Dip in fire

It was Xie Yuanze who opened the door for Zhong Ning. He was faster than Zhong Ning and had been back for a while.

Zhong Ning entered the door and saw Daduozi and Erduozi blocking the door.Erduozi, this little bastard, was sleeping on Da Duozi's body, lying on his side with his alluring little body and beautiful dog, closing his eyes and ignoring Zhong Ning.Only Da Duozi raised his head and glanced at Zhong Ning, but he didn't come up to him, and he didn't call out, probably because he didn't want to disturb Er Duozi's dream.

Animals are much more at ease than Zhong Ning.

"Uncle." Zhong Ning's voice was so jammed that he didn't know how to face Xie Yuanze.

But... Now that he has made up his mind to take another dip in the muddy water, no matter whether Xie Yuanze knows it now or not, he always needs to know.

After figuring this out, Zhong Ning slowed down a little, and asked Xie Yuanze, "Where's my mother?"

The home is on the second floor, with a spiral staircase, and the master bedroom is upstairs.Xie Yuanze glanced up: "Your mother is in the bedroom."

"Then I'll go up and have a look." Zhong Ning let out a breath, and was about to go upstairs.

Xie Yuanze stretched out his hand to give him a hand: "Xiao Ning, wait a minute."

Xie Yuanze hesitated for a moment, as if thinking about something, he said after a while: "I just talked to your mother."

Zhong Ning was stunned, and after a few seconds of silence, he struggled to speak out: "Then she, then..."

"I probably know what happened between you just now." Xie Yuanze said.

"Ah..." Zhong Ning immediately felt extremely stiff, as if all the muscles in his body were tied into a tight knot, "You know it all."

Not only Zhong Ning, Xie Yuanze is also very unnatural.But he still glanced at the sofa not far away: "Go and sit for a while."

Zhong Ning paused, looked up at the stairs, and went to the sofa and sat down.

"uncle......"

"Actually, I knew something about you before. But what I knew was not very clear. I knew you were..." Xie Yuanze missed a word.Although there was no sound, Zhong Ning heard it.

- "Homosexuality".

Zhong Ning felt as if his ear had been pricked by a needle.

Xie Yuanze: "Xiao Ning, uncle has no other intentions. You are not a child anymore. From the uncle's standpoint, he has no right to interfere with you too much."

Xie Yuanze's "stepfather" is not the same as "stepfather" in the traditional sense.For Zhong Ning, it is not very appropriate for him to say more or less.

Xie Yuanze tried his best to hold his tone: "I just want to talk to you because I am worried about your mother."

"I understand." Zhong Ning rubbed his face back and forth, "If you have anything to say, just say it."

"Your mother never told me about you on purpose." Xie Yuanze patted Zhong Ning on the shoulder, hoping to make Zhong Ning relax.

Xie Yuanze: "The reason why I know something is because you are not young, but you have always been single. I mentioned to her earlier, should I urge you to find someone to fall in love with?"

"That's what happened last year. Zhong Pei's reaction at that time..." Xie Yuanze frowned, but soon let go, "She said that this matter must not be mentioned. I knew something was wrong gone."

Xie Yuanze: "Later she told me something, saying that you did something outrageous when you were young."

There was a dead silence in the air.

"Uncle." Zhong Ning finally said, his voice was dry and rough, "I don't know if you can understand. I understand that my mother is doing it for my own good. She is a mother. This kind of reaction is very normal. But... ...."

His tone was low, and every word fell firmly into the ground: "But that's really not a 'outrageous thing'. To me, that's normal dating, normal liking someone, normal wanting to be with someone." A person together for a lifetime. Just like you and my mother."

Xie Yuanze watched Zhong Ning for a long time.He finally let out a long sigh: "Since you say that, I can't point fingers."

"But you have to understand one thing." Xie Yuanze said, "Our older generation's thinking is indeed not enlightened, but this is inevitable, because parents regard you as children the most important."

Xie Yuanze: "Especially you. For your mother, you have always been her everything. She has endured so much hardship and been so strong for more than 20 years, all because of you."

Xie Yuanze looked upstairs: "Although she didn't say anything, I think this matter has been in her heart all the time. You should give her more time, don't worry."

Xie Yuanze smiled faintly: "Zhong Pei looks strong, but she is actually a piece of paper. You have grown up these years, and she has changed a lot..."

Xie Yuanze stood up: "Uncle believes in you, you are a sensible child. Go."

Xie Yuanze looked at Zhong Ning: "If your mother doesn't want to see you now or listen to you, you can come down first, and I will go up to persuade her."

Zhong Ning suddenly raised his head, and finally understood why Xie Yuanze had to gossip with him so much.

Xie Yuanze is vaccinating him - Zhong Pei doesn't want to see him now.

Several years of married life broke Zhong Pei's sharp armor, allowing her to be cared for as the softest side of a woman.She is still old.Her hair was already graying early, if she hadn't dyed her hair, she would probably be all gray now.

Extremes must be reversed.She is no longer the tough and strong woman she was back then.She is now just a mother whose heart has been broken again by her son.This time she was helpless enough.I can't beat it anymore, I can't scold it anymore, I can only see it out of sight, and feel wronged by myself.

Zhong Ning stabbed his trousers with his palm before he stood up and walked upstairs.The spiral stairs went around in circles, causing Zhong Ning's legs to hurt.

The door was unlocked, but Zhong Ning stood at the door and entered without pushing the door.He knocked on the door, and his voice was so low that he couldn't pull it up: "Mom, can I go in and talk to you?"

The room was very quiet, and Zhong Pei didn't answer.

"Mom, can you let me in?" Zhong Ning asked again.

Zhong Pei only made a sound this time.There was a touch of weakness in her stern voice, which directly broke Zhong Ning's heart: "Get lost!"

Zhong Pei's voice became hoarse: "So many years have passed, so many years have passed! Why are you...why are you?"

Zhong Ning was speechless.

Yes, why on earth is he?He also wanted to ask.If possible, no one is willing to take this difficult and dangerous road.Who is willing to seek guilt?Who doesn't want everyone to be happy?

But Zhong Ning just couldn't do it.After so many years, he still can't do it.

What is "love" anyway?Literati and inkmen often hold it in a supreme position.What moves the world, what will never change until death, it is said to be the most romantic flower in the world.

Zhong Ning just thought it was nonsense.This thing is obviously dark and the worst.It is disease, it is addiction, it is poison.It is an abyss.Once it is stained, even if the flesh and blood are all cut off, it will not be able to exchange for a reborn day of rebirth.

"Mom, I'm sorry." Zhong Ning leaned against the door, staring at the crack of the door, "I don't know why. If I could, I would kill me, and I would never go this way again, and make you sad .The last time was enough for my distress."

"But I really can't do it. You scold me for not repenting." Zhong Ning bit out every word, "I was wrong, but I can't change it."

The room was dead quiet again.

After a long time, Zhong Ning knocked on the door again: "Mom, let me in, let's talk."

"Get out!" Zhong Pei hurriedly scolded Zhong Ning as if he was afraid of dying and "talking" to Zhong Ning.She grabbed a pillow inside and slammed it against the door.

The pillow is made of cotton, it's so soft that it can't catch fire even if you get angry.

"Xiao Ning." Xie Yuanze also came up.He came over from the corner of the stairs and waved his hands to Zhong Ning, "Go back today, I'm here at home, don't worry. Your mother can't suppress her emotions now, and you can't talk about anything."

Zhong Ning lost his mind for a while, and murmured in a low voice: "Yes. Now it can't be the same as before, let her beat me up, lock me at home, and not let me go out."

Xie Yuanze rubbed his temples, feeling extremely difficult.

And just now, he saw a person standing at the door of the house from the window.This person should belong to Zhong Ning... Xie Yuanze has a headache just thinking about it.

Xie Yuanze sighed again, and said to Zhong Ning: "Okay, don't think too much. Come tomorrow, come back tomorrow. Give your mother some time to digest. You are a mother and son, nothing is difficult, always It'll work out."

Zhong Ning lowered his eyes and looked downstairs from the railing. He felt that the height was terrible and made him unable to stand: "Uncle, call me if you need anything. If my mother wants to find me, she can call me anytime. I'll be right over."

"Okay." Xie Yuanze said.

Zhong Ning was tortured inside, and Zhang Weilan was not much better outside. He stood in the cold wind, frozen from head to toe and lost consciousness, waiting for Zhong Ning to be extremely tormented.

Zhong Ning finally came out.

Zhang Weilan hurriedly walked towards Zhong Ning, his soles were so numb that he didn't know the pain, he walked like a ghost after a few steps, and his center of gravity seemed to have lost: "Zhong Ning, what does Aunt Zhong say? Are you... being scolded?" gone?"

Zhong Ning stared at Zhang Weilan's face intently, taking in the exact expression on Zhang Weilan's face.Worried, nervous, painful...Looking like Zhang Weilan, she probably wanted to stab herself right away.

"Zhong Ning?" Zhang Weilan reached out to grab Zhong Ning's arm.

Zhong Ning was the first to pull Zhang Weilan into his arms.He hugged Zhang Weilan for a while.Just for a moment—the time of taking a deep breath.

"Go home first." Zhong Ning let go of Zhang Weilan and said.

He handed the helmet on the motorcycle to Zhang Weilan: "Let's go."

Zhang Weilan remained motionless as if she had grown up in the same place, only looking at the gate with her eyes.

Zhong Ning sighed, and could only tell the truth: "My mother is angry, she doesn't want to see me, and she doesn't want to talk to me."

Zhong Ning: "For so many years, the matter between us has always been a thorn in her heart. I can't say, but I think she has feelings. I have never been in a relationship these years, maybe she can guess that I have been letting go. I can't let you down."

——Zhong Pei is likely to be afraid of this all the time.I'm afraid it's like this now.I am afraid that Zhong Ning will stick to Zhang Weilan forever.The thing she feared the most suddenly became true. She is in pain and panic now, and she is at a loss.

Zhang Weilan and Zhong Ning looked at each other, and he could feel his heart pounding against his ribs.

"Let's go back first. Standing here is not a problem." Zhong Ning stepped forward and grabbed Zhang Weilan's hand.

On the way home, the sky darkened and the wind became colder.Zhang Weilan clutched two shopping bags tightly in one hand, his palm was hurt by the heavy things inside, and the other arm tightly wrapped around Zhong Ning's waist.

His chest was pressed against Zhong Ning's back, and he even wanted to force Zhong Ning into his body.