Prison Dragon

This was not long after the death of Hou Weiming, Yang Sheng's child was born.

She is a lovely girl, and the emperor named her Princess Fangyuan.

I went to see Princess Fangyuan when she was full moon. Although Yang Sheng was not very happy, she still had a mother-like expression on her face.

She said to me, "I wish she was a boy."

Because according to Yang Xuan's plan, if this is a boy, they will have a prince of the Yang family. They only need to let this child ascend the throne, and everything will be logical.

"Girls are also very good," because I know that His Majesty will not let a child of the Yang family blood be a prince, at least not when the Yang family's dynasty is still alive, "In the future, I will be a favored princess with peace of mind. OK."

"Do you know?" Yang Sheng stroked the baby's delicate red skin, "In the past, Lord Hou had a maid named Ruifang who often brought us into the palace to accompany Lord Hou. Lord Hou liked us very much at that time, and often Let me sit on his lap and teach me to read and write. He always said that my sister and I have a fire character and a water character. .”

Yang Sheng said, wiping away tears, "I always think, it would be great if the person who entered the palace was my sister. I can't do anything in the palace. If it was my sister, she would definitely do better than me. .”

"You're wrong," I patted her shoulder tenderly, "If it's against orders, he will definitely not let any of you enter the palace."

How much he hates people who are turbulent in the palace.

"You shouldn't sacrifice yourself to fulfill a long-cherished wish that's been imposed on you."

But to say so much is just to think about it. In this era, every woman has too many tragedies. Does the Queen love His Majesty? I'm afraid she doesn't even know who His Majesty is before she enters the palace.

It's just to dedicate oneself to the family, to sacrifice the body to please others, and to sacrifice the children to please the clan.

Even I am no exception, it is nothing more than some people see clearly that they have been living under the control of men all their lives, some people indulge in the affectionate dreams created by men without knowing it, and instead take pleasure in playing a scene where women embarrass women .

Every time I think of this, I feel a feeling of resentment towards His Majesty, maybe not for myself, but for the women who are also trapped in the red wall.

I have always maintained pity for them, because from the perspective of fate, we are all poor people locked in place.

Why do political alliances require women to be sacrificed? This is obviously a man's game. It is ridiculous that everyone takes this matter for granted.

And the most successful sign of a man is just how many women he has.

A woman is wealth, status, and a label of glory.

But I can't really hate His Majesty. I understand his difficulties, but I won't forgive him for the mistakes he made to women. It's just that I have to rely on him to live. He is the pillar of my life. To bear grudges, then my life is worthless.

This is really a distorted feeling, and I am also a very distorted person. All this has become a foregone conclusion a long time ago, and I have no power to change it.

Yang Zheng asked me to take good care of their mother and daughter in the palace. I thought it was a bit amusing. Obviously Yang Sheng was a concubine, and I was Zhaoyi, who was the first rank higher than her, but they seemed to take me for granted. His Majesty's first wife.

Not to mention sisters Yang Zheng, even if the concubine in the harem had a conflict with the queen, she would inevitably say a few words in front of me.I have told His Majesty many times about these things, but he just smiled at me and said sorry to me.

What is he sorry for me?

Maybe it's because I'm sorry that I can only be wronged as an ordinary concubine. I can't think of it, and I don't bother to think about so many things. In fact, I knew my own code of conduct many years ago. I just live for your majesty. .

From this point of view, I am actually almost the same person as Yang Yuchun.We are all longing for a person who cannot be monopolized, longing for the god in the world.

When Princess Fangyuan was born, Yang Zheng snatched her to marry her son. His Majesty also intended to maintain the relationship between the royal family and General Beihai, so he agreed to this child marriage.

When Princess Fangyuan was two years old, my daughter Princess Qinyuan was also born, and my rank also rose. The emperor finally had the opportunity to seal me up. woman.

I don’t know why, but when I looked at my daughter, I felt a little bit of fear. I was delighted with the arrival of this life, but also feared that she might leave in various accidents. The tired body because of giving birth to her, the experience of raising her, or the daily life that has to be disturbed by her in a peaceful life, remind me all the time that I have a child by my side.

I am a vegetarian, everyone in the palace knows, but I never liked children, no one knows that.

For Qinyuan, my fear is even more than joy. As long as Qinyuan is still in my palace, I can't sleep well. When she is not crying, I always suspect that she is going to die. I was so upset that I couldn't raise Qinyuan myself, so I had to raise her and Fangyuan together in Yangsheng Palace.

Yang Sheng always said that I was overly suspicious, Qin Yuan was obedient and good-looking, why didn't she please me?

