under the rose

Fu Xingyun's first reaction was to tilt his head away, but Wen Shichuan bit his lower lip lightly as if playing tricks. As soon as he tried to dodge, his lips were bitten by Wen Shichuan's teeth.He didn't hide anymore, because of the stimulation of spicy oil and eye drops, his eyes were still secreting physiological tears. This was a wet and rusty kiss.

Fu Xingyun couldn't open his eyes, so he could only close them, his lower back was pressed against the edge of the sink, and it hurt so much.There was a bit of helpless anger in Wen Shichuan's kiss, the kiss made Fu Xingyun keep retreating, he took one step back, Wen Shichuan was about to advance three steps, the kiss made Fu Xingyun's jaw sour, and he couldn't help panting heavily.

It was finally over, Wen Shichuan leaned his head on Fu Xingyun's shoulder, panted and said, "Don't talk to me like that."

Fu Xingyun pushed his head away and said, "You can't talk to me like that."

Wen Shichuan wanted to pull his hand, but Fu Xingyun squinted his eyes, managed to open them a little, shook him off, wanted to go out, but almost tripped over the toilet, Wen Shichuan wanted to pull him again, and he wanted to shake him again. , the two of them walked out of the bathroom.

"Don't eat, I'll take you back first." Wen Shichuan said.

Fu Xingyun resisted the urge to rub his eyes, and muttered, "I can walk by myself."

Wen Shichuan pre-empted the attack, and said to the few people who were still eating there: "You eat, I will send him back first."

"I'm not full yet." Fu Xingyun didn't give up, and wanted those people to keep him.

Meng Qing, who worked carefully, said: "Let me pack something for you, don't be hungry."

"Forget it, don't eat." Fu Xingyun said.

He squinted his eyes still feeling hot, walked out, almost hit the door, Wen Shichuan held his shoulders, opened the door and took him out.The two went down the elevator all the way and stayed beside Wen Shichuan, and Wen Shichuan's hand was still on his shoulder. Although Fu Xingyun didn't want to admit it, he felt extremely safe and closed his eyes again.

Before getting out of the elevator, Wen Shichuan put the overcoat and down jacket on Fu Xingyun on his arms, like treating a child who can't take care of himself, and helped him wrap the scarf around his neck carefully to cover every puff on his neck. a piece of skin.Fu Xingyun raised his head subconsciously, his Adam's apple rolled up and down.

Wen Shichuan lowered his head and rubbed his chin with the tip of his nose.

Fu Xingyun hid uncomfortably, and let Wen Shichuan lead him out of the elevator to the outside.It was very cold outside and the wind was so strong that Fu Xingyun shrank his neck and gave Wen Shichuan the car keys.

"You wait for me here, I'll go and drive the car over."

Fu Xingyun felt that Wen Shichuan let go of his hand, and once the temperature in the palm of his hand disappeared, the heat disappeared quickly.Fu Xingyun hurriedly put his hands back into his pockets, the tip of his nose suddenly felt cold, he stretched out his hand to touch it, it was snowing.He closed his eyes blankly and looked up, feeling a few snowflakes falling on his face, which were quickly melted by his body temperature.

Winter is really here.

Fu Xingyun couldn't help thinking that six years ago, it was also a snowy and cold winter month. He and Wen Shichuan broke up unhappy. It was six years since they parted. He didn't know how or where they would go this time.

After a while, Fu Xingyun heard the sound of a car approaching and parked in front of him. He was about to squint his eyes and walk over when Wen Shichuan got out of the car, led him to the passenger seat, and watched him sit in. , bent over to help him buckle his seat belt.Fu Xingyun sat obediently, closed his eyes and leaned on the car seat, listening to the car start slowly.

It arrived soon, faster than Fu Xingyun expected, and Wen Shichuan didn't drive very fast, he could feel it.

He asked: "Are you at my house? No, so soon?"

Wen Shichuan parked the car neatly, and helped Fu Xingyun unfasten his seat belt: "It's downstairs at my house, why don't you stay alone when you go back like this, don't fall later."

Fu Xingyun was unwilling to get out of the car, and sat on the seat with his arms folded: "I'm not blind. If I can't, I'll take a taxi back by myself. You lock the car for me, and I'll come back and drive it another day."

Wen Shichuan said, "Take a taxi? You can't even open your eyes."

Fu Xingyun pursed his lips, groped to open the door to get out of the car, and barely opened his eyes.When the wind blows, the eyes are still hot, and tears flow down. From the side, the bottom of the pot that Yu Xiangwan bought is indeed very spicy.Fu Xingyun was afraid of the pain, especially the sensitive eyes, so he quickly closed his eyes, raised his hand to wipe his tears, and refused to speak stubbornly.

Wen Shichuan went to pull him, but he made a gesture to shake him off, Wen Shichuan pulled him two or three times, and then he was led away without hesitation.

The road is quiet, it's night, and there are no cars, Fu Xingyun feels that the snow is falling heavily, and it keeps hitting him. On the quiet street, he can hear the sound of falling snow, and his feet are on the ground , also issued a "creak creak" sound.They just held hands and walked one after the other without talking.

After losing his vision, Fu Xingyun felt that all sounds were amplified, he even heard Wen Shichuan's breathing, this moment was so beautiful, he didn't need to think about anything, he just had to close his eyes and follow along, holding hands would last forever will not separate.

