[full-time master] bitter lovesickness

Since the start of the No.16 season, except for the first week, Xingxin has used a strong posture to contract the headlines.In the past few weeks, the focus was only on the super rookies and the overall victory in the group arena, but in recent weeks, the titles have changed again, generally becoming: "Who Can Stop Xingxin's Rookie Pace", "Xingxin Super Rookies: Best Rookie or Most Valuable Player? "

Halfway through the regular season, Xingxin is still undefeated. Compared with the previous season when it stumbled into the playoffs, it is many times stronger. Among them, Xingxin's rookie is a big contributor, with excellent operations and a good face Let him quickly become the darling of all new media, and even the popularity of the All-Star Game has increased. In the end, he surpassed Sun Xiang with a slight advantage and became No. 1. Xingxin also won the top five finalists. With a high probability, it will become the team with the most All-Stars in history.

This season's All-Stars was hosted by Tiny Herb, and Ye Qiu had contacted him online, hoping that he could come to Ye's house again, so Team Xingxin arrived in City B a whole day earlier. The team was on vacation, and most of them chose to go out for a walk, but Ye Xiu stayed in the hotel and played games as usual. In the end, Fang Rui couldn't stand it anymore and kicked him out.

"Long-term use of computers by minors will affect development."

Although Ye Xiu really wanted to refute, but under this cover, he had to admit that what Fang Rui said was very reasonable, and he couldn't refute it at all.

There is a big peripheral store near the hotel. The decoration is very good and the storefront is attractive enough. Ye Xiu really didn't know where to go at this time, so he simply found a pair of sunglasses and went into this peripheral shop to go shopping. .

There are a lot of things, from poster uniforms to key chain bookmarks, everything, and the decoration is very delicate, you can see that the owner is very careful, because it is morning, there are not many people in the store, only a few female shop assistants received him with a smile , there was a bit of inquiry in his eyes, which made Ye Xiu push his glasses a few times with a guilty conscience. After all, today is different, he is now the focus of the media, unlike the previous Ye Qiu period.

While watching, a person walked into the door, Ye Xiu took a closer look, isn't this Zhang Jiale?

Although I heard Su Mucheng say it a few times before, I probably guessed that Zhang Jiale probably opened a store in City B to do business, but I didn't expect such a coincidence that it was this store he walked into.After thinking about it, he still felt that he should pretend to be a good junior to say hello, so he took off his sunglasses and said, "Senior Zhang Jiale, long time no see."

Zhang Jiale was a little surprised at first, but immediately thought that the time for the All-Stars was approaching, so he felt that there was nothing strange about it. Instead, the girls beside him were stunned for two seconds, and then they looked like wolves in love with sheep and wanted to rush come over.

Zhang Jiale hurriedly dragged him into his office on the second floor, turned his head and said jokingly, "You are so popular, Comrade Ye Xiao." Ye Xiu also raised his eyebrows indifferently, "Xiaosheng didn't want to, but Xiaosheng Naturally beautiful, the jade tree faces the wind..."

Zhang Jiale's teeth almost fell from the acid.

"Since Comrade Ye Jiu is so outstanding, he probably wouldn't mind doing me a little favor, senior."

Ye Xiu suddenly had an ominous premonition.

Zhang Jiale took out a stack of Ye Jiu's posters from a pile of other things on the side, and said, "Come on, sign the posters, your posters are always sold out now, with your signature, now at least one piece is two hundred and five." .”

"This pricing seems to be mocking my IQ...senior." But Ye Xiu also seriously took out a signature pen from the pen holder on the table, and really opened the posters one by one and started to sign.

Zhang Jiale was a little surprised. In fact, he was joking. He was just thinking of teasing children, and he didn't expect him to agree. What's more, he was really not short of so much money now.In his memory, children of this age should be a little proud, prefer to blow their hair, a little childish.

What's more, he has been shining brightly in the arena recently, and his reputation has been unparalleled for a while, so in Zhang Jiale's thinking, Ye Jiu should be more or less like Sun Xiang.

Zhang Jiale started to look at his autograph when he was completely absorbed.

His hands are beautiful, just like that man.Zhang Jiale thought.

His handwriting is okay too, exactly the same as that person.

……

Exactly the same?

In the tenth season, Xingxin released an autograph collection. Zhang Jiale bought four copies by himself when it was released, and secretly picked up the courier at the gate of Tyranny.After Ye Xiu passed away, he also saw a copy in Han Wenqing's room. It wasn't pressed at the bottom of the box like him, but it was placed in a pile of books above the computer desk openly.

Zhang Jiale suddenly understood the difference between the two of them.

No matter how strong he is on the surface, he is still a little fragile in essence. He will be afraid of some things and have many, many scruples, otherwise the eighth season will not decide to retire.But Han Wenqing was different, he was persistent, tough, even stubborn.