I don't know that she is petite and cute, but the cuter she is, the more sinful I feel.

This is a story no one knows, and I have never told anyone in my life.

It was still in Qi State, and the emperor at that time was still Yang Ting.

But for me and my family, we couldn't afford to care who the meat eaters were at the time, because all the energy was spent just trying to find food to survive.

Severe drought in Longxi is a common occurrence. I have experienced quite a lot since I was a child, but I can survive it all. It will soon be eaten up.The land was split open in patches, revealing deep fissures, and wells were being dug everywhere, but water was rarely heard.We all know that the imperial court is unreliable, so we can only try our best to survive.

In the first month after the severe drought, the elders of the family were the first to starve to death, leaving only my parents and six children in the family.

My father used to be a tall farmer. After two months, he weakened at a terrible speed. All the flesh on his body disappeared, and his eyes were deeply sunken and turned into two black holes. He could still walk.My mother was worse than him, her legs were so weak that she couldn't walk, so she could only lie on the kang, under the quilt all day long, and our children ran outside to find everything that could be eaten.

At this time, there are still some grass roots and bark. If you are willing to go farther, you can always find some food in the corners, such as grass seeds, earthworms, and mice. ate up.

The adults can't take care of themselves. As the eldest child in the family, I have to take care of the lives of my younger siblings. We have to travel farther and farther to find food, and sometimes it takes a whole day to go back and forth.

Later, the youngest brother also lay motionless on the bed like his mother, only venting his anger.

It was a very ordinary afternoon, there was not a single cloud in the sky, I was sitting by the wall poking my swollen legs, I had just walked for a day and couldn’t find anything to eat, the place has become a dead place.

There are many dying people lying beside the wall, and they will be cleared away in a few days, and I don't know where they will go.

I heard from the gentleman in the village that there would be a plague when the corpses were piled up here, but within a few days, the gentleman died, and there was no straw mat to cover the corpse. I followed his cart for a long time, and they found a piece of land in Xishan , casually bury people there.

I took a look at him after he was gone, and found that the graves were randomly scattered on the loess, and there were some corpses sparsely placed on the cemetery, including skulls, thighs, internal organs, and empty rib skeletons...

Someone must have dug up the corpse and ate it while not paying attention.Because I saw footprints around these corpses.

I feel more and more afraid, even if I continue to stay here, I will also be eaten by people who appear out of nowhere.

I ran home in a hurry.

The family has a different atmosphere than before. My mother is sitting on the bed with a bowl, and the other four younger siblings are eating around the kang.

I froze for a long time, my father lifted me to the bedside by my clothes, and handed me a bowl of cooked white meat.Only then did I smell the meaty aroma that penetrated into the bone marrow.

I can't recall those feelings, but I still remember seeing my mother's face covered with a lot of oil after wolfing it down.

"Ada, where did the meat come from?" I asked Dad.

Father did not speak, mother did not speak, younger siblings did not speak, and everyone remained silent.

Only the youngest brother was missing.

With the first child, there will be the second, and the third... There are six children in our family, and it depends on who can't bear the health first, and it will be exchanged for another child.

I have never killed anyone, this kind of thing is done by my father, maybe he is not killing people, he is just disposing of the corpses, those pieces of meat hanging on the beams make me drool very greedily every time I see them.

I'm so hungry, I'm so hungry that I can accept as long as I can eat it in my mouth, I'm so hungry that I can eat every piece of meat without any burden.

Just because it's not my siblings and they have nothing to do with me.

Of six children, I was the only one left.

I should be glad that my life is still tough, and I survived to the end.

But it was useless, my father traded me to an old bachelor from the next village just for a bag of rice.

The old bachelor just wanted a daughter-in-law, but I didn't want to go, so I took advantage of the opportunity when he took off his pants, knocked him unconscious with a bench and escaped.

I don't know where to run, there is barren loess everywhere, the only thing I remember is the official road to the state capital, I walked along the official road for a long time, and finally saw a figure.

It was a young man riding a white horse. I stood cowering on the side of the road. He was supposed to drive past and leave, but he just gave me a strange look.

"Hi," he turned his horse's head and asked me, "are you a disaster victim in Longxi?"

He put me on a cart delivering grain and grass, and took me into the capital city of the state.

He lived in a big house, and he also asked me to wash up, put on new clothes, and finally let me have a full meal.

"Hey, why don't you eat meat?"

He always had a lot of questions, but I didn't know why, but I just couldn't speak.

"It was evening when I picked you up, so I'll call you Mu Yun."