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If you ask Li Jian when is the time she least wants to recall, Li Jian will answer, elementary school to the second year of junior high school.

That should be the darkest time in his life. For eight years, the classmates avoided him, the teachers were indifferent and alienated, and there was even an unconcealable sarcasm in their eyes. His father... was missing During that time, mother, when she was running around in her love and enjoying the right she should have in love, she forgot the responsibility she should take.

Little Li Jian lived so alone, outside of "normal people", watching others laugh and listening to others cry, until the second year of junior high, Shi Fan's family moved to the city where Li Jian lived.Because of some origins from the previous generation, Li Jian had such a lively, "justice and peace" patron saint as Shi Fan, such a talking companion.

He seems to have just returned to the team of "normal people".

Li Jian's reliance on Shi Fan was not accidental or sudden, but the result of slowly accumulating during that period.

After graduating from junior high school, Shi Fan's family moved again. Fortunately, Li Jian came with them to a completely new city and started a brand new life.

But the harm caused by that period of time can never be healed. Li Jian hid him under the delicacy of cookies and the fragrance of flowers, but he also suffered from labor pain from time to time.

It was a scar that didn't heal.

But now someone wants to uncover this scar again, and let it be presented bloody in front of the spectators.

After the link was opened, it was a post on a local forum. The title was very sensational, but it really caught people's attention.

Lj from XX University is the one who suddenly raped the alumni association recently. It turns out that his mother is a shameless mistress, and he is an illegitimate child who can't see the light!

The content of the post below gave several identity information, "explained" some "severe information" that the host did not know where to get, and posted a photo of Li Jian's junior high school graduation.

Although the identity information is very vague, and even though the eyes of the graduation photo were mosaiced, many people still guessed the protagonist of this "crazy story" in the first place.

----It turned out to be him, a famous weirdo in the study abroad circle.

----The matter of entering the alumni association is also very strange. I think it is because of this Lj's ability that he has no background and no relationship. Who would believe it!

----+1.

Of course, the content is not one-sided, and there are also those who help Li Jian to refute, reprimanding the host for casually revealing other people's privacy.

But their reprimands and rebuttals were ignored intentionally or unintentionally, and they were submerged in the ocean of "Oh, that's it" and "I'll just say it". You should just hide in a mouse hole for the rest of your life."

Although the afternoon sun is not as hot as the noon, it is still warm, but under the sun, Li Jian feels a burst of coldness. The coldness is not brought by the outside world, but from Li Jian's bones Inside, from Li Jian's internal organs.

He held the phone tightly, looking at every reply below like masochistic.

He originally thought that his life had turned a new chapter, and he came to work as an assistant to the alumni association just to change it little by little.But this post seems to tell him clearly: no matter what you are now, as long as others see your past, then you are still the cowardly Li Jian who lives in the shadows.

He wanted to leave here, go back to the warm-toned home that he had carefully arranged, to see the pleasing flowers and plants, to touch the smooth fur of coal diggers, to cook a pot of soup, but his feet were like It was cast on the ground and could not be moved.

why......

When Shi Fan returned home, he saw that there was no light in the house, and there was no familiar smell of food.

"Little Jane, haven't you come home yet?" Shi Fan was puzzled, "It's so late, where did you go?" Thinking of a possibility, Shi Fan shuddered fiercely, "Could it be possible to become mine? Little aunt has gone..."

Open the door and turn on the light.

"Wow!" Shi Fan was taken aback by Li Jian who was sitting on the sofa, "Little Jane, what are you doing? Why don't you turn on the light and just sit there."

Li Jian was sitting on the sofa with a butter-shaped pillow in her arms, her eyes were dazed and dazed.

Seeing that something was wrong with Li Jian, Shi Fan put down his backpack and touched it: "What's the matter, little Jane, why is there such an expression?" Shi Fan stretched out his hand and waved in front of Li Jian's eyes, hoping that he would give some reaction.

