masculinity

Bai Yiyi didn't take those words to heart, but I, a big boy, cared about them. I felt a little embarrassed. Every time I went to class, she and I would receive everyone's attention. In fact, the main thing was to look at me, because Chi Cheng That public kiss on me spread throughout the school. At that time, everyone should have been afraid that Chi Cheng was a teacher, so they didn't say much about me.

Now that Chi Cheng is no longer in school, of course they started to go crazy, and I don't have any background to speak of, so it's easy to be criticized by others, just get used to it, seeing her Bai Yiyi, so calm!

On a Friday afternoon, Canada has finally entered the red autumn. The roads are lined with scattered maple leaves. With the setting sun in the west, this scene looks a bit more poignant.

Bai Yiyi finished class early. She was wearing a white sweater, paired with light blue jeans, and a pair of white canvas shoes on her feet. She looked like a pure and innocent school girl. I really like the comfortable visual impact others give me.

She stood at the school gate waiting for me, she stood quietly, she didn't notice that I happened to be out of the school gate, I don't know if the autumn wind did it on purpose, a gust of wind blew past, and Bai Yiyi's long hair covered her face.Just when I saw her gently and peacefully pulling her wind-blown hair behind her ears, I was appreciating this touch of tenderness.

Smiling without saying a word, she walked towards Bai Yiyi's direction, thinking how far away I would be before she would find me coming, as she walked, was it one meter?two meters?Still three meters...

"You are finally here... I was almost blown away by the wind."

When she saw me coming, she pouted her mouth like a little cherry and showed me an unhappy expression. I really wanted to laugh, but I held back. Is this Bai Yiyi acting like a baby with me?I already regarded her as my younger sister in my heart, and looked at her indulgently, then stretched out my slender fingers and gently scratched her pink nose.

She smiled gently at her, "You little rascal, well, brother will take you to a big meal today to make up for you." After I finished speaking, I looked at Bai Yiyi with raised eyebrows, "Are you satisfied?"

Bai Yiyi is younger than me, so I just treat her as a younger sister. Compatriots who are all in a foreign land, are they brothers and sisters?So what I have will naturally be distributed to Yiyi, and Yiyi is the same as me, can eat and use anything together.

Yiyi also relies on me like an older brother, now she will ask my opinion on everything, and then she often acts like a spoiled child to me, she is so disgusting, she even said that she will come to my house as a nanny...

She's really a little girl who doesn't speak much.I didn't take these jokes to heart, and I enjoyed them even more. Compared with before, two people are better than one, at least there are people talking to me when I go back to my residence.

I brought Bai Yiyi to a restaurant that is relatively close to where we live. I just got paid recently, so I was so generous to invite Yiyi to come over for dinner. The environment here is good, much quieter than the night market, and the food also has dishes from our country. The price is ok.

"You used to eat here often?" Bai Yiyi suddenly asked me loudly in surprise as soon as she arrived at the entrance of the restaurant, her voice revealed excitement and excitement.

I was shocked and smiled and said to her, "What? Is there any problem?" I don't understand why Bai Yiyi is so surprised. I used to eat here often, but after I moved away from Chicheng's house, I didn't have much thought about cooking. , I often go here to eat alone.

I recalled the past bit by bit, and my mind was distracted before I knew it. Bai Yiyi's voice interrupted my thoughts, "Lin Xi, do you know? I used to work here at night?"

"No way, why didn't I see you?" I was surprised when I heard Yiyi say that she used to work in this store, so why didn't I see her every night when I came home from get off work?

"I don't know either, hehe." Bai Yiyi grinned, showing a row of white teeth, a little innocent and silly, she looks cute, if I like women, I might like her.

"Maybe we all get off work at that time, so it happened to be staggered." I roughly described the possibility, and I didn't continue to talk about this topic. It seems that she and I have nothing to talk about these topics, and they are a bit restrained atmosphere.

Compared with this restraint, when I was having dinner with Bai Yiyi, the embarrassment of seeing Fei En was not worth mentioning. Well, he also looked at me with great interest, and told me intuitively that Finn should have been looking at me for a long time.

Seeing Finn, I lost my mood to eat, and I didn't want Bai Yiyi to know about the complicated relationship between Finn and me. I wanted to tell Bai Yiyi to go. Seeing the excitement on Bai Yiyi's face, I couldn't restrain my love for food. , I silently withdrew my thoughts of leaving.

"Yiyi, you eat first, I'll go to the bathroom."

