Dip in fire

Zhong Ning walked into the hospital with the expensive porridge, it was already too dark to touch.

The old man in the ward transferred to another department three days ago, and Zhang Weilan was the only one left in the room.

When Zhong Ning pushed the door, Zhang Weilan was sitting on the hospital bed, looking down at her mobile phone. When she noticed Zhong Ning coming in, her beautiful eyes immediately looked over attentively.

"Have you eaten?" Zhong Ning put the porridge on the table, turned his face and asked Zhang Weilan.

"I haven't eaten yet." Zhang Weilan said quickly, while putting the phone aside.

Zhong Ning: "That's right, let's eat something."

The reason why this porridge shop is expensive is not only because of the chef's craftsmanship, but also because of the outer packaging. The take-out box is actually insulated.

Zhong Ning opened the lid, and the warm aroma rushed out immediately.The preserved egg and lean pork porridge he bought today, and a pair of soft quicksand buns.

Passing the porridge, Zhong Ningshun glanced at Zhang Weilan's mobile phone screen - Zhang Weilan was actually looking at the car: "Although you have recovered, the doctor said that you should pay attention to what you eat these days... you still Have more porridge."

Having drank clear soup for too many days with little water, Zhong Ning knew that Zhang Weilan was not just a glutton, but always like this, even the tongue couldn't bear it.

But Zhang Weilan didn't think too much about it than Zhong Ning did. Zhong Ning saw Zhang Weilan swallowing a mouthful of porridge and said with satisfaction, "It's good to drink porridge. The ones you bought for me are especially delicious."

Zhong Ning twitched his ears, he took a step back, leaning his shoulders lightly against the wall, and glimpsed Zhang Weilan's phone from the corner of his eye, the screen was now black.

Zhong Ning was silent for a while, then suddenly asked: "Did you just look at the car?"

"Hmm." Zhang Weilan took a bite of the quicksand bag, and Zhang Weilan's tongue lightly swept the corner of his mouth, "I want to buy a car. I have been renting a car here, although the job transfer is not so fast, but I always want to buy my own, just... .....buy it first."

"Oh." Zhong Ning made a sound.

Zhang Weilan had already heard that she would come back, but maybe Zhang Weilan had been away for too long, even if Zhong Ning knew about it, she still didn't have much real feeling.Now Zhang Weilan is already thinking about buying a car.

The car is a big item, not to mention spending a lot of money, just saying that it is real enough to put Zhang Weilan's name on it. ——Zhang Weilan is back and will not leave.

real.It's really down-to-earth, very realistic.

Zhang Weilan lowered her head and ate food bite by mouthful.He ate very slowly, absent-mindedly, and finally put down the spoon, pursed his lips, and asked Zhong Ning: "When the car is finished..."

Zhang Weilan inhaled a little breath from between his lips, it was very thin, and he didn't know if he could use it to strengthen himself: "When the car is finished, can I pick you up by car? To and from get off work, or where to go. …”

Zhong Ning was stunned, and looked at Zhang Weilan helplessly: "I have a Harley."

"I know." Zhang Weilan paused, and then said, "But the road is not easy to walk in rainy or snowy days, or you don't want to ride a motorcycle one day, or you drink alcohol..."

"Zhang Weilan." Zhong Ning couldn't listen anymore."Are you the driver?" he asked.

Zhang Weilan pursed her lips and said nothing.After a while, he took another sip of the porridge from the spoon, and said, "I want to be your driver."

Zhong Ning: "..."

Zhong Ning remembered that Zhang Weilan licked his face and said that he wanted to chase him... Zhong Ning poked his eyebrows with two fingers - he knew since he was a child that Zhang Weilan can tease people, only when the other party holds his hands when.

In other words, Zhang Weilan is extremely bad at taking the initiative.But Zhong Ning still didn't expect that this person would be so stupid when he lived to be almost 30 years old.

Zhong Ning scolded in his heart, "With your behavior, you can catch up with a fart."

Zhong Ning was too lazy to comment on the "driver".Zhang Weilan, beautiful is beautiful, but when she shows love to others, she is at the level of a disabled kindergarten.Literally, either cripple yourself, or be worse than a fart child.

Zhong Ning turned his head and glanced at Zhang Weilan, hating himself for being really crazy, why did he hang himself from this unlucky branch of a tree for all these years?

