Dip in fire

Zhong Ning's brain was completely paralyzed, he rubbed his forehead wearily: "What are you going crazy about?"

The light in the ward quietly fell on Zhong Ning's head, forming a fluffy white halo on his jet-black hair. Zhang Weilan narrowed his eyes, looked at the light, and said cautiously: "You know what I'm crazy about."

"..." Zhong Ning stared at Zhang Weilan, not knowing what to do.

He was speechless when Zhang Weilan opened his mouth to provoke him again: "But you don't want to say it this time, you don't need to say a word, I will say it."

——Every time before, it was Zhang Weilan who listened to Zhong Ning, and it was Zhang Weilan who listened to Zhong Ning's confession.

Zhang Weilan looked into Zhong Ning's eyes, no matter how many years, there will always be light in those eyes.That's what Zhang Weilan will yearn for all his life: "Zhong Ning, let's make up, okay?"

"I want to be with you the same as before." Zhang Weilan didn't expect that he would be able to do so. He said a total of 21 words, which made his eyes water.

Is not sick, people's tolerance will decline?

No, Zhang Weilan couldn't bear it because Zhong Ning was by his side when he was sick.

Zhong Ning was silent for a long time, his lips trembled, and the wound on the corner of his mouth was painful.

"Don't say it. Don't say it first. Listen to me." Zhang Weilan slowly breathed a sigh of relief, "I didn't dare to come back in the first few years after we separated. I was afraid of seeing you. But in the past two years, I will come back when I have time. I want to find you, but I'm afraid I won't find you, and I'm afraid I'll die."

Zhong Ning gritted his back molars, and said in his heart, "So you have reached your limit in the past few years, and now you can't survive alone?"

"I have searched many times in the old city, but I can't find anything, not only you, but the previous... I can't find anything." Zhang Weilan's voice became weaker, "I called you Phone. I lived so close when I was a kid that I didn't even know your email address."

Zhong Ning lowered his eyes, unable to meet Zhang Weilan's eyes: "I seldom go to the old town after I moved, and my phone number has long since changed."

Zhong Ning said dryly, "I also forgot which year it was changed."

"So that yard is gone, so I can't find you." Zhang Weilan stopped looking at Zhong Ning, he found that Zhong Ning didn't want to be watched by him all the time.

Zhang Weilan simply closed his eyes and turned off his vision—otherwise he would always look at Zhong Ning: "I just thought, what if you are not in this city anymore after graduating from university? The world is so big, I can't even find it." is you."

"Stop talking about it." Zhong Ning finally dragged the stool aside and sat down beside Zhang Weilan's hospital bed.

Zhang Weilan was obedient and did not continue.Even though he didn't continue talking, he definitely wouldn't give up. Zhang Weilan turned around and asked Zhong Ning, "Have you ever looked for me?"

Zhong Ning saw Zhang Weilan open his eyes, and heard Zhang Weilan begging him stubbornly and asked again: "Have you looked for it? Have you looked for it?"

"..." Zhong Ning sighed, "I looked for it."

Zhong Ning: "A few days after you left, I called you and wanted to tell you that the house of the little cats was demolished and they wandered elsewhere, so please stop wandering and come back quickly. But I didn't get through. "

Zhang Weilan's breathing was stagnant, and her eyes were wet again.

"I looked for it later." Zhong Ning thought about it, and now he still doesn't understand why he was so stupid at the time, "One year...the year Azure just opened, and I went to the grave on the fifteenth day of the first month of that year. Grandpa Zhang’s grave has been waiting all morning.”

"Isn't it cold?" Zhang Weilan asked.

"Cold." Zhong Ning frowned, and scolded Zhang Weilan lightly, "Why didn't you even give your grandfather's grave?"

"I have never dared to go, so I went there once when I was leaving." Tears flowed from the corner of Zhang Weilan's right eye, dripping from the edge of the mole, "I am afraid that grandpa will scold me in a dream when he sees that I am worthless."

"Grandpa Zhang used to scold you in a dream?" Zhong Ning rolled his eyes sideways, and was short of breath by Zhang Weilan's tears, as if sitting on needle felt with a thorn in his heart.

That mole of tears...it used to be difficult to cry.If you cry, you won't cry easily for others to see.

"Call me often." Zhang Weilan said, "Call me an asshole, call me a deserter, and break up with you."

Zhong Ning opened his mouth and lost his voice again.

"Did you still look for me?" Seeing that Zhong Ning was silent, Zhang Weilan asked shallowly.He didn't use too much force when asking questions, maybe he was too sick, or maybe he really didn't dare to use force.

"No." Zhong Ning stared at the toe of his shoe, he had already wiped off the previous blood stains, "Then the house was demolished, the house was moved, and the entire three-way street was gone, so I knew we were really done for."

"It's not over." Zhang Weilan said quickly, "It's not over."

Zhong Ning took a deep breath and said, but his voice was still a little shaky: "Impossible."

"Why is it impossible?" Zhang Weilan suddenly got anxious and wanted to get up from the bed, "You blame me? But you clearly still care about me."

"Lie down." Zhong Ning quickly pressed his shoulders, pushed him back to the bed, frowned and adjusted the infusion tube, "The doctor told you to lie down."

Zhang Weilan grabbed Zhong Ning's hand.Zhang Weilan had a needle stuck in the back of his hand, and Zhong Ning's temple throbbed, afraid that Zhang Weilan would swell the needle, so he said in a low voice, "Let go of your hand."

Zhang Weilan naturally refused.

Zhong Ning really wanted to throw Zhang Weilan off the bed: "I'll say it again, let go of your hand, and you're still getting an injection."

