sunk into the earth

Cheng Sheng found Zhang Chen beside a row of landscape trees at the intersection. At that time, he was leaning on the tree to communicate with a big-eyed Bigger. Beat the rhythm of the dog barking on the rough bark.

The whole picture looks strange, an angry man in a sports suit beats the rhythm on the bark to the accompaniment of an even more angry beagle.

Cheng Sheng went to chase the old Bigger away, took its place, sat down on the curb, and looked up at Zhang Chen.

It was getting dark.The two of them looked at each other for a long time in the transition of light and dark, but Cheng Sheng couldn't hold back and asked Zhang Chen above, "Do you remember me?"

Zhang Chen said: "Yes." But after thinking about it for a few seconds, he re-said: "I actually don't remember what he looks like."

This time Cheng Sheng was not angry, and kept looking up at him, and said, "Me too, I almost didn't recognize you last time at Lao Qin's Bar, you have changed too much, I didn't expect you to be dressed so young now , like a star, on the contrary, it makes me very mature."

After he finished speaking, he suddenly remembered something, then raised his finger to point at his face, and asked, "Have I changed a lot too?"

It was completely dark, and the light from nearby street lamps shone on Cheng Sheng's upturned face. Zhang Chen looked at Cheng Sheng from his forehead to his chin carefully. Randomly took out a box of cigarettes, lit it, and said in the choking smoke after a moment of silence: "I don't remember what you looked like before, how do you compare?"

A few gusts of wind blew the smoke to Cheng Sheng's side, and he coughed violently due to choking. He lowered his head and patted his chest for a while, then whispered, "Just now Haiyan said..."

"You don't have to take her words seriously." Zhang Chen interrupted him suddenly, "She likes to tease others the most, lest the world will not be chaotic."

Cheng Sheng clapped his hands on his trousers, and after a long "oh", he said, "You are colder now than you were when you were a child. You always looked unhappy before, but at least you can still warm your heart. Looking at it now, it's really cool." It's easy to get along with, my heart is much colder than before, and you will extinguish the fire even if it is lit on you."

Zhang Chen was still smoking and didn't speak.

Cheng Sheng added: "After seeing you in the bar last time, I went back and listened to every album your band released. The first one was a bit human, conveying confusion and pain, I can understand it. After listening to it, I found out that I no longer know you, I can’t imagine that the songs you wrote are so cold, people who don’t know you think you are living in an ice cellar.”

Zhang Chen lowered his head and smiled, turned his head to look at Cheng Sheng's side face, and said casually, "Then you still send me text messages with unknown meanings, are you afraid of being frozen to death?"

"I'm cheap." Cheng Sheng smiled self-deprecatingly, "I just like to post slyly, and then do some crazy moves to attract your attention. After you notice me, I will let go of the seduction. Didn't you already know that? gone?"

Zhang Chen next to him thought about the past, lowered his eyes and said, "You are normal now, you are not crazy at all, your family background, education and work experience are all good, and you are also a good-looking talent, and you look at the scenery."

Cheng Sheng sat on the curb, with his elbows resting on his legs, still lowering his head and laughing mockingly at himself: "I'm still so beautiful? I'm obviously like a lost dog. You know, after I return from Yuncheng, I always feel that I'm It's a sinner, not only me, but sometimes I even feel that our whole family is a sinner. Once I buy some expensive things, I will think of the ruined city with nothing, think of those laid-off workers, and think of you coming to my grandma's house after repairing things. My grandma handed you a few or a dozen dollars. I dare not take a car or go to a restaurant in the United States, and I dare not ask my dad for money. I feel like I am committing a crime when I change a computer to buy a dress. Nearby companies come to our school There is a job fair, and I go to other people's places to eat and drink, and when I look at the clean venue, I still think, am I having a good time? Do you not even have a meal here?"

Zhang Chen also lowered his head, not knowing what he was thinking, and when Cheng Sheng thought he would not speak again, Zhang Chen sighed, "It's really not like you."

"Then what was I like before? I even forgot what I was like before."

Zhang Chen seemed very interested in this question. He took a few last puffs of cigarettes, got up and threw the cigarette butts into a nearby trash can, and came back to stand next to Cheng Sheng, watching the sporadic speeding cars in front of him sinking into his distant memories. Thinking about it, there was even a smile on the corner of his mouth. "A very lively and lovely person. He does things as he pleases and distinguishes between love and hate. Sometimes he is annoying, sometimes absurd, and sometimes he is likable."

Cheng Sheng was still sitting on the curb, and he couldn't believe it when he heard this suddenly, but he quickly understood what he said, and he choked up: "So what Haiyan said is true, I hate the childish and rude things in the past so much. Reasonable self, but you like it, right? I’m now a lifeless ordinary person, don’t you like it? You just like people who are crazy about you and are full of flaws, don’t you?”

Zhang Chen was silent for a long time, facing the chilly night wind, he said: "I just miss him very much."

This time Cheng Sheng stopped talking, snatched Zhang Chen's cigarette case and lighter from Zhang Chen, and smoked almost half of the pack without stopping.