But it was Li Jian's cell phone that responded.

The screen of the phone was facing upwards. After a push, Li Jian wanted to take the phone, but Shi Fan grabbed the phone in his hand before Li Jian.

"The landlord continued to talk! We insiders analyzed it and think that Lj is probably clinging..." Shi Fan finished watching, "What the hell is behind this!"

Needless to say, the content of the post is roughly that Li Jian got the job of student assistant by relying on Mr. Mu, who is the chairman of the alumni association. He also attached a photo of Mr. Mu and Li Jian, which is from an ambiguous angle. unclear.

The more Shi Fan looked at it, the more angry he became: "What kind of mess is this? What kind of a bird is this 'Flirty Hahaha' landlord? What kind of nonsense is written?!"

"Afan, are you hungry?" Li Jian asked aloud.

"Why are you hungry? I'm full." Shi Fan's face was ugly, "You just sit here and look at such rubbish things?"

"I...can't control myself..." Li Jian pinched the corner of the butter pillow.

Maybe this is a crime/badness. I know what content will hurt me, but I can't help but look at it, to see how disgusting this person can be.

Although Shi Fan was very angry, he could understand it, but he couldn't help being angry: "Little Jane, what are you thinking? You see so many slanderous and nonsense in this post, don't you want to refute it?" ? Just sitting here?"

"Refutation...refutation, is it useful?" Li Jian was at a loss, he looked at Shi Fan, this question seemed to be asking him, but it seemed to be asking himself.

Back then, he also refuted the elementary school, and what he got was more and more serious cold violence.

The junior high school also refuted: "I am not an illegitimate child, and my mother is not the mistress you call me." But in exchange, a terrible school violence, even after well-meaning people saw it and called the police, all they got was those people and Their parents apologized mockingly, and the teachers became increasingly discriminatory.

Shi Fan looked at the innocent and pitiful Li Jian, and knew that he had fallen into a misunderstanding and the darkness brought about by the violence. It was not just a problem of character, but a blurred subconscious mind, like a protective mechanism. Later, Li Jian went to see a psychiatrist, accompanied by Shi Fan, but this kind of psychological trauma was too serious, and even now it has not been completely cured, so when this kind of thing happened, Li Jian retreated into it .

Although Shi Fan was distressed, he mourned his misfortune and was angry with him. It is indeed a "good medicine" to hide and escape in his own world, but it does not cure the root cause: "You are different now! If you don't think for yourself, You also have to think about it for the person you like! He is being discredited with you and described as a wretched and lustful person. Don’t you feel distressed? Do you want to keep running away like this? Even if you walk out Your current state is good, do you understand? Little Jane, don't run away. "

"Mr. Mu?" Li Jian came to his senses a little bit, "Mr. Mu."

From which chaotic state his consciousness was slightly withdrawn.

Shi Fan said angrily: "Yes, your Mr. Mu, Mr. Mu who is like a breeze and bright moon in your description, is being scolded right now!"

Here, Shi Fan actually lied. Many people saw the photo of Mr. Mu, and most of them were sighing: why is he a g/a/y, or nympho said that he is so handsome.

But these words were like a basin of cold water, waking up Li Jian who was "pretending to be asleep". He frowned, shook his head vigorously, and threw out all the fog in his mind.

He seemed to wake up suddenly from ignorance, his eyes were clear, although there was a little bit of pain, but he was not the person sleeping in the shell.

the reason is simple.

Yes, I can't let Mr. Mu get scolded with me!He is so beautiful, he should not be the object of ridicule, nor should he be wronged like this, even if it is in a place where he cannot see.

Seeing Li Jian's appearance, Shi Fan was relieved and angry at the same time, why did Mr. Mu wake you up!If I accidentally fell into this state before, I wouldn't be able to react at all every three to five days!

The author has something to say: I haven’t read it for so long, but I found a collection, okay?