Zhang Weilan then slowly let go of Zhong Ning's hand.Zhang Weilan pinched Zhong Ning's hand around his neck before, and it hurt again after squeezing it.

Zhong Ning shook his wrist and stood up from the stool.

"Don't go. I'll listen to you. If I don't move, don't go." Zhang Weilan said quickly.

Zhong Ning couldn't bear it anymore, he was so annoyed by the feeble begging, he pointed at the tip of Zhang Weilan's nose, gritted his teeth and said: "Look at you now..."

"Then you still care about me." Zhang Weilan stepped forward and began to list the evidence weakly, "The name of the bar is Azure, you will take the initiative to send text messages to care about my body, you don't want me to drink liquor, you don't want me to smoke, now you are still there In the hospital, by my side, this proves that you care about me and you haven't forgotten me."

"I..." Zhong Ning was about to lose his breath, "I...you...you haven't had a shadow for eight years, and if you pop out all of a sudden, you'll die. What do you want me to do? Can I bear it? I'll throw you on the street to die, don't you ask?"

Now Zhong Ning also wants to vomit blood and feel comfortable - Zhang Weilan has been known to him since birth, is his relative, is his first love, Zhong Ning has given Zhang Weilan countless first times.

The first time to snatch a toy from someone, the first time to grab a snack from someone, the first time to fight for favor, the first time to see someone who is not pleasing to the eye, the first time to feel like a knife, the first time to be heartbroken, confession, jealousy, kissing ...

Zhong Ning has lived until now, and he has loved Zhang Weilan with all his heart and soul.Zhang Weilan is his entire youth, his growth, good and bad, part of his life.

And Zhang Weilan said this in such a fragile tone, isn't this digging his heart?

This bastard just dug: "So, you still have me in your heart. I still have time."

"You are simply..." Zhong Ning begged God to send a thunderbolt, and simply kill him and Zhang Weilan together.

Perhaps because of talking too much, Zhang Weilan felt sad again, bowed up and looked sick, Zhong Ning hated him enough.

"...Is it uncomfortable? You have to lie on your back, don't move around. Hold on, I'll call the doctor." Zhong Ning turned around and was about to go out to call for someone.

Zhang Weilan stretched out his hand to grab Zhong Ning's clothes again. He pinched Zhong Ning's clothes, his Adam's apple moved up and down, his face was pale, and his eyes were red: "I'm fine. Don't go."

"Don't go", "Don't go", this is never what Zhang Weilan should say.Zhang Weilan's sickness and death were too lethal to Zhong Ning, and Zhong Ning found that he had become used to the pain of Zhang Weilan.

No, it's not a habit, a habit can be changed with a bit of effort, it's something wrong with him.The disease is deep into the bone marrow, and there is no cure for medicine and stone.

"Give me another chance. This time I will go to Aunt Zhong and say, I promise, no matter what happens, I will never run away again. I promise that I will protect you this time, and I will protect you well. I swear. "Zhang Weilan gently pulled Zhong Ning's clothes corner again, it is shameful to swear poisonously with this begging action, "If I lie to you, I will be hacked into pieces and I will die a bad death."

Zhong Ning turned around, Zhang Weilan's hand was loosened, and her arm was hanging alone on the bed.

"You don't need to talk like that, let alone swear." Zhong Ning held his clothes by his side, "You never lied to me."

"Then why? Since you believe me, why do you still say it's impossible?" Zhang Weilan insisted on asking clearly.

Zhong Ning scratched her hair irritably: "Zhang Weilan, there is no 'reconciliation as before' or 'same as before' in this world, do you understand?"

"You know how many things can be changed in eight years." Zhong Ning said with difficulty, "You have changed, I have changed, we have all changed, the past is the past, and it cannot be brought back."

Zhang Weilan stared at Zhong Ning, but didn't make a sound.

Zhang Weilan knew that what Zhong Ning said was right, the relationship was broken and lost, and the gap of so many years would not be so cheap that a few words could make up for it.

But he still thought unreasonably: "What's the matter with the change? What's the matter with the past? The changed me still wants the changed you, what's impossible?"

If Zhong Ning didn't dare to move forward, that's okay, this time, let him give everything.Even if his "everything" is just so despicable that it is unsightly, even if he can only crawl forward helplessly, he is willing.No matter how difficult it is, until he climbs to Zhong Ning's side.As long as he crawls to Zhong Ning's side...

The door of the ward was knocked three times, and the nurse came in: "Hello, let me measure the patient's heart rate and blood pressure. Also, the patient needs to rest more, and it is best to keep quiet."

"You should rest first." Zhong Ning didn't dare to look at Zhang Weilan again, so he turned and walked out.

This time Zhang Weilan didn't shout "Don't go", he stared at Zhong Ning's back, regardless of the presence of the nurse, and asked directly: "Are you coming tomorrow?"

Zhong Ning: "..."

"Come here?" Zhang Weilan asked again.

Zhong Ning didn't turn his head, opened the door, and dropped a weak word: "Come..."

After a while, the nurse came out after checking and found Zhong Ning sitting outside the door and hadn't left yet.The nurse froze for a moment, and said to Zhong Ning, "Sir, if you want to accompany me overnight, you can rent a companion bed for resting."

"Well, thank you." Zhong Ning answered absently.

But he never entered the ward, let alone rented an accompanying bed.The nurse came to see Zhang Weilan several times in the middle of the night, but she could always see Zhong Ning sitting outside.But as I said before, the nurse couldn't say anything more, let alone ask more questions, so Zhong Ning just sat outside the door for most of the night.