under the rose

Ever since Wen Shichuan could remember, he and his father had been arguing.

As small as what to eat in the morning, lunch and evening, as big as what school to go to, what major to study, what kind of friends to make, and even the aesthetics of art, Xu Wei also asked his son to be infinitely similar to him.

Xu Wei is a conceited and controlling father. This conceit reached its peak after the death of Wen Shichuan's mother, Wen Shuangyan.As Wen Shichuan grew up, the quarrels at home became more intense.Xu Wei couldn't bear his son's challenge to his authority, and Wen Shichuan couldn't bear his father's deprivation of his freedom. Every time he quarreled, the nanny and servant at home would stay away, and no one dared to persuade him.

The most intense quarrel was after Wen Shichuan's college entrance examination.

He wanted to study in a foreign university, but Xu Wei vowed to take him under his wing and ask him to study in a domestic film and television school.That time, Wen Shichuan smashed all the famous antique paintings in Xu Wei's collection, and the two father and son almost fought.In the end, Wen Shichuan packed his bags and went to a domestic university.

After studying in a daze for a year, he dropped out of school, left home completely, went to another city, and met Fu Xingyun, and it was also because of Xu Wei.

At that time, he made his first boyfriend after college, a handsome boy who studied acting at the same school.The boy did not know where he found out about the relationship between Wen Shichuan and Xu Wei, and during the holidays he stalked and said that he would go to Wen Shichuan's house to play.Wen Shichuan was still impatient at first, but with the thought of making Xu Wei angry, he agreed to him later.

At the dinner table, unexpectedly, Xu Wei was not angry. Like a qualified kind and loving father, he asked the two of them about their college life in a persuasive manner. Except for Wen Shichuan's cold face and unwillingness to answer, the atmosphere was joyous.

That night, this ambitious boy from the acting department climbed onto Xu Wei's bed.Xu Wei didn't like the same sex, but he didn't severely criticize him. The boy who didn't succeed thought of it as acquiescence, and understood it as a kind of interest.As if just for fun, Xu Wei immediately cast him in a supporting role in his own movie. For a freshman who is a freshman, this is an incredible resource.

Xu Wei said to Wen Shichuan: "Look, they all have plans for you, only Dad supports you unconditionally. If you like movies, I can give you the best resources. There is no market for the kind of movies you like. You follow my path, and in the end you will have what you want."

Betrayal, outright betrayal.

Although Wen Shichuan didn't have a deep relationship with his little boyfriend, Wen Shichuan still felt betrayed deeply.Xu Wei wants to take away everything around him and replace it with so-called "support" and selfish "love".

Wen Shichuan said: "Did you treat my mother like this back then? Control her, oppress her, force her to death."

Wen Shuangyan was an untouchable topic between their father and son. The two fathers and sons finally fought, and the family was in a mess.That little boy with no acting skills at all was just a flash in the pan, he tasted the sweetness, and then begged Xu Wei to give him resources.Xu Wei neither said good nor bad, just like a hunter playing with his prey.

Wen Shichuan watched coldly from the side, feeling that everything was so funny and frightening.

The game between father and son was like a fierce duel. Wen Shichuan had lost before, but when he left home and the school that Xu Wei arranged for him to study, he felt that he had won completely.Xu Wei arranged troops on the chessboard and tried his best to trap him. He turned the chess table over and walked away with his head held high.

When he left his father's shelter, lived in the unheated basement, and bumped into walls everywhere, he realized that the duel was far from a winner.And this requires more perseverance and a firmer self. It is easy to surrender and admit defeat. As long as he reaches out, he can have the best resources, go to the best school, and use the best actors to make the best-selling movies. But continue to persevere, but don't know when it will reach the end, and even persistence itself may not be right.

Fortunately, he met Fu Xingyun, this unexpected love was a halftime break in the duel.

Fu Xingyun always thought that he had something to rely on, and he could start from scratch as soon as he turned around.But Fu Xingyun didn't understand that it was difficult to start from nothing, but it wasn't easy for him either.

Fortunately, everything gradually got better, but at this moment, Xu Wei came again, just when Wen Shichuan felt that everything was going well.

The career is booming, the artistic aesthetics is recognized, the lover is reunited, and there is a co-production team around him.He felt that he was about to win, and Xu Wei came again, reaping his success and snatching away everyone around him.If this continues, some people will always find that the rave reviews that come with the new movie are tricky. As long as one person finds out the father-son relationship between him and Xu Wei, everyone will know, and then all his achievements will be reaped by Xu Wei.

He will change from "Wen Shichuan" to "Xu Wei's son", which is the "title" he has been trying to get rid of for more than 20 years in his life.

Yu Xiangwan is different from Fu Xingyun. Even if Yu Xiangwan leaves, he can find better screenwriters, better actresses, and he can create scripts himself.

This is not the same.

Fu Xingyun understood his story, but couldn't agree with his logic.

"I don't understand," Fu Xingyun said blankly, "If I acted in Director Xu's movie, he and I are just the director and the actor. Unless he wants to deliberately smash the signboard of his own movie, he will do whatever he wants." Come here to trip me up on purpose. Other than that, I don’t know what else I should be on guard against.”

Wen Shichuan said: "You think too simply"

Fu Xingyun couldn't accept that Wen Shichuan treated him like an ignorant child, he raised his voice over Wen Shichuan's words, and stared straight into Wen Shichuan's eyes: "Do you think I will do it for more Do you have the resources to flatter and curry favor with your father? Like that little boy who betrayed you back then?"

Wen Shichuan irritably denied, "That's not what I meant."

"Then it's over?" Fu Xingyun said, "Now you're like a kid scrambling for toys, so what's the difference between you and your dad?"

Fu Xingyun's words brought silence.

Wen Shichuan's whole body turned cold, and he said, "You promised me."

"Promise what?" Fu Xingyun asked.

"You said you would never leave me again, and you promised."

Fu Xingyun had completely forgotten what he was thinking when he was talking to Xu Wei, and he had also completely forgotten that he had no intention of agreeing immediately. The excitement made his eyes seem to have flames flickering, and his words were almost shouted out. .

"Then have you thought about it for me? This is an opportunity that many people can't ask for. What a precious opportunity. Your movie is a big success, are you going to tie me by your side forever?"

"It's our movie." Wen Shichuan said in a deep voice.

He said it lightly, but Fu Xingyun felt uncomfortable when he heard it. Before he could answer, Wen Shichuan continued: "You still haven't changed."

This sentence stabbed Fu Xingyun severely, and he was furious: "You haven't changed. You are arrogant, arrogant, and self-righteous. You think you are always right, and everything I do is wrong. I am I want to be popular, I am vain. We have not reunited, who are you to me? What standpoint do you use to ask me—”

"I do not have!"

Wen Shichuan roared.

Fu Xingyun noticed that his eye sockets were red. This was the first and only time that during the quarrel between the two, Fu Xingyun was not the one who cried first.Tears are a sign of weakness, Fu Xingyun feels that he has grown up, but he doesn't feel happy at all.

The porch was once again surrounded by silence. For a while, only the sound of heavy breathing could be heard in the silent space. They all stared at each other, clenched their teeth, insisting on deciding whether to win or lose.

Fu Xingyun said coldly: "Go back, I want to rest."

Wen Shichuan didn't say another word, turned around and went out. Before leaving, he took off his wrist watch and put it on the shoe cabinet in the entrance.It was a birthday present given to him by Fu Xingyun a few days ago. On the dial were bright stars and moons. The second hand was constantly turning, and the "tick tick" sound represented the flow of time.

It seemed to be mocking them—even after all this time, they still hadn't grown in love.

Fu Xingyun tried his best to keep calm, but his chest kept rising and falling, his head was buzzing, and he couldn't think calmly at all.He watched Wen Shichuan put down his watch, opened the door and left without looking back.He was so angry that he grabbed the watch and threw it towards Wen Shichuan's back.

Missing the throw, the watch grazed Wen Shichuan's shoulder, slammed heavily on the wall, and then fell to the ground with such a loud sound, the glass on the dial must have shattered.

Wen Shichuan's footsteps stopped, and Fu Xingyun closed the door before he shed tears.

It was already dark, and the house was dark with no lights turned on, except for a dim yellow overhead light at the entrance.Fu Xingyun stood there quietly for a while, sniffed, and raised his hand to wipe away all the tears.As soon as he turned around, he saw a neat table of dishes on the dining table, which was completely cold.

He could see through the peephole at the door that Wen Shichuan was no longer outside, and the watch was gone, and he didn't know if Wen Shichuan had picked it up.

Or just throw it away - Fu Xingyun thought coldly.

He walked to the dining table, originally he reluctantly ate some in the idea of ​​not wasting it.But his stomach seemed to be stuffed with heavy stones, which blocked up to his throat, making him unable to eat.He simply took all the meals to the kitchen and dumped them all into the trash can.

In the past few days, the family has become more popular than ever, and there are even traces of Wen Shichuan's life in the bathroom, bedroom and study.Fu Xingyun went around the house, found all these things, and threw them into the trash can.

After doing all this, Fu Xingyun felt that he was exhausted.

He washed hastily, got into the bed, wrapped himself in the quilt, he didn't want to think about anything, his mind was "buzzing", as if there were countless villains arguing.When he fell asleep, he didn't know at all. When he woke up, it was as if he had never slept. The pillow was all wet, and he didn't know whether it was sweat or tears.

The author says:

Again!You can scold the character, but not the author! (bow

*The part about the duel between father and son was inspired by Jia Pingwa's poem "Two Generations" (if I remember correctly)

Some descriptions of the relationship between father and son in this poem are particularly interesting