They blew the night wind on the side of the road for a long time, and the hair of both of them was messed up.Zhang Chen was still standing next to Cheng Sheng, with his arms hanging down, and his fingers touched his hair and ears from time to time. He couldn't hold back a few times, and touched Cheng Sheng's furry hair with his hand, and then moved down to touch it. Touched his now bare earlobe.

After a while, Cheng Sheng suddenly reached out to grab the arm beside him, raised his head, and asked casually, "Where is your home? I don't want to go home at night, I want to go directly to your home."

"I don't go home, I've been sleeping in the recording studio."

Cheng Sheng knew it was a refusal, so he still didn't let go, took his hand and continued to ask, "Then where is your recording studio? I'll go back with you."

Zhang Chen looked down at him, "Can't you do this?"

But Cheng Sheng ignored his words and said stubbornly: "Tell me, I will bring my own things to door-to-door service, and I will drive back to my home after the end. No one will know our relationship. You don't have to worry about anything, just enjoy it." .”

He took Zhang Chen's hand, and wanted to say something to increase his stake, but suddenly there was a rush of beeping in the quiet night. Cheng Sheng looked up and found Haiyan standing across the road with two bags on her shoulders. A man bag, shouting anxiously to the opposite side: "You guys have been out for almost an hour! It's almost dark! I couldn't stand the wait so I checked out early and came out to find you."

She couldn't see, so she waved the bag in the direction of the sound based on feeling, and then shouted loudly: "Zhang Chen, pay with the money in your wallet! Treat the future boss to porridge, it's so shabby!"

Zhang Chen pulled Cheng Sheng up from the ground, patted the dust on his pants, but did not answer the question just now.

On the way back, Zhang Chen drove in front, and Cheng Sheng and Haiyan squeezed in the back seat.The two kept whispering and whispering, but in fact only Haiyan was talking. She took Cheng Sheng's hand and whispered in his ear, "Forget it, you don't want to talk to him, that person Zhang Chen doesn't know how Lover, whoever loves him will be unlucky." She made an exaggerated gesture and said: "He was an ordinary stone when he was a child, but now he is graphene!"

Cheng Sheng was a little annoyed, but he let her carry her and whispered, "Then why are you saying those things at the dinner table?"

"I want to try it, maybe isn't it?" Haiyan felt aggrieved, "But it doesn't seem to work now."

"Aren't you invisible? How can you tell if it's okay?" Cheng Sheng suddenly thought of something again, holding his breath and asked, "How do you know us?"

Haiyan snorted, and said in a tone that you don't understand: "Don't look at me as blind, but I can feel everything. Blind people are very sensitive. Because the eyes can't see, other senses are superior. And Zhang Shen is very obvious, can't you see it?"

Speaking of this, she pouted her mouth and thought for a while, and said to herself: "But it's true, he doesn't even understand himself, how can he expect you to understand?"

Soon the car drove to the downstairs of Haiyan's house. The neighborhood looked like a village in the city. There were rows of dilapidated houses with paint peeling in front of it, and the road was so narrow that only one car could pass.Zhang Chen parked the car at the door of the unit building, and when he got off the car, he said to Haiyan in the back seat: "I will pick you up at [-]:[-] next Saturday morning, don't forget."

Haiyan responded, turned her head and nestled on Cheng Sheng's shoulder, and whispered to him: "Mother Zhang Chen's memorial day is coming soon, we have to go back to Yuncheng every year at this time, do you want to come?"

Cheng Sheng shivered in the cold wind of the air conditioner. This incident has always been a thorn in his heart. He always subconsciously attributed Li Xiaoyun's death to himself and his grandma. When he heard that he wanted to escape, he rejected Haiyan's words : "I won't go, the company has a lot of things to do, so I can't leave."

Haiyan seemed a little disappointed, but she didn't try to persuade her any more. She reached out and picked up the crutch beside the car, and got out of the car little by little according to her own feeling.Her mood changed very quickly, and she digested the disappointment within a few seconds. After getting out of the car, she turned her head happily, said a loud goodbye to the two people in the car with low air pressure, and then walked step by step with a cane Go to a building.

Cheng Sheng moved the co-pilot from the back seat, leaned on the back of the seat and looked at Haiyan's back with a cane, and said to himself, "Why is she so happy without eyes?"

After sending Haiyan away, they drove eastward all the way. Cheng Sheng thought it was heading towards Zhang Chen's recording studio, and thought that something was going to happen to them tonight, so when they passed by a supermarket, they suddenly said, "Stop, I'll go Buy what we'll use tonight."

But Zhang Chen suddenly made a left turn, took a small road and drove for a few minutes, stopped at the gate of a community, did not look at him, but said to him: "Your community is here, get out of the car."

Cheng Sheng froze on the passenger seat and didn't even turn his head.When the extreme disappointment just now was finally suppressed, he endured the soreness in his heart and asked the people next to him in a calm tone: "Are you going back to Yuncheng next weekend? Has Yuncheng changed like Beijing?"

Zhang Chen said: "It has become more, you probably won't recognize it."

Cheng Sheng said "Oh", and slowly opened the car door, but he didn't move. He still wanted to know something, and continued to ask: "What about your house? How about the park where we always go to secretly kiss at night?"

Zhang Chen turned off the ignition this time, leaned on the driver's seat and let it go, and finally said after a while: "I have no home, and the park is gone, all have been demolished."