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"Don't propose to me, may I ask you to put it away?"

This sentence pierced her heart like a knife, Ruan Mu almost resisted not to attack, "..." When she raised her hand to press the box down, she felt that she had used the tact and patience she had cultivated in the workplace all these years. All consumed in this moment.

Right now, what Ruan Mu wanted to say and what she wanted to do in her heart was completely suppressed. It was her last self-esteem not to question the other party in front of a group of people. Ruan Mu didn't say anything, only heard " With a sound of "snap", she took the box back, and put aside the thoughts she had sent out just now.

The meal was boring, and Jing Han saw Ruan Mu's reaction, with obvious self-blame and uneasiness in her eyes, but Jing Han seemed to be struggling with some of her own problems at this time, and did not try to break the calm.

The two did not speak all the way.

But after the car stopped at the door of the house, "I want to talk to you," Ruan Mu's voice sounded a little cold. She glanced at Jing Han, opened her door, and walked in.

……

The atmosphere was very awkward.

Jing Han was restlessly sitting on the sofa in the living room, while Ruan Mu was leaning against the counter in the open kitchen not far away. Both of them seemed to be in a bad mood.

But unexpectedly, it was Jing Han who spoke first at this time, "," she softly called Ruan Mu's name, and looked up at him, "I'm sorry, I know you made a lot of determination to propose to me , I know very well in my heart that this is all my problem, I can't do it myself..."

"What can't you do?" Ruan Mu didn't accept her apology, and suddenly interrupted her in a cold voice.

"You can't marry me, or can't make our relationship go further, or can't love only one person for the rest of your life, what can you not do?" Ruan Mu asked the question very directly.

Jing Han's eyes were full of anxiety, she opened her mouth to speak, but stopped because she didn't know where to start.

Her reaction made Ruan Mu even worse, "I don't know what you are afraid of, why don't you tell me directly, don't keep silent like this." Ruan Mu looked at her, his voice was empty The room looked a little big.

"You know how much I hate getting married. I never thought about getting married before I met you. I think it's just for other people to see. But I do start thinking about it now. I'm in Work on the relationship between the two of us."

"I'm not trying to force you to marry me today. Of course I know you're a celibate. I just don't understand where your reaction comes from. What are you afraid of?"

"I even said that even if I get the identity, you can ask for a divorce. Did I put too much pressure on you?" Ruan Mu seemed to recall the scene just now, and his voice became unsteady again. .

"I didn't realize until now that I didn't understand you either," Ruan Mu looked at her with disappointment in his eyes.

"The moment you rejected me just now, you were so panicked that you even took your hands away," Ruan Mu's eyes slowly turned red, "Do you have to be so obvious?"

……

Jing Han looked up at her, and Ruan Mu's sadness obviously made her feel extremely sour, "I'm sorry, I don't want to do that either," her voice lowered involuntarily, "I know I have a problem, and I know that this is right. You're not being fair, but I really couldn't control it, at that moment I knew I should be touched, but all I felt was panic."

"Suet, tell me directly, are you afraid that I will limit your possibilities with others?" Ruan Mu asked without hesitation, biting his lip.

"I never thought about the possibility of being with anyone, and it's even more impossible after dating you. Don't misunderstand me like this," Jing Han's tone was a little anxious. She seemed to have something to say, but said not come out.

"I'm sorry..." She could only apologize, with a tear in her tone.

"..." Ruan Mu just looked at her, and the circles of his eyes gradually turned red.

After those brief and tortured seconds, Jing Han finally spoke out, "I'm afraid that one day I will still feel that it's better to be single, do you understand?"

Jing Han didn't want to say it at first, but she knew that this sentence would hurt Ruan Mu even more, she almost cried, her voice trembling slightly, "But I don't have any intention of breaking up with you, so please don't force me to Until then."

"..."

Ruan Mu looked straight at her, the emotions in her eyes were empty, she lowered her voice, "I just want to help you solve the problem, I don't understand why you treat me like this."

"I know, but getting married is not the right way to solve this problem," Jing Han anxiously raised her voice.

"It turns out that for you, you would rather go to jail than marry me?" Ruan Mu kept biting this tone, and she felt that this answer made her even more disappointed.

"Is going to prison more serious than our separation? Do you really think from the bottom of your heart that marriage is more beneficial to our relationship?" Jing Han looked at her with red eyes, and finally her tone became a little firmer.

Ruan Mu suddenly stopped talking, "..."

It turned out that the center of the contradiction throughout the night was here.

After the real quarrel came out, the emotions of the two finally calmed down a bit.

Jing Han stood up from the sofa and walked up to Ruan Mu. She lowered her eyes and moved her lips, "No couple in this world is perfect."

"Although we all have some problems, although you and I are not perfect, I want to be with you, and this matter will not change in any way," Jing Han said in a low voice, "The most important thing is, I never thought Isn't it the most important thing to leave you?"

"You're right, I'm panicking, but you don't know what I'm panicking about," Jing Han looked into Ruan Mu's eyes, his eyes trembling with emotion, "I didn't expect that I would react like that, but in my heart I know exactly what kind of reaction you want, so at that moment I was very scared, I don’t know why I can’t be like a normal person... I was moved to cry like a normal person, accept your heart and make you happy.”

"I'm thinking again if I'm like this all my life, will you let me go because of it..."

Ruan Mu took a breath, her eyes turned red, "I didn't say I would let you go," she looked at Jing Han, and repeated in a low voice, "I never said I would let you go because of this matter .”

"sorry,"

Jing Han bit her lips after hearing that sentence, "Give me some time, I will try to change it slowly," she suddenly burst into tears, "Sorry, I don't know what is right , give me some time."

"Don't cry."

Ruan Mu's heart ached, and he raised his arms to hug her, "Don't cry, I understand," her heart was full of pity and bitterness.

"But I don't know if I can make it to that time," Ruan Mu said suddenly, "..." A look of anxiety flashed in Jing Han's eyes, and Ruan Mu hooked his lips helplessly, "Give me some time, too. It's not something you do alone."

"..."

After a while, Ruan Mu smiled wryly again, "As for the question you just asked, I really don't think getting married will be more beneficial to our relationship," she touched Jing Han's face, her eyes still a little bit Depressed mood, "I just think that my love can't be cured by you, but I didn't expect that yours has not been cured, and I am very disappointed."

When she saw what Jing Han wanted to say, she put her fingertips on her thin lips, and Ruan Mu smiled faintly, "But you are right, nothing is more serious than the separation between us, I will give you time , have been waiting for you to let you take your time, as long as you are still by my side."

"Don't cry, we'll think of another way to deal with your case," Ruan Mu sighed, and kissed Jing Han on the face.

"Yeah." Jing Han lowered his eyes.

Suddenly, a thought flashed through Ruan Mu's head for some reason, she frowned and said, "Wait, I seem to have a good idea, no, I don't know if it's a good idea."

"Huh?" Jing Han frowned, the tears in the corners of Jing Han's eyes hadn't dried yet.

"Go ask Ruth to have a meal." Ruan Mu said.

"..."

They had just had a quarrel, and Ruan Mu's words made Jing Han feel uneasy again, "Ruan Mu, don't be like this... I just said it, I never thought of being different from other people. possibility."

"No, no," Ruan Mu shook her head, rolled her eyes, and said solemnly, "I mean it, you should talk to her."