself in this way, and I miss you even if I don't see you."

It is nostalgia, but it is much better than the heart-piercing pain after seeing it. "You are a person with a family, don't you understand?"

Yes, I still have a family, Liu Li is my wife, and now I have an unborn child, so Mo Chenmo can only choose to leave, or he has no choice.

"Let's eat! They have prepared a lot of delicious food for you today. You should eat more, nutrition is very important." Shi Ran pulled the topic away, hoped to bring it to the dinner table, filled a bowl of soup for Mo Chenmo, and put it on the table. In front of Mo Chenmo.

"You can eat with me, it's boring to eat alone every day." Mo Chenmo wanted to eat with Shi Ran to find out how he felt, Shi Ran was naturally willing to eat with Mo Chenmo, Shi Ran used the backup chopsticks to replace Mo Chen Mexican cabbage.

"I'll eat with you, so you can eat more. You've lost weight." Mo Chenmo misses this feeling so much. When he was young, his brother would always tell himself that you should eat more. Now that you are growing your body.

"Brother, you can eat too." Shi Ran only had chopsticks but no bowl, so Shi Ran picked up some food and put it in his mouth, chewed it a few times and ate it. "I'm your brother, let me call you Xiaochen just like them!"

Xiaochen, Mo Chenmo still hopes that when Shi Ran calls himself Yifei.This name contains a lot of Shi Ran's love for him. Although it is a favorite, Mo Chenmo also likes this name very much.

"Brother, can you call me Yifei? I want to hear it." Shi Ran knew that Mo Chenmo's previous name was Gong Yifei, and Shi Ran thought he would be very repulsed by this name, so he avoided it on purpose. It's just that Shi Ran didn't understand that the reason why Mo Chenmo liked the name Gong Yifei was because of Shi Ran.

"Yi...Yifei, eat quickly! Only when you are full will you have the strength to fight the disease, and you will be fine." Yes, leukemia is not incurable. Although it cannot be cured completely, you can live for five or six years. It's not a problem.The most important thing is the patient's strength.

"Brother, brother, brother, brother." Mo Chenmo called Shi Ran one after another, and Shi Ran nodded in addition to nodding.This meal was the one Mo Chenmo ate the most. Although he vomited several times during the meal, with Shi Ran's company, Mo Chenmo was able to continue eating.

"Brother." Mo Chenmo kept calling Brother Shi Ran from the beginning, without saying anything else, just kept calling like that, and Shi Ran kept nodding.

"Brother, I want to make up for all the brothers who haven't been called out in the past, and I want to call out enough at once."

"Okay, as long as you like, no matter how many times you call me, I will agree to you." Mo Chenmo knew that this was not a dream, but it seemed that he was in a dream. He and Shi Ran hadn't gotten along like this for many years, a feeling that broke out from the bottom of his heart. pleasure.

"Brother." This time, Shi Ran was stunned by the sound of brother, because he saw Mo Chenmo smile, a very warm and sincere smile, a smile he had never seen before.Hearing Mo Chenmo call him brother, Shi Ran really felt that kind of brother, as if he was the brother who had always doted on Mo Chenmo.And Mo Chenmo's smile is also something that I miss very much, it seems that I saw it often before, and then disappeared for a long time, I miss it very much.

"Well, Yifei." Everything that can't be let go, must be followed by this smile, Shi Ran is thinking about what Mo Chenmo has done in the past to be sorry for him, to make him miserable , and even wanting to die can disappear with this one smile.

Shi Ran didn't ask for anything, just begged Mo Chenmo to get better now, and hoped that God would not deprive Mo Chenmo of his chance to be born so cruelly.Mo Chenmo really wanted to survive, but God probably felt that he had killed too many people during his lifetime, and he would not spare those who were full of sin.

Mo Chenmo suddenly didn't want to do chemotherapy any more. He wanted to go on a trip with Shi Ran. This was Mo Chenmo's long-cherished wish. He wanted to go home and put the necklace on Shi Ran's body with his own hands, and then have a talk with Shi Ran. Just go on a tour, so that you won't have any regrets.

