God, he's reborn

Without coercion or temptation, without making a fuss, Qiu Xisheng defeated Chen Wan with a few words and a dream.

After Qiu Xiyan left, Chen Wan lay back on the bed, staring at the ceiling in a daze.He always felt empty in his heart, as if a piece was missing.

There were two voices arguing in my mind, and one voice said: "Since it's so uncomfortable, then go and chase him back!"

Another voice said: "So what if you get back? Anyway, we will break up in the end."

The first voice said: "How do you know you will break up without even trying?"

The second voice said: "Then you have the heart to separate him from his family?"

After a long time, the first voice said, "You may lose him forever..."

Chen Wan sighed and found it difficult to breathe.

Losing him forever... That is to say, no one will be around him all the time, and no one will call him "senior" in a drawn-out voice, and no one will hold hot milk tea on a rainy night in early spring Waiting for him with an umbrella.

No one to wake him up in the morning, no one to urge him to sleep at night, no one to share with him when he is in a good mood, no one to make him happy when he is in a bad mood...

The three words Qiu Xiyan had permeated his whole life long ago.

"It doesn't matter," Chen Wan pressed her hands to her eyes, and comforted herself, "Anyway, I've been here alone for so many years, and now I'm just back alone again...it's okay...it's really okay..."

He kept saying "it's okay" to himself, but tears still flowed out of his eyes disobediently.

She didn't know how long she had been lying on the bed, but around noon, Chen Wan was woken up by a knock on the door.

He opened his eyes and let out a loud cry.

I don't know if the cold got worse, but his headache got worse.But thinking that the person outside might be Qiu Xiyan, he couldn't care less about it.

When going down the escalator, Chen Wan's foot slipped and fell directly to the ground from the penultimate ladder.His knee hurt from being knocked on the iron escalator, but he went straight to the door as if he didn't feel it.

When she opened the door, Chen Wan thought to herself: "If Qiu Xiyan is standing outside, no matter what he says, no matter what he wants to do, I will take him away! It doesn't matter if he can't graduate or have no job, as long as Without him, I can do nothing!"

Chen Wan opened the door, and the people outside shouted, "Senior..."

——but not Qiu Xiyan.

Chen Wan's disappointment was beyond words, but he still forced a smile to greet the visitor: "Azhao, what's the matter?"

"I'll come to see you." Lin Zhao said, and suddenly whispered, "Senior, why don't you wear shoes!"

Chen Wan lowered her head to look, and she was indeed barefoot.It should be that he was too impatient when he just opened the door and forgot to put on his shoes.

"Go in and put on your shoes, it's so cold, what if you catch a cold." Lin Zhao muttered, pushing Chen Wan into the bedroom, watching him put on his shoes.

During this process, Chen Wan recovered from her distraught state.He thought he was ridiculous, obviously he proposed to break up, but he made himself feel like he was dumped.

"Senior," Lin Zhao pulled up a chair and sat down opposite Chen Wan, as if he didn't know what to say, "You...you and Qiu Xiyan...you..."

"We broke up," Chen Wan said generously, "Just now."

"Why?" Lin Zhao frowned, puzzled, "Did Qiu Xiyan do something to make you angry?"

"No, it's not his fault, it's me..." Chen Wan was silent for a while, then asked, "Did he go to your place?"

"Well," Lin Zhao nodded, and said sadly, "I burst into tears as soon as I entered the door, and didn't say anything to the question, and didn't let me go out. I was so anxious."

Chen Wan imagined the scene and couldn't help laughing.For a moment, his smile was quickly replaced by worry and seriousness: "Then how is he now? Still at your house?"

"Yes, I cried for more than two hours and fell asleep on the sofa." After Lin Zhao answered, he still couldn't help asking, "What's wrong with you?"

"Our matter was discovered by his father, and his father asked him to break up with me."

Lin Zhao's eyes widened, not daring to say anything, "Then he will be divided?"