Zhang Jiale understood.

But that didn't stop him from loving Ye Xiu.He can also engrave every line of Ye Xiu's page in the autograph book in his heart, so now he just stares straight at Ye Jiu's strokes, and returns to those late nights in a daze. The years when a person touches that name alone.

How can it be exactly the same?The style can be manipulated and even...the face can be used, but how can the handwriting be the same?If Ye Xiu had such a good complexion, or if he practiced intoxication, there might be some truth, but the key point is that Ye Xiu's handwriting is nothing special, nothing special.

So... why on earth

There are not many posters in this stack, Ye Xiu finished writing them in a while, and was about to say something to Zhang Jiale, but when he turned his head, he saw Zhang Jiale looking at him dully, he raised his hand in front of his eyes and waved, Zhang Jiale Only then did Rumeng wake up and glance at him.

It was difficult for Ye Xiu to describe Zhang Jiale's expression at that moment, he was surprised, bewildered, disappointed and sad, as if all kinds of emotions were mixed into it. For example, he felt that this guy might not have been so sad when he was in Wuya.

He suddenly felt distressed.

"I've finished signing for you, so at least you have to give me some dividends, right? I'm not in a hurry, you can just pay our lady boss's account. It's almost noon, so I'm leaving today."

Zhang Jiale watched him put down his pen and walk towards the door, the scene in his eyes suddenly changed to Ye Xiu walking away gradually.

He suddenly collapsed.

He really couldn't bear the pain of losing Ye Xiu again...People who have never cried for a long night are not enough to talk about life, but those who have cried for a long night often have various shortcomings in their lives. The reason why they take things lightly is not because they are stronger.

It's numbness.They have tasted the sharper pain, and they have lost the people they care about more, so they become indifferent and deserted.Zhang Jiale struggled with this kind of life alone for several years before he finally understood that those who died for love were cowardly, and those who survived were the truly capable people.

Because they have to face so many memories, but the protagonist in the memories is no longer there, they have to really taste the tastes of the world.When you see something like this, you will think of him, when you are eating, you will think of him, and all the details of life will remind you of him, but...you can't find him.

It's like having a small knife, you can cut it anytime, anywhere, you can't find the wound, but it hurts, so day by day, year by year, when you finally have time to look at yourself, It has already been scarred, and even the road to come is full of bloodstains.

How painful that must be.

Zhang Jiale once wanted to die.But he felt that this was too irresponsible. He was the only child in the family, and he couldn't leave his parents behind.And...he thought, if the legendary reincarnation really didn't exist in this world, he would think about Ye Xiu and love him as long as he lived.

But he really couldn't take it anymore.Every time he went to Ye Xiu's tomb, he always thought that it would be better if he bumped his head into it.But reason stopped him again, so Zhang Jiale became a lunatic wandering in thoughts of life and death.

He looked at Ye Jiu's back, and one self in his heart said, This is not Ye Xiu, Ye Xiu is dead, while the other self said, He looks so much like Ye Xiu, from personality to handwriting, maybe the two of them have similarities What's the matter?

Zhang Jiale almost couldn't help but hugged him from behind.After all, Ye Jiu is still a young man who is growing up. He is a little shorter than him. His head is just a little lower and can be placed on his shoulders. He trembled more.

At this moment, Ye Jiu...is Ye Xiu.

"Ye Xiu...don't go. Please. Please. Please."

Then he cried so hard that he couldn't speak.Five years of pain and nostalgia seemed to have exploded at this moment. The body in his arms was warm, and what he was facing was no longer the cold tombstone.

Zhang Jiale felt that he should say something, but now he could only cry, only cry, he didn't know what to do.Countless images swirled and rotated in my mind, but they were only frozen on one old frame.It was Sun Zheping's fifth season when he was injured and retired, and Hundred Blossoms was facing an unprecedented crisis. In the first round of the regular season after Sun Zheping left, against Excellent Era, Hundred Blossoms almost got nothing.

At that time, he was really depressed. He remembered that after the match, the two teams met in the player corridor. Ye Xiu patted the back of his hand and smiled at him.At that time, I was young and energetic, and I always thought that smile might express the joy of victory, but after thinking about it...it turns out that he has always been such a gentle person.

Zhang Jiale once asked himself, do you regret it?Do you regret it?Have you ever been so unwilling to say a word of love to yourself?Zhang Jiale thought about it carefully, but he was very calm, this was his own personal choice, not to mention regret or regret.I just think of that summer, in the dark corridor, someone once smiled at him so gently, which warmed his life for many years.

Still heartbroken.

What is death?Death means farewell, it means never seeing each other again, it means I can only miss you, it means I will be without you in the years to come, it means... no matter how beautiful the world is in the future, you won’t be able to see it, and I can’t afford to love it.

Ye Xiu, I really hate you.

But I love you too.