Zhong Ning didn't agree with each other, and Zhang Weilan couldn't figure out what to say, so he could only silently compete with the preserved egg and lean meat porridge.When Zhong Ning chased him back then, it was so natural, as if Zhong Ning was born to stand beside him.

How can I lose my strength if I switch positions?It's really a waste of mouth, the words are beautiful, but the claws are numb when doing it.

After Zhang Weilan cleaned up everything on the table, she raised her head and said to Zhong Ning: "I will be discharged from the hospital tomorrow."

Zhang Weilan eagerly looked at Zhong Ning: "Will you come tomorrow?"

Including the text message Zhang Weilan sent to Zhong Ning tonight, it's really not intentional hypocrisy.God is sorry, his lack of sense of security has long since been stimulated to the point where he is afraid that Zhong Ning will ignore him when he recovers from his illness.

Zhong Ning looked at Zhang Weilan silently for a moment, and did not reply directly, but asked, "Do you need my help with the discharge procedures?"

"You don't need to go through the discharge procedures." Zhang Weilan said in a low voice.

Nothing could be seen on Zhong Ning's face, not even the slightest expression.A trace of pain flashed in Zhang Weilan's black eyes: "You know, I want to see you. As I said, I can do anything, but I'm afraid you will hide from me."

——On this point, Zhong Ning has never given an accurate statement.

Zhong Ning frowned, and ground his molars: "Zhang Weilan, I found you..."

Yes, Zhang Weilan never had a conscience from her mother's womb, so she can't be like this bastard.Zhong Ning snorted neither softly nor hard, and couldn't help but said: "It's true that the world is easy to change, and the nature is hard to change. The old problem has reappeared, so I have to tell you personally?"

Zhong Ning: "Don't always put on a look of worrying about gains and losses for me. How do you respond to me? If I hide from you, I would have avoided it long ago, and I will stay in the hospital until today? Do you think I like to come here?"

Zhang Weilan was taken aback for a moment, and suddenly there was brilliance in his eyes.Zhang Weilan eagerly asked Zhong Ning: "You mean... are you willing to give me a chance?"

Zhang Weilan was afraid that she would be too imaginative, so she used ear-piercing as a trick, and quickly reached out to arrest people: "Speak clearly."

Zhong Ning quickly took a step back, avoiding Zhang Weilan's slender and beautiful hand.He narrowed his eyes and stared at Zhang Weilan carefully.

Looking at that face, he was both happy and anxious, and he was suddenly disappointed when he grabbed it with one hand.

Zhong Ningxin said: "Zhang Weilan is always in a mess and needs to be trained."

In Zhong Ning's [-]th year, he has long since lost his desperate youthful energy, and even so...if he still makes up his mind to jump into the fire pit again for Zhang Weilan, then at least... At least Zhang Weilan should be more obedient and cute.

"Let me ask you." Zhong Ning bent down slightly, and looked at Zhang Weilan, "Why do you want to get back together with me?"

"I......"

"Why can't you live without me? Why do you have to have me?" Zhong Ning asked again, "Because you have lived so long and I am the best one for you? Because you are too lonely alone, You want someone to rely on too much, and I am the only one who has given you support? Am I a life-saving straw?"

"no......"

"what is that?"

Zhang Weilan opened his mouth, but couldn't make a sound for a while, but Zhong Ning didn't wait for him, turned his face and walked out without looking back, and said lightly when he opened the door: "You should rest early."

Zhang Weilan was suddenly stunned.He was like a silly dog ​​who had been abandoned, lying on the road with rolling wheels, not daring to move, unable to find his master.

Did Zhong Ning want to hear what he had to say?

Zhang Weilan stared at the closed door, suddenly got off the bed, and pulled out the coat in the closet. ——He couldn't let Zhong Ning just leave like this.

Zhong Ning came out of the doctor's office, pedaled his Harley home, and was chilled by the night wind.

This is the first time Zhong Ning put Zhang Weilan down.If you want to rely on Zhang Weilan's bastard, the mud can't support the wall.

When Zhong Ning was waiting for the red light, he reached out his hand to touch his pocket. There was a mobile phone in it—he wondered when Zhang Weilan would call.

Blown all the way home by the cold wind, Zhong Ning parked his Harley in the downstairs garage, and just as he locked the garage door, his eyes were dazzled by two strands of headlights.

Zhong Ning stretched out his hand to block it, subconsciously tilted his head to look at it, and was immediately stunned.

