A different kind of bloody life

Xiao Jinyu remembers things very early. When he was more than one year old, he was able to recognize all the people in the neighborhood, and called everyone correctly. It is a pity that his precocity was not praised by the elders. Earlier exposure to the dark side of human nature.

In Xiao Jinyu's memory before he was 5 years old, his father was equivalent to the devil. He would kick him for no reason, regardless of the parts, wherever he went, and warned him not to cry, but he was just a child. Can bear the pain?Seeing that he was disobedient, his father naturally struck harder and harder, making him always bruised and purple, like a rag doll.

Occasionally, my father was in a good mood and didn't bother to beat people, so he would curse and say some nasty words. He was young at that time and couldn't understand the meaning of the words, but he could still feel the strong malice in the eyes of the neighbors. , he hated their pointing and their ambiguous smiles.

As he grew older, he began to be beaten more and more often. It used to be once or twice a day, but now it has become two or three times a day. His father is no longer satisfied with just kicking, picking up sticks, wicker, etc. Everything can be used as a weapon to teach him, and he has also learned patience, or in other words, learned how to do it to make the pain less painful.

First of all, at the first moment when the stick is approaching, you must quickly hug your head. Second, you cannot stand and be beaten, because you will fall down or even accidentally hurt your face with the weapon. Finally, you have to grit your teeth and endure it, at least for a few minutes. , more than ten minutes, when my father finishes his anger, he will be safe for the remaining few hours.

As for his mother...he couldn't give an accurate definition, the woman who would rush to hug him because of distress at the beginning, but later it was rare to even cry for him, unless he was hurt too badly, she would quietly Give him some medicine, then say sorry and touch his head over and over again.

He knew that this was the limit of what she could do for him. It wasn't that she didn't want to protect him. She didn't have the ability to protect him, so she had to choose to pretend by ignoring him. When it was blood, his mother rushed up and tore and bit his father. As a result, he was stripped naked by his father that night and locked him in the firewood room for a whole night.

The autumn night was very cold. Before he passed out in a daze, he thought he had frozen to death in the woodshed, but unfortunately, he came back to life.

From then on, his mother never dared to confront his father again. Gradually, he no longer placed his hopes on his mother when his father taught him a lesson. Anyway, his father would not beat him to death. Bear with it and it will pass.

At the age of 5, the dividing line in his life, on an ordinary day, his father, who was as terrifying as a devil, was crushed by a stone and had two legs broken, and was carried back while lying down.

Gripping at the crack of the door, he quietly looked at his father who was crying, tears and snot flowing together on the kang. After a while, he ran out of the house and laughed and danced for a long time in the small cave he often visited.

When the father broke his leg, he could no longer chase him and beat him. If he couldn't stand up, he wouldn't press his mother to move around, and he always had to look from the beginning to the end.

Don't think that he doesn't know what his father is doing when he is young. All the cats and dogs in the village give birth to cubs. The father wants the mother to have cubs too?That is to say, he will have a younger brother soon?

That's great, he has long wanted to have a relative who really belongs to him, preferably a younger brother, a younger brother who won't think he is dirty and smelly, who will play with him and not let him be alone, a younger brother who will help him when he is in pain The younger brother who would blow him off, hug him to sleep when he was cold, pamper him with all his love, and give him all the food he saved, but after waiting and waiting, the younger brother was still not born, mother But she is getting thinner day by day, as if she can fall down when the wind blows.

He stayed in the cave until it was dark before he slipped home. As soon as he entered the yard, he heard his father scolding his mother again. Standing in the yard for a while, he was a little worried and his mother began to grab the crack of the door again. Look inside the house.

The father's eyes were red, and he was pointing at his mother, cursing non-stop, and then threw the pillow on the mother after cursing.

Mother let her father get angry as usual, with her head slightly lowered, and she sat in the chair without saying a word, until her father got tired of scolding, and then raised her eyes a little bit.

"You're right. I'm just a broken shoe. You're the one who ruined my happiness. But you still think I'm not loyal to you. Why? What right does a rapist have to win the victim's heart? "

He remembered every word his mother said, even the look on his face, because that was the last time he heard his mother's voice.

Ridiculous, right?Even in the end, his mother didn't leave him a single word, she left so resolutely, maybe she didn't want to live long ago.

My eyes widened and I watched my mother chop my father's bed with an axe, bleeding everywhere, and when my father pushed me down, my mother would get up quickly, ride on my father's body and continue chopping. Later, the neighbors heard the sound When he arrived, his father was already unable to move. He lay on his back and trembled, his eyes rolled upwards.

The mother was standing next to the father with an ax in her hand, panting and laughing intermittently, like a lunatic, probably in the eyes of everyone, the mother is already crazy, right?

"Mother." She called softly, she didn't let him call her mother, in fact, he rarely even called her mother.

Standing behind several adults, clenched fists tightly, he had a feeling that his mother was about to leave, forever.

