Xue Mu is very sad

After Su Wei left, Bi Chang was depressed for more than a month. Seeing that he was either dumbfounded or sighing all day long, Xue Mu felt that he needed to find some sustenance for him, so he introduced him to a private school in the city as a teacher, teaching some young children to read and write. .

There is nothing wrong with Xue Mu's dead horse as a living horse doctor, so there is an extra gentleman in the private school who looks like he has nothing to love.Some children's parents heard that the husband was the champion brother, and brought chickens, ducks and corn to visit, hoping that he would take care of their ineffective puppies.According to the rumors, Bi Hanlin was handsome, so the younger brother of the number one scholar must not be weak.But when I entered the private school, I saw the children playing around endlessly. A young man in green shirt sat on top of him. .Therefore, in order to give their puppy a face, the parents specially prepared the polite sentence "Mr. is a talented person, with extraordinary literary talent, and I have admired him for a long time!"

Xue Mu heard some news from the headmaster, and was invited to visit the private school in person.

I saw Bi Chang sitting beside the desk, with a book in one hand and a pen holder in the other.Facing the pen container, he said quietly: "This feeling can be regarded as a memory, but it was already at a loss at that time."

The boys under the seat also imitated Mr., with a book in one hand and a pen holder in one hand, grinning with missing teeth, shaking their heads at the pen holder and saying: "This feeling can be treated as a memory, but at that time I was at a loss—"

Xue Mudun felt terrible.

Turning around, I invited the dean to have a meal at the restaurant in the city, and gave him some gifts to let him take more care of him.

Xue Mu originally wanted to find a free time to have a long talk with Bi Chang, but the guard in the bureau suffered a stroke the night before, so he stepped up temporarily, greeted Bi Chang and left.This time the dart took a long line, and it took three months to bet, and it was already late autumn when I came back.

Bi Chang cleaned up a table of good wine and good food to welcome him, Xue Mu saw that he spoke with a smile, and he was in good spirits, thinking that he had recovered from the emotional pain.Xue Mu was happy for him, the two drank a bottle of wine every month, you came and went, drank two large jars, Xue Mu always drank heavily and ate meat, Bi Chang tried to persuade him again, and immediately filled the glass for him when it was empty On the morning, most of the two jars of wine entered his stomach, Xue Mu was so drunk that he passed out after drinking.

On the second day, he woke up at noon, his head was throbbing and hurting after a hangover, Xue Mu rubbed his forehead, saw him on his couch, thinking that Bi Chang sent him back to his room.

Lifting the quilt off the bed, a male voice came from behind, Xue Mu looked back, Bi Chang was lying on the inside, looking at him with a smile, "Don't you want to sleep a little longer?"

Xue Mu's scalp exploded immediately.

After a few perfunctory words, he went to the latrine, checked the whole body, and found no signs of inappropriateness, so he was relieved.

But since then, Bi Chang has not been quite right.

When he got up early in the morning, Bi Chang would bring him tea, rinse his mouth, bring water to wash his face, serve him a hot breakfast, and then look at him with a smile, take a bite of steamed buns, look at him, take another bite of steamed buns, and look at him again.

Xue Mu was taken aback, so he dealt with it a little bit and hid in the escort bureau to be on duty.

Returning on the moon at night, Bi Chang smiled and brought him hot water from the bathtub, took the robe he had taken off and hung it on the rack, and then stood by the bucket to rub his back for him.

Xue Mu drove people away, but Bi Chang was quite reluctant, and reluctantly turned his head several times before leaving.

Xue Muxin said that you are not afraid of twisting your neck.

From then on, Xue Mu took root in the bodyguard bureau, went out every day before dawn, and only returned at the middle of the month, using the name of duty to avoid reality.

In the end, I cleaned out the small room I used to live in, put some pillows and bedding, and didn't go home at all.The Chief Escort was moved by his diligence and professionalism, gave him extra money, patted him on the shoulder and praised him for his boundless future, Xue Mu giggled, feeling quite guilty when he heard it.

Bi often sees that Xue Mu always doesn't return home, and goes directly to the bodyguard bureau.

Bi Chang made him stewed chicken with small mushrooms and put it in a small casserole.Xue Mu euphemistically said that the food in the escort agency is very good and there is no need to deliver it.Bi Chang was not angry, and served him a bowl with a smile.Reaching out his hand not to hit the smiling face, Xue Mu bit the bullet and took two sips without tasting anything.