"Brother, are you willing to go with me? Let's travel around the world and see the scenery of mountains and rivers."

"As long as your illness recovers, brother is willing to go with you. Wherever you go, brother will accompany you, so you get better as soon as possible."

What Mo Chenmo wants is not the future, but the present, "Let's stop talking about the future or not, let's go now, and wherever we go, it counts."

"Yifei, what are you talking about! Now you need to be treated, and we will talk about it when you recover. I believe there will always be a way. You are my most beloved brother, and I will not let you have trouble."

Shi Ran knew that the negative effects of chemotherapy had appeared, and the negative state would also affect the condition. Mo Chenmo was very negative now. He gave up the treatment from the bottom of his heart, thinking that his disease could not be cured. Shi Ran didn't believe it. A course of treatment, there is still time to find bone marrow.

"Yifei, you rest first, and I'll bring you food in the evening." Mo Chenmo held Shi Ran's hand, Mo Chenmo was afraid that he would wake up from sleep and all this would be a dream.

"Brother, stay with me! I need you now." Mo Chenmo has returned to being as clingy as Shi Ran when he was a child, and Mo Chenmo is afraid that his days of getting along with Shi Ran like this will be numbered.

"Okay, I'll stay with you." Shi Ran didn't clean up the table anymore, and sat by the bed to accompany Mo Chenmo. Mo Chenmo couldn't take a bath during chemotherapy, so some of the remaining cells killed by the chemicals were all dry. Dry white ash stained Mo Chenmo's skin.

Shi Ran patted it lightly with his hand, and the white ash fell off. The things Mo Chenmo slept on had to be changed every day, for fear of bacterial infection.Bacterial infection may kill Mo Chenmo immediately, and even the chopsticks and bowls that are eaten must be sterilized by high temperature.

Mo Chenmo fell asleep not long after, but now Mo Chenmo spends more time sleeping and less time waking up. He is afraid that he will die in his deep sleep, and many leukemia patients can't wake up after falling asleep.However, Mo Chenmo's mental condition is still very good, so he is not worried about that situation for the time being.

Shi Ran covered Mo Chenmo with the quilt, and then put Mo Chenmo's hand in the quilt, Shi Ran lightly packed up the food, then opened the door and went out.As soon as he went out, a group of people surrounded him and asked about the situation.

"How is it? How is Xiaochen today?" Shi Ran looked at Rong Zhendong, and wanted to tell Gong Shangming, but thinking of Mo Chenmo's objection to his doing so, he also planned to put the matter on hold until Mo Chenmo got sick Well, it's not too late.

"Yifei is in a good condition now." Mu Yunfan was very happy when he heard Shi Ran call Mo Chenmo Yifei, but also very melancholy. He was glad that Mo Chenmo recognized the name Gong Yifei, but he was sad because he only allowed Shi Ran to call him Mo Chenmo Yifei. However, a person called this name.Mo Chenmo still thought about his brother in the end, but Mu Yunfan was not sad, because he was a brother to Mo Chenmo now, the kind of brother who was a real brother, Ye Zixuan was enough for him.

"He is in good health, but a negative state has appeared, and he wants to give up treatment. But the state is not strong, it just appeared!"

"This negative state will be strengthened with chemotherapy, as long as you dissuade it and say some positive things, it can be alleviated." Bei Chenzhe explained it to them as a doctor. This negative state is every serious patient. There will be.

"It is necessary to properly alleviate his state, otherwise this negativity will affect Mo Chenmo in the end, Shi Ran depends on you."

Mo Chenmo has Shi Ran taking care of him here, so they can try their best to find the bone marrow. If they don't give up, there is always hope. They thought that Shi Ran might be a match, but they failed in the end.Now I can only put up notices, as long as you come to the hospital for an examination, no matter whether you are suitable or not, you can get [-] per person.Even those who are suitable and unwilling can get one thousand.

It's just that there are many people who come for examinations, but they don't meet the requirements. It's really like what the doctor said, maybe only one person in 1 people meets the requirements.I have spent a lot of money now, but I just haven't found the right one.