Maybe because he heard his voice, his mother glanced at him through the gap in the crowd. The expression in her eyes was very complicated, and he couldn't understand it. Then, her mother raised an ax and struck him on the head, blood spattered high and wide. high……

He has become an orphan, and he is still an orphan that no one wants to adopt, and he is unwilling to live in other people's homes. He has a family, although he is the only one left in his home, and anyone who sees him wants to detour, but He was not afraid, there was his mother's blood, and his father's screams, the former he was nostalgic for, and the latter he liked, no wonder the adults and children in the village said he was also a lunatic, he didn't care what they thought of him, What if there is no pain and suffering, a madman?

One day, two days, he counted the days with his fingers, and the weather gradually became colder. When winter came, he would not be able to go to the mountains to find food. Hu, I will definitely not suffer from the cold again this year.

Just as he was thinking about his thoughts, a female guest suddenly came to the house, with a tall belly, standing in the yard and looking at him sitting on the threshold with very gentle eyes.

She said that she was a friend of her mother, and she came to pick him up to live in city B after receiving a letter from her mother. She also said that he would have a new home with grandpa, grandma, uncle, father, mother and brother , and she is his new mother.

elder brother?Existence like a chubby who threw a stone at him?Thinking back to what Xiaopang had done, he snorted coldly, he didn't like it.

new family?With such a large group of people, he couldn't bear to beat him once a day, and he still didn't like it.

New father and new mother... He hesitated as he peeked at the bulging belly of the female guest.

If he recognized her as a mother, would the cub in her stomach be his younger brother?But what if it's my sister?He hates his younger sister who cries when he touches it, and besides, his younger sister can't piss farther than himself. The boys in the village like to compare 'shooting range'. He has envied him for a long time, and he is waiting for the day when he can compete with his younger brother. Woolen cloth.

"Is he the younger brother?" He had to ask clearly, he pointed to the female guest's belly and asked.

"Yes, he is your younger brother. Look, he is moving, which means that he also likes you to be his elder brother." The female guest held his hand and put it on her belly. God, the younger brother is really moving, dumbfounded Feeling the impact from the palm again, her heart beat more than twice as fast.

I can't help but move my face close to it, the sound of 'Bang Bang Bang' heartbeat seems to overlap with my own heartbeat gradually, that feeling is like floating in the sky with happiness.

He decided that for the sake of his younger brother, he was willing to call the female guest mother, and he was willing to be beaten every day, as long as he stayed by his younger brother's side, it didn't matter how many times he was beaten.

Facts have proved that his decision is correct.

The new father and mother don’t beat anyone, and neither do other family members. They dress him with clean clothes, eat delicious food, and buy him gifts. They carefully hide all the gifts. He wants to wait until his younger brother is born. Send them all to him, so that the younger brother will like him more, right?

I really want to see my brother sooner. The most common thing he does every day is to say to his mother's belly, "When will you come out to see me?" .

Of course, there are some who don't laugh, such as Xiao Jinhan, they both don't like each other, the reason is...

How dare he rob his younger brother!No-can-forgive!

On the first day he came to the house, he had a fight with Xiao Jinhan. The shameful thing is that he lost the fight, but if he loses, don't let him give away his brother, try to build up his body and continue fighting.

The days flew by, and finally came the day when my younger brother was born. Looking at the little soft baby, both he and Xiao Jinhan were a little dazed.

How can you play with yourself at such a young age?Look, he hasn't teeth yet, how can he eat?

Even though he lost his younger brother's thinness, he still gave his younger brother all his love, changing his diaper, feeding him, talking with him, in a daze, the beauty of his childhood was bubbling, if there is no Xiao Jinhan's interruption, it would be more perfect up.

From his younger brother turning over, to sitting, to learning to walk, he was always by his brother's side, and since his younger brother quit breastfeeding, who would sleep with his younger brother has become a daily battle between him and Xiao Jinhan significant factor.

However, with my own physical strength, it would be good to win at most three out of ten battles. Even if you use tricks, it’s useless. The little kid Xiao Jinhan has no brains and only recognizes force. No matter what you say, it’s time to go to sleep. Asking about winning or losing under his fist, hmph, reckless man, he won't admit that he is jealous!

"Brother, blow it up."

The chubby, white and tender little boy pouts his bright red lips and blows hard, every mouthful of hot air will be converted into electric current and hit his whole body, clasping his brother's waist firmly, "Xiaoxi, you will always care about me and love me, Not going away like a mother, and not like the kids in the village think of me as mud, right?"

"Well, I like brother." Nodding heavily, the little boy Baji kissed him, and then began to blow hard again, looking really cute.

"My brother also likes Xiaoxi, but only you. When my brother grows up, he will move out with Xiaoxi. The two of us will never be separated."

"Well, no separation."

why?How could Xiaoxi, who had clearly promised not to leave him, break her promise?He left faster than his mother, just disappeared so suddenly, even if he searched all the places where Xiaoxi could hide, he couldn't find it.

Xiaoxi, my brother's hand is broken again, you can brag to my brother, okay?Just a moment, okay?

Hugging Xiao Xi's quilt, smelling the faint breath, he looked at his bleeding fingers and begged sadly, but this time, Xiao Xi didn't run over to hug him, even if he hurt his fingers again and again, he couldn't change The familiar figure, he, became the one who was abandoned after all.