Xue Mu didn't go home, and Bi Chang didn't urge him, he just ran to the escort office when it was cold, and brought him quilts and robes when it was cold, and brought him hot drinks and vegetables when he had meals.Xue Mu had something on his mind, and he couldn't swallow the fine nectar, so it was cheaper than the bodyguard on duty. The bodyguard praised Bi Chang as more virtuous than his own wife, and asked Xue Mu to marry him as a joke. Bi Chang narrowed his eyes when he heard that, so Xue Mu couldn't eat anymore.

One day Xue Mu was taking a nap in the small room of the bodyguard bureau, and the bodyguard who was on duty with him poked his head and shouted with a smile: "Xue Mu, your wife is here."

Xue Mu had black lines all over his hair. It wasn't long before Bi Chang walked in with a bag.

Go in and sit down, push the bag in front of him and let him open it.Xue Mu opened the fur skin with a scalp, and the golden light inside blinded his eyes.

Eight gold bars are stacked to form a tower. Xue Mu looked at the gold bars, then at Bi Chang, at Bi Chang, and at the gold bars, and finally his eyes rested on Bi Chang's face, staring at him with the corners of his mouth twitching, brother, what are you doing? What do you mean?

Bi Chang pushed the gold bar in front of Xue Mu, and looked at him eagerly. Xue Mu was furious, coughed, and asked, "Brother Bi, are you entrusting me to guard the bodyguard?"

Bi Chang shook his head, then pushed the gold bar towards Xue Mu, "Call me Ah Chang."

Xue Mu: "..."

Bi Chang: "I see that you are on duty in the security agency all day long. I think it's because there is more me in the family, so the expenses are more, and that's why you work so hard. This was... sent to me last time. Now we are a family. You Let’s use it to meet daily expenses.”

Xue Mu refused with a haha, Bi Chang pushed back and forth with him a few times, seeing his resolute face, he stopped pushing.It's just that they came more often after that, the guards in the escort agency winked at Xue Mu and laughed strangely when he saw him coming.Xue Mu's scalp was numb from the laughter, and he looked unlovable all day long, which seemed to be enough for the few days when Bi Chang first came here.

It's not that Xue Mu doesn't know what Bi Chang means.

Although he had made up his mind early on that he would die alone, but in his heart, he actually hoped that he would be lucky enough to meet a sincere person.It's just that this person is Bi Chang, so there is always a little bit of irritability.Bi Chang had Su Wei hidden in his heart, he knew about it, and Bi Chang also knew that he knew, but he pretended not to know, and Bi Chang also pretended not to know that he knew.

Although Bi Chang is no longer sad and sighing all day long, he still keeps the pen holder in the cabinet, and takes it out to have a look at it from time to time. When he looks at the pen holder, he is not the smiling Bi Chang Yes, those eyes seem to be empty, but also seem to contain a whole piece of sea.

Although Bi Chang was reminiscing behind Xue Mu's back, but at this moment, he was too involved, as if he had fallen into a dream, and even the collapse of Mount Tai could not wake him up.

So Xue Mu happened to see it a few times.

Bi Chang just sat so quietly, looking at the pen holder, neither crying nor showing any sadness, but Xue Mu felt his nose turn sour when he saw it, as if he was also infected by his emotions. Blind date, once the sea was too difficult for water, it is really embarrassing.

So Xue Mu couldn't accept him even more.

With Bi Chang's deep-rooted description, Xue Mu felt that it would be impossible for him to let go of the past in his lifetime.What Xue Mu yearns for is a couple from one generation to the next, if he accepts Bi Chang, there will be Su Wei between the couple for a long time, making it like a family of three, and they will not be afraid to change anyone.Xue Mu felt that Bi Chang had a good personality and a good appearance, and he was quite pleasing to him because he was knowledgeable and knowledgeable.

But that's about it.To put it bluntly, this liking is similar to that of friendship.If you have to explain it in depth, it's really not to the point where you are willing to accept this situation.But apart from Su Wei's incident, Bi Chang really has nothing to say to him elsewhere, so Xue Mu can't do evil things to drive people away.

He thought it over and over again, and finally came up with a next plan, procrastinating.

Bi Chang expressed that he was acting stupid, but Bi Chang hinted that he was acting dumb.When Bi Chang went to the Escort, he took over the job and went out to the Escort for a month or two.In short, if it dragged on until Bi Chang stopped thinking about him, the matter would be considered a successful conclusion.