Although I couldn't see it clearly, the car that was driving towards him... looked like an SUV, like the SUV that Zhang Weilan rented.

But shouldn't that car be parked at Dayi at this time?

It is Zhang Weilan's car.The car stopped in front of Zhong Ning, and then Zhong Ning saw Zhang Weilan open the driver's door and walk towards him.

The first month of the month is still very cold, and the bastard who is "discharged from the hospital tomorrow" opposite has only a layer of hospital gown under his coat.

Zhong Ning stared at Zhang Weilan: "Why did you come out?"

Because of the cold, Zhang Weilan pulled down his skirt: "I followed you all the way here."

Zhong Ning only thought that Zhang Weilan's mind was amused, and he asked in disbelief, "Why didn't you call me? Are you filming a TV series? Playing stalking?"

A gust of wind shattered Zhang Weilan's hair: "I was too anxious when I chased you out, only the car keys were in my coat pocket, and I forgot my mobile phone."

Zhong Ning: "..."

"It's too cold, come in first." Zhong Ning was almost killed by Zhang Weilan.It's really one thing and one thing, and one move is always lost.

The corridor wasn't very warm either, but Zhang Weilan was lucky this time, the elevator was on the first floor, so they didn't have to wait.

After entering the elevator, Zhong Ning took out the elevator card and asked, "Are all the nurses blind? Did you just let you come out of the hospital wearing a hospital uniform?"

There was a beep when the elevator card was swiped.

Zhang Weilan said: "I took advantage of no one's attention, went to the corridor on the first floor and opened the window, and sneaked out."

Zhong Ning's fingertips paused, then slightly retracted, and then they touched the nineteenth floor. ——Zhang Weilan really opened the window for him.

Although the nineteenth floor is considered a high-rise, the elevator went up quickly, and the sporadic time was far from enough for them to sort out their emotions.

The ashes that have been dead for more than eight years are being rekindled and resurrected.

Arriving at the nineteenth floor, Zhong Ning took out the key to open the door, and the door opened with a click.

In a high-end residential area, the heating is very good. As soon as the door was opened, the heat in the room rushed in. Zhong Ning turned his back to Zhang Weilan and said, "You...you come in first to warm up..."

"Zhong Ning." Zhang Weilan's voice pressed tightly behind Zhong Ning's ear, "The question you asked me before..."

"..." Zhong Ning sighed.He turned his head and met Zhang Weilan's eyes.The sensor lights went out, the light disappeared, and the darkness obscured each other's outlines in each other's eyes.

The atmosphere changed instantly.A certain critical point was suddenly cracked.

Zhang Weilan took a small step forward, and put his hand on Zhong Ning's shoulder.The door of the house was opened a small crack, and it was warm and cold outside the house, and everything was dark.Zhong Ning was standing in front of the door.

Zhang Weilan leaned over and kissed Zhong Ning.

Breaths can be heard rubbing gently into the air.

"You didn't push me this time." Zhang Weilan's voice was low and low, but it was still so obvious that a lot of joy could be heard.

This joy disturbed the silent sensor lamp, and the light suddenly came again.

Zhong Ning didn't raise his eyes to look at Zhang Weilan's face, he suddenly grabbed Zhang Weilan's arm, pulled him into the dark house, and kicked the door of the house at the same time.

Zhong Ning didn't turn on the light when he entered the house, dragged Zhang Weilan into the living room, and unceremoniously threw him on the sofa.

Zhang Weilan threw himself into a hole in the soft leather sofa, and before turning over, Zhong Ning pressed on him.

"Zhong Ning..."

Zhong Ning touched Zhang Weilan's face: "It's not just the question just now, I still have a lot to ask you."

The curtains in the living room were not drawn, and faint light penetrated through the floor-to-ceiling glass windows.The eyes gradually got used to the thin and ambiguous white light, and they could see each other vaguely but clearly.

"You said back then that you wanted to give me the best, but you only had the worst." Zhong Ning's voice was deep, "I ask you, do you have the best now?"

Zhang Weilan was silent for a while: "No."

"I still only have the worst," he said.

Zhong Ning paused for a moment, then asked again: "You said you would solve the problems one by one. Back then you were afraid, you felt guilty, you were afraid of your grandma, you were afraid of your Aunt Zhong, and you were afraid that you would ruin me. Now you are brave , are you not afraid?"