I made an excuse to leave and went to Finn's place, because Finn gestured to me to go out, so I had to go out obediently, Finn still knew how to measure things, and I was a little grateful to him in my heart.

After leaving the store, I walked to his parking space with Finn. He made a gesture to let me get in the car. I hesitated, should I get in the car?

I was probably locked in the car several times by Chicheng, unable to get out of the car, and I was beaten by his car, and I still had to take advantage of it, so once I was bitten by a snake for ten years, I was afraid of well ropes. My scruples were seen by Fein, and he sneered He said, "Don't be afraid, I'm not Chicheng, I don't like forcing people."

Although I heard the guarantee, I was still worried. If the world said it would be fine, why would the police need it? After hesitating for a while, I still got in the car.

I took advantage of the opportunity to sit in the back seat, so even if Finn wanted to do something, it would take a little time to change the position, so I think the rear seat is safer than the passenger seat. When I was applauding my witty decision, I heard Finn's low voice The voice came, "Lin Xi, did I make you so scared and wary?"

His voice sounded very sad, full of frustration and disappointment, his words stung me, did I think too much of myself, always thinking of people so darkly...

"No, it's not your problem, it's mine." I took all the responsibility on myself, and that's how I habitually wronged myself, treated others well, and didn't want to see others unhappy because of me.

That's right, in some people's minds, this kind of mentality is a bit similar to the kind of cheap, seeking abuse or something.

"Lin Xi, you know why I like you. I just like you. For things that obviously have nothing to do with you, you will always keep trying to blame yourself. You would rather wrong yourself than blame others. "

Fein's words revealed a kind of helplessness of hatred and indisputability. He continued to add, "I didn't have much affection for you before. I have a boyfriend. It was you who stirred up the frenzy in my heart."

"Your arrogance, your prejudice, you are jealous of everyone you meet, and you don't want to trust others completely. I don't know what makes you like this. Because of this, I want to get closer to understand you."

Fein became more and more excited as he spoke, and his body had already turned to face me. If it wasn't for the backrest between the front and rear seats, I'm afraid I would be bumped by the car like Chi Cheng that time. It's very possible.

"Fin, I don't want to explain anything, I am me." After hearing what he said, I curled up the corners of my lips in a mocking way, how much do I confuse men?Hehe, it seems that Tsundere is not a good thing, it always invites bad things.

He continued, "Since you have a boyfriend, why do you still want to provoke me?" Finn actually has a boyfriend, so what does he mean is that I became his mistress?I go!I recently became attached to a mistress. I was called mistress by Chicheng's fiancee, and now I'm alluded to as mistress...

The words I don’t like, the words I hate, the more I stick them to myself now, I almost believe that I have become the mistress in the relationship. What happened recently, I started to enter the endless cycle of feelings again, and I can’t get out of it. up.

"I have broken up with him now, and he also went home to marry and have children to carry on the family line."

Fein said it calmly, and there was no sadness on his face. Could it be that he didn't love his boyfriend, and he wasn't sad at all when he left?

It may be that my thoughts are written on my face, and Fein can see it. He smiled and explained, it's not an explanation, it's a statement.

"You think I'm ruthless and treat my feelings like a game? No, when you really enter the gay circle, you'll know that you can't be too sincere in many cases."

"Why?" I blurted out involuntarily, looking at Fein's eyes curiously.

"The love between men is not pure love, it is also mixed with external emotional factors, which is different from the love between men and women."

"Oh?! Like this? I still don't understand..."

I replied a little discouraged, what Fein said was so profound, I was in a half-confused state, maybe I was too simple, and I hadn't experienced big storms in your circle.I didn't think about going to the circle to make friends with anyone, I just hoped to be with someone I love.

"Hehe, you will gradually understand... Okay, let me get down to business."

Fein should be laughing that I don’t understand anything, I’m too naive, I gave him a blank look in my heart for his attitude of belittling me so much, I’m confused by Erzhang Monk, what’s the matter?

"Ah? What's the business?"

"I want to tell you, whether you agree or not, I will chase you, I will definitely chase you!"

"Damn it! Here comes another domineering man..." I'm really tired, why am I so attractive, why are everyone around me looking for me?Could it be that I am several generations of the legendary Nine-Tailed Fox, inheriting her traits?

No!I am male!Besides, I'm quite serious, but sometimes I'm a bit arrogant, but this kind of personality also attracts flies?This is ridiculous. If this is the case, why are there so many leftover women in the world who hate to marry? It’s unscientific. I decided to cultivate myself in the future. Self-cultivation is the foundation. I must not be too easy to be noticed by others. That's good.