Wen Shichuan kept whispering to remind him to pay attention to the stairs, and they slowly climbed up the stairs.On the road, I heard chatting with neighbors passing by. The neighbors obviously saw them holding hands, and also saw Fu Xingyun with his eyes closed.Fu Xingyun didn't even care about what others thought of them, he just focused on walking the stairs seriously, for fear of falling.

Headlines such as "The guy who lives alone is actually gay, holding hands with his disabled lover" flashed through Fu Xingyun's mind.

When he entered the house, the floor heating obviously hadn't been repaired yet. Wen Shichuan turned up the heater, and when the indoor temperature rose, he reached out to help Fu Xingyun take off his coat.When I first wore it, I thought it was nothing. Now that the two of us are at home and there is no one else, the act of undressing seems a bit ambiguous.

Fu Xingyun brushed his hand away, turned his back, and whispered, "I'll do it myself."

I don't know how stubborn Wen Shichuan was. He insisted on helping Fu Xingyun untie his coat and scarf. The more he wanted to untie his coat and scarf, the more Fu Xingyun didn't want him to untie it. Fu Xingyun closed his eyes and arrested Wen Shichuan. The hand that reached out to his chin was about to bite, Wen Shichuan withdrew his hand, and Fu Xingyun knocked his teeth up and down.

Fu Xingyun simply stood up from the sofa, touched the wall, and said, "I'm going to wash my eyes."

Wen Shichuan stood up and pulled him, and said, "I'll take off your coat for you, be good."

Fu Xingyun was agitated by his way of going his own way, and the hot feeling left in his eyes made him feel even more irritable. He shook off Wen Shichuan's hand again, and uttered a crisp "pa "With a sound, both of them fell silent.

For a while, only the sound of the heater blowing out the air could be heard.

Fu Xingyun said: "If you want to find a good guy, go to Chen Xin. You will be his benefactor, and he will promise to be good. He won't dare to go west if you point him to the east."

Fu Xingyun just stood like this, leaning against the wall, with wet tears still on his face, his mouth was reddened by the kiss less than an hour ago, he pursed his lips, and tilted his head slightly.Wen Shichuan was hurt and angry by his words, and he couldn't help but think of Chen Xin trying to get close to him at that time, but he just didn't move, although sometimes, especially when his longing reached the extreme, Chen Xin Xin and Fu Xingyun looked so alike, he wasn't tempted either.

Chen Xin did not know where to find out about Fu Xingyun, and even guessed the story between them. When the bond was tight, Chen Xin confessed to him with all her heart, saying that she would be with him forever.

At that moment, Wen Shichuan became more sober, Fu Xingyun would never be like this.

Chen Xin is a dodder, and Fu Xingyun is also a flower, but he is a flower struggling to grow on the edge of a cliff, a flower full of thorns, and a flower that stretches to the sky with all its strength.This made Wen Shichuan feel unsafe. He was afraid that he would not be able to become the most solid ground under Huahua's feet. Even if he became the earth, Huahua was still striving to yearn for the sky.

Whenever he thought this way, he felt inferior again, and no flower lover should prevent flowers from blooming.

Pain and anger rushed left and right in his chest, and there was a deeper level of tension and fear.He walked over and hugged Fu Xingyun with open arms, like a person who lacks oxygen hugs oxygen tightly, and like a thirsty person hugs a clear spring.Fu Xingyun was furious, pushing him desperately, hugging him as if he was about to fight.

Fu Xingyun was so angry that he was about to bite again, Wen Shichuan blocked his mouth with kisses, Fu Xingyun bit his lip, blood came from the bite, and his mouth smelled of iron rust.Wen Shichuan still refused to let go, Fu Xingyun leaned his back against the wall, with his hand still resting on Wen Shichuan's chest, feeling the beating of the heart under his chest.

Wen Shichuan kept kissing his mouth and chin, and finally untied the scarf, and kissed his neck and Adam's apple.

Fu Xingyun was tortured uncomfortably, and urged: "Hurry up—"

"Say you love me," Wen Shichuan murmured, "Say you love me"

Fu Xingyun choked up from crying, his brain was turned into a mess.He cried, "I love you"

Fu Xingyun slid down the wall and sat on the ground.

It was cold on the ground, Wen Shichuan picked him up and carried him into the bedroom.

They tossed all night, Fu Xingyun was extraordinarily fierce, with his eyes closed, he left many teeth marks on Wen Shichuan's shoulders, and Wen Shichuan's back was full of his scratches.Naturally, Fu Xingyun's body was also covered with hickey marks and bite marks. I didn't know how many tears shed during the sexual intercourse, which was more effective than washing the eyes. When I woke up the next day, the pain in my eyes was gone.

It was the first day of the new year, and the house was dark and quiet.

Fu Xingyun turned over and got off the bed. The heater was on all night, and the floor was warm. Enduring the pain in his body, he picked up the crumpled clothes on the floor, put them on one by one, and walked out of the bedroom lightly.

Before leaving, he faced the half-closed door of the bedroom and said "Happy New Year" in a soft voice.

Wen Shichuan in the room opened his eyes, got up from the bed, and touched the mouse while holding the table to put on his shoes. The screen lit up, and it was still a close-up clip of Fu Xingyun's movie. He has been watching it these days, watching it repeatedly, repeatedly Look, Fu Xingyun is amazingly beautiful in the camera, and there is love in every tear.

Everywhere was very quiet.

Wen Shichuan once again thought that no flower lover should prevent flowers from blooming.

The author says:

a little bit of that