"Still, grandma is gone, and my mother is married and getting old, but we have grown up, you think she won't hit me anymore, can't hit me, and I always miss you, early It was destroyed by you, so you are not afraid anymore?"

"No...no." Zhang Weilan murmured.He lowered his head slightly, and whispered like a weak mosquito, "I'm still afraid."

"Since you are still a coward, and since nothing has changed after all these years." Zhong Ning approached Zhang Weilan, their noses were about to touch each other, "Then why do you insist on coming back to me?"

"Zhang Weilan." Zhong Ning tensed his voice, trying not to tremble with every word he said, "When we broke up, I said angry words, but I never blamed you. The most uncomfortable, most distressed Never blamed you."

Zhong Ning: "Because I understand everything. I understand you too well. I know you are afraid, and I know you dare not. I knew it a long time ago, from the day we were together."

Zhang Weilan felt a dull pain in her heart.He remembered the night of their first kiss, the same cold and dark winter night.

That was the time when the boy's heart was pounding, and love was sprouting in the most beautiful gesture at that time.Zhang Weilan had Zhong Ning's heavy heart in his pocket, but he only dared to ask cowardly and insecure: "Zhong Ning, why? I can't make a mistake?"

From the beginning to the end, even though he engraved Zhong Ning in this ill-fated life, he never turned a certain word into a sound and spit it out from his mouth.

He never said that word in the daytime and in the night like thousands of people in love.He has never made the most direct and simple confession.

"I'll ask you one last time." Zhong Ning's nose lightly touched Zhang Weilan's, just like when they were young, "Why did you come back to me?"

What happened to nothing?People who have nothing can also love and give.Because there must be a person in the world, that unique person, he is willing to be moved by the fragility of having nothing, he is willing to embrace the thin sense of security, he says he is willing.

For many years, Zhang Weilan treated herself as a piece of waste paper, rubbed it repeatedly, and it was covered with dirt.Those traces of pain will never be smoothed out, each of them is so ugly, but the word "Zhong Ning" just came together, what a beautiful word.

Zhang Weilan's chest throbbed violently, and he said the words that were ten years late.The words contained the torment of maturity, and the heat of youth, sweet to sour: "Because I love you."

Zhang Weilan: "It's not because I'm alone, it's not because you treat me the best. It's because I love you."

He said "love" countless times: "Without you, I will always be alone. Without you, I will never have anything to rely on again. I can't live without you."

Zhang Weilan stretched out her hand and hugged Zhong Ning in her arms: "You are not a straw, you are my everything. I love you, I only love you, I only want you."

——In the vast world, there is no one to match him.

Zhong Ning took a deep breath, he closed his eyes, his whole body fell apart in an instant, and his whole body fell on Zhang Weilan.

Yes.That's all he wanted to hear.This is enough.

What a miasma, what the past has turned into ashes, get the fuck out.What obstacles, what obstacles, what worldliness, just fall again.The sins committed will not be finished in this life, and they will be paid back in the next life. If there is a thunderbolt, they will go to hell forever.

Holding Zhang Weilan dirty and drowning in the muddy water is Zhong Ning's happiest ending.

"Okay." Zhong Ning said with his eyes closed.

Intense emotions can no longer be restrained, and mountains of swords and seas of fire can be pacified.

They took advantage of a sliver of light, kissed and hugged in the dark, and rolled from the sofa to the ground...

Earlier, Zhong Ning dug out an unopened bottle of honey from a corner, and just threw it on the coffee table. Zhang Weilan just brought it over and ruined the whole bottle.

Clothes are thrown on the floor, honey sticks to the floor.The smell of medicine on the patient's clothes was covered with warm sweetness.

……

"What are you doing?" Zhong Ning bit Zhang Weilan's shoulder hard.

Zhang Weilan grabbed a pillow from the side and placed it on Zhong Ning's back.His palm supported the back of Zhong Ning's head, and he stopped there refusing to move: "Tell me, how did you know about my gastric ulcer?"

Zhong Ning couldn't help but roll his eyes: "...you stop asking this now?"

"I want to know. I really want to." Zhang Weilan's breath was so heavy that Zhong Ning's whole body was soft.

Zhong Ning had no choice but to disarm: "The day after I saw you, I asked a friend in the hospital to ask. I saw you go to the doctor alone..."

"I don't worry about you...you are slow...ah..."

Master Zhong will no longer be in the mood to speak.