Xue Mu had a pretty good idea, but he never expected that if Bi Chang was second, no one would dare to be the first.Bi Chang didn't say anything, and he didn't force him. In short, he just boiled the frog in warm water to moisten things silently.When Xue Mu washes his feet, he brings water, when Xue Mu cooks, he chops firewood, when Xue Mu goes east, he does not go west, when Xue Mu cooks soup, he asks to put three spoonfuls of salt, but he never puts two and a half spoonfuls.When Xue Mu hid in the escort agency, he carried the basket to deliver porridge. When Xue Mu went out to escort the escort, he stayed in the cold kiln like a staunch little wife. From the heavy snow to the fragrance of osmanthus, Xue Mu really lost his temper.

Gradually, he began to waver. Could it be that he was picky?Or just let it go, he doesn't love himself that much, and he doesn't love him that much, but the two of them live together, and they feel quite harmonious.Bi Chang begged Su Wei but couldn't get it, so he retreated and begged himself to be second, it seems that it is not so unreasonable.If you can't get your favorite, should you stay a widow for the rest of your life?Is it human nature to want to find someone who is similar to love?

Once the tight string is relaxed, it is easy to be taken advantage of.

Several times when returning home at night, seeing the warm yellow light in the house, the warm food on the kitchen stove, and the hot bath water delivered to the room when he was covered in dust, Xue Mu almost surrendered.Xue Mu is an orphan, although Xue Yan treats him like a son, but the master is careless and has a bad temper, so Xue Mu has never felt such a warm and silent waiting.But every time when Bi Chang was just a little bit behind, there would always be a very reasonable question in his mind. If Bi Chang used this thought and tenacity on Su Wei, it might not be impossible for Su Wei to let Su Wei go. The young master changed his mind, what did he want to spend so much time with himself?

What do you want to ask Bi Changtu?Bi Chang could barely say one, two, three.

That person is his bones and blood, his silence, his eternal night.That person should ascend to the Nine Heavens Tower, be among the immortals, be enshrined in history, and be immortalized forever.He would rather be reduced to mud, his body would be smashed to pieces, he would be doomed, he would be heartbroken, he just didn't want that person to be a little bit reluctant.

But he wandered around like a lonely ghost all day long, he felt panicked from the cold, and wanted to find something to cling to.Xue Mu was willing to take him in, but he was unwilling to let him go.He knows that he is selfish and unkind, but he is lonely and afraid, he has to find some sustenance, Xue Mu is his sustenance, Xue Mu can't leave.The more he feels sorry for Xue Mu, the better he treats him.Xue Mu's heart was very soft, the better he was to Xue Mu, the more Xue Mu couldn't get rid of him.

Sometimes he is even a little confident, he is the second best, isn't Xue Mu?If there is no true love, there is a similar love, and that's all right.To Xue Mu, he was nothing more than a big difference.Some people would rather lack than abuse, would rather break than bend, and would rather break jade than make it whole, but he is not such a person, and neither is Xue Mu.After all, Xue Mu is the same kind of person as him.It's just that Xue Mu is still alive and well without him, and he can only be a walking dead without Xue Mu, so Xue Mu can't leave.

Xue Mu wants to have a clear-cut barrier with him, but he just wants to mix things up, and the more things get mixed up, the better.

The opportunity came soon.

He felt Xue Mu's shaking in those days, and he remained calm.In late autumn, Xue Mu took another escort trip, and when he came back, he was full of travel and dust, and Bi Chang cleaned up a table of delicious dishes to welcome him.Xue Mu is not a person who can harden his heart. In addition, when he went out, he opened up a lot, so he didn't care much about the details, so he didn't care about him.

The moonlight was bright and clear that night, and the sweet scent of sweet-scented osmanthus floated in the air.In the alley outside the courtyard, there were sounds of children chasing and fighting, and a few dogs barking occasionally.The two exchanged glasses, and Xue Mu told him some interesting stories on the way. He listened with a smile, and sometimes refilled Xue Mu's wine.Later, he also drank too much, choked on the wine, and almost coughed out his lungs. The extremely cold feeling spread from his heart to the surroundings. He held Xue Mu's hand pitifully, and asked hopefully, "You Would you like to be with me every year?"

Hesitation flashed in Xue Mu's eyes, Bi Chang's hands trembled from the cold, and he held Xue Mu's wrist tightly, absorbing the warmth. Seeing Xue Mu looking at him with a trace of pity, he finally nodded.

Bi Chang felt his blood heat up. He felt Xue Mu's warm skin, and thought to himself, he hoped that Xue Mu would never, never meet his true love.

Never.