Chen Wan shook her head, and said in a low voice: "I hope he is like this... He didn't agree, had a fight with his father, and was locked up. He escaped from home this morning, found me, and asked me to take him with him. He's gone. I... I turned him down."

"why?"

"Azhao, do you know? If he leaves with me, he may never be able to return to that home."

"No way," Lin Zhao hesitated, "Don't Qiu Xiyan's family love him very much?"

"It's because his family loves him so much that I can't take him away," Chen Wan said. "Family is very important to him, and I don't want him to lose his family because of me."

Looking at Chen Wan, Lin Zhao seemed to see himself in the past: "But senior, are you sure that Qiu Xiyan can go home and subdue you as you wish after separating from you? He is gay, even if he is not with you Together, he will also be with other men. At that time, he will also quarrel with his family. "

Chen Wan raised her head abruptly, with a flustered expression: "No... no way. Qiu Xiyan is a double, he has been in love with girls before."

Lin Zhao thought about it, and Qiu Xiyan seemed to be a double: "Even so, but do you think that with Qiu Xiyan's temper, things have come to this point, will he really give in to his family?"

Chen Wan shook his head slowly, and after a while he said: "But if he breaks up with me, his family won't push him too hard."

Lin Zhao said: "Okay, let's not talk about whether the family is not a family, just talk about Qiu Xiyan. You just drove him away like this, have you thought about his feelings?"

"I thought about it, he might be sad and it would be difficult to accept. But it's better to be sad now than to regret it later."

"How do you know that he will regret it in the future?" Lin Zhao frowned and said in a harsh tone, "Senior, what is the difference between you and those family members who force their children to change their sexuality? You wishfully thought that leaving him was for his own good , but have you asked him what he thinks?"

"What does he think?" Chen Wan smiled wryly, "He's like a child who hasn't grown up, what else can he think besides making choices on the spur of the moment?"

Lin Zhao looked into Chen Wan's eyes, and said calmly, "Senior, Qiu Xiyan is already 20 years old, and he is already an adult."

Chen Wan wiped her face with her hand, took a deep breath: "Azhao, I had a dream last night."

Chen Wan told Lin Zhao about his dream. The dream was very long, but the constant scene in the dream was still clearly engraved in his mind.

At the end, Chen Wan's voice became unsteady: "Azhao, I don't want him to hate me in the future!"

Lin Zhao took Chen Wan's hand and comforted him, "Senior, it's just a dream, and it's not real. Qiu Xiyan is quite ignorant sometimes, but you really don't know how far he can do for you." do you know?"

Chen Wan thought about it, Qiu Xiyan really changed a lot for him this year.Most of the time the two of them take the bus when they go out, and they usually go to small restaurants for dinner.Every time Qiu Xiyan looked happy, he didn't show any discomfort.

Others say that two people with too much economic disparity are not suitable to be together, because one is used to luxury and the other is used to frugality, and it is difficult for anyone to change for the other.

But when she was with Qiu Xiyan, Chen Wan never felt sad.Sometimes these embarrassments are because he is accommodating Qiu Xiyan, but more often it is because Qiu Xiyan is accommodating him.

He always thought that Qiu Xiyan was ignorant, but he suddenly realized that he was wrong, big mistake!

Lin Zhao persuaded from the side: "I know that when two people are together, it is very difficult to ensure that they will not be separated for the rest of their lives. Even if they get married, they will even get divorced. But just because the result may not be good, should we give up? If it is true In this case, everyone should not fall in love, study, or work. Anyway, if you are in love, you may break up, if you study, you may fail, and if you work, you may be fired."

Chen Wan lowered her head and was still thinking, but her heart had already begun to waver.

Lin Zhao was still talking, when the phone rang suddenly.He stood up and walked aside to answer.

About a minute later, Lin Zhao hung up the phone with a solemn expression: "Senior, Qiu Xiyan's family has found us. Although Qin Muyang hid him in my father's place in advance, he has not been found yet, but in the future The power of the Qiu family should be found in a short time. If you don't go there, it may be difficult to see Qiu Xiyan again."

Chen Wan stood up with a "huh", and she didn't even have time to put on her coat: "Then let's go there quickly!"

Lin Zhao took the coat and followed behind and shouted, "Senior, put on the coat, it's cold outside!"

Sitting in the taxi, Chen Wan was so anxious that she wished she could fly there immediately.He secretly prayed in his heart that Qiu Xiyan must last until he passed.

Under Lin Zhao's enlightenment, Chen Wan had already figured it out.His act of leaving on his own initiative was not selfless at all, but selfish.He kept saying that leaving was for the good of Qiu Xiyan, but in fact he was making excuses for his cowardice.

No matter what happens in the future, whether they are separated, together, regretful or resentful, he has to speak clearly with Qiu Xiyan!They may break up one day, but not in such a muddled way as they are now!

When they arrived at the community, Lin Zhao took Chen Wan in through the small gate.Worried that the Qiu family would send someone to monitor him, Lin Zhao bought a mask and some medicines, and asked Chen Wan to wear the mask to pretend to be a patient.

When the two reached the stairs, they saw a stranger wandering nearby.

Seeing those people looking over, Chen Wan covered her mouth and pretended to cough a few times.Lin Zhao patted him on the back and said in a reproachful tone: "I told you that the temperature will drop in the next two days, but you still don't believe it! It's better now, you have a cold! Take the medicine for me when I go back later, If you get better, go for an infusion."

The two walked unhurriedly, and managed to fool those few.Lin Zhao took Chen Wan straight to the fourth floor and opened the door with a key.

Qiu Xiyan was not in the living room, Lin Zhao guessed that he should have hid in the room.He knocked on the door of his room, and Qiu Xiyan's alert voice came from inside: "Who?"

Lin Zhao said, "It's me."

"Ah Zhao!" There were approaching footsteps in the room, and Lin Zhao pushed Chen Wan to the front when Qiu Xiyan opened the door.

Qiu Xiyan opened the door, was stunned when he saw Chen Wan, and then said coldly, "What are you doing here?"

Looking at Qiu Xiyan's red and swollen eyes, Chen Wan felt distressed: "I want to talk to you."

Qiu Xiyan still had a cold face: "Didn't we break up? What else is there to talk about." Having said that, he didn't close the door.

Chen Wan took Qiu Xiyan's hand and said apologetically, "Xiyan, I'm sorry, I was too selfish and didn't consider your feelings. Everything I said this morning was a lie to you. I, I love you."

Qiu Xiyan's eyes were red again, as if she would cry in the next second.He made a fierce expression on purpose, and shouted to Lin Zhao who was watching, "What are you looking at, I've never seen anyone fall in love!" Then he pulled Chen Wan into the room and closed the door.

Lin Zhao, who was also shot while standing, made a grimace at the door of the room. When he turned to leave, he heard the crying sound of "woo woo" and the sticky "Senior..."

Lin Zhao didn't know what Chen Wan and Qiu Xiyan were talking about, but only knew that Qiu Xiyan's eyes were more swollen when the two came out.

Chen Wan walked in front, and Qiu Xiyan followed closely behind. It seemed that the two had reconciled.

Chen Wan came over and said sincerely to Lin Zhao, "Ah Zhao, thank you. If it wasn't for you, I might have missed a lot."

"It's nothing, I just saw Qiu Xiyan crying so loudly, and worried that he would disturb the people." Lin Zhao was a little embarrassed, "By the way, what are you going to do in the future?"

"I plan to let Xi Yan go back and have a good talk with his family."

Qiu Xiyan seemed very dissatisfied with this arrangement, and felt aggrieved when he heard this sentence.Chen Wan patted his hand to show comfort.

Lin Zhao was surprised: "Let him go back? What if his father locks him up again?"

"It's impossible for his father to lock him up forever. He will always be released." Chen Wan said, "Besides, he doesn't have any wallet or ID card. We can't escape or hide. We might as well attack."

Although Lin Zhao was worried, he couldn't think of a better way: "Well